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Crossing A Line - First Contact War Shakarian AU: Garrus finds a wounded human soldier and tries to nurse her back to health.
Behind Closed Doors - sequel to Crossing A Line. Shepard and Garrus being a couple for 27 chapters straight. There’s an overarching plot, but it’s mostly fluff.
Edge of Yesterday - Shepard survives after ME3 but her memories since Cerberus revived her are gone. And Garrus is still in love with her.
Tomorrow's Light - a kinda-sorta sequel to Edge of Yesterday; a longform take on post-canon domestic Shakarian still struggling with their trauma.
one-shots:
Snipers - Shepard watches Garrus sleep and realises how much he trusts her.
Lullaby - Shepard can’t sleep, so Garrus decides to abandon all of his dignity and sing her a lullaby.
Beauty is Merciless - after getting the missile, Garrus realizes he's not pretty anymore.
i’ve been looking for incredibles, the meanings of unbelievable - Shepard has trauma responses and accidentally punches Garrus during a panic attack.
i even hope for tragedies (if it goes with the thrill) - Shepard throws herself into danger with little regard for her safety. Garrus notices. Takes place almost immediately after the end of ME2, when their relationship is very new and they’re still figuring it out.
but then you were standing in front of my door - Shepard and Garrus get stuck on an empty ship, without their translators. There is a universal language, but Shepard doesn’t know it very well… (this was originally a vent fic)
with every piece in your hand that i could ask for - Garrus looking back on his relationship with Shepard over the course of the trilogy, completely smitten, as he is with her.
Breathe - They’re in love and they’re okay crying in front of each other. Also Garrus is obsessed with human hair.
Respite - Garrus takes Shep out on a dinner date. Very lighthearted fluff.
and my name was beautiful when you said it - Garrus is the one who has the voice kink for once.
Battle Scars - Shepard and Garrus go into a scar-comparing contest. Hurt/Comfort.
★Big Spoon/Little Spoon AKA “the Spooning As A Metaphor For Nationality Issues fanfic”. Hurt/Comfort, with some psychological delve into the Spacer background. Also spooning is hard when you’re so physically different.
Forever - Shakarian get married instead of the Citadel DLC.
New Dreams Are Born - Shepard survives the war, and Garrus finally lets himself hope for a future with her.
Heat Waves - the AC is broken and as it turns out, humans aren’t that great at handling hot temperatures. Fluff and humor.
★Caught in a Neverending Game - Years after the war, Shepard doesn't cope too well with her fame. Garrus is there to help.
Seems Like This World's Still Trying To Tame Me - After coming back from the dead, Shepard struggles with depression. Garrus gives her some tea and, more importantly, a hug.
★Beautifully Struggle Every Day - Post-canon domestic!Shakarian one-shot, in which they both have PTSD but are also very much in love.
As The World Turns - my first work in the Mass Effect fandom. I just jotted down some thoughts I had about their very platonic and completely professional relationship. Includes Shepard trusting Garrus more than anyone else in the world, even herself.
For The Cause - Garrus is not a good turian. Or at least he wasn't until he met Shepard.
boyfriend - Humans are weird, and human relationships are even weirder; Garrus slowly learning the differences between being Shepard's friend and her boyfriend.
Casual - Soulmate AU, where Garrus finds out Shepard is his soulmate in a very awkward way.
★while seeing both of our hourglasses - dying together is romantic, right? And dying together while holding hands has got to be extra romantic.
[fluffuary 2022] First I Love You - in which Shepard blurts out "I love you" on Menae.
[fluffuary 2022] Napping Together - Shepard and Garrus are perpetually tired, which concerns and confuses the crew.
[fluffuary 2022] Cooking Together - post-canon. Shep and Garrus take a cooking course for dextro/levo couples.
[fluffuary 2022] Compliments - Shep is Very Bad at giving compliments.
[fluffuary 2022] Acts of Devotion - confused by the way Garrus has been acting, Shepard asks Victus if turians can purr.
[fluffuary 2022] Soothing Touch - Garrus is not okay after the Cerberus attack on the Citadel.
my duty to keep - Garrus ponders on what it's like being the main character's love interest.
