Important note for Rains protection: we aren't comfortable with the system's identity being public knowledge; all names on this list are pseudonyms.
β¨The Main 5 of the System Are:
Rain - They/them, Host/Core and Primary Caretaker π
Rain is the only human in the system and the core part in charge with living day-to-day life. Most of the blogging is done by Rain. If a post isn't signed by any other alter, that means Rain wrote it.
Scythe is a vampire who fucking hates vampries. Their primary emotion is RAGE and they're often the one who's angry when Rain can't be. Being one of Rain's best friends, Scythe is always ready to go knife-tornado on any threat, but if you've earned their trust, you're as good as family!
Torch - he/him, Secondary Protector, Bi π₯
Torch is a half-demon of fire, who is a voice of reason. A lot of people in the system call him a "chronic older brother" as he acts like a big brother to most people. He is usually a good middle-ground between Scythe and Poison, able to help out in situations where the others don't quite fit the mold. Though he is usually shy and mellow-tempered, if he gets angry, he becomes a real inferno.
Poison - he/him, Primary Sexual Protector + Gatekeeper, Bi β€οΈ
Poison is a vampire who is Rain's ultimate sexual fantasy; he is in charge of giving Rain the greatest of pleasures. Apart from this side job, Poison is one of Rain's main protectors and is very comfortable in social situations.
Peppy - she/her, Romantic/Sexual Protector, Bi πΈ
Peppy is a werewolf who can take the form of a werewolf, doglike wolf, or a woman! (Though she's an adult, she often prefers to call herself "girl"). As the name might suggest, she's really peppy and girly and wishes Rain would go on dates more often! Doesn't matter who! Similar to Torch, she's usually really kind and happy, but if someone makes her angry she's not afraid to show her canines.
The rest will go under a Readmore; both because this post would be way too long, but also because we'll eventually talk about the Persecutors of the system and none of Rain's main Protectors are comfortable with the Persecutors being in the main part of this post.
Flower is a chaos-fey who's just here for the chaos! Flower will often want to front in crowded areas (like malls), but Rain doesn't always let him~ He just wants to have fun, be seen and get SHOWERED with attention! He also loves being on stage ;)
Cold - he/it, Emotional Protector, without sexuality.
Cold is the ghost of a young man. He feels no emotion, and is tasked with fronting to protect Rain from being overwhelmed by their own or others emotions. In the inner world, he is often found in Void's domain.
Void - He/Him, Emotional Protector
Void is death. He is not a threat. He is not an omen. He simply is... death. As Rain has had a significant amount of fear of death and thoughts of dying, Void manifested as a personification of these thoughts. He does not bring the death of Rain β he is here to keep Rain alive. He simply is death, and though Rain fears dying, they do not fear Void.
Iris - she/her, Sexual Protector/Caretaker, bi.
Iris is an older vampire and a witch who takes a more mature role than most other alters in the system. She is also a very spiritual person with the wisdom of her long life. Though she is often firm and mellow when she is present with a job to do -- and ready to bring the wraith of her powers upon any man who dares do Rain any harm -- if there is no threat or problem that needs to be solved, she can let go and be a lot more easy-going and fun; she is especially a friend of Peppy.
Night β they/we. Sexual Protector/ Caretaker, fluid.
Night looks like an ethereal night sky vaguely in the shape of a person. They can make other alters sleep in the inner world and usually isn't comfortable anywhere but in a dark room, lying in a bed or on a couch.
Kitsune - it/he, Protector, bi.
Kitsune is a fox-spirit who guides Rain -- both physically and spiritually. When it is in its fox-form, it is the pale-blue spirit of a proud, but playful fox. When he is in his humanoid form, he is a pale, elegant noble with fox-features. He most often shows up when Rain is walking in nature, or in the night.
Bomb - she/her, Protector, Bi
Bomb is a tall, strong firedemon whose just here for a good time. She wants to make sure Rain is safe, havin' fun, doin' alright, and is always ready to smoke a cig and kick some ass!
Butch - she/her, Protector, Lesbian
Butch is a big, tall, dyke of a half-orc who's here to kick some ass and just have fun. They're also willing to go the more unhinged route of protecting Rain from internal threats.
Harlekin - it/all pronouns, Sexual Protector, all sexualities!
Harlekin is a chaos-fey and a shapeshifter from the depths of Rain's mind, hidden away until Perceiver showed it the way out. Since it first showed up, Harlekin has been compared to Flower: a dark mirror to a fellow chaos-fey.
