a little escape

Thank you so much for reading it. I was totally on low hopes that people were gonna read my blog.

So coming to my story yn would be pretty heart broken and so do the other characters. Sorry dear can't give you a spoiler but the ending is gonna be good I really hope so. So far as I know jk is not gonna sit on his seat and see yn living in peace. Maybe jealousy or maybe he doesn't wanna see his formal best friend getting close to someone else other than him. Let's hope for our best.

Main protagonist: jk x reader

Genre: slow burn, angst

Warnings: self-harm, usage of drugs, degradation, forceful intercourse.

Summary: Too immersed in the haunting pain of your nightmare, you invited your colleague to accompany you for a night. Will it turn out to be good or just another destruction in your life.

Word count: 2k

an: here is part 3 of 'the clash'. Hope you guys like my blog. I'm sorry for any grammatical errors or if anyone finds it uncomfortable to read. It's just I'm new to this platform and promise to improve myself further. Enjoy!

"Pardon. Do I know you" looking at the person who bumped into you a sec ago. "Of course not but maybe I want to know you more." he smirked saying the words to you. "By the way it's Yeonjun." forwarding his hand for a quick hand shake. "Oh it's ___!" "Up for a drink?" Looking back at the corner you see three girls throwing themselves on Jungkook's body made you think why can't you least enjoy a good drink with your new friend. Friends? Is it the appropriate world to be used.

"You look so innocent lying helplessly in the ground waiting for me to fuck you. Huh? Pretty little slut." As soon as he said those words your blurry eyes tried to find the face of the person. What you see is just a puzzled face, tall figure, broad shoulders. "P--Please let m-me go, I b-beg you." you pleaded clearly not in your right senses maybe the drink you took has much more effect of Hashish than alcohol. "Shh! Calm down lady I'm gonna fuck you fast and rough. Okay! nobody's gonna know. But in case if you are a virgin then umm-uhh" tears started rolling down your eyes. How did you even end up in this situation? "Let's start with your tits first." With that he tore your crop top left you with only bra. "P-please let m-me go. I b-beg you" your throat became dry with all the pleading but he didn't even care to listen to it even for the sake of humanity. Slowly losing your senses you tried not to close your eyes just to remember the moment of you being raped. He slid your jeans below your ankles then on the ground. Again the world throws you in another helpless situation. Dreaming of a man loving you, see the world in two eyes giving your everything to him, making love to him but this moment is nothing but left with a trauma in your life. Hearing the skin slapping sound, your hands tied in a belt above your head, the person thrusting in you mercilessly dropping his head in your bosom. You can't do anything but to cry only to regret what would have happened if you wouldn't have come here. That definitely would have saved you from losing your virginity, your dignity and yourself to some rapist.

Tears slowly flowing from your eyes waking up with a jerk. Same nightmare. Sleep is nowhere to be found. Sitting up you checked the time. It's 2:30 in the night. What you gonna do now. Maybe a quick shower could make you fall asleep. You undress yourself. Feeling pity looking at your thighs and you made it worse by cutting it with a blade few years just to erase the dark memories of that night. In the hope if it could be possible. Burnt marks on your side stomach made you think what an improvident act you did 5 years ago. Hatred comes looking at your own pathetic self which made you vigorously scratching yourself just to remove the imprints of the man who broke you. Coming out of the bathroom, opening your phone for doing a quick check on your Instagram scroll. And wow! Jungkook added a story with Yuna in a romantic date. Another phase of cries entered your system.

Looking at the couples in their seat of the coffee shop made you think the moment when you prayed and Jesus! You just wanted to have a normal life. No hurdles, no pain, just happiness and love. Isn't that everyone in here asks for? Maybe this is too much. Remembering all those moments when you were a teenager who thought your friendship with jungkook will someday be level up and termed as an official relationship. Alas! Shaking your extra dramatic unrealistic parallel thoughts get busy in serving customers.

