Suck My Verbs

. . .I've been drowning in my alone time. . .as of late. Rediscovering the places my heart use to take me. .before you. Before every poem, letter, apostrophe and exclamation point was placed in your honor. I like hearing the silence of my own thoughts. The clarity in which this solitude brings is unremarkable. Untainted freedom within these four walls.The Pitter patter of rain along my windows soothes my soul. I missed how much I love that. The ice from the cup of honey jack kisses my lips, before the fluttering fluorescent lights cascade along my breasts. My toes pressed firmly on the wood floors, our thighs once danced upon. Leaving my body & soul restless. See, I've been drowning in my alone time as of late, rediscovering the things I've buried in my hearts crate. I've been. .taking accountability for my past mistakes and admitting to myself; I wasn't ready in the first place. . . .I've been drowning in my alone time. . .as of late. [#sorryforthewait] -#Wordsbyzee • • • • • ••• ••• •••• ••• PHOTOGRAPHY @bennieroosevelt • • • • • ••• ••• •••• ••• #Poeticqueeniam #writersofinstagram #brokenheartedchronicles #retrospect #wordporn #neededyou #love #lust #solitude #writersofinstagram #Poets #writers #poetsofinstagram #iwrite #iregret #poetry #writerscommunity #blackauthors #writers #tumblrpoet #poetic #you #tmnsupporters #sorryforthewait #bookcomingsoon #mypenbleedsforyou

Loving you was killing me. . . .I started to wither away internally, consumed by your negativity. Fucked by your expectations and things you demanded from me. I thought I had a diamond, but you were a cubic zirconia. I smiled in our photos but my eyes uttered dystopia. Loving you was killing me. . when all needed was a connection. My heart told me "run fast" the minute I felt disconnected; infatuated by the sea-sawing happiness & physical attraction. I convinced myself this would all make sense if I played my role. Convinced that if I did what you said. . .[this] would get better for us both. Convinced if I stayed longer, it wouldn't matter how unhappy I was unclothe. Lies I'd tell myself just to cope. See. . . Loving you was killing me. . . .I started to wither away internally. I started to neglect myself spiritually. I tried to be less woke, just so you can stay sleep mentally. Loving you was killing [me]. -#Wordsbyzee ・・・ Photography @makewonderspa ・・・ #Poeticqueeniam #writersofinstagram #brokenheartedchronicles #retrospect #wordporn #neededyou #love #lust #regret #writersofinstagram #Poets #writers #poetsofinstagram #iwrite #iregret #poetry #writerscommunity #blackauthors #writers #tumblrpoet #poetic #you #tmnsupporters #sorryforthewait #bookcomingsoon #mypenbleedsforyou

See, I was in love with someone I haven't even met. Trying to piece together how our lives would fit. Talking over Skype, Tango and text messages. Frustrated with the turmoils of a long distance relationship . Recieving email confirmations about "I love you "packages that were sent and...keeping your eye on the clock because of the 3hour difference. Daydreaming about the first kiss as if you invented it. See, I was in love with someone I havent even met. Sharing childhood stories and a list of regrets. Conversation about our past lovers and heartaches, how if you knew then, what you know now there would be less mistakes. Talks about how our hearts found each other in the first place. See, I was in love with someone I havent even met yet. Serenading one another with our voices until we got no rest, nights spent alone, with our phones chest to chest. See, I was in love with someone I haven't even met. Trying to piece together how our lives would fit. Talking over Skype, Tango and text message. Frustated with the turmoils of long distance relationships. Recieving email confirmations about "I love you "packages that were sent and...keeping your eye on the clock because of the 3hour difference. . .see I was in love with someone I haven't even met. . ° #Wordsbyzee© Photo credit: @mr.eroticnoire #writerscommunity #iwrite #intoodeep #poeticqueeniam #poetictendancies #longdistance #poet #erotictry #tmnsupporters #sorryforthewait #mypenbleedsforyou✒

