#yeji angst

For five years, you’ve poured and sacrificed everything you had—money, time, life even—just to show how much you adore this woman, and she certainly appreciates it. With so many memories being shared, from sneaking out late at night for a date to avoid any media to a fancy dinner out in the open, you know that she was gonna be the one that you want to lay your head upon, the one that you wanna come back home to every day, and the one that will bring you comfort just by looking at their beauty.

All in all, you loved Hwang Yeji.

Unfortunately, it has come to an end.

In such a cruel, tragic, and pure disgusting way, your whole life has turned itself upside down. All gone, in just one minute.

Five years. It took you five years to realize that everything was fake, from the very beginning. That smile when you bought her that vanilla ice cream? The teardrops she shed when you gave her that necklace? The happiness she felt when you finally came over to her new apartment?

All of the times that you have shared with Hwang Yeji were never real.

The black box in your hand feels heavy. Though it doesn’t beat the weight inside of your heart. You truly don’t know how to feel at all—it’s like everything has left your body, and all it retains are your empty regrets. Regrets on how you haven’t done everything to make her stay. Regrets that you weren’t a good partner to her. Regrets on the lack of love that you expressed towards her.

The ego comes back into the soulless body however, telling you that it was her fault all this time. You want to believe it. You really do. The hints were clear as day. You were just too caught up with your own point of view. The view of you both being madly in love with one another while in reality, it was only on your side.

You didn't even know what exactly went wrong. The other day, you were in an hour-long call with her, listening intently about all her stress at work, calming her down with words of encouragement and ended the night by tucking her into bed, like you always do. It's crucial for you to never miss wishing her days in the morning and at night, even with how busy your life can get.

If only you knew how useless they were to her.

The further you walk on these sidewalks, the deeper the pain feels. Suddenly, your hands sense an urge to open the box, letting you see the content inside—a ring. Engraved on it is the date of when you two first intertwined with one another, and it twists your stomach the more you look upon it.

25.5.20 HYJ

You laugh.

Bullshit. It's all bullshit.

No one's around to give a damn about you. Not like you need anyone anyways. You’ve accepted the fact that you're always gonna be alone. She didn't even try to find you, even after you’ve seen the truth. Maybe there's still a shed of light behind the things she had done. But with the way things are, you despise believing it.

“Sorry, but I don't think I’m ready yet.”

Yeah, of course she's not.

She wouldn't be fucking with another man if she was.

The air was cold. Colder than it usually is. It doesn't phase you. You're used to this—the freezing atmosphere is your favorite scene to have a walk with her back then, in the midst of dawn, hand in hand while she’s covered with your coat and holding you ever so tightly, not wanting to let go because you're her only source of warmth, as she claims.

Now, the flame has lost its spark, and the warmth has diminished, nowhere to be felt by anyone again.

She doesn’t love you.

Your eyes twitched, remembering the scene that unfolded hours before—the exact reason that you fell into despair. The street lamps blurred, but your memory was not at all, and you just wished for it to disappear off of your mind. But it couldn’t. The cut was too deep. Deep as she’s sinking down on another man’s dick, riding away enthusiastically, not realizing that you’re watching them in shock and horror.

Your body trembles in both fear and rage. You wanted to do something—confront them, punch this bastard directly in their face, end their life even—but you can’t move. Not because you’re tied up. Not because you’re threatened. It’s because of her. Her expressions. That darned smile, begging for more. Her eyes rolling back in pleasure, holding him so tightly while her hips move expertly onto him. She’s enjoying the moment. More than any of your moments together.

“Why…” was the only thing you could utter, before leaving the scene.

The grip on the box tightens so much that you could almost break it. It’s a useless piece of garbage at this point. Your head turns, looking at the water below—an endless void. The wind whistled through, ripples emerging to sign that it’s really there, quietly. Waiting. Inviting.

The railing disappears from your view.

There was no rush.

You simply fall.

The cold hits you like a wall, shocking the air from your lungs. Water rushed into your mouth, the taste bitter and thick. You begin to sink, and for a second, panic shoots through your brain. Your hands flapped around desperately, reaching out for the light.

Though, the words echoed in your ear, “Sorry, but I don't think I’m ready yet.” Your hands get weaker. What are you reaching out for anyway? Towards more pain and emptiness? Suffering in silence, as you watch the love of your life being taken away? Why do you need to care anymore? What was the point? To live?

She’s gone.

You stopped struggling.

The water pressed you in further from all sides. The tingling cold now turns into a heavy numbness all over your body. Your vision starts getting murky, and the light above fades as you sink deeper. Pressure builds inside of your head and lungs.

Suddenly, the box has left your hands and floats away. The little bits of hope inside of you tried to retrieve it, but it wasn’t enough. And instead, it perfectly moves right in front of your view. It’s like fate wants to give you a proper send off.

In an instant, all of your life flashes in your eyes. It has finally settled in. You reached out to the box before it sank and took the ring out. A tiny spark in the middle of this void. You held onto it tightly,

Why?

Your instincts drove you to do so.

And as fate wills it, it was the start of the next day.

You opened your mouth. Not to breathe. You’re letting go.

The water does what it does—filling itself into your chest, putting out the small flame and replacing it with emptiness. You didn’t wanna struggle anymore. You’ve accepted your fate.

The light finally vanished.

Your world darkens.

Happy birthday, Hwang Yeji. I wish you nothing but happiness.

Maybe, it was all an illusion.

And if it was, you’ll never come back to it.

The vessel died a long time ago.

But the dream still lives.

The dawn is imminent.

You're halfway there.

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a/n; from a tavern prompt to a reasonable short continuation. gets a little fucked up soooo be warned? i swear it's important to the story-

anyways, this was a part of a challenge i hosted on fanprose for beloved yejer's birthday! so if you see a sudden resurgence of yeji fics as of late, it was all me. :D

and don't worry, i'm still working on that series and a bunch of other stuff, it's just that i've been unexpectedly busy as of late, so production will be halted at some point in times 💀

She stirred. A small shift of her hips, her body sliding closer even though there was no more space to close. Her lips found my collarbone, pressed a kiss there that was more instinct than intention, the kind of touch that came from muscle memory built over five years of mornings exactly like this.

"Morning," she murmured, voice sleep-rough and affectionate in a way she only ever was in these unguarded moments, before the day demanded she become Leader Yeji, before the world required armor.

"Morning." My hand slid up her spine automatically, fingers tracing the familiar landscape of her back through the t-shirt she'd stolen from me last night. My t-shirt. The possessiveness went both ways, written in borrowed clothes and claimed space and the particular way our bodies fit together after years of practice.

She kissed her way up my neck slowly, deliberately, the way she did when she wanted something. Her hand slipped between us without ceremony, found me already half-hard from morning and proximity and the simple fact of her, and she made this small pleased sound low in her throat that went straight to my cock.

"Someone's awake," she teased. Her thumb stroked along my length through my boxers, that practiced touch that knew exactly how much pressure I liked, exactly how to make need build in my gut like hunger.

I was fully hard now, blood rushing south, body responding the way it always did to her touch, to her voice, to the weight of her against me. She pulled back just enough to look at me through half-lidded eyes, hair mussed from sleep, lips slightly swollen, expression soft and warm and full of that affection she only showed me in moments like this when no one else was watching.

She moved in one smooth motion, practiced and fluid, straddling me. The sheet pooled around her hips. My t-shirt rode up, exposing the curve of her thighs, the place where we'd join. Morning light filtered through the curtains, soft and golden, catching in her hair like light through hanji screens, making her look like something out of a dream, something too good to be real.

She was beautiful. She was always beautiful like this, soft and unguarded and mine in ways she wasn't for anyone else.

She tugged my boxers down just enough, lined me up with that casual efficiency that came from knowing exactly how our bodies worked together, and sank down onto me with a soft gasp.

Her warmth enveloped me completely. That slick tight heat that came from knowing each other's bodies so well, from five years of mornings exactly like this, from the kind of familiarity that made everything easy. Good and right, exactly the way it should be.

"I love you," she whispered, her hands braced on my chest, hips beginning to move in that rolling figure-eight motion I'd memorized, that rhythm we'd perfected together through trial and error and patient practice.

"I love you too."

"You better."

It should have been teasing, the way she always said it, nose scrunching, half-laugh warming the edges. But her voice sounded wrong. Distant, like she was speaking from the other end of a tunnel, the words reaching me a half-second after her mouth moved. I knew before my brain caught up that this wasn't right.

I opened my eyes fully.

Her face. Wrong in ways I couldn't immediately name, just wrong the way a familiar room looks wrong when you walk into it in the dark and can't figure out what's been moved. Every line of expression gone, features wiped clean until nothing remained but the basic geography. Eyes flat and glassy as a doll's, staring through me at some fixed point in a distance that didn't exist. The idol mask she wore for cameras and crowds, except this time the mask was all there was - the warmth underneath scooped out, leaving only shell.

She kept riding me. Her hips moved with that same practiced rhythm, that same figure-eight I'd memorized over five years, but the warmth was gone, the connection severed, her body performing choreography without her presence animating it. Like someone had taught these movements to a machine that looked like her and forgotten to include the person underneath.

"Keep going," she said, and her voice came out flat, a recording, words arriving without breath behind them.

I tried to stop. My hips kept thrusting up to meet her, muscles moving autonomous, following instinct and muscle memory and five years of learning exactly how to move with her. My body refused to obey, continuing the motion while my mind screamed for it to stop.

"Yeji, wait, I -"

She didn't react. Just kept moving. Empty eyes staring through me.

The bedroom was too bright, the golden morning light burned white somehow, searing and wrong, bleaching color from the walls the way overexposure does to photos until everything hurt to look at. The walls pressed closer, narrowing the space, and the air turned thick like breathing through wet cloth.