"You're done?" taehyung asked leaning on the fridge. "Yeah! Not liking my presence?" Not even paying attention to the man who is busy noticing your face. "No just asking if you would like to eat out?" he proposed. Remembering you don't have any staple food for your supper then why not have dinner with a companion. At least you won't have to eat alone. Agreed on his proposal. "Okay! But only If you're paying." you grinned. "It's an honour ___" bowing down like a prince following by a laugh. However it makes you feel content to work here. More like distracting yourself from the terrible destruction that has been done inside your head.

Taking your seat in front of Taehyung, as he offered you to order dinner. Just about to order your sight fell on the couple at the very next counter of yours. Jeon Jungkook and Lee Yuna. The fuck! Can't they go somewhere else. Not wasting any time you decided to ignore them and order your food. The slightest joy you felt having a company has long gone now. The main purpose is only to eat the food as fast as you can and leave before anyone's notice. But guess what. Miss Yuna can't keep her shoes off of you. "___! What a pleasant surprise. What are you doing here?" she asked standing right next to you beside jungkook. Doesn't that punch affect her a bit. "More like eating dinner." you retorted slightly glancing at Yuna. Just then your anger boils when taehyung invited them to join us. Why on Earth does he want them to join you both? "Oh it's okay but only if you insist." Just then she grabbed the seat beside taehyung and your formal best friend sat beside you. You didn't even dare to look at his face. "So tell me you two now are a thing now?" You choked on the water from the words Yuna uttered just now. "No but ___ is a nice girl." tae replied looking at you. "So you are hitting on her in front of us." Yuna asked. "Not it's just we are goo-" you cut him up "he is my boyfriend." "What?" All three of them asked. Quickly grabbing tae's hand you answered "you don't need to hide our relationship to anyone Jagiya! Not to them" The look on taehyung's face was so apparent as if Jin snatched all his ice creams. With that your food has come to your table. Eating a lot more faster than you used to just to get rid of the two non existent strangers. And you are done. "Baby I will wait for you outside. Okay!" Kissing tae's cheeks you stood up. "Excuse me, if you would stand up I would like to go outside." Jungkook stand up with a close proximity which was your god damn weakness. "Sure." And you are out.

Puffing up a cigarette you looked at the street with people enjoying street food, couples roaming with hand-in-hand, vehicles moving alongside, it's peaceful. "Since when did you start smoking?"knowing the owner of the voice. "since when do you care" you stated without deviating your eyes from the street. "How long are you both dating?" he sat beside you looking at the couple who were enjoying the food. "Is any of that related to you?" you asked. "Not entirely. Cause taehyung is still my friend." Woah! So it's not even an indirect taunt. Slipping out the facts that you aren't friends with him. "Why don't you ask my boyfriend about it besides I need to have a quick look for him. Who knows slutty bitches are roaming tryin' snatch my love." Then you look at him. The same doe eyes which makes your heart beat so fast. It became so painful not because you both aren't friends instead there was a moment when you both couldn't live without each other. You advert your eyes. Standing up going inside the restaurant and wow the sight is so mesmerizing. Our dear selfless Yuna trying to clean Tteok-bokki stain from tae's chest. Quickly moving towards them you decided to interrupt the cute little moment. "Tae baby! what happened?" you cringed at yourself calling him baby. "It's nothing ___ Yuna's slipped." Slipped? Or intentionally made them slip? Knowing all her tactics. "It's okay! cover it with your jacket I'll wash it in our home." Our home? Just then jungkook was standing behind you. "Let's go then. Thank you for joining us Yuna and Jungkook." he politely said. "The pleasure is all ours." Jungkook proclaimed being a gentleman. Walking out with tae, he was so shocked, he couldn't be able to resist and asked the blunder going on in his head, "What was that all about?" Taking a quick glance you focussed on the road not knowing how to make an excuse about that. "it's just I don't know what came into my mind. I just blurted it out." panic was written in your face. "It's okay. But is everything okay between you and jungkook." he asked. How to answer that terrifying question now? "We are not friends anymore." couldn't be able to make eye contact. He quickly grabbing your hand "hey ___! Look at me. Shh! is this the reason you were so dull these past few days. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you." Pulling you into a quick hug. You nuzzle your head in the crook of his neck. Peace. It's the perfect word which you are feeling rn. He kissed your hair and damn that cologne. Sniffing him more, tears started rolling from his eyes. "Umm ___." you heard an unfamiliar sound. Is that jungkook? Looking at your side and he is standing next to you. "You left your purse at the restaurant." "Thanks!" Taking the purse you look at him. And what? Is that tears in his eyes? Too focused on him, tae gently grab your palm intervening your fingers with his. "It's time to go home, honey!" Coming back to reality. Without even saying goodbye you both started to walk off.

