#yalllll

so my annoying dumb older brother wanted