Anticipatory grief is crazy because I could be looking at a pair of wool socks and just be hit by a pang of sadness that consumes my entire mental space and then I try to pretend I’m operating the same as usual but really I’m only out shopping for wool socks because I’m cold at night because only my mom knew how to set the temp just right during these middle weather seasons and she knew when to take out the heavy blankets but more than that she’d be the only person to hold me like I’d want to be held when i felt alone or scared… anyway i need to find some wool socks that aren’t 70% polyester

I’d like wealthy people to fund artists again (they don’t do this anymore because rich people don’t actually care about art or have taste) … however they still keep around jesters … which I think… is telling

Sometimes when I go to Solidcore (don’t laugh) I look around and realize all these girls have upper body strength because they lift …. Maybe I should also … and then proceed to do absolutely nothing about it …