On the way to your house he asked, "Are you okay!" Turning your face a little you replied, "would you like to sleep with me for tonight." Not being able to get a proper sleep cause the nightmares were too disturbing and haunting you for almost every night. He panicked. "It's jus-" cutting him off. "not the way you are thinking. I couldn't be able to have a proper sleep at night. So you could like company me only for tonight" you asked being ready for the denial. "Fine." He smiled.

Opening the door you invited him in, he insisted on sleeping on the couch while you take the bed and you agreed on it. Slowly drifting towards the sleep you feel relaxed."You look so innocent lying helplessly in the ground waiting for me to fuck you. Huh? Pretty little slut." "no, No, NO" you panicked. "___ hey I'm right here okay shhh shhh!" Tears are coming out of you. Your nerves calm down hearing his deep voice. This small act of his made you feel a little brave in sleep. Hugging the person tightly you slept peacefully. Waking up you look at the time. It's 6:39. Did you sleep that long? Turning your face you saw the beautiful man sleeping beside you. Too engrossed in noticing the facial features you didn't feel his hands on your breast and smooching it. Not knowing what to do just then something poked your thighs touching it was the biggest mistake you made. "Ahhh!" taehyung groaned in your ears. Just then you knew the thing you are holding isn't a thing but something else. Not knowing what to do, you closed your eyes. Shit! He is waking up. Coming to his senses, he immediately pulled back his hand panicking about his current situation. Placing a quick kiss on your temple he moved in to the bathroom. Hearing the lock sound of the door, you opened your eyes. What's this feeling? Homely? Or just another way towards your destruction.

So this is the end of The clash part- 03. Do let me know your pov reading this story. And keep supporting. :)

Main protagonist: jjk x reader! best friends au.

Genre: angst, slow burn

Warnings: self doubting, self realisation.

Summary: All the events in your life now make you feel you aren't good enough for someone to be with you. Taehyung being an angel here. ♡

Word count: 1.5k

an: I couldn't wait for you PPL to read it's second part. I'm too happy guys. Hope you like it. Enjoy!

It's been a week since you broke your friendship with kook. Sorry my bad. Jungkook! Calling him by 'kook' felt so warm like a feeling being in a real home. Now it feels nothing but a guilt of how vulnerable you became to someone. So fragile that just a person can shatter you like broken pieces of glass. So weak that you couldn't even handle your emotions that led you to the moment having a mental breakdown in the bathroom tub just after coming back from your formal best friends house.

Why me? It's been a week since you've been ignoring your part-time job at a coffee shop. Hiding in your apartment to get an escape from this cruel world that keeps hurting you. Maybe you're the problem that keeps getting hurt. Is it too hard for someone to like you just the way you are. Aren't you good enough for someone?

Passing a week having existential crisis makes you fall apart from the woman you used to be. Being in your twenties you need to have a stable job, be responsible, brave to do the right thing. But you? Is that what you're or the opposite. You hate the feeling how helpless you feel rn. Someone who took you for granted not even bothers about your feelings broke you almost 7 years of friendship with him. Miserable isn't?

Finally the day has come when your leaving holidays come to an end. You need to be in the coffee shop in like 6 hours later. But what are you doing in the middle of the night at 3 a.m? Didn't get sleep or sleep is nowhere to be found in your mind full flooded with thoughts.