I reached for her, some instinct telling me I needed to touch her, needed to confirm she was still there under whatever this was. My hands hit her skin and the wrongness was immediate - cold in a way skin shouldn't be cold when you're pressed against someone, waxy in a way that made me think of mannequins and funeral homes and things that look human from a distance but lose that quality the second you touch them.

"Yeji, please, what's -"

Water touched my knees. Cold and sudden, impossible because there was no pool here, no water, just bedroom floor and tangled sheets and Yeji above me. I looked down and found pool tile under my hands, harsh noon sun reflecting off water that shouldn't exist, the bedroom erased and replaced with poolside without any sense of transition, without movement, without logic. Just one frame it was hardwood and the next it was tile and water, reality editing itself while I was still trying to process the first impossibility.

Humidity pressed against my skin, thick and cloying, the air heavy with chlorine and salt and something underneath that smelled like decay, organic and sweet-rotten in the way things get when water pools in places sunlight can't reach.

The sun was white-hot and merciless, beating down with an intensity that should burn but only made everything feel more unreal, colors distorting, depth warping, like looking at the world through a lens that bent meaning before it reached my eyes.

Water lapped at the tile, each ripple too loud, echoing wrong, the sound bouncing off surfaces in ways that made it seem like the noise was coming from inside my skull rather than outside.

Yuna was beneath me now. Not Yeji. The switch had happened with the pool, one impossibility layered on top of another, and my body hadn't even paused to acknowledge the change. Her nails scratched my back, red lines blooming, the pain sharp and immediate and real in a way nothing else was. Her pussy clenched around my cock, wet and tight and wrong - too cold, flesh that had lost its heat but kept moving anyway, kept responding on autopilot the way bodies do in dreams, on muscle memory alone.

My hips were still moving. I couldn't stop them, couldn't override whatever autopilot had taken over, my body pistoning into her with mechanical precision while I watched from somewhere behind my own eyes. The slick sound of bodies joining without connection, without meaning, without anything resembling the intimacy I'd been inside moments ago.

Yeji stood at the pool's edge, watching. Not moving, not reacting, just standing there in that white sundress from our beach date, the one with tiny flowers that had looked so perfect in golden hour light. Like someone had placed a mannequin there and forgotten to animate it. The dress looked wrong now, too bright, too white, painful to look at in the harsh noon sun.

"You didn't stop with Yuna," she said, and her voice was flat, clinical, each word delivered without judgment or emotion, empty of any trace of the vulnerability that usually crept into her voice when she was hurt.

Anger would have been a mercy. Tears would have been human. This was the space where both used to live, scraped clean.

"Yeji, please, I -" I tried to pull out. My hips wouldn't listen. My cock stayed buried deep in Yuna's cold cunt, my body thrusting, betraying, writing proof across Yeji's silence with every motion. "It's not-I didn't mean -"

"I was always yours." Her face didn't change. Empty of anything that would've let me pretend she cared enough to hate me. "You were never mine."

The words landed somewhere behind my sternum and kept sinking.

"That's not true, I -"

"Was I not enough?" Four words, soft and certain, disappointment so profound it cut deeper than screaming ever could.

The question from Practice Room B. The fear she'd whispered five years ago when I'd found her sobbing at 2:47 AM, mascara running down her cheeks in black rivers, dreams crumbling around her. The wound at the center of everything, the one I'd spent five years pressing my hands against, proving wrong through action because she'd never believe words.

And here I was proving her right. Inside another woman. Muted above the waist and merciless below it, hips writing the answer to her question in a language she didn't need to translate.

Yuna's moans echoed underwater, distorted and distant, sound waves bending wrong through air that had gone thick and liquid. Her skin under my hands was like wax, cold and slightly tacky, not flesh but something that had been taught to approximate flesh without actually being alive.

The water in the pool had gone black.

Blacker than depth. The surface swallowed light whole and gave nothing back, a void wearing the shape of a pool.

The pleasure built despite everything, unwilling and inevitable, traitorous biology overriding ethics and intention and every desperate prayer that this would stop. My cock throbbed inside Yuna's cold cunt, pressure mounting in my balls, orgasm approaching with the certainty of something my body had already agreed to without consulting me.

"No -" I needed words. Confession, explanation, plea, anything with a shape I could push through my throat. "I'm sorry, I'm -"

Nothing formed.

My throat closed, muscles seizing, airway narrowing until breathing was like drowning. I opened my mouth and nothing came out, just silence, just the physical sensation of words dying before they could become sound.

I came.

The sensation carved through me, removing everything essential and leaving only the hollow architecture, only the parts that worked without needing me present. What should have been pleasure arrived as something closer to surgery - every nerve transmitting signals my brain couldn't parse, couldn't classify as ecstasy or violation, just overwhelming and wrong.

My cock pulsed once, twice, three times. Each spasm pulled something vital from my body, something being extracted that I'd need later and wouldn't have anymore. Not just cum but something deeper, some reservoir the orgasm had found and was draining methodically, leaving nothing behind but the mechanical parts.

The cum leaking into Yuna was ice where body heat belonged, proof of something I couldn't take back.

I was emptying. Not just physically but in some way I couldn't name, like the orgasm was stripping away everything that made me recognizable to myself and leaving only the parts that deserved this.

Yeji's empty eyes watched. Beyond tears, beyond accusation, beyond even disappointment - the look of someone who'd stopped expecting anything from me and found the resignation easier than she'd feared.

"Again," she said, soft and final, the word arriving with the patience of something already decided.

The scene stuttered.

Bedroom again. Morning light soft and golden, her body warm against mine, leg hooked over my thigh, floral scent and sleep and safety. Her lips on my collarbone.

"Morning."

No, not again, please not again - but my body was already responding, already hardening against her touch, already moving through the motions I couldn't stop, couldn't rewrite, the script running itself without my permission.

She kissed my neck. Her hand slid down, found me hard, and she made that pleased sound.

"Someone's awake."

Her voice distant, tunnel-echo, wrong from the start this time - no period of safety before the fracture, no grace period where I could pretend everything was fine.

I opened my eyes. Her face was already blank, already empty, the warmth never there to begin with.

"Keep going."

The bedroom was too bright, walls pressing closer, air turning thick.

Water at my knees before I could process the transition. Pool. Humidity crushing. Sun white-hot. Yuna beneath me, cold skin, wax texture, nails scratching but the nails were wrong, too sharp, too deliberate, Ryujin's nails, Ryujin's hands shoving me backward onto sun-baked wood, real beats silicone every time ghosting through the chlorine air like a memory that belonged to a different betrayal.

The sensations were bleeding together. Yuna's body under mine but Ryujin's voice in my ear, or was it both, or neither. Bodies superimposing, past and present collapsing into each other, every woman I'd fucked yesterday existing in the same space at once like overexposed film, like reality couldn't decide which betrayal to show me so it showed them all simultaneously.

Yeji watching.

"You didn't stop."

"I was always yours."

"Was I not enough?"

No no no not again please I can't-

My hips were moving. I couldn't stop them. The pleasure built unwilling, inevitable, my body performing the betrayal on repeat, proving her right again and again in cum and shame and inability to choose differently even when I knew what was coming.

My heart was racing. Actually racing, pounding so hard it hurt, rhythm accelerating beyond what should be possible. Each beat shorter than the last, time compressing around my pulse, seconds collapsing into milliseconds. The loop was speeding up. Reality skipping beats, jumping cuts, compressing the way dreams do when they know they're running out of time.

I came. The draining, hollowing cold spread through my core like something vital being siphoned away.

"Again."

Reset.

Bedroom. Morning light. Her warmth.

"Morning."

Again.

The third loop began without warning.

The compression was accelerating. Each reset shorter than the last, each cycle burning through the same beats faster, like watching footage speed up frame by frame until individual moments blurred into impressions divorced from meaning.

Bedroom dissolved mid-thrust. No warning. No transition. Just sudden humidity pressing against my skin, sudden chlorine burning my nostrils, sudden pool tile under my knees. The vertigo of it hit like whiplash, reality shifting without the mercy of preparation, my stomach lurching with displacement that had no physical distance to justify it.

Yuna arched beneath me, nails digging into my shoulders, red crescents blooming. Her pussy clenched around my cock with that mechanical precision, that cold tight grip that was the absence of Yeji in every dimension.

My hips pistoning - I couldn't stop them, couldn't override the autonomous motion, muscles refusing commands while my mind screamed and found no purchase, no control, no way to make it stop.

Yeji at the pool's edge, arms crossed, leader stance but face empty - authority without emotion, power without presence.

"You didn't stop with Yuna," she said. Each word stripped flat, precise and dead.

The words sank through me and kept going.

"I was always yours." Unfiltered. The vulnerability she'd never show awake forced out, extracted, displayed like evidence in a trial I was losing. "You were never mine."

My throat tightened. Words trapped somewhere between intention and voice, drowning before they could become sound.

"Was I not enough?"

The question hung in the air with the weight of something she'd been carrying for five years. The core wound made verbal, the fear from Practice Room B when she'd sobbed in my arms at 2:47 AM, mascara running, dreams crumbling.

"I got a D on my vocal evaluation. I'm going to fail. I don't belong here. I've wasted years -"

I'd found her in the corner, knees pulled to chest, trying to make herself small. Trying to disappear. I'd sat beside her without speaking, close enough to feel her shaking, waiting until she was ready.

"You're not going to fail," I'd told her with certainty I'd manufactured from hope and desperation and the absolute refusal to let her give up. "I've watched you, Yeji. The way you work. The way you refuse to give up. The way you get back up every single time they knock you down. You're going to debut. And you're going to be incredible."

She'd looked at me with swollen eyes, mascara streaked, and whispered the question that would haunt us both: "What if I'm not enough?"