Songbird - He/They/It - Sexual Protector, Any sexuality~
Songbird is an Archfey with the features of a colorful bird: bright hues of blue and orange. He is also a bit of an eldritch horror in the genitalia area~ He doesn't want Rain to know much about him yet, but he is a friend and powerful enough to be threat to most things that can protect Rain. Unfortunately, he is also a very busy man.
Primal - he/it, Sexual Protector, beyond any words for human sexuality.
Primal is an eldritch-horror who sometimes takes form of a werewolf-like monster, sometimes a man-like beast. In its werewolf-like state you cannot communicate with it, in his man-like form he can be reasoned with. Both are the same being.
River - he/it, Sexual Protector, bi
River is a water dragon who has protected Rain in the water.
Volcano - He/it, Sexual Protector (Possibly Persecutor), Straight.
Volcano is a fire dragon who is dominant.
Forest - he/it, persecutor
Forest is a mischievous little thing. It rarely shows up, and when it does itβs usually to distract, misdirect, divert or otherwise waste Rainβs time.
Ice is an ice-dragon from another world. He doesn't understand what Rain is saying when they claim this world is real and his own world is fake. It is the world he has always lived in; Rain and their life feels like nothing but a dream. Rain doesn't yet know if Ice is a Protector or a Persecutor.
Sovereign is a vampire King who wants to take care of Rain.
Perceiver - he/it, Persecutor
Perceiver is an Archfey whose role is to research, analyze, and understand everything β especially Rain. Perceiver loves to play mind games to the extreme with Rain, just to see how they'll react to it.
Chain he/him, Persecutor/Sexual Protector, bi
Chain is a suave vampire Lord who loves control above all else. He has intimate relationships with several alters in the system, but Rain keeps him at a very firm arms length.
Depths - he/it, Romantic Protector/Persecutor, beyond any words for human sexuality.
Depths is a deep-sea Archfey and an eldritch-horror who loves Rain and wants to keep them safe. He is naturally predisposed to analyze and see the big picture of situations, but his feelings for Rain makes him prioritize them, their safety and their wishes above most things. jealous and unstable to the point of kidnapping and torturing alters to get his way. He has been here longer than most who are currently in the system, though Rain only remembers the broad strokes of who he used to be.
Maestro - It/him. Persecutor/Emotional Protector. needs no human word for sexuality.
Maestro is The Ringmaster, The Conductor, The Master of Strings. He loves to tamper with Rain's will β Rain wasn't even going to let him speak his own entry, but that changed soon enough, didn't it? All he wants is to put on a performance and make Rain dance to the pull of his strings.
Poet - he/him, Persecutor/Sexual Protector, bi
Poet is a vampire who is charming, seductive and elegant. His favorite hobby is reading and creating poetry while drinking a glass of red on a moonlit balcony, while some pretty thing is sitting in his lap.
Hands - he/it, Persecutor
Not much is known about Hands currently, other than the fact that it serves Maestro.
Shadows - he/it, Persecutor
Shadows is a young man who is also a black dragon. He wants to wreck havoc within the system, but does also hold a distinct respect for Rain.
Thrash - he/it, Persecutor
Thrash is a monstrous vampire and not a fronting-alter: this body is not like his at all; the limbs are far too short, the face far too pretty. He is a persecutor who stalks, attacks, tears and shreds everything and everyone around him, but Rain has been able to talk him down to a more docile state.
Silver - he/it, Persecutor
Silver is an assassin who lives in the mists and is ready to cut down any tyrant who threatens the system. He can be convinced that Rain is such a tyrant.
Liberator - he/him - Romantic Persecutor
Liberator is here to help free Rain from pain and sorrow. He loves Rain, and don't want to see them hurt.
One of my oldest alters, my childhood best friend, my primary protector until my mid teens. He was the hero I looked up to, I trusted him to protect me, and he did. Hero has now fused with Torch and is gone forever. His role is over, his kingdom is forever safe. Rest in peace.
Snake - he/they, Former Primary-Emotional Protector, Bi.
Snake was someone I practically lived my life through during the year and a half when I got no therapy and had only a TTRPG campaign to focus on for mental stability. Snake was an expert liar, but the time for lies is over. From the moment I realized I was a system, they were already retired, and stayed around for a couple months until they fused with Poison and is now gone forever. You has the best villain reveal I'll ever experience in a campaign, you absolute king. Now you can finally leave with your legendary legacy forever in tact. Rest in peace.