Looking at your face while doing skincare makes you wanna puke now. What have you become ___? Getting ready for your shift you walk out of your small and cozy apartment. Not so small but enough for a living. Locking up your apartment someone bumped into your shoulder. "I'm really sorry" she replied. "It's fine."you said looking straight but to your surprise she was Hyuna, your highschool friend. "Hyuna! What you doing here"you feel lightened. "___? Is that you? Fuck you grown up so much. Like a role model." She exclaimed. You laughed followed by her. "But what you doing at 8 in the morning?"you asked. "I just shifted here."she smiled. "We are in the same floor now? Fuck I'm so excited" you can't control your happiness and hugged her. " Are you free now" she asked looking at you. "Just going for work. Will come back sharp 6 in the evening. Would you like to grab something after that if yo-?" she cut me in the middle. "Yes! I would love to." You smiled. " Okay then see you later." Then you are off. A little socialing with people makes you feel lighter than the feeling you have been feeling a lot in the whole week.

Park Hyuna, your high school friend who was a bit closer to you after jungkook. She would always sit with you in the class for the whole 2 freaking years. Until you got to know she has a crush on jungkook. Like who doesn't have? He is indeed handsome and charming for anyone to drool over him. But you became a bit protective for your best friend. She would always try to make a convo when you and jungkook would be alone. Initially you felt a bit awkward but eventually you got comfortable for you 3 to hang out all together. It felt surreal. But until one day you saw her and jungkook kissing under a tree while the weather was cloudy and almost about to rain. You don't know but that felt so heartbroken. Tears started rolling from your cheeks. Why she can't be fucking you? Why can't he love you? Aren't you enough for someone?

You left the place in a hurry just not to get caught by someone for looking at your two friends kissing. Hurriedly going to your house not even caring an ounce when your mother started ranting about how irresponsible you are for getting wet in the rain. But you couldn't care less how frustrated you feel. It meant to happen someday you knew it. It fucking hurts. Since then you started hanging out with them less than you used to. Ignoring jungkook when he would ask you to Hangout or sit with Hyuna. It changed so fast. Until one day she broke up with her the day after graduation so suddenly and then she disappeared. You felt bad as well as relieved. Bad cause she has been a good friend. Relieved because now you got your best friend I guess. But that didn't last long when he started hooking up randomly, started drinking all of a sudden and then after the terrible incident happened. 'You don't need to remember that', you remind yourself.

Reaching your destination: Kim's Cafe. You let a relieved sigh. Opening the door just to face the mocking by the shop owner Kim Seokjin. "Woah! Look who decided to show up today. Finally what have I done to get this honour of your presence in my tiny little shop, Miss ___." rolling your eyes. "You are annoying ". Deciding to ignore it and went to your changing room to wear your apron. Coming back to your place you were greeted by taehyung. "Are you okay?" he asked the first when he looked at you. Couldn't be able to make eye contact with him just nodding at his words. Too afraid he would see your dark circles under your eyes for not being able to sleep peacefully at night or see how empty you are from inside. "Okay. But if you need anything that includes you like to talk to someone I'm all ears." You still nodded your head. Just realising you got other friends too other than jungkook being in your life. More like an actual friend. A real friend.

Kim taehyung, two years older than you that'd something he is always proud of. The younger brother of the shop owner Kim Seokjin but everybody calls him Jin. Not only Jin but WWH or world wide handsome. I would definitely call him that cause he is beautiful, exceptionally magnificent features. That's why this shop is crowded almost everyday. On the other hand his brother has never been too self obsessed but a little shy around everyone. Sometimes it makes you think that he is actually hitting on you or maybe it's your assumptions. Once you saved him from a terrible woman who was touching him badly calling out for him to serve her coffee. When you noticed this immediately replaced him going to her actually teaching some manners in her head not to ogle at younger men double her age. Eventually Jin got to know about it and banned her from the shop. Taehyung didn't say anything just hugged you. Patting his back and he put his head in the crook of your neck making you feel tickled that was less concerns you than the person lying on your shoulder cause he indeed needed one. Since then you two became good friends. He knows you are being friends with jungkook. He even hung out with two of you.

