awkwardly random

It’s been almost a month since I left my job, and I can’t believe how fast the days have passed. As I planned, i’ve been taking a lot of naps. And a lot of reading and writing and a lot of catching up with friends. I’ve been seeing highschool and college friends, and been chatting online with some who are abroad, and it feels good. I’ve almost forgot how to use my time this way. I thought i’ll be bored to death just staying at home but surprisingly, not at all.

I took an online job writing articles which actually pays good enough to pay the bills. I was skeptical at first because i’ve lost confidence in writing. But I just had to do it. And now, i could say that I am back on track. I have already forgotten how it feels to have words come rushing to my head as I write, and i’m really happy that it worked out. And I was even praised for the quality of my writing. I can’t even remember the last time that happened. Haha!

This May, i’m taking a time off of the real world. I’d like to call it my own version of Sabbatical.

Well, basically, i’ll just be staying at home and embrace how it feels like to just. stay. at. home. and do or think about nothing. See, my job never really gave me a chance to really have a break. By break i mean just sit in the corner of my room and read a book for 3 hours, or take as many naps as i can, or chill in my mom’s room and talk to her about anything and everything. I love Sunday afternoons, i always have, and maybe because that’s the only time i get to nap, or read a book, or watch a movie, but even that is sacrificed because sometimes i need to go to work on a Sunday or finish something work related or get calls about work. On weekdays and Saturdays, I go to work at 10am and get home by 8pm or later. It depends. Apparently, my life for the past year and a half has been 70-80% work, which is the first time to happen because I don’t even take calls from anyone during weekends before. And now that I think about it, it’s just so sad. I haven’t done anything new for the past year, so this time off, which is not until after this week, will be all about new things to try, new places to visit, new stuff to make. It’s going to be all about me. I got physically, emotionally, mentally tired and I just want this one to be for me.

I believe in God’s little miracles, that he sends it at your lowest point. At times when you doubt yourself, at your darkest moments. 

And yesterday, God sent me a little miracle. :)

The world is grim

And life can be frustrating,

But I hope you always find a reason to dream,

Be like the sun rising,

Your eyes will keep on shining,