Just Thoughts

Neither fire nor ice will be the death of me

Indifference is the key

My longing for you is a symphony

played to a deaf audience

My longing for you is a blazing wildfire

surrounded by a frozen tundra

My longing for you is a torrential monsoon

falling on the Sea

A mighty force of nature 

Sometimes words don’t come 

Why should they pass through me?

What makes a journey through my

Mind and mouth

I wanted so badly to be there,

Really i did!

But Words broke in

Words walk across paper

But get lost somewhere 

I fell in love...

it’s so hard to explain

because I know she has problems-

like all big cities

but

she was all my favorite colors

green, blue, and grey

with purple sunsets

and she greeted me

with sunshine 

and friendly people

a heart-home

of art

food

A great friend suggested I get back into travelling after my divorce, but that was during Covid so I had to wait. 

On June 2nd, 2021 I boarded a plane bound for Seattle . I wasn’t scared, but I did have butterflies. I used to be able to sleep like a baby on flights-even through rough turbulence-my mom couldn’t understand how she would be throwing up in the barf bag while I slept soundly through the bumps. I hoped I would still be okay on the ride. 

My friend had taken care of the tickets, and we had great seats. I sat in the middle on the first leg of the flight but could still see out the window, and the experience was just as awesome as I remembered. Sitting by the window for the last part of the flight to Seattle was even better. Seeing everything from that angle was pure magic. It made me feel so alive to see the world in a way that I had once loved but kept myself from seeing for so very long. I realized how much I had needed to see that view-to remember how tiny I am compared to this great, big world. I realized how important it is to NOT let fear-yours or someone else’s-keep you from experiences that help you grow and make you feel more alive. That is the only way to keep yourself from becoming smaller.