Going through your social media account during your break slightly sitting at the edge of the table you let out a sigh thinking what he must be doing, zoning out scrolling your Instagram not knowing what your phone is showing up to you. Taehyung never saw you like this. Weak by health, lost the shine of your eyes, pale face, not even cared to eat healthy. He walked to you. Sitting beside you he looked at your phone. "Eww! You naughty little tiger". Coming out to reality realising what he just said then noticing your phone which is actually a couples page where a man showing up his hickey. Gasping you immediately lock your phone. "It's rude to look at someone's phone you know." you stand straight turning your face starting to walk out off there when he held your hand pulling you to him, making you land off his chest. "Hey! It's okay. I'm here. Everything's gonna be okay." That's it. That's what you needed at the very moment. You held him by his shoulder pulled closer hugging him right tightly. He didn't ask anything letting you hug him. Patting your back he let you rest your head in his shoulder for a few good minutes. Until you heard Jin murmuring some weird lyrics and shouting "Bro! The hell. You and ____. What you two doing in the kitchen. And what's with all the lovely dovey. Ohh my eyes where is my eye drop. I can't see this." Hearing his over acting you two separate each other and tae defended you both. "It's nothing okay." Of course it's nothing. But is it?

Hope you guys enjoyed reading it. Do let me know your perspective on reading it and what you PPL think of this ongoing storyline. Hope you liked it. :)

Main protagonist: jjk x reader! best friends au.

Warnings: heart- break, angst, dirty talk, sex- chat (more prolly you PPL will find it in the story.)

Summary: Ever since you laid eyes on him some beautiful sensation felt in your tummy. Love or attraction? What happens when this feeling grows more even when he got a gf and you became a third wheeler whom he tagged as a mere friend.

Word count: 1.4k

an: this is my first blog. So I hope ignoring the grammatical errors you enjoy the storyline. Do let me know what you guys think of the characters. I really liked writing it though. Enjoy!

"Where have you been lately" you ask hoping something less hurtful when you settled yourself next to him in the couch.

"Hanging out with my girlfriend. Why!?" he asks not even looking at you. Dude? What?

"I just missed my lil' kook" you replied moving a lil' closer to his bicep looking at him while he doesn't even bother to look at you.

"yeah! Me too" he murmers still not looking at you. Still wondering if he really missed you or not.

"Doesn't seem that way" you told moving you gaze from him to the tv.

"Then what do you expect from me, ___?" he questioned finally looking at you. Looking into your eyes he saw a kind of disappointment, sadness maybe but that least bothers him.

"I didn't came here to expect things from you kook. I just came here maybe spend sometime with you cause you 've been so busy lately with your others friends." you said sternly hoping to get a soft reply but instead he poked his inner cheeks with his tongue.

"Well I've been busy lately spending time with my gf. You got a problem with that?" you paused for a sec not knowing what to reply next. Is this the same person whom you called a best friend for so long asking you whether you got a problem when he ditched you just to hang out with his gf. What happened to the person when he promised you to be best friend for life till death do us apart. You suddenly laughted thinking what a fool you were thinking that the person sitting next to you would be your so called soul mate but ironically he thought of you nothing but a mere friend whom he needed when he caught himself in a fight with her ex-gfs (that were his previous gfs), or when he needed to do his homework/ assignments/ projects or whom he can call in the middle of the night just to hang out knowing how typical and conservative you parents were about girls being out at night but still ignoring all the worst outcomes will happen to you being caught by your parents but decided to hoop out from the window for the sake of your friendship. Just a mere thought of him being alone drinking his ass off and you not being his side when he needed you the most made you think what a shitty friend you would if you left him go through that alone. Keeping aside all those memories of happiness that you both cherished all those 6 years of friendship, he asked whether you are having any problem because you decided to visit his place.

"No! Obviously not. Why would I've a problem when you ditched you best friend for almost 2 weeks for some 5 months relationship. Sending her dry texts making her feel that all the efforts needed in this friendship is going vain. Not even bothering atleast to give a call. No. And now you are asking me whether I got a problem" your eyes betraying yourself when a traitor tear drops from your eyes. Being a sensitive person always been a obstacle in your path. Why? Maybe you're just weak. Or maybe you can't keep your emotions aside when you get in a heated conversation.

