Up late thinking about my apartment that’s coming my way but honestly if I were to be for real I would want an apartment with an elevator and in unit washer with a balcony and a gym with nice sunlight and a nice view of nature or the city, I would be grateful to have a sauna and a hot tub, I am grateful to be able to afford it while I travel and have 10k in the bank, I am grateful for the life I am living and overjoyed with who I am, I am grateful to do art and follow my fashion dreams I’m grateful for being a student in fashion and so many more I’m just grateful to have everything I ever wanted and becoming the best I am!

My real question is when am I going to be consistent!

I’m at a point of my life where, I have to trust myself, I have to love myself, I have to forgive myself, I’m healing and growing and as much as people have hurt me, I’ve hurt people too, and this is for you! I’m sorry that I wasn’t who I pretended to be, I’m sorry that you took me in your family and I fucked your brother. In your house, and right after i promised to never fuck him, I’m fucked up, and then I took a trip to see him, again, now I’m just feeling guilty of it all and I’m falling from the heaviness of it all. Another secret once again that I really don’t care of keeping, and your older sister was there too ugghhhh, yeah I can’t go back so I must keep on looking forward, I mean I’m pretty certain you have, so I’m taking it all back to me, because I need to keep my sanity, I’m not a horrible person, but I am an honest and truthful being! I confess my sins just to breathe again. So yes, I’m sorry, who I was is not who I’m going to be, and I’m sorry you seen that side of me. I pray for you and your family, thank you for letting me in, I hope we can cross paths again and be friends, but for now I must look within. There’s a a lot of change waiting to happen inside of me and it’s giving me a peace of mind. Thank you, and thank you God, for the past, the present and the future for our interactions.

No one can understand the feeling of getting off work at 6am and enjoying the silence of the world and hearing the tunes of Mother Nature. Quiet roads, and tweety birds, even Ducks walking the streets. Yes this is truly his creation.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm, my man hasn’t texted me back🥲 I think it’s cuz I do to much or he’s sick or he needs space…and Im still shopping for an outfit ouuuuuuuuu omgosh I can do this and he loves me so much!! He’s just getting ready for my birthday!!

Hi, it was the 1st but now it’s the 2nd of the month in our same loop of loops, but one day we will break free and forgive ourselves for everything!

I embrace my authentic self, shining my unique light and breaking free from societal norms and expectations.