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have acne

are currently running on minimal sleep

never brush your hair

Are actually a long-forgotten eldrich cryptid with a cry like death that makes the blood of men run cold in their veins, turns their hearts to stone and their minds to so much dust. Those who come to learn your name learn with it a fear they never knew they could possess. The blind see your horror. The deaf hear your cruel laughter. The ones with no feeling feel your icy talons tracing their spine. The dead tremble and roll in their graves, ever so thankful for the mercy of not having to experience the fear that is you. Soon you will return to this world, and the world will fall to chaos. As fire envelops the world, as all life perishes at your whim, you smile. For humanity should never have forsaken you.

spend too much time on tumblr

I don’t know what else to do.

Probably gonna get kicked out of my apartment.

I was able to pay my rent today - extremely late and apparently late enough they sent the court proceeding paperwork. I’m hoping to be able to find a way to pay the other monies owed (late fees and other fees i’ve accumulated) to the tune of $113 on that but my court date is 10/3 so I’m not holding my breath on that.

This case will not be dismissed. I’m going to miss work because of it. I’ve already missed a week of work thanks to a sore throat that made me lose my voice (hard to be on the phone if you can’t talk, yeah?) I won’t get paid again until 10/4, so it won’t be until after the hearing anyway - which I’ll owe shit for because reasonable attorneys fees etc.

I sent an email to the rental company asking for their help on this but I don’t think anything’s going to come of it. i’m way too late because the payment won’t be processed until monday, and they probably aren’t going to see my email until monday either. I did put dates in the email so hopefully that’ll be a thing. But they’re a rental company and what do they care that I can’t function in capitalism, or as an adult, without assistance I can’t get?

I’m asking for help again because I am at my wits end. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’ve worked and begged and struggled and hoped and I cannot get anything working for me. If I could find a place to live that was cheaper, I’d do it. If I could live with my family I would - but if I moved back home 1) I’d be home and 2) I wouldn’t be able to keep my job where I’m at which I was LUCKY to be able to get back after everything.

I’m just…

I don’t know what to do. I feel like maybe I should have just stayed with my ex and dealt with everything and shouldn’t have said anything.

Anyway - if you can help me with anything I would greatly appreciate some financial assistance. I hate that I keep having to ask but I can’t seem to catch a break so I’m just going to make shit work I guess.