💭your type of love always reminded me of those warms days spent caressing the blades of grass our legs once tumbled in. Succulent kisses that swallowed my lips, a map drawn on my body by your fingertips, Hand in hand by the water...escaping into sweet bliss. Your type of love always kept me warm, staring at the clouds closely as we watched them form. Toes bent upward with your knees on the floor...covered in each other, hearts beating in uniform. 💭your type of love always reminded me of those warms days spent caressing the blades of grass our legs once tumbled in. Succulent kisses that swallowed my lips, a map drawn on my body by your fingertips, Hand in hand by the water... escaping into sweet bliss. [The Little Things] #wordsbyzee© Photocredit: @sirdexrjones

See, I know there's a chance that I might not be just yours, you may be somebody else's... but if I got the chance Queen, I would praise the ground you walked on. I would hold the sun responsible for your over joyed smile. I would make sure that I held your embraces a little tighter. I would kiss all your aches all your joints and all your pains. I would love you slowly until you said every syllable in my name. You would drive me insane, you will make my body craves you will teach me desire, filling me with thoughts that would rattle my brain. See, I'm trying to be okay with the idea that you're somebody else's but it's hard to think that the love we share could be somebody else's. That these soul connections and these passionate mornings spent submerged in one another mean something. That the ground would still shake from our boundless affection...that im the one with all your love an attention. See, I know there's a chance that I might not be just yours, you may be somebody else's... but if I got the chance Queen, I would praise the ground you walked on... [memories]. ¤ PHOTOCREDIT: @weirdoutkast #Wordsbyzee #poeticqueeniam #intoodeep #love #writersofinstagram #morningsex #missingyou #poeticthoughts #writerscommunity #tumblrpoet #tmnsupporters #mypenbleedsforyou✒

💭Your name. Your lips. Your kiss. Your skin. Your scent. Your hands. Your sex. Your love. Your taste. Your smile. Your voice. Your intelligence. Your stature. Your deliverance. Your chest. Your ass. Your arms. Your legs. Your 200 eye lashes that flutter in the dark. Your warm breath circulating on the back of my knees. Your scratch marks left onto of neck. Your wrist. Your ankles. Your confidence. Your mouth. Your face. Your soft angelic hands. Your style. Your grace. Kisses taste like butter pecan. I could sit here for another 10mins or 10days describing why these butterflies in my stomach still havent gone away. #Wordsbyzee #poeticqueeniam #poetsofinstagram #tumblrpoet #writerscommunity #iwrite #intoodeep #instapoet #tmnsupporters #mypenbleedsforyou✒

💭Temptation is calling me and I’ve been doing nothing but dancing with the idea of a thrill. Flicking your words with my tongue as I repeat everything you say. I want you in the ways that leave my mouth dry, thirsty for your touch. It’s funny how the smell of your gets my pulse racing, my hands shaking, and the beads of sweat to appear on the back of my neck. Funny thing is, I’m not sure if you even realize I’ve fantasized about you for the last 45days in the shower. Touching myself slow, envisioning your hand tracing the wrinkles on my knuckles. “Fuck me” I think to myself as “hello” parts your lips. Casual smiles and cat eyed side glances have become my only reprieve from this burning desire. “Want me”. I think… as your words ride my ear drums until they seep into my ear canal. This temptation and burning desire is taking hold of me, as the warmth from my juices sits inside my favorite Vickie’s. “Taste it”…I think as I watch you bite your bottom lip deep in thought. Wanting and craving to know how it feels upon my cli… *mmm I have to watch myself…before the thoughts of you moisten my fingertips, the same way they do my thoughts. Temptation has my mind and my heart playing cat and mouse, as my bones ache for your body to erupt on top of mine. I want you in the ways that leave my mouth dry, thirsty for your touch, the smell of your gets my pulse racing. Beads of sweat appear on the back of my neck, hands shaking from temptation. • Photocredit: @luvisblack3 #Wordsbyzee© #poeticqueeniam #poetictendencies #poetsinmotion #instapoet #tumblrpoet #poetsofinsta #poetsinspirepoets #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #tmnsupporters #mypenbleedsforyou✒

