tender collarbones

I feel like nothing is going to work for me. These feelings are exhausting and I don't see the point in existing if this is all I can feel. I have been medicated, I am in therapy, I have been eating better and trying to cut down my habits and exercise and all I get is internal agony. Therapy isn't helping reduce my suffering - nothing is. Something is very seriously wrong with my brain and I don't know how to increase serotonin and dopamine when everything I have tried doesn't work. I don't see the point in an existence like this. I understand that pain is a part of life but does t have to be every constant waking minute? I am so sick of being an exhausted shell of a person. I feel like I am going to lose my Job and my partner of something doesn't give soon - but I can feel it in my bones that that isn't going to happen. Not any time soon anyhow. I can't keep existing like this. So many countless google searches and doctors appointments and all leaves me feeling the same - like I need to eject out of my body and never return. Here is something seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously seriously wrong with me.