I'd held her. Kissed her forehead. Made promises with my body that my words couldn't carry weight for. And eight months later I'd quit, left her, proven that maybe she was right to doubt, right to fear, right to protect herself from believing too hard in anything.

Now here in this place my guilt had constructed, the question returned. Direct. Devastating. Impossible to answer while my cock was buried in someone else, while my body performed betrayal on loop, while every thrust proved her worst fears correct.

Tears started falling down her cheeks.

The sight of them hit me like a fist to the chest, sharp and immediate, breaking through the wrongness with something that seemed true, that seemed like her.

I'd only seen her cry twice in five years.

Practice Room B. Mascara running, body shaking, letting me see her shattered because she was too exhausted to hide it anymore.

The beach. Golden hour light. Shimmer of moisture in her eyes after I'd told her she mattered, tears spilling freely enough that I'd reached up and wiped them with my thumbs, and she'd let me, she'd actually let me see her cry without flinching or deflecting or smiling it away.

Both times she'd trusted me. Let me in. Given me access to the soft parts she showed no one else.

Finally, I thought desperately. Finally something real. Finally her, not this empty shell -

The tear on her left cheek stopped halfway down and hung there, trembling against gravity like a water droplet on glass that hasn't decided whether to fall. I stared at it, waiting for physics to reassert itself, for the world to remember how things worked.

Instead it reversed. Began its slow climb back up her skin, defying every law I'd ever learned about how tears fall, how water moves, how grief gets expressed and released instead of recalled and swallowed. The glistening trail disappeared as it climbed, erasing the evidence of her vulnerability frame by frame, the universe editing out her pain the way she'd learned to edit it out herself.

I watched it retreat toward her tear duct, watched it get absorbed back into her eye, pulled inward the way a video rewinds, and something in my stomach lurched because tears don't do that, tears fall, that's how the world works.

Another tear formed on her right cheek, started falling, stopped, reversed. Climbing back up, disappearing, erasing itself. A third tear, a fourth, all of them following the same impossible pattern - falling and stopping and reversing and vanishing like the world was running a cleanup program on her pain.

Her mascara streaks were healing themselves. The black smudges fading, vanishing, color leeching out of existence, her pain being deleted from reality one pixel at a time.

Her face smoothed back into perfect composure. Leader Yeji mask settling into place. The "I'm fine" expression she wore for cameras and crowds and anyone who wasn't supposed to see her hurt. Armor reassembling itself without her conscious choice, protection reimposing itself brick by brick, wall by wall, until the fortress was complete again and nothing could reach her.

But her mouth was still frozen mid-accusation. Still open slightly. Perfect composed face above and that hint of pain below, wrongness layered on wrongness.

No. Don't hide. Please.

But she kept hiding anyway. Even here, even in this place my guilt had built, she was sealing herself shut against me.

Practice Room B flashed through the poolside air. Mascara streaks. Her body shaking in my arms. The vulnerability she'd given me at 2:47 AM because she was too exhausted to hold it back - and eight months later I'd quit, left her to debut alone. Proved she shouldn't have.

The beach flickered next. Golden hour. Tears she'd let me wipe from her cheeks with my thumbs. The soft parts, and I'd touched her face with hands that still knew the shape of Yuna's hips and Ryujin's ass from that morning.

My stomach dropped. The two memories hung side by side in the chlorine air, overlapping, superimposing - Practice Room B mascara bleeding into beach-light tears, both of them reversing now, both climbing back up her face, both being swallowed back into the locked place she kept them.

She'd shown me where she bled. Twice. And both times I'd handed her a reason to stop.

Don't let him see. Don't trust him with the real parts. Don't cry where he can witness it - he'll just prove you were right.

Her face was perfect now, blank and empty and composed, tears erased so completely they might have been a rendering error, a glitch the system had identified and patched. The vulnerability that had broken through for just a moment was gone, confiscated, returned to whatever locked box she kept it in when the world was watching.

But her mouth was still open. Still frozen in that position between speaking and silence. The wrongness of it visceral, watching her face refuse to align with itself, watching the mask not quite fit over the pain underneath.

Then her mouth opened wider. Too wide, wider than mouths should open, jaw unhinging like something was trying to escape from inside her skull, bones distorting impossibly, the angles all wrong, tendons straining against anatomy that no longer followed rules.

No sound came out. The silence was thick, suffocating - the air itself seemed to absorb sound, to eat it before it could form, imposing quiet through active suppression rather than simple absence.

She was trying to scream. The strain lived in her throat, in the trembling of her jaw, in the way her mouth kept opening wider like volume was the problem, like she just needed to try harder and sound would come, like there was some threshold of effort between pain and voice that she hadn't reached yet.

But nothing emerged. No sound at all - just silent gaping, voiceless suffering, agony she couldn't express even with her body contorted by the effort of trying.

I knew this shape of her mouth. She'd cried like this once, without sound, into my neck in Practice Room B after the vocal evaluation disaster. Trying so hard to stay quiet that nothing came out at all, just silent shaking, just muffled gasping, just this exact contortion of features that said I'm breaking but I can't let anyone hear it.

Five years of swallowing it down. Five years of "I'm fine" and deflection and hiding vulnerability behind jokes and competence and control. Five years of learning that expressing pain made you a burden, that asking for help made you weak, that the only acceptable response to hurt was to pretend it didn't exist until you could deal with it alone. All of it crystallized into this moment where she physically couldn't make sound, her body attempting to scream, everything in her needing to release what she was carrying, and nothing would come out.

Her silence said everything I'd refused to hear for five years. Everything she'd never been able to tell me because I'd never created space safe enough for her to speak it. Her unable to voice what she felt. Me unable to stop betraying her. Both of us trapped in patterns we'd built together, wound by wound, until the structure was too solid to tear down without destroying everything inside it.

Her hands reached for me. Trembling. Reaching because she was hurting and reaching was all she had left, her voice locked and her tears confiscated and only her hands still allowed to speak. This desperate grasping, this physical need for connection in the face of pain she couldn't name, couldn't express, couldn't make anyone understand.

I couldn't move. The space between us was only a few feet and it might as well have been the whole strait between Jeju and the mainland. Everything in me screaming to go to her, to close the distance, to pull her into my arms and tell her I was sorry, that I'd fix it, that I'd be better. And nothing in me answering. Nothing able to bridge that gap because my body was still thrusting into Yuna, still performing the betrayal that had brought us here, still answering her question with my hips in a language neither of us needed translated.

My body was a machine beneath me, moving, betraying. Paralyzed everywhere except the places that mattered, frozen in the one motion I needed to stop and couldn't, trapped in the mechanical repetition of hurting her while she reached for me in silence.

The pool water started rising. Black and viscous, something thicker than water now, oil slick and wrong, climbing past my ankles with terrible patience, with the inevitability of tide or consequences catching up. Instax photos appeared on the pool deck, scattered face-up, the white borders too bright in the harsh sun, too clean, too familiar.

The photos from our beach date. Golden hour on white sand that was already darkening at the edges of each frame, grains turning black like ash spreading, like the memory was rotting from the outside in.

One photo was within reach. The couple shot. Her cheek pressed against mine, both of us squinting into the lowering sun, her hand finding mine just before the shutter clicked. Both of us golden - lit and smiling, the ocean behind us blurred and beautiful, the world soft - focused and perfect in the way moments never actually are except through the mercy of distance.

"This one's for us," she'd said softly.

I reached for it without thinking. My hand closing around the edge. The card stock pulsing with heat that shouldn't be there, almost burning against my fingers, the emulsion alive and active beneath the surface.

I looked at the image.

It was developing in reverse.

The golden hour sunset bleeding into harsh noon. The pink-gold sky shifting to white-hot blue. The white sand finishing its decay to black, then the black dissolving too, reforming into pool tile and villa architecture. The romantic softness hardening into clinical brightness, beauty corrupting into evidence.

Our expressions changing. My fond gaze going blank. Her genuine smile flattening into that mechanical emptiness. The tenderness draining out frame by frame, replaced with nothing, with void, with the absence of everything that had made the moment precious. Love being edited out of existence, leaving only the shapes of two people who used to mean something to each other.

The background was fully pool now. Nighttime. The image dark except for underwater lights casting everything in sickly blue-green, the color of bruises, the color of things left too long in cold water.

And we weren't looking at each other anymore.

She was on the deck, watching - face empty, arms crossed.

I was in the water. Yuna pressed against the pool wall. My cock buried inside her. Caught mid-thrust.

The betrayal captured in instant film, proof written in photo chemistry and guilt. The beach date that should have been ours transformed into documentation of what I'd done hours later, the memory poisoned by what came after, the happiness revealed as temporary and conditional and ultimately meaningless in the face of what I was.

"This one's for me," Yeji's voice said, flat and dead, a statement of ownership that landed like a threat, like a promise that she'd carry this image forever, that she'd look at it and remember exactly what I was capable of.

The photo was getting hotter in my hand, almost burning. The emulsion rippling like liquid, chemicals alive beneath the surface. The image was breathing. Moving. Existing in ways photos don't exist.

They were breathing in the photo. My chest rising and falling. Yuna's back arching slightly. Tiny movements, micro-shifts, the frozen moment becoming animate, the documented past continuing to unfold like it was still happening, like it would always be happening, like I'd be trapped in this act forever.

My fingers were stuck. Skin bonding to paper, adhesive that shouldn't exist holding fast, refusing to let me drop it. Pinning my gaze to what I'd done, forcing me to witness, making sure I couldn't look away from the evidence no matter how much I wanted to.

Another photo. The one where I was looking at her with such obvious affection that she'd said it was going in her wallet.

My face was blurring. Edges bleeding like watercolor in rain, the fond expression smearing, dissolving, fading to white. Overexposure consuming only my features while leaving everything else untouched, selective corruption, targeted erasure.

