god I actually made plans to do something fun during pride for once I was gonna go to a drag show with my friend and her fiancee but they didn't get tickets in time and now it's sold out and yeah I could go by myself but I don't want to! I'm tired of doing things by myself!
I'm tired of all my friends having more friends than me and the friends I see the most all being in long-term relationships and I'm always the odd one out I just hate how my twenties have turned out and I hate that I'm about to turn 30 and I still feel so lonely and alienated despite all my efforts to be more social and push myself out of my comfort zone
These feelings are not my friend's fault obviously but I'm so tired of trying and failing to have fun why is it so hard for me to be a normal person in the world why is it so easy for everyone around me to connect with someone else on an intimate level