I'll keep every part of you - Garrus gets badly wounded during a mission. Shepard blames herself.
On a monotonous August morn' - a day in the life of happily married very cuddly Shakarian, years after the war. Plotless fluff.
★in a summer morning - long after the Reapers are defeated, after years of military service and political delegations, Shepard comes back to Earth to be with Garrus.
Home - a look on how the Shakarian household changes over time along with their relationship.
Here With You - Shepard and Garrus go to an interspecies club for date night. Spoiler: Garrus gets hit on a lot.
★Walking Back To You - post-war, Shepard worries that she and Garrus might be drifting away.
to know you (as hardly golden) - Shepard asks Garrus if he attended her funeral. Hurt Comfort.
i wanna see you dance again - Shepard and Garrus slow dancing in the kitchen at 2AM and sitting on the porch watching a thunderstorm. That's it, that's the fic.
Black And White, Shadow And Light - a small relationship study on what if they were actually opposites in literally everything.
★Patience is Sorrow's Salve - post-canon. Garrus is hesitant to have sex with Shepard after she's released from the hospital. angst ensues.
★Love is an Echo - Shepard listens to Garrus's heartbeat.
Since You Appeared - Garrus pining for Shepard over the first two games. a lot.
In The End - three times Shepard said goodbye and one time Garrus said hello.
Happiness Is A Warm Blanket - during the war, when Garrus gets overwhelmed, he tends to burrow under a blanket.
(you show me) how to be whole again - bleeding out and dying, Shepard holds on to the only memory she has left - Garrus.
★Tasting Rust - Shepard and Garrus washing blood off each other. It's got a sort of raw tenderness to it.
Stake Me Out Tonight - Shep and Garrus on a stakeout together during ME2, before they get together. A lot of unresolved sexual and romantic tension.
★Valediction - Garrus is high on stims, sleep deprivation, grief, and god knows what else, so when he sees Shepard on Omega, he assumes he's dying and she's his guide to the afterlife.
Stabbed With A Star - [18+] Shepard and Garrus have time, for the first time ever, to explore some of their fantasies. Garrus is still self-conscious about his role in the relationship.
Anchor - Shepard has a panic attack when Garrus isn't there to calm her down. He finds her in the aftermath for some hurt/comfort.
Have you heard about Castis Vakarian's son? - sometimes even turians gossip. Especially when you're different. Outsider POV on Castis Vakarian's weird son. Experimental format.
Sentinel - Shepard and Garrus are stuck on an ice/snowy planet during a blizzard with no means to evacuate. Garrus gets hypothermia.
Out of the Blue - while Garrus is in surgery after his injury on Omega, Shepard worries. And tries to keep her mind off it.
Control - [18+] uh. no plot just edging
★Blue Glow - while on Menae, Shepard sees a very familiar looking Marauder. Angst. Written for the Shakarian Mini-Bang 2025.
★Monochrome - Noir AU. Garrus is a private detective undercover as a burlesque singer. Shepard is a mob enforcer who never misses one of his shows. Written for 5K 2025.
A Little Green - Shep and Garrus are working a routine escort job for a charming, handsome turian politician... Jealousy and bitterness ensues.
★Selfish - Garrus finds that Shepard sleeps better when he's there. It's too bad that he's there for selfish reasons.
Honourable mentions:
★Change Starts With Today - not a Shakarian fic exactly, but circling around the relationship a lot. Garrus goes to therapy. (this is one of my favourite fics I've ever written!)
Seems Like This World's Still Trying To Tame Me - pre-relationship, but their friendship is as important to me as their romance, so I'm putting it here. Shepard's still struggling with being brought back to life.
Found - while this is a Garrus fic and not technically a Shakarian fic, Shakarian is the catalyst here. Garrus discovering and accepting his sexual orientation.
★somewhere far from goodbye - not a Shakarian fic but both Garrus and Shepard are recurring characters and their relationship is there, even if not in the foreground. A post-canon Kryterius ficlet.