Just Yeji in the frame now. Alone. Smiling at empty space where I used to be, at negative space, at absence. She looked happy in the image, radiant even, but she was smiling at nothing, at void, at the ghost of someone who'd already left her even though she didn't know it yet.

Who was she smiling at? No one. Just the memory of someone who used to be there, who used to deserve that smile, who'd forfeited the right to it through choices that couldn't be undone.

The pleasure was building again, unwilling and inevitable, my cock throbbing inside Yuna's cold cunt, pressure mounting despite the horror, despite the photos, despite Yeji's silent screaming and backward tears and the evidence of betrayal scattered around us like accusations.

My body didn't care about ethics, didn't care about the distinction between wanting and doing. Wanting to stop wasn't the same as stopping. The proof was in every thrust I couldn't control.

I willed my hips to stop. Begged my muscles to obey even one command, just one, just this once. They refused.

Yuna's legs locked around my waist. Or Yeji's legs. Or both. Or neither. The sensations blurring, overlapping, bodies superimposing through nightmare logic until betrayal existed in two places at once and I couldn't tell anymore which woman I was inside, which sin I was committing, which specific betrayal this moment represented.

"Don't you want this?" Yeji's voice, distant and echoing.

"You wanted Yuna." The same voice but flatter now, clinical, stating facts.

The orgasm was coming whether I wanted it or not, building with a certainty that had nothing to do with desire, just waiting for my body to catch up to what was inevitable, to what had been inevitable from the moment I made the first choice that led here.

"No, please, I don't -"

My throat closed. Words dying before they could become sound, before they could become confession or apology or any shape of meaning.

I came.

Faster this time - without warning, a sudden violent release that ripped through me like a seizure, every muscle locking at once, pleasure indistinguishable from punishment.

My cock pulsed and kept pulsing, more than before, more than the body should produce, emptying past the point where pleasure ended and something clinical began, something surgical, something being removed by force until nothing remained but the parts that functioned without me being present.

The cold was already waiting. Spreading not from my cock but from my chest this time, from the place where guilt lived, radiating down through my gut and into the places where our bodies joined - ice and frost and the bitter cold of consequences that had been waiting patiently for me to arrive.

The cum was evidence. Something that could be tested, catalogued, presented alongside the Instax photos scattered around us. DNA and documentation, proof that would survive any attempt to deny what happened, what I did, what I chose.

Yeji's empty eyes watched the way security cameras watch - passionless, comprehensive, recording what I was, what I'd always been, what she'd finally seen clearly enough to stop pretending about.

The pool water was at my chest now, black and thick and rising faster, cold seeping into bone, into marrow, into the core of me.

"Again," Yeji said, and the word landed soft and final, inevitable as gravity.

The scene didn't dissolve this time. It snapped. Like breaking bone. Like reality fracturing along fault lines, cracks spreading, everything shattering at once.

***

Bedroom. Morning light. Her body warm against mine.

"Morning."

Again.

The bedroom vanished and I was standing in the villa courtyard under a night sky with no stars, air so thick and still it felt like being sealed inside something. My lungs worked but nothing felt like it was reaching my blood. Dead weight pressing against my skin where air should have been moving.

They were all there. All of them. Standing in a perfect circle around me with the kind of deliberate spacing that made it clear this wasn't random, this was staged, this was a tribunal that had already reached its verdict and was only here to deliver it, to make me hear what they'd decided while I was too busy betraying to defend myself.

I was in the center with nowhere to run, the architecture of the courtyard creating a natural arena, a stage for judgment, and I was the only performer left.

Ryujin stood directly in front of me, arms crossed, face stripped to bedrock, every layer of humor and bravado scraped away. What was left underneath was worse - cold judgment, the kind you can see in someone's jaw before they even speak, in eyes that have already written you off. She looked at me like I was a problem she'd solved: not worth her time.

"You couldn't even wait a day." Her voice carried an edge I'd never heard aimed at me before, the raw sound of someone who'd trusted and been proven wrong, who'd vouched for someone and watched them immediately prove she'd made a mistake. "One day."

The words hit bone. Settled somewhere deep where apologies couldn't reach them, where excuses would just slide off the surface without purchase.

She let the silence sit. Let me feel it. Let me understand that this wasn't a conversation, this was a reckoning, and my only role was to stand here and take it.

"We trusted you with her." She uncrossed her arms, hands curling into fists at her sides, the only visible sign of the anger she was keeping carefully controlled. "You knew what you were risking."

And I had. I'd known exactly what I was risking. Every time I'd watched Yeji force herself to be vulnerable, every time I'd seen her struggle with the simple act of letting me in, I'd known what that cost her. Known what it meant that she was trying despite the fear. Known that if I broke that trust it would confirm every defensive instinct she'd ever had, every wall she'd ever built, every reason she'd ever given herself for staying closed off.

I'd known. And I'd done it anyway.

Yuna was to my right, small and quiet, her eyes red like she'd been crying, all the chaos energy drained out, all the exclamation points and "literally"s and breathless rambling gone, leaving only this wounded thing that looked at me with hurt I'd caused, confusion I'd created.

"I thought you were different." Her voice barely above a whisper, small in a way Yuna never was, small in a way that made the accusation worse because it meant I'd made her feel this way, I'd taken someone bright and loud and unashamed and reduced her to this.

She wrapped her arms around herself, making herself smaller, protecting herself from me even now. "I believed you."

The hurt in her voice cut deeper than anger ever could. Anger I could have defended against, argued with, met with my own justifications. But this wounded confusion, this betrayed innocence, this genuine bewilderment at how I could have done this, there was no defense against that. No way to explain it that wouldn't just make it worse.

Chaeryeong stood behind me. Her presence landed on my back like a hand between the shoulder blades, weight without contact, and I knew what her face looked like without turning. Knew the disappointment had arrived before she even spoke. The warmth from lunch gone, the wide eyes and eager questions and the way she'd gone glassy when I'd talked about Yeji all stripped out, leaving only quiet devastation underneath.

"She was going to tell you first." Her voice barely above a whisper, but every syllable landed with precision, with the careful enunciation of someone who wanted to make sure every word hit exactly where it needed to. "Did you know that?"

The ground dropped out from under me.

No. I didn't know that. How could I have known that? When had she decided? When had she practiced? When had she looked in the mirror and formed the words she'd spent five years avoiding?

"She practiced it. In the mirror. Before the beach." A pause, letting it sink in, letting me understand the weight of what I'd destroyed. "I love you. Three words. Five years to get brave enough."

The kind of disappointment that hollowed me worse than fury would have, because it meant she'd hoped and I'd destroyed that. Because she'd witnessed something precious I'd never get to see, something Yeji had been building toward, something I'd burned down before it could fully form.

Lia was on my left. Holding her phone. Screen frozen on some image I couldn't see but knew anyway, some proof, some documentation.

She held the phone steady as a held breath, lens aimed at me like something to be catalogued. And the silence coming off her landed heavier than any accusation could have, because accusation would have meant I mattered enough to confront.

Then, quietly, almost conversational: "I have the video."

Four words delivered flat - just information, just evidence.

Karina stood apart from the circle. Outside the family. Outside the wreckage. A witness with clinical distance, goddess-mode exterior fully engaged, analytical rather than emotional.

"Yeji told me she hasn't been with anyone else in six months."

Her voice was measured. Precise. Laying out facts like a prosecutor building a case.

She paused. Let it hang. Let me feel the weight of that information, let me understand what it meant that Yeji's body had chosen me exclusively while I'd chosen anyone available.

"Her body chose you. Exclusively. Even when she tried not to."

My chest tightened. Panic rising with the truth, with the mirror being held up.

"So I'll ask you what I asked that night:" Karina's eyes held mine - not cold, just precise, surgical. "Have you been with anyone else?"

The question from the previous night. The one Yeji had answered for me, had defended me without knowing what she was defending, had thrown herself in front of without understanding the shape of the betrayal she was covering for.

"He travels for work. We don't ask. That's our arrangement."

She'd rescued me. Saved me from having to answer, from having to lie, from having to face what I'd done. And I'd let her. I'd hidden behind her ignorance, used her love as a shield, let her take the hit meant for me.

Ryujin turned away. "We should've known."

Three words aimed inward. The guilt of someone who'd vouched for me with Yeji's heart as collateral and was only now calculating the cost.

Yuna's voice cracked on the next breath. "Why wasn't I enough?"

The question landed wrong because it was the wrong question. Not about enough. Never about enough. But my throat was cement and the walls were closing and I had no shape for the answer even if air would carry it.

Silence pressed in from all sides, suffocating, everyone waiting for an answer I couldn't give.

The walls were moving closer. The courtyard shrinking. Architecture collapsing inward, space compressing until breathing was like drowning.

"And this time," Karina said, quieter now, surgical precision in every syllable, "Yeji's not here to save you."

The line landed somewhere below my ribs and stayed there. The question hanging in open air with my answer already written across my face for anyone who cared to read it.

I opened my mouth. Everything I needed to say was right there, formed and desperate and lined up behind my teeth.

"Your silence is an answer," Karina said. Soft. Final.

My throat seized and sealed, the muscles in my neck locking, windpipe collapsing, every pathway between lungs and air narrowing to nothing. I couldn't breathe. There was only void where sound should be, the physical sensation of drowning on dry land, of choking on air that had turned solid.

I tried to inhale. My chest expanded but no air entered. The motion of breathing without the substance of it, lungs pulling on vacuum, diaphragm spasming uselessly.

Panic flooded my nervous system. Real panic, not nightmare simulation. The kind of terror that came from the body recognizing its own death, from every cell screaming for oxygen that wasn't coming.

