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A lot of my work focuses on depression and self harm, however I would like to express topics like SA abusive relationships, addiction and other things I've struggled with in my life.

My problem is I don't know how to properly express the feeling of these experiences. I require explain for what is okay and not okay to do especially in sensitive topics

1. I remember things that I completely forgot happen because it was overshadowed

2. I wonder why anyone tolerated me, like I was a genuine asshole to people who don't deserve it.

This my 2nd panic attack of the day, and 6th this week yippee

On top of that I had a 2 super bad relapses today, yay guys!!

Ironically this is the best tech week I've ever had.

I think starr is my favorite example of this. When I first wrote starr a couple years ago she was almost a completely different character and the thing that changed her for me was her hair. Originally she had long black braided hair, I wanted her hair to make sense ethnically and braid was the thing I saw the most for dark skin characters but for some reason it just didn't seem to fit and the entire story felt off. So I went back to starr to see what I could change. The first thing I messed with was the hair, I went through various styles and eventually for color. At the time (and even now) i was basing her off of sirens and mermaids specifically in Haiti, (because of that she was originally supposed to be Haitian but as I changed her more and more it made more sense to put her into some land locked for the purposes of her story.) And from most encounter stories I've heard sirens tend to be darker skinned with lighter and extremely long skily hair (despite what people believe it makes sense scientifically as it would help the blend in under water). And upon realizing this I turned starr into a blonde with silky hair.