Cosmic-Native

Karmic partners are people whom you have chosen to incarnate with over and over that push you to your limits. They are the bain to your existence, they are toxic, and often angry and abusive... yet for one reason or another, you are tied to one another. There is no escape.

My daughter's father is mine. 5 years ago we made a beautiful baby girl. We were happy for a time, but it was short lived. He became angry and emotionally abusive. He did everything he could to strip me of any confidence or magick within me, attempting to make me a shell of a person. I started to believe all of the awful things he would tell me daily.. the most common was that no one but him would ever love me, that I was too fucked up to be loved.

The abuse started small and turned into a daily occurrence and often in front of our daughter. I could not allow her to think that this was functional, that this was love. With complete dependence on him (as he liked it), no job, no car... I packed 2 suitcases, called a family member and left. The next day I returned home because spirit strongly directed me to, and there I found him with another woman. That was the end of any contemplation of returning. (Thanks for that spirit!)

This man has pushed me in every way one could imagine. The stronger my boundaries became, the more he pushed. The calmer I became, the angrier he got. I became the villain in his backwards world because he could no longer control me and it is always easier to blame someone else for your hardships then to take any responsibility for your own bad karma. But that's OK.

I had a vision not long after I had left him, he and I were sitting in a beautiful white room looking at our life plans and deciding where we would meet and the many circumstances within our lives together. He decided to make a sacrifice, our relationship and all of it's gorey details would relinquish me from all the bad karma from my younger days and place it onto him. Catapulting my life, my growth, and my mission.

For this I am grateful. So in those moments of strife between us, when I am being pushed to not react to his narcissistic nonsense.. I remind myself of that vision. For better or worse, we are joined by this child and as a result, I am a better person.

I share this story because I am not alone in this. My story belongs to many, and once you understand the nature of these relationships they become easier to navigate.

Don't let them suck you in, you are being pushed to rise above.. whether graceful or not you have the ability to soar, never forget that.

The chickadee

Chickadees may be small but they are courageous as hell. They come to tell us to gather our strength and speak up.

Much like them, our voices may appear small, but they have ideas that can make big, positive changes. 

Yesterday I was sitting in the woods in meditation when the song of this one particular bird stood out from the rest. My guides told me to listen to her she had a message to share. As I watched and listened she flew right over to me staring directly at me all whilst serenading me with her sweet little song.

Message received pretty lady.

So last summer I began to have very random visions of Tibetan prayer beads hanging from my rear view mirror. Two months later I synchronistically stumble across the EXACT beads from my vision.

I of course purchase them and hang them from the mirror and there they stayed until yesterday.

On my commute home, spirit started it's incessant nagging at me, as it often does for this thing or that. This time it wanted those beads around my neck. For whatever reason it was clear they needed to be there. Fine, whatever.

It wasn't until this morning that I had the "Aha moment" as to why. This particular set is made of blood stone, known to have subtle detoxifying affects on the bloodstream. This week I began working with an N.D. to detox my blood and bring my body and mind into balance. I'm even on a bloodtype diet to clean out all the built up toxins.

Of course I should be utilizing these beautiful crystals! Why didn't I think of that?

So in any case, just as there are lower dimensional beings whispering things in one ear, there are also higher dimensionals whispering in the other.

That little voice in your head, the one that urges you to do random POSITIVE things, listen to it. Those are your guides and your angels whispering in your ear... they know what you need before you do. You do not need to be a medium like myself to hear them. They are your gift from source, trust them!

These creatures feed off of negativity. Like moths to a flame if you are in a bad space, they will find you and feast. They whisper in your ear, they steer your thoughts and actions and do everything within their power to keep you in despair. Most people are completely unaware of their manipulation in their lives, they are masters at their trade and practice it mostly unnoticed.

So not long after the untimely death (and my finding of) my boyfriend 18 years ago I had my first conscious encounter with a lower dimensional entity, or what many refer to as a demon.

I was jobless, homeless, purposeless, sleeping on a friend's couch, overcome with grief, and of course I found myself hosting one of these guys. It came to me as an older gentleman (appearing as a ghost of sorts) and worked daily to convince me that I was nothing.