💭She said..”Did you learn your lesson yet? Lusting for the very thing you’ve try so hard to get rid of. Reminiscing on how it used to feel…but that shit isn’t real love. Real love isn’t painful although you may experience pain, but the pain of disappointment isn’t the same as a heart break. It’s kind of ironic who you allow in your heart Queen, settling for the now when you’re much smarter than that Queen. Did you learn your lesson yet? I’m only asking because I know you’re tired of these harsh reality checks, crossing oceans for people who wouldn’t even jump a puddle, wondering what’s next in this internal rebuttal. Queen, did you learn your lesson yet? Or are you still stuck between a rock and a hard place, placing all your cards on the table to have them thrown in your face. You told yourself the last time was the last time yet you find yourself here again…talks about what it is and what it should have been. Aren’t you exhausted from trying to convience yourself of what you already know. It’s time to realize it’s okay to let go. Time to pick up the pieces and face the facts. Queen, did you learn your lesson yet? •Photocredit @dolo_hymnself #Wordsbyzee© #ddgllcowns #poet #iwrite #instapoet #poetry #lifelessons #love #noregrets #poeticqueeniam #poetsinmotion #Queenswhowrite #poetsofinsta #writersofinstagram #intoodeep #morningthoughts #shesaid #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭...You opened your door and heard "Baby, drop those panties to the floor"..I know dinner is on the table, but I'm ready for my main course. I just want you in this bed. I want to make you moan. I'm ready to suck every last kiss, releasing tension from my bones. "Pacify me" you said as I place my fingers on your hips. Legs straddling my thighs, touching you, dripping wet. I undress you fully as you start to kiss on my neck, you whisper "give it all to me baby, I know you've been stressed". My body starts to break out in a hot sensual sweat. I lay your body down, now we're chest to chest. Slowly suckling your chest as you grip my arms, "take your time baby" you tell me as I kiss you hard. Slow grinding until your legs start to tense up, feet planted in the sheets as my mouth becomes your cup. Tasting every drop of you until you've had enough, nail digging, ass slapping I know you like it rough...and baby I've had a long day today and I'd rather take it out on you, soul fucking and intimacy until neither of us can move. Paralyzed in our long day dues, releasing all of me inside of you. •📷 @kevonr_photography2 #Wordsbyzee© #poeticqueeniam #ddgllcowns #poetry #instapoet #poetsinspire #tumblrpoet #writerscommunity #iwrite #tmnsupporters #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭She said, "Queen, no disrespect but, all I want to do right now, is fuck and smoke. Inhale your lips as we both take a deep toke. I want to kiss you where it hurts most. With the taste of pineapple kush sliding down my throat. Mixed saliva, drowning me slow. Those sweet juices dripping from your vagina, even if that's a little too much to know. All I want to do is fuck and smoke. Watching your veins surface and stomach tighten with each deep stroke. On Cloud 9, flying as I surf along your coast. Sweet love making, finger tingling and numb nerves. Cherry red eyes, glazed like a Krispy Kreme donut. All I want to do is fuck and smoke. Inhale your lips as we both take a deep toke. Watching your veins surface and stomach tighten with each deep stroke. Kush infused saliva exchanged with each penetrated boasts...•💨[Until I choke]. •#Poeticmuse: @adelesupreme #Wordsbyzee©