I clawed at my throat. Fingers digging into skin, trying to pry open an airway that had simply stopped functioning. My nails left marks, red crescents blooming, but the pressure didn't ease.

The circle watched in silence.

No one moved to help. No one called for assistance. Just watched with that same clinical detachment, recording my suffocation the way Lia's phone had recorded the pool, documenting without intervening.

My vision started narrowing. Edges going gray, periphery darkening, the world shrinking to a tunnel that kept getting smaller. Sound became distant and hollow, voices losing clarity, the night air taking on a quality like being underwater, like being sealed inside something that absorbed meaning before it could reach me.

My pulse hammered in my ears, too fast and irregular, heart struggling to compensate for oxygen it couldn't find, working harder and harder to push blood that had nothing left to carry, desperation made rhythm, panic made percussion.

But the guilt remained sharp, crystal clear. Every detail of their faces perfectly preserved even as consciousness began to slip, even as my body started shutting down from oxygen deprivation. The judgment in their eyes stayed focused while everything else blurred, stayed present while the rest of reality faded.

This was how I'd die. Surrounded by the people I'd betrayed, throat sealed, every apology and confession and plea for forgiveness trapped in the space where breath used to live.

Drowning in air.

The scene shattered.

***

The next loop arrived faster.

Bedroom to pool without transition. Time stuttering, skipping frames like corrupted footage.

Yeji empty-faced. Yuna cold beneath me. Thrust. Betrayal. Thrust.

"Did I mean anything?"

Not quite her voice anymore. Half mine. Whose fear was this? Whose wound? The boundary dissolving between her accusations and my confessions until they were the same sentence spoken by two people who'd become the same wound.

Orgasm. Draining. Cold. "Again."

Reset. Bedroom dissolving mid-breath. Pool. Thrust. Guilt. Repeat.

Was I not enough?

The question wasn't spoken anymore. It existed independent of voice, independent of source, living inside my skull and outside it simultaneously, the words no longer attached to any mouth.

My thoughts fragmenting: Sorry. Please. Stop. Again.

"Was I not enough?" The shape of the question without voice. Her mouth moving or my mind creating the words or neither or both, attribution meaningless when the pain belonged to everyone.

Yuna. Pool. Empty. Thrust. Ryujin. Deck. Cold. Again. Bedroom. Yeji. Blank. Betray. Came. Hollow. Again.

***

Everything stripped away. Pool. Yuna. The bedroom. The script. All of it shed like dead skin until nothing remained but the core image my guilt refused to release.

Only Yeji's face.

Empty, eyes flat - the mask I'd taught her to wear by making vulnerability dangerous.

But her mouth was moving, opening wider, too wide, the silent scream beginning, or continuing, or having always been there underneath everything else while I was too busy drowning in my own guilt to notice her not-screaming.

Her eyes changed.

The emptiness cracked. Something living surfaced behind the glass, pushing through the blankness the way green pushes through concrete, desperate and impossible and refusing to stay buried.

Pleading - hurting in ways that predated words, in a language that existed between expression and understanding where only bodies spoke fluently.

Her hands reaching, trembling.

I couldn't move. My arms were granite beneath skin. The space between us was an arm's length and it contained every wrong thing I'd ever done.

I deserve this.

The last coherent thought. The only one the nightmare let me keep.

Everything collapsed.

***

The courtyard was gone. The pool deck was gone. Only the water remained, black and absolute, swallowing everything my guilt had built and leaving nothing behind but itself.

It was at my waist already.

No. Not water. Something else now. Black and viscous, thicker than oil, colder than ice. It climbed my body with purpose, with hunger, pulling me down into depths that shouldn't exist in a villa courtyard.

The circle of faces was fading. Dissolving into shadow. Their judgment becoming abstract, becoming a weight without features, becoming the accumulated pressure of every betrayal written across every choice I'd made.

The water reached my chest.

My lungs were screaming, burning, begging for oxygen that wouldn't come. My throat still sealed, still refusing to open, still trapping me in this airless space where breath existed in theory but couldn't reach me in practice.

The cold was seeping deeper. Past my skin. Past muscle. Settling into bone, into marrow, into the core of me. The kind of cold that felt permanent, that felt like it would never leave even if I survived this, that would stay lodged in my chest like shrapnel for the rest of my life.

I was going to drown. Not in water. In guilt. In consequence. In the accumulated weight of everything I'd done and couldn't undo. The black liquid wasn't just rising, it was pulling, dragging me down with the slow certainty of gravity, of time, of choices catching up.

The water reached my neck.

My vision was tunneling. Gray creeping in from the periphery, narrowing my world to a single shrinking point of light surrounded by expanding void. My thoughts were fragmenting, coherence dissolving under oxygen deprivation, under the pressure of drowning, under the weight of everything I'd done to bring me here.

Yeji appeared in front of me.

Her. The real her. The Yeji from the beach, from golden hour, from the moment before everything shattered. Warmth in her face where the shell had been empty. Recognition where the doll's eyes had been glass.

She looked at me with something that acknowledged what I'd done while refusing to reduce me to it. Seeing the person underneath the choices, the way she'd always seen me, the way I'd never deserved.

"Was I not enough?" she asked again.

But the voice was wrong. Coming from inside my skull instead of from her mouth. The cadence mine. The fear mine. The wound that opened when those words sounded was in my chest, not hers.

I'd been hearing my own question the whole time. Projecting it outward, giving her the words I couldn't face in my own voice.

Was I not enough? To stay. To resist. To deserve what she kept offering despite every reason to stop.

I wanted to tell her she was everything. That the problem had been me from the start and had always been me. That I'd proven it by quitting when she stayed, by leaving when she fought, by betraying when she trusted. That she'd been right to build walls. Right to be afraid. Right about all of it.

But my throat was still closed. The water was at my chin. And the words I needed would drown with me, unspoken, forever trapped in the space between intention and voice.

The water reached my mouth.

Cold and thick, pouring in before I could close my lips, filling my mouth with the taste of salt and decay and guilt made liquid. I tried to spit it out but more kept coming, flooding past my teeth, coating my tongue, sliding down my still-sealed throat in a way that should be impossible but was happening anyway, nightmare logic overriding biology, guilt finding pathways that shouldn't exist.

My lungs filled with black water.

The sensation was immediate and wrong. Cold spreading through my chest cavity, liquid where air should be, pressure building against my ribs from the inside. My lungs were drowning from within, filling with nightmare-water that had bypassed my throat entirely, that was manifesting directly in the space where breath lived, that was replacing oxygen with something thick and viscous and impossible.

I couldn't cough. Couldn't expel it. The liquid spread unchecked, flooding, claiming every alveoli, every tiny space meant for oxygen now occupied by this thick black guilt made tangible, made liquid, made into something my body had to carry even as it killed me.

The water closed over my head.

Sound disappeared. Not muffled but erased. The world going silent in a way that was more than absence of noise, that was active suppression of anything that might break through the liquid isolation, that was the kind of quiet that felt like being buried, like being sealed away from everything that meant life and connection and the possibility of being heard.

I sank.

Down.

Down.

Down through water that shouldn't be this deep, that shouldn't exist at all, that defied the physical reality of villa courtyards and pool depths and the laws that governed what water could and couldn't do. Falling through darkness that had no bottom, through guilt that had no end, through consequences that kept accumulating no matter how far I fell.

Down into nothing.

Faces appeared in the darkness around me. Not the tribunal. Something worse.

Yeji at every age I'd known her. Trainee Yeji sobbing in Practice Room B, mascara running, dreams crumbling. Debut Yeji watching from the M Countdown stage while I watched from home, not even there to support her because being present would hurt too much. Tour Yeji sleeping on planes between countries I'd never visit, living a life I'd chosen to leave. Beach Yeji looking at me with something like hope, with the beginning of trust, with vulnerability she was trying so hard to show me. All of them watching me sink, all of them bearing witness to the drowning I'd earned, to the consequences I'd spent five years avoiding, to the reckoning I'd known was coming but had hoped would never arrive.

And underneath them all, the question repeating in her voice, in all their voices, echoing through the water with the persistence of truth:

"Was I not enough?"

My lungs were full. My throat was sealed. My body was shutting down from oxygen deprivation made real by nightmare logic, from drowning that started as metaphor and became literal, from guilt that stopped being abstract and started being physical.

I was dying. Actually dying. The nightmare had found the line between psychological horror and physical consequence and erased it, and I was drowning for real now, neurons firing their last desperate signals, consciousness beginning its final fade, the darkness closing in with the finality of endings that couldn't be undone.

The darkness was complete.

And then -

***

I gasped.

My body jackknifed upright, lungs seizing on air that burned going down, that tasted like breaking surface after being held under. Born backward into oxygen that should have been relief and wasn't.

The air filled my lungs and sat there heavy. Wouldn't convert. Breathing that refused to become breath, each inhale expanding my chest without providing anything it needed, oxygen my blood had forgotten how to use.

My hands clawed at the sheets, searching for solidity. Everything felt precarious, like I might sink through the mattress and keep falling, keep drowning, keep descending into black water that waited beneath the surface of every solid thing.

Real darkness, real bedroom, real ceiling above me.

The nightmare residue clung like oil. The taste of black water still coated my tongue, the phantom pressure of it still heavy in my lungs, still pulling. My throat ached from seizing, airway raw from phantom suffocation that had registered as real in every nerve ending my body owned.

I was shaking. Full-body tremors I couldn't control. Adrenaline flooding my system, fight-or-flight response activated by threat that no longer existed, panic that couldn't find purchase in reality but kept searching anyway.

Waves crashed in the distance. The sound filtered through the open window, steady and rhythmic, proof of the ocean's continued indifference to human suffering. Real waves. Real ocean. Real Jeju Island. Real bedroom.

Real.

I focused on that sound. Let it anchor me. Let it prove this was solid, this was the timeline where I was still breathing.