"Are you perhaps jealous coz I got someone and you don't". That's it. He didn't mean those. Is he? Is that what he thinks of you. You got nobody. Just because you never thought of being with someone else he is accusing of you being jealous. What on Earth is he saying.

"Why would I be jealous of you when I know she isn't gonna last long"you scoff. "How can you say that about her. You know what I think we aren't good of being friends. I always wanted to say but ___, I'm sorry coz we are better off friends." He what? And thats when you knew your world shattered. He is deciding our friendship to break a long ago?

"Hey! hey! hey! Kook! You kidding right? You can't break our friendship just because of a mere relationship ryt?"you said, tears rolling down your eyes."Don't you ever say that again. I love her God dammit." he growled at your face standing up from the couch. "How can you even think of her like that. Or is it because of the mistake we both made. Don't end up thinking I've some feelings for you ___. Okay! It's just I don't like you that way besides Yuri doesn't like me being with you. So hope you understand" he smiled thinking about her gf. He fucking smiled. You are in the verge of having a mental break down and he is smiling thinking about her gf. Is he serious rn? 6 and half years of friendship meant nothing for him. You couldn't resist yourself but to ask.

"A-Am I nothing to you kook? Am I just you temporary escape of your happiness?"your words were shattering. "Since we are breaking our friendship better not call me kook. Just Jungkook." Wow! Reminded me that day when he insisted you to call him by a cute nickname instead of Jungkook. He tickled you in stomach. Couldn't able to handle to laughter you told him "stop tickling me kook". "Kook? Yeah I like that." That's how he got a cute nickname 'kook'. "And our friendship was good. Yeah! We had a great time." Indeed time flies so fast.

"Hey ___ it's not like that you have been a great friend. But I don't want our friendship to be a nuisance and trouble us in our future. So it's better I guess" "You guess?" Yeah! Maybe but I think you should go, Yuri must be coming" Ouch. And I thought he couldn't be more mean. "Yeah I prolly should go. Better luck with your future. I had great time spending with you in past years and grateful for you accepting me as a good friend. I'm blessed. Thank you so much, ehh!what's your name? Oh yeah Jeon Jungkook". He lowered his face looking down muturing something which is far audible to your ears.

Quickly packing your things you began to walk out the apartment. Standing at the door you took a quick glance at you best friend. Well more like your formal best friend. He smiled. Just a quick smile but his eyes telling you otherwise. Forced to do this? Feeling pathetic? You quickly tried to read those beautiful doe eyes telling you emotionally as if he can't tell you verbally but maybe you luck isn't by your side.

"Hey baby, oh hey ___ . You okay? You don't look good." Yuri came asking about you, more like fake concerns for you. A glance at her when you look a little grin on her face. So she brainwashed his head. Is jungkook seriously a kid can't see the difference between good or bad or he intentionally getting brainwashed. Or maybe he got worst instincts. Calm down. Calm your nerves ___. She is just a pathetic bitch nothing else. Calm down you got this.

"Well I guess I can ask you the same after this" your replied moving towards her. And the very next moment you saw her in the floor with a swollen jaw. "____" jungkook screamed. Processing what just happened now. "Calm down silly. I didn't even punched her so hard. Besides thank me later when you get into her pants after pampering her, taking care of her and ofcourse cursing me how pathetic slut I'm for doing this. Go on! Enjoy your evening dear." With that you walk out of the place for forever that once gave you homely vibes.

Do let me know guys if you enjoyed and comment down what do you think jungkook talking about that night? What he must be thinking breaking off friendship with you? Any guesses?

Indeed the best album in my pov. The way each and every song relates me 🙌 Never thought I would be so obsessed w "Airplane pt 2".

Everything about it,so mesmerizing. The verse, tunes, rap, vocals mmmhhhhhh can't get enough of it. Feels so wow to be an army. 🫶❤️

And don't want to spoil my mood but I miss Jin and J-hope. But the wait will make its worth in 2025.

Can somebody tell me how not to fall for this beautiful human. Listening to him, watching him doing lil' things is itself a therapy. #warisover