💭…There’s something so uncontrollably sexy about you when you get mad. When your nose frowns and your mouth curves…when you pout your lips and don’t say a word. When I kiss your forehead and you still remain quiet, when I brush your legs and you sit there in silence. In those very moments I can’t wait to pin your stubborn ass along these bedroom walls, kiss you soft until your panties fall. 😏 Don’t you see babe your aggressiveness is a turn on, pushing me away will only make me want you more. Kissing your neck as you tell me to leave you alone. Biting your chest and sucking on your ear lobes. There’s just something so uncontrollably sexy about you when you get mad…the way you huff and puff and toss your bags. I’m starting to think you like when I grip you up…when I push you against the shower walls telling you enough is enough. I will eat away your stress…your tension and long days…I just want to please you babe until my name is all you can say. You give me this crazy feeling I could never describe, I wish we had mirrors on the ceiling, so I can watch you as you ride 💦 Just come over here so I can make you feel better, make your knees weak, make your inner thighs wetter. You know I love your bite marks, your scratches, and your soft moans…your loud cries, your facial expressions and all your various tones. No matter what your attitude is like, it’s something I can weather because I know hands down no one is going to put it on you better… mmm *bites lips*…I’ll help you subtract your clothes and shoes too…because my hands are the only things you’ll have to add to you. Get upset all you want…it really isn’t that bad…because you know there’s something so uncontrollably sexy about you when you get mad. 😼• 📷 @andrewthomasclifton Photocredit: @exquisiteblackart #Wordsbyzee© #ddgllcowns #poeticqueeniam #poetry #erotictry #poetsinmotion #poetictendencies #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭I miss the way you stroke my soul..the same way you stroke your piano keys. You could fill me up with one kiss and fuel me entirely. You love me for the person that unfolds behind these decadent French doors, I swear you inspire me.. and every time you leave I want more, you know what’s inside of me. This is the third sleepless night in a row…where I wish your voice was my lullaby, I search for your symphony out my window as my eyes watch lovers pass me by. I miss you… and I know sometimes my insecurities can push you away, but would I be wrong if I asked you to stay? To love me tender just like the summer nights we spent underneath the stars. Countless conversations about where we are going and what we are. I was always so content in the moments our lips caught flames, and from that very same moment…your hands on my body never felt the same. I miss you…and I’m no longer afraid to admit it, these nights without you next to me leaves my lullaby unfinished…[*to be continued*] Photocredit the amazing: @hughmorrisphotography #Wordsbyzee© #ddgllcowns #poetry #poems #poet #imissyou #lullaby #poeticqueeniam #erotictry #tumblrpoet #writersmind #poetsinmotion #poeticmuse #writersoftumblr #poetictendencies #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭If I told you the truth about me, you’d probably think that I was telling a lie. See, I was raised a little differently, I’ve been through some fucked up situations in my life. I could sit here and cry victim to being another fatherless child…or I could sit here and talk about how my mother hasn’t seen happiness in a while. You want me to open up more than just your legs on this bed, you want more from me than just some mind blowing head. More than just toe curling kisses and moist limbs, Ontop of the counter in the Kitchen. You want to know how my life story began. How my thoughts form, how I find my courage. You want to know why I keep my heart so silent, but Queen I grew up in a time where things weren’t always promised. My eagerness to love has become so seldom. Now a days even my solitude is a little overwhelming. Queen, I don’t want you assume I fear the idea of being committed, I actually appreciate the art. The idea of breaking down ones walls and expanding your thoughts. Shattering insecurities, and exposing our flaws. That’s what I love about love most of all. What I’m weary of is how quickly we fall. Infatuated with moist thighs and locked jaws. See, I was raised a little differently, I’ve been through some fucked up situations in my life. I can speak to you about relationships, my childhood or my pride..but lately, I’ve found myself numbing the aches that my soul tries to hide. Masking emotions while caressing your thighs. I’ve spent countless nights searching for comfort in this bottle of jack. Searching for something that makes my soul feel erect. See what I have to offer you will only fulfill your physical being. Those moments you need that hand gripping, flesh grabbing, ass squeezing. Fueling all my desires and erotic feelings, hoarse voices in the morning from the passionate screaming. 💭 sighs, I know you want more from me than just your legs pressed on this bed. More than just some mind blowing, toe curling, bomb ass head. More than just soft kisses on your moist limbs, but you’re asking for more than what I am willing to give…•📷 @trillamericana2 #Wordsbyzee© #poets #erotictry #poems #iwrite