Yeji.

She was next to me. Asleep, real, warm.

Was she?

Her face soft and peaceful in the darkness. One hand tucked under her cheek, the other resting on my chest, right over my heart that was hammering hard enough to bruise bone. She still slept with one hand curled near her throat, a habit from trainee dorms she'd never broken. Something only I noticed. Something only I knew to look for.

She didn't know. She had no idea what I'd just survived, what I'd just seen, what I'd just experienced while her sleeping mind rested peacefully. No idea that I'd drowned in guilt while she slept inches away. No idea that I'd watched her scream silently while her real mouth breathed even and calm.

Relief hit first.

So immediate it almost broke me. I came within a breath of sobbing, the sound trapped halfway up my throat before I choked it back, but my eyes burned and my chest cracked open with the force of holding it in. She was real. The emptiness was gone, the wax-skin and doll's eyes and mechanical motion all dissolved back into the warm breathing woman beside me.

She was warm under my trembling hand. Breathing. Her pulse visible in her throat, her body radiating heat that proved she was alive, that I was alive, that the nightmare had ended.

This was real. The bedroom, the tangled sheets, the pre-dawn darkness pressing at the windows, her weight against me. All of it solid. All of it here.

It was over.

But then it hit.

More devastating than anything the nightmare had shown me, because this was real and permanent and inescapable.

She should know.

She deserved to know.

And I was lying to her with every breath, every touch, every second I let her sleep peacefully against my chest without telling her what I'd done, who I'd fucked, how I'd betrayed everything she'd trusted me with.

I looked at her sleeping face and saw double. Nightmare-Yeji overlaid on real-Yeji like a transparency, like images that wouldn't separate no matter how hard I tried to focus on just one.

Empty eyes. Silent tears rolling backward. Mouth open in soundless scream. The accusations I couldn't answer. The question I couldn't escape: Was I not enough?

All of it ghosting across her peaceful sleeping face, corrupting it, making me unable to see her without seeing what the nightmare had shown me, what my guilt had created, what I deserved to see every time I looked at her from now on.

My hand moved to her face without conscious thought. Trembling. Needing to confirm she was real, that her skin was warm and soft and human, that she wasn't wax or void or absence made flesh.

She was warm. Real. So real it hurt. So solid it made the nightmare feel more distant and the guilt feel more immediate because she was right here trusting me and I was right here not deserving it.

My hand slid to her hair. Stroking gently, carefully, trying not to wake her while desperately needing the proof of her warmth, her realness, her breathing solidness under my palm.

She stirred. A small sound escaping her throat, half-asleep and content. She pressed closer to me automatically, seeking warmth, seeking contact, seeking me without conscious thought, without defenses, without any awareness that the person she was pressing against was the same person who'd betrayed her.

She trusted me.

Completely.

Her body knew mine. Responded to mine. Sought mine in sleep when her conscious mind wasn't directing movement, when instinct took over and instinct said safe, said home, said mine.

And I'd betrayed that trust within hours of her leaving the villa. Fucked Yuna in the pool while Yeji was at pilates with Karina. Let Ryujin drag me onto the deck while Yeji thought I was taking a shower, not even gone two hours before I proved her worst fears right.

The worst part wasn't the sex. The worst part was this. Right here. Right now. Her sleeping peacefully against my chest, one hand over my racing heart, trusting me with her vulnerability the way she trusted no one else, showing me the soft parts she kept hidden from everyone including her members, including the world, including sometimes herself.

The worst part wasn't the dream. It was knowing she still trusted me.

Not her finding out. Her never finding out.

I held her closer. Too tight probably. Desperate. She burrowed deeper against me, her face pressing into my neck, her body molding to mine with the ease of five years of practice. Completely unaware.

She shifted against me, still mostly asleep. Her lips brushed my collarbone, soft and unconscious and trusting.

"Saranghae," she mumbled. I love you. The word barely formed, half-dream, emerging without conscious thought.

My whole body went still.

She'd never said that before.

Five years. Five years of showing it through stolen shirts and 2 AM phone calls and forehead-to-forehead silence when words wouldn't come. Five years of love expressed in everything except language, because Yeji showed feeling the way she showed pain, through the body, through proximity, through the careful architecture of being present without ever naming why. And saranghae wasn't casual. It wasn't the light, easy version you tossed at friends. It was the real thing. The heavy one. The one Korean dramas built entire seasons around someone finally saying.

And now. Asleep. Unguarded. Her mouth forming the shape of something her waking mind had never allowed, something the beach had loosened, something the events of yesterday had cracked open just enough for it to slip through unconscious and unprotected.

Three syllables. Half-swallowed by sleep. The most important thing she'd ever said to me and she wouldn't even remember saying it.

I opened my mouth to say it back.

My throat closed.

Muscles seizing. Airway narrowing to nothing. The words right there, right behind my teeth, fully formed and desperate and true, and the air turned solid between my tongue and the silence of the room. Solid. Impassable. Every molecule refusing to carry sound.

Nothing came out.

Just my mouth open. Just the physical shape of "love you too" pressed against the back of my throat where the air refused to carry it. The words turned to ash before they left my lips. Crumbled into the same silence I'd been drowning in all night.

She'd finally said it. First time in five years. And I answered with nothing.

She didn't notice. Already deeper in sleep. Already past the moment, sinking back into whatever warm unconscious place had made her brave enough to let it slip. Unaware she'd just handed me something five years in the making. Unaware I'd held it in my open mouth and choked.

Her breathing evened out against my neck, slow and steady and trusting.

Each exhale landed on my throat like a hand pressing gently against my windpipe. Warm. Patient. Her air filling the space where mine should be, displacing it, replacing it with something I couldn't metabolize anymore. The closer she pressed, the less I could breathe. Not because she was heavy. Because she was everything, and everything was too much to take in when you knew you'd already ruined it.

And I lay there with the ghost of her first "love you" dissolving on my tongue, tasting like ash, tasting like everything I'd earned the right to hear and forfeited the right to answer.

Because love wasn't enough.

Because love didn't undo betrayal. It just made me understand the exact shape of what I'd destroyed, made every moment with her feel like stolen time and borrowed grace and countdown to loss.

The sky was starting to lighten. Gray bleeding into darkness, not quite light yet but no longer night. The waves kept breaking in the distance, eternal and indifferent.

She slept peacefully against my chest.

And I stared at the ceiling as dawn broke, and tried to memorize the weight of her trust before Judgment Day came and I had to pretend I deserved it.

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Author's note

If you made it here, genuinely, thank you. This was the hardest chapter I've written for this series, and I don't say that lightly because Chapter 17 was fifteen thousand words of emotional catharsis and that was its own marathon. But this was harder because it was painful. Not difficult in the sense that I couldn't figure out the structure or the words wouldn't come - both came fast - but painful in the sense that I had to sit inside Minho's head while his subconscious tore him apart for ten thousand words and then reread it and edit it and reread it again. At a certain point you realize that getting invested in your own characters' arcs means their worst moments become yours too. I cared about these people by the time I got to Chapter 18, which is either a sign the writing is working or a sign I need to touch grass, probably both.

So credit where it's due: if you just sat through an entire chapter of nightmare logic with no humor breaks, no dialogue relief, no second character to share the load - just one man's mind eating itself in looping escalation - that's a real thing you did and I appreciate it. This chapter asks a lot.

The two biggest reference points for Chapter 18 are Black Swan and the Mysterio illusion sequence from Spider-Man: Far From Home, and they do completely different things. Black Swan is the body horror of performance - your body doing something your mind didn't authorize, watching yourself move through choreography that looks right from the outside while you're screaming on the inside. That's the entire nightmare engine here. Minho's hips keep thrusting while his brain begs them to stop. His body performs the betrayal on autopilot while he watches from somewhere behind his own eyes. The horror isn't that someone is doing something terrible to him - it's that he is doing something terrible and can't make himself stop. We don't have nightmares about monsters very often as adults. We have nightmares about being the monster. About losing control in ways that prove our worst suspicions right.

The Mysterio sequence is the other half - environmental disorientation, reality dissolving mid-scene and reassembling as something else without transition or warning. The loops compressing, the acceleration, the way each reset burns through the same beats faster until individual moments blur into impressions - that's what nightmares actually feel like. Not the content but the pacing. The sense that time is broken and getting more broken and you can't slow it down.

The backward tears were the image the whole chapter was built around. I had that visual before I had anything else - Yeji's tears stopping mid-fall and climbing back up her face, mascara streaks healing themselves, vulnerability being systematically deleted from reality. That one impossible physics moment is her entire character compressed: the person who has learned to swallow her pain so efficiently that even in someone else's nightmare, even in a space constructed entirely from guilt, she can't stop hiding. Her body has automated the process of sealing itself shut. The silent scream is the companion image and it might actually be the one that disturbs me more - Yeji's mouth opening wider and wider with no sound coming out. Because the backward tears are about pain getting hidden, reversed, tidied away, which is awful but at least it's a process she controls. The silent scream is the version where she's trying to express something and can't. She's not choosing silence, it's been taken from her. And the nightmare ties it back to Practice Room B, where she cried into Minho's neck without making a sound, which was real, which actually happened. In the real Practice Room B she chose to be quiet in his arms. In the nightmare she's screaming with everything she has and nothing reaches him.

The thing that I think is actually the most interesting part of this chapter and maybe the most important thing to say in this note: Minho and Yeji are not in a relationship. There is no label. There is no agreement. There is no exclusivity. He hasn't broken any promise because no promise was made. Technically, by any reasonable definition, he hasn't cheated. And his subconscious doesn't care even a little bit. The nightmare doesn't audit the terms of their arrangement before constructing a horror movie about it. It doesn't check whether they had the "what are we" conversation before deciding he deserves to drown. Because guilt doesn't operate on technicalities. You can't lawyer your way out of feeling like you've betrayed someone, and the absence of a label doesn't erase the weight of what someone means to you. Minho knows what Yeji is to him. He knows what yesterday would do to her if she found out. He knows she's been slowly, painfully, courageously building toward trusting him again after five years apart, and he spent that morning inside two other women. You don't need a relationship contract for that to feel like destruction.

