Taru

I wish I could tell you, Mother that just like you.. I too am fighting with myself. But I cannot, so I guess you'll have to stay annoyed with me rotting in bed all the time.

I think there is no such thing as afterlife and even if there is, who knows? I think all we have is now. Today. Life is very long but it ends. So if you get lucky and if you can, try to do all that you want to do. Try to be with people you want to be. Hug harder, kiss longer, walk slower if you get chance. Love people and take care of relationships. Let go of what doesn't value you, life is too short to waste time on bullshit. Go where you belong and if you don't find a place to call home, build it. Just from now onwards, live and love to the fullest.

At this point I think I have dealt with a lot, almost everything, almost everything. Sometimes I wonder what I would have been or how my life would have been today if life didn't show me its other side. I also think if anything in my life made sense because after whatever happened or almost happened, I am still alive. Couldn't run away, cause there wasn't any other option but to face. The only way out was through, I feel I still am partially in. And I think maybe it's okay if nothing had any meaning.. because I am still alive, I may not be tomorrow or some day so it's okay.

I think the idea of "meant to be" is beautiful, but realistically, connections are mostly a result of choices, timing, and effort. I feel this way because so many people around us never find their endgame, and what they end up with is something I don’t think should be meant for anyone.

Kalli Bheed Ch Baithi Teri Peed Le Baithi Russeya Ranjha Ve Mera Main Vi Kamm Na Aithi

tujhe sochun to bikhar jaun

When I look back at my relationships with everyone. I see myself as a person who will be remembered as someone who was there, who was present, I will be remembered as someone who cared and gave chances. And hopefully I will be remembered as a person who was Hot and Cool but also felt warm. Someone who listened, and talked. Who was brave enough to cry and who laughed.. a lot. Who owned their mistakes and was considerate. When I look back at my relationships I hope I was someone who will be remembered and who was okay with never being remembered.