💭I crave the taste of you in everything. Making sure I indulge whole heartily to be sure I don't miss a single drop. Filling me up until I tell you to stop. I crave the taste of you flowing down my throat, slow and sweet, drowning me until I choke. I crave the way your moist finger tips graze my bottom lip, as my tongue slowly sucks on them...shit... I crave the way you make my body feel with my numb toes and soft lips, messy hair and tight grips, wrapped legs and our ass's bare...I swear...I crave the taste of you in everything first, I'm a fein for you, please quench my [thirst]. •Photocredit: @mr.eroticnoire #Wordsbyzee© #erotictry #thrist #poetry #poetsofinsta #iwrite #poeticqueeniam #tumblrpoet #writersofinstagram #poetcorner #tmnsupporters #thankyou #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭As the minutes turn into hours, and the hours turn into days..I realize I will always love you. From the way that you brush your teeth to the way that you curl your hair…I realize I will always love you. And even the way you say my name or scratch me up my ribcage…I realize I will always love you. Endless laughter, brand new chapters, more adventures with no convincing…I realize I will always love you. 2am pleasure…stopping at no measure..I realize I will always love you. Morning kisses and mesmerizing stares, infinite passion as you explode everywhere…I realize I will always love you. And when you throw little fits, I just let you have them because I know in 2mins your neck is what I’ll be grabbing, shoulders pressed firmly against our new sheets, tossed blankets and bed squeaks. Kisses that are bittersweet as I take all of you and you take all of me. I will never get use to the feeling of ecstasy with you, sensual stimulation on every level x2. You keep me guessing and waiting for what’s next, it’s way more than just spontaneous sex..or intimacy, the joining of two souls, letting go of your body and letting another take control. I love you because you allow me to be unapologetically me, endless committed moments as you submit yourself to me..I feel free. I love you because you are true to what you believe, never compromising your values, always looking out what’s best for me. From the moment you open your eyes in the morning to the closing of them at night, I realize that you are indeed Mrs. Right. .the prototype, the closest thing to real, I realize I will always love you because you give me a love I can always feel. [Surreal] • #Poeticmuse: @scrapperella 📷 @ra_image #wordsbyzee© #ddgllcowns #poems #poetry #poeticqueeniam #erotictry #writersofinstagram #instapoet #poetsinmotion #writersmind #poetictendencies #mypenbleedsforyou ✒️

💭”you make me feel so…” she said as she exhaled even deeper this time…”you make me feel so damn beautiful..you make me feel alive.” Little does she know, I find art in the way the beads of water drip from her skin, as my tongue races to taste every last one of them.” I smile and press her face against the slick shower walls…cradling her hips from behind, leaning in slowly as I whisper “baby you’re mine.” Slow grinds, followed by heavy sighs danced within the steam, fogged mirrors and pounding fists filled every crevice and seam. You scream “right there…please!” as your last exhale slowly finishes..gasping for air, hands pressed stretched along the wall as you take a second for your mind to replenish. Your hair delicately begins to fall..you grab my head and kiss me slow, sending chills from my rib cage down to my toes…I swear these are the sweetest kisses I’ve ever known. “I love you” escapes your lips as you climb out the shower..”record time baby…we were only an hour”😏 I laugh and look at you as you begin to touch me…thinking to myself “damn, how did I get so lucky?” [Shower Diaries] Photocredit: @luvisblack3 #Wordsbyzee©#ddgllcowns #poetry #poems #erotictry #poets #poem #instapoet #poetsinmotion #poeticqueeniam #tmnsupporters #writersofinstagram #mypenbleedsforyou✒️

💭As I take a deep pull from this spliff, I begin to really reflect. To all the supporters on my poetry page, y’all are really the shit! I let you into parts of my mind, that I’ve always held back. Certain parts of my heart exposed, hoping at least one person connects. I know my lifestyle is a little different, I’m aware of that..but thank you to any reader who can look past that. For the curious minds who just like to skim through 👀 my page, I appreciate you the most on my filthiest days. Knowing one day you’ll slip up and double ❤️ tap. Hands moist with your fingers in between your lap, I thank you too. Special thank you to anyone who’s ever helped me bloomed. I appreciate the comments, the opinions, the tags. The beautiful Muses who don’t mind me spilling my truth out onto my pad. You’re the first to read my life journeys, my hidden wounds, I really appreciate you too. Thank you to the people that report me, I swear you just make me go harder. Website will be up in less than three weeks, just in case I’m thought of 😏 To anyone who has no idea exactly what I do. Take five minutes to read a piece or two. I appreciate anyone with a voice, a story, an open mind. I truly appreciate each reader who dissects every line. Thank you to everyone who is reading this right now. It’s you who should honestly [take a bow] -Taste my nouns #wordsbyzee© #ddgllcowns #poeticqueeniam #poet #tumblrpoet #poetsofinstagram #poems #spliff #poetsinspirepoets #iwrite #tmnsupporters #thankyou #mypenbleedsforyou✒️