One day he challenged me to take my own life, he said I was so worthless that I would be incapable of completing the task. I was going to show him otherwise.

I took all of my copious bottles of psychiatric meds and swallowed handfuls of pills at a time. He laughed in my face as I did so. Before I knew it the pills were gone and I was ready to fall into a peaceful slumber.

I almost died that day. I was found by people that loved me and taken to a hospital where my stomach was pumped. I slept soundly in a coma for several days until the chemicals were out of my system and when I awoke, I was pissed. The "old man" was right I was truly inept. My story didn't end there, but thats enough to make my point for one day.

As my consciousness has expanded over the years I've come to understand these guys alot better, and let me tell you.. I've grown to appreciate them.

They are of God, source made them just as it created ALL things. They are here to create friction and empower growth. We are meant to overcome their influence and this levels US up and ultimately brings US closer to god source. Once you understand this they can hold very little influence over you. Gratitude literally repels them.

So the next time you start to have some fucked up thoughts, thank them, dismiss them... and just go about living in your light. There is no reason to fear these things, I have faced legions of these entities, and they don't scare me for a second. We are far more powerful then you may believe, time to know it, own it, walk with it. ❤

The hawk

The hawk makes himself known when you are getting caught up in the details of life. It's time to zoom out, look at the bigger picture.. watch, wait, be patient, and TRUST.

This way, when the time for big things presents itself you will see the needed action clearly.

The hawk brings strength, focus, and clarity.

I have seen a hawk nearly everyday for the last 2 weeks, message received!

So the other day I was watching snow geese fly overhead as they are currently migrating through my area.

I picked up on their auras. It was interesting to watch, as a few would stray from the others their auras got much smaller, very difficult to see... but together, it expanded out exponentially.

Also of note, I typically don't see color in auras, just a white energy signature around living things. But this time there was a very pronounced color, pink!

So I looked up the meaning of the pink aura and found this:

"This color is tied to caring, compassionate beings.".. "However they can also display a somewhat terrifying survival instinct that kicks in whenever they or a loved one are in harm’s way."

Omg if you have ever squared off with a goose you will understand just how accurate this is! 😂

I'd get lightheaded, disoriented.. what I call "woowoo". Not long after this started the Schumann Resonance came across my radar.

The earth has a vibration, 7.83Hz is it's baseline. Around the time I started to experience these bouts of "woowoo" the schumann started to act pretty unpredictably. Very large spikes were being recorded 20, 30, 100+. I started to notice a pattern within myself as it correlated to this phenomenon. Sometimes I'd have symptoms during a spike, but more often then not they would come BEFORE them. It sounds crazy I know.

Sometimes I'd have symptoms though that didn't quite correlate. Enter the K index. This is the state of our outer magnetosphere as it relates to space weather, I was picking up on this too! Like, wtf (as if talking to dead people, future timeline visions, and past life memories weren't enough).

So anyways, I got the "woowoo" this afternoon... and 8 hours later we experienced a spike of 40Hz in the schumann and a jump in the K index.

Just another day of pretending to be a normal human being in a normal biological space suit. 😂

Sand dollar!

The sand dollar comes to us during times of transition and strength.

They move freely without hesitation and encourage us to ebb and flow with the tides much as they do.

Their tough exterior also demands us to have strength within this flexibility.

I came across this beauty on the beach this weekend and immediately knew she had something important to say. Thanks, pretty lady!

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One of my most visceral past life memories is that of being executed for witchcraft.

I was a healer, my craft was herbs.. this was a high crime for that period. I was put on trial and housed in a small cobblestone structure filled with straw. Myself and the young man entrusted to guard me grew passionate feeling for one another. One evening as we were making love within my prison cell, we were caught. This man whom which I had grown to love so deeply pointed his finger at me. "Enchantress". This sealed my fate. Instead of the typical burning at the stake however, I was led to the chopping block.

I have many past life memories but this one haunts me. I still feel every emotion... all the passion, all the fear. This experience is one of the reasons I have difficulty with vulnerabity and speaking my truth. But I have now come to a place where I am determined to break that cycle. No more lives of shame, it ends here.