I actually think this is more psychologically interesting than a straightforward cheating story would be, because there's no clean transgression to point at and no obvious villain to blame. He didn't break a rule. He broke something that didn't have a name yet, something that was still forming, something Yeji was building toward with that specific kind of courage where every step toward vulnerability is an act of bravery for someone who's been trained by experience to stay armored. He didn't violate a contract. He violated a felt truth. And the distinction between those two things is exactly where this chapter lives.

From Minho's point of view, stripped of all the smut and the nightmare imagery and the surreal horror and the K-pop context, Chapter 18 is about punishing yourself because you feel like you've let someone down. And I think that's one of the most universally relatable experiences there is, which is part of why this chapter hit me so hard to write and part of why I hope it might hit you to read. You don't have to have slept with someone you shouldn't have. You don't have to have done anything objectively terrible. You just have to have had someone who believed in you, someone who trusted you with the soft parts, someone who lowered their walls because you made them feel safe enough to try, and then felt like you failed them. And then your brain builds a courtroom at 3 AM and puts you on trial. The loops aren't science fiction. They're what anxiety actually does - that 3 AM feeling of replaying the same conversation, the same choice, the same moment of failure over and over, each time faster, each time worse, each time with less context and more dread until you can't distinguish the real memory from the catastrophized version anymore. The nightmare just takes that universal human experience and renders it as horror, gives it surreal imagery and escalating physics, but the underlying architecture is something most people have lived through lying awake at 2 in the morning staring at a ceiling.

"Was I not enough?" is the question that drives the entire chapter and the reveal at the end - where Minho realizes the voice was coming from inside his own skull, that he's been hearing his own fear projected through her mouth - is the core theme. He's not afraid she wasn't enough. He's afraid he wasn't enough to stay, to resist, to deserve what she keeps offering despite every reason to stop. The question is his and it always was, he just needed to give it her voice to make it bearable enough to hear.

This is the chapter where Minho stops being a fun self-insert protagonist and becomes a character with psychological weight, and that transition matters for the series because everything before this was essentially consequence-free. Day 1 in Jeju was pleasurable and exciting and full of the kind of sexual confidence that comes from being wanted by multiple beautiful women with no apparent cost, and Chapter 18 is the bill arriving. He's not a bad person. I want to be really clear about that because I think it would be easy to read this chapter as punishment porn, as the narrative saying "you did bad things and now you suffer," but that's not what's happening. What's happening is that a person who cares deeply acted in ways that contradict that caring, and his subconscious won't let him off the hook for the gap between who he wants to be and what he did. The nightmare doesn't punish him with monsters or gore or any conventional horror. It punishes him with her face. With her silence. With her learning to hide from him. That's the most devastating thing his guilt could construct - not that Yeji would scream at him but that she'd stop showing him where she hurts - and the reason that's the worst possible outcome is because it means he's destroyed the one thing that made their relationship special: her willingness to be real with him when she can't be real with anyone else.

The "saranghae" at the end - her saying it in her sleep and him trying to say it back with a throat that won't open - is covered in more detail in the Yeji BTS if you want to go deeper on her side of things. But from his side, that moment is about a man who has just been through the worst experience of his life hearing the one word he needs most and being physically unable to reciprocate, which is the nightmare's final cruelty except it's happening while he's awake.

“Hwang Yeji put me down, you brute!” You teased before falling into fits of giggles. The singer put you down and cupped your face fondly. Staring at you, butterflies of excitement filling her stomach. The moment lingered momentarily before you pulled away, still smiling up at her. She hadn’t seen you in almost a year but it was a surprise that you were here to begin with.

Ryujin wondered what was taking the group’s leader so long before she got up to investigate. She saw Yeji leaning up against the door talking to the mystery person on the other side of the door. But more than that, what caught the dancer’s attention was the scent of the omega the leader was talking to.

Without thinking, she walks up to the door while placing a hand on Yeji’s shoulder making the leader jolt up in shock. The younger woman’s attention though was far from the woman scolding her about sneaking up on her. It was on the smaller one on the other side of the door, their eyes locked, saying things that could never be said aloud.

“Hi I’m Ryujin…” She said before taking a low bow. Your heart jumped at the way her eyes stared into yours. Your jaw dropped as you rushed to bow yourself. You could tell that you’d begun to blush from the heat you’d felt rush through your body. Suddenly, you forgot about your best friend being there and all you could do was stare into this alpha’s intense and welcoming brown eyes.

Yeji looked between the two of you before she began to feel herself sweating nervously. “Ryujin! This is Y/F/N, my best friend?” The leader explained quickly trying to fish the dancer’s attention back to her. Ryujin quirked a brow before smiling at you.

Boldly, Ryujin took a step forward and took your hand. Your eyes went wide as she placed a lingering kiss over the back of your hand, eyes still glued to yours. A soft and nervous giggle fell past your lips as your face grew hotter. The grin on the alpha’s face grew a little wider seeing the flush on your cheeks. She straightened herself before saying with the smoothest voice she could muster, “You are much cuter than Yeji lead us to believe…”

You licked your lips before you smiled and looked away shyly. Yeji stared at you both appalled as both of you stared at one another shyly. She locked her jaw before pushing both of you into the dorm.

After a brief introduction to the girls and you found yourself beside Yeji, telling her stories of the things she’d missed from her regular life. Updates from her friends and what was going on at college for you. As much as Yeji wanted to focus on you and the things you were telling her, from the corner of her eye she could see Ryujin eying you from where she sat beside Lia and Yuna.

Before long though, you found yourself having to return home. “You should come over more! I’ve never seen Yeji-unnie or Ryujin-unnie act as soft with anyone as they are with you!” Yuna commented teasingly before leaning back from the hug she’d pulled you into. You giggled at the way the two alpha’s behind the three fellow omegas blushed at their youngest’s words.

Making your way to your best friend, you wrapped your arms around her neck leaning into her warmth making her smile and pull you close fondly. Once you leaned back you placed a gentle kiss over her cheek, “I will have to make my way back here sooner.” You said smiling up at the leader before you heard a low growl.

Your eyes went wide before looking at the agitated looking Ryujin. You threw your head back laughing before pulling your attention from, much to her dismay, Yeji. You pulled Ryujin into a tight hug before sneakily placing a kiss on her neck, her body stiffening at the contact. You leaned back and placed a gentle hand over the alpha’s cheek. “I will definitelycome back.” You said shyly before pulling away and walking to the door.

“Y/n wait!” Ryujin called suddenly, making the rest of the group stare at her with wide eyes. You looked back while you’d pulled your left shoe onto your foot. Your blood ran to your cheeks as she pulled the white hoodie she’d been wearing off of her and handing it over to you. Her gaze fell to her feet with a goofy smile over her lips. “I-It’s cold out and I don’t want you to get cold…” She’d paused to look up at you.

Yeji glared at her younger member, opening her mouth to speak before Ryujin continued. “You don’t have to take it of course but—” Much to both her and Yeji’s surprise, you took the soft cloth into your hands and pulled it over your head. Cheeks and mouth covered by the size of the jacket.

“Thank you, Ryujin…” You muttered before rushing out the door, leaving Ryujin grinning like a cat and the rest of the girls dumbfounded.

Once it was clear you wouldn’t return, the omegas surrounded Ryujin and began squealing uncontrollably while Yeji stood and stared at the dancer. "Oh my God! The way you two were looking at each other!" Chaeryeong teased making Ryujin groan and cover her face, making the other girls coo at the adorable behavior.

"You two are sooo cute together, and that hoodie move—Perfection! Wouldn't you agree, unnie?" Yuna asked their leader, practically bouncing off the walls.

Yeji's mouth opened and closed, internally contemplating what she should do before she pulled up a small smile and nodded. "Yeah, a match made in heaven!" She pulled out her phone and added, "I should give you her contact Ryujin!" Yeji strained out before the two youngest members cheered happily and agreed with the eldest.

Later that night, Yeji'd walked into her room and there sat Lia. A concerned yet sympathetic expression strewn all over her face. "You like her? Don't you?" Yeji stared at the vocalist helplessly. There was no point in lying.

She nodded slowly, "Yeah. I do."

"Then why did you give Ryujin, Y/n's number? And let her take that hoodie? Why didn't you—" A ping caught both women off guard. Yeji read the text and immediately her shoulders slumped down. "Look, Lia, you should go. I don't want to talk about this right now..." The younger member nodded and hugged Yeji briefly before walking out the door.

The alpha fell back into her bed and reread the text, then again, and another time for good measure. Frustration and disappointment building in her chest.

'From : 💖 oml you gave ryujin my number! thank you, thank you, thank you! you're the best friend in the whole fucking world 😭'

The son suddenly stopped in his tracks. He looked at his mother, fear replacing the jolly expression he had before. “Am I going to die, mama?” The boy asked.

“Of course not.” The mother said in a defensive tone. She quickly got the two bags filled with steaming buns in front of her and left, with her son still quite scared.

Who wouldn’t be in a time like this?

As they left, Yeji couldn’t help but stare at their disappearing figures. A child, no older than five, was already worrying about whether or not he would live another day. A child like him should be worrying about what flavor of ice cream he should get, or what he should play with his friends. He shouldn’t fear for his life. How much time did they have left until the city of Seoul became nothing but a mass graveyard?

“On us, miss.”