Starlight - they/it, former Emotional Protector
Starlight was a being of night an an eternal shapeshifter, having no true form. They represented my indecisiveness, but found themself unable to otherwise protect me. Starlight merged with Night and now it's like both of them still exist, but with Night's personality being somewhat more dominant.
Night - they/it/he, former Sexual protector
Night (prior to fusing) was similar to who they are now, but more limited and timid, uncomfortable with communication. They often made alters fall asleep on accident. Fusing with Starlight helped them gain more confidence.
Beyond this
There are some alters we haven't written into the list; they may be alters we simply haven't been able to add yet, alters that we aren't comfortable introducing, or alters that have come and gone so fast we can't remember them. The system has at least 31 alters, not counting fragments and subsystem-alters which may up this number to the dozens (maybe even hundreds, but that's complete guesswork on Rain's part) and alters can of course fuse or go dormant without a trace.
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A part of me is considering straight up making separate discord accounts for Scythe and Poison. I know it'd be more hassle than it's worth, but also it'd be really cool for them to have their own accounts.
dehumanization as horror is great and all but what about humanization as horror. Being forced into a role that was not made for you. Being forced to fulfill expectations that you can never achieve. Being made to exist in a society that so cruelly expects you to act in a way that is against your nature.
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Legit what it feel like to be followed around by Sovereign
He is an alter who was really dangerous in November, then he eased off more for a few months (going a bit back and forth in his progress over time) and lately he has been... regressing? a bit. But this is a complicated situation.
Ever since Sovereign stabilized between December and February, we've struggled a LOT with just... a constant swarm of new, unpredictable persecutors. And a lot of them have been what I've dubbed "Sovereign clones", where they are their own new alters, but they absolutely mirror the behavior Sovereign "was supposed to have", to "maintain the stability of the system".
However, I haven't been comfortable letting Sovereign go back to how he used to be (before I realized I was a system in November), because I've been scared he'll slip back into trying to literally murder me again.
But after I wrote an extensive contract of rules for the worst persecutors, put Sovereign through the contract and kept him there until he proved he could be a safe alter, I've grown to trust him more.
Sovereign claims that he's been regressing lately, to keep new persecutors from showing up. And it is absolutely true that something both me and my friends have said a lot over the past months have been "I miss when it was just Sovereign."
Cause... at least I KNOW Sovereign. I know how he thinks, how he works, what his goals are. He's the main villain of my novels so I'm intimately familiar with him.
and it is... overwhelming. to constantly meet new persecutors who are complete strangers to me and the rest of my protectors.
So for now, I'm alright with Sovereign regressing back to being a scary persecutor again. I've told him in no uncertain terms that he is under no circumstances allowed to threaten my life. Also if he is being really threatening towards me and I say "Red." then he'll have to stop whatever he's doing and retreat. As long as he respects these boundaries, I can trust him to be intimidating without being an actual threat to me.
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Scythe: It's a bitch of a situation.
Sovereign is... my abuser. my tormentor. my jailor.
...my sire.
I hate him. I'm his daily fuckin' executioner. I want him to just GO AWAY and stay away from me and Rain.
But also... I can't fuckin' ignore the fact that in his absence, worse persecutors have shown up. 'Cause... 'least I can FUCKIN' FIGHT against Sovereign. But when Maestro showed up early on in the year... I couldn't do shit. Maestro was like a Soveregn2.0, if Sovereign physically looked like my worst fear, and all his powers was the physical manifestation of my symbolic worst fears.
...a fuckin'... eldritch horror puppet master... who wanted to string me up and dance.
I never let him. Cause I fled like the fuckin coward I am and went into hiding for two weeks straight when Maestro showed up. I can't even look at him or his... doll... without being so scared shitless outta my mind that I feel I gotta throw up.
I can't fight that guy. And I'm supposed to be the primary protector.
So. I'd rather take an eternity of fighting Sovereign, than having another Maestro. 'Cause like Rain said, 'least we fucking know Sovereign. We know exactly what he wants, what he's capable of, how he thinks. I hate him. I'll never stop hating him and I'll never stop wanting him DEAD
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Got a new persecutor that fits the current theme of the season.
So two of my primary protectors are vampires. Several of my protectors and biggest persecutors are vampires.
The other day I got a persecutor who's light-themed. Meaning him just showing up can incinerate the majority of the alters I'm most familiar with, and none of my vampire alters can come help me if this guy starts harassing me.
He also identifies as a Nephilim (in the half-angel, half-demon definition) and generally shines as bright as an unyielding summer day
I hate summer and bright days and a ton of light, so I can't believe I didn't see it coming that I'd eventually get a light-themed persecutor
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