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★ stars next to my faves :)
also since i tend to add new fics at the very bottom of this list, this is more or less older to newer
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I'm the opposite of a hater. I'll watch clips from a show I've never seen and I'm immediately rooting for the characters. You tell me about an art form I've never heard of before and I'm like "holy shit look at how good this is!" I'm wishing that the customer service rep's day gets better when I see they're in a bit of a sour mood. There is so much beauty in the world but you gotta go out looking for the way the light glistens off the water and trees, not just wait for the weather to get better.
i wanted to do a quick drawing of ro in her middle age (taking the extended human lifespans of mass effect into account)
i imagine that working as an instructor at ICT is her idea of retirement. she's a tough but fair teacher and enjoys designing complex field training exercises that can really challenge her recruits. maybe she even brings in a certain fellow sharpshooter in as a guest instructor from time to time.
in addition to the burns from harbinger's beam, she suffers from nerve damage as a result of her destroyed cybernetics. her right hand has a significant tremor and she has neuropathy. this significantly impacts her ability to hold, aim, and fire weapons until she creates weapon mods that can accommodate her disability - she doesn't really feel like herself until she can nail a target from a thousand yards.
after roughly fifty years, her skin grafts and other scars would probably be more healed than this, but i got a bit carried away lol. i like the idea of her having some kind of zuko thing going on with obvious facial disfigurement. she owns it
bonus under the cut because it came out a little wonky and i don't like it that much but i do want to share her jumpsuit
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This is literally my personal hell. Writing hurts. Drawing hurts. Playing video game hurts. Reading hurts. I can't do this anymore. What's the point of anything when everything I love causes me pain???
Put in the tags the completely finished (whether cancelled or wrapped up on its own terms) TV series that has YOUR perfect ending, however you define that
Please don’t include huge spoilers for the specifics of the endings, and it would also make me happy if people don’t use this to talk about the shows whose endings they hated
when ppl don’t put tags on reblogs it does make me a little sad…. like….. what are you thinking…. how are you feeling…. what have we done to each other…. what will we do….
cheetah in House perfec t size for put inside! inside very Soft and Comfort cheetah sleep soundly put cheetah in House. Put Cheetah In House. no problems ever in cheetah in ho use because good Happy and Satisfy for human where sleep. House yes a place for a cheetah put cheetah in house can trust cheetah for giveing good love to humans in house. friend cheetah
I mean, as someone who as worked in a zoo, this is fairly true.
Obvious disclaimer that you shouldn't have wild animals as pets.
But like, cheetahs are the only large cats that keepers will do free contact with. Hell, even most small cats don't get free contact. (Because small cats can be VICIOUS. They'll have a baby pallas cat wearing thicker gloves than when handling an owl. Because small cats can just be vicious.)
Like I think the only other cat at our zoo where I've seen free contact with was servals? Because I know they've used servals in shows to demonstrate their natural jumping ability. But I know servals can sometimes have a mean temper as well. Meanwhile they'll do the cheetah run and afterwards put the mic by the cheetahs and it's just like an engine with them purring. It's fascinating to watch when the message in every other large animal is "no free contact because it's dangerous even when they're born in captivity".
Legit if any wild animal could be adapted to a pet it would be cheetahs lmao. Only problem is they can be skittish and very anxious and that's why they're often raised around dogs in zoos to gain confidence.
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incredibly silly art idea for pride: i draw the mass effect crew with all my lgbtq headcanons like it's 2015. theyre all waving pride flags and making out because this is a fanart i drew in 2015. and then people send me death threats because i said tali is trans or that liara is pan and that does not align with their personal hc. because it's 2015
So back when the sunflower asks were going around @mostmagical sent me an ask that contained 57 sunflowers and I've decided to yap something at every single one of them and anyway I am halfway through now
Nothing has done quite so much damage to my internal vocabulary as the construction #MyNoun. I don't remember if it was from that "tour of my jar, this is my twig #MyTwig" or if it was from "inappropriate attachment to objects, my tuube #MyTuube" but either way it was one of you fuckers on here. I do it every time there's my noun #MyNoun
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