Yeji snapped out from her train of thought to see a bag already in front of her, filled to the brim with steaming hot buns.

“Everything for the princess of Seoul.” The old baker said with a smile. Yeji took a better look at the place, then at the old man in front of her. The bakery was very old, to the point where you could see loose wires everywhere. The man in front of her was also very old, it looked like the bakery was all he had. The only reason why Yeji was here in the first place was because Lia wouldn’t stop bugging her about trying the famous steam buns in Hongdae.

“You have a family, ahjussi?” Yeji asked as she took the bag, the man’s face lighting up immediately.

“I do! I have a lovely wife I come home to everyday and five children! Two girls and three boys!” The baker answered as he perched his elbows on the window.

“I see,” Yeji paused as she took something out from her pocket, it was a red envelope with gold lettering. The man’s face grew in shock. “No miss Hwang, it is in the house! We have been affiliated with the Vipers for a long time now and I owe everything to them. Please it is okay.” The man said as he pushed the envelope back.

“No, please do take it. You have worked hard enough.” Yeji said as she placed the envelope in the baker’s calloused hands. With a smile, Yeji left.

As she browsed the streets of Hongdae, she couldn’t help but let out a breath of relief. She was relieved she was able to have a few hours to herself. She had just finished visiting the drug den her father had sent her to, and it was more boring than she thought. She expected a top secret lab, like the ones she would always see in movies. Only for her to be greeted with a smelly and sketchy apartment. When she had collected the money, the man passed it to her half-asleep, he too looked high on whatever he was on that moment. She had only been there for a solid 30 seconds and her duty was done for the day. Hongdae was filled with lovers taking their strolls, family spending some quality time together, friends on dates, and native weirdos too.

“The end is near! The world is going to end! Jeremiah 11:11! There is only one cure!”

Yeji grimaced as she tried to quickly pass the man. She tried to cover her face in hopes of not getting seen by the shouting man, but to her misfortune, the man had locked his eyes on her. The man started to head her way as she quickened her pace. She thought he had lost the man following her, only for him to suddenly jump in front of her.

Does this man not know who I am?

“Salvation!” The man screeched, causing Yeji to freeze in her tracks. The man flailed his arms in the air, as if he was waiting for someone to pick him up. “Spread the word of salvation, miss!” He exclaimed as he took another step towards her.

Yeji was quick to back away, she was getting weirded out by the old man, “I’m not that religious, sorry.” She decided unsure on what to say, the man’s eyes suddenly grew wider until it could pop out from his socket anytime.

“The doctor can give us a cure.” He said. “I’m not quite sure a doctor has found a cure yet,” Yeji said carefully.

“The doctor saved me!” The man further added. This time, Yeji wasn’t sure if he was referring to doctors, or a particular doctor.

“Hey you know what, a doctor saved me too.” she said as she placed her hands on her hip. “I was like what, seven years old?” she continued, amusing herself now. “I bumped my head on my mother’s picture frame and let’s just say she was worried more about the picture frame.” She said, remembering it like it was yesterday. “Ever since then, I started eating apples.” Yeji said as she looked at the man, waiting for him to catch her joke.

“Because you know…” She trailed off, the man only looking at her in a blank manner. “An apple a day, keeps the doctor away!”

The old man only stared at her. He looked at her like she was speaking some sort of foreign language no an on earth had ever heard of.

“Corny joke?” Yeji asked, speaking Korean a bit more slowly for the man to understand. “Come on, an apple a day keeps the doctor away, right? Come on, I deserve a chuckle at least.”

The man groaned and stomped his foot, signaling for her to take him seriously.

“The doctor is only one person.” he hissed, his face contorting into a weird facial expression Yeji couldn’t quite figure out. “A person of great passion. He gave me the cure and I am now immune to this madness. An injection! I am supposed to be dead! When my friend had clawed himself and lay dead next to me, I should have been next! But I am here! Alive and well!”

Yeji took another step back, one she should have taken before the man had started talking.

“Good for you,” Yeji said, thinking of an escape plan. “But I, uh, have places to be.” Before she could turn around, the man had already grabbed her wrist.

“Salvation!” The man screamed, “Only the doctor could bring salvation!” She quickly jerked her hand back away from the man as she hurried off.

She took sharp turns every now and then, making her route in a dark alleyway. She passed by groups of men who seemed like they were all ready to kidnap the next person they see. She passed by men throwing knives at each other, she also passed by a group of women aiming their guns at each other, but she was not scared. She was in her territory, she was above all.

Just as she was in the middle of another alleyway, Yeji immediately stopped to the feeling of a cold metal pressed against her neck. She knew it wasn’t a threat of any Viper, no Viper dared. Her mind ran wild, thinking of all the possible people who would try such thing,

Until a familiar voice had said: “Don’t make a sound. Keep walking, and I won’t shoot.”

The feeling of uncertainty immediately was replaced by the feeling of rage. Did he really wait for Yeji to enter an isolated place? Until she was far from the crowd? Did he really think that would work on her?

“You don’t know me as much as I thought you would.” Yeji said quietly, maybe Jeno didn’t know her at all when they were still friends. Maybe he never really cared to know about her. Maybe he just agreed to be friends to get information from her, and he did.

“Walk,” Jeno demanded.

Yeji stood still. As she planned, Jeno thought she was scared and so he eased the press of his gun against her neck. She slowly brought her hand to trace Jeno’s gun, her sudden caress took him by surprise. From his gun, her hand trailed to his own. Touching his long fingers, to his prominent veins. Her touch was light and held no danger whatsoever,

Or so he thought.

She whirled around, faster than Jeno could even process. In a blink of an eye, she had already slapped the gun from his grip causing it to drop on the floor somewhere. She had bent his arm in a way no arm should be bent. She had him quickly pinned to floor, her legs on both sides of his hips with a knife pressed to his throat.

“Let’s try this again, shall we? Like normal civilized people.” She breathed. Jeno too was trying his hardest not to breathe too much, or else his throat would come in contact with the knife. His dilated eyes narrowed at her, as he took a breath.

“Normal civilized people?” He mocked her tone, his voice a bit raspy. “You have a knife pressed against my throat.”

“You had a gun pressed against my neck.”

“Does it look like I have a choice? I’m in your territory.”

Yeji glared at him as she pressed the knife further into his skin causing a drop of blood to appear.

“Stop! Stop!” Jeno flinched. “I’m sorry.”

With one quick motion, Yeji could have sliced his neck open. She had been dreaming of this for four years, she was almost tempted to give it a try. Although she was fighting all thoughts she had of killing him, one thought had crept up in her mind.

Jeno still smelled like he used too. He smelled like smoke and mint, with a hint of his perfume. Noticing this particular detail made Yeji think how possible it was for everything and nothing to change.

“Well go ahead then,” Yeji prompted, “Explain yourself.”

She could feel Jeno trying to fight, but with one press of her blade, he would stop. She could track his every movement just from the tip of her blade.

“I needed information,” Jeno managed.

“Surprisingly.”

His eyebrow arched, “If you let me go, I could explain.”

“Well let’s see…” Yeji said, pretending to think. “How about no? I prefer if you explained like this.”

“Oh, Yeji”

Click.

The sound of someone pressing the trigger echoed all throughout the alleyway. Yeji looked to her left to see the gun she had disabled a while go still in its position. She looked back on Jeno to see him smile, his smile was almost mocking.

“Did you really think I would only bring one?” He asked in a teasing manner. “You don’t know me as much as I thought you would.” He added, mocking her. Famous eye smile a contrast to his actions.

The feeling of cold hard metal suddenly touched her waist. It was as if the gun had started to burn through her clothes and made its imprint on her skin. With no choice, Yeji had to remove her knife against Jeno’s kneck. They both stood up and in unison, put their weapons away.

“The man who died in the Poculum,” Jeno began as he dusted his polo shirt. “Do you remember his mismatched shoes?”

Yeji rolled her eyes, she couldn’t believe she was actually having this conversation with the Jeno Lee, then nodded.

“I found the other shoe in the Han river the other day, the same spot where the first men had died,” He continued, “I think he was able to escape, only succumbing to the madness the next day, in your club.”

“Impossible!” Yeji denied, “What kind of science is–”

“This is no longer in the fields of science, Yeji.”

Her hands had quickly balled into fists, bunching up her blouse in the process. Jeno was really on a whole other level of stubbornness when he was focused on something. She let out a sigh as she closed her eyes,

“What do you want?” She asked, opening them again to see Jeno’s serious expression.

“I need to know whether or not if he is indeed the same man. I need to see his shoes, see if they match, if they do, this madness might be even contagious.”

Contagious,

Meaning to say that the man who had died in her club, his blood spraying in a room filled with her people, might be infectious. If that was the case, the Viper Gang is in huge trouble.

Yeji’s panic started to kick in.

“Maybe they were in some type of cult,” Yeji suggested without much persuasion. “Maybe he didn’t want to be apart of whatever they were doing, only for him to decide that he actually wanted to a day later.” But she had seen the terror of the man during his last few moments, he couldn’t speak but his eyes told everything Yeji needed to know.

Oh dear God she knelt beside the man, looked him in the eyes, and asked him what caused it. What were the chances of her getting infected?

“You and I both know that something’s not right here.” Jeno said, breaking Yeji’s small panic attack. “By the time this has alerted departments, many more innocent people will have died.”

Jeno accidentally realized what he had said, causing him to fall silent. Yeji stared at him for a while, her gaze blank, void with any emotion.

“As if you care,” She said quietly, almost inaudible. But he still heard her. “About innocent people dying.” She looked away from him in case he could see the slight water in her eyes.

Every muscle in his body tensed.

He inhaled sharply, “Fine,” he paused, “My people.”

Hearing it from him definitely felt worse. She let out her breath she didn’t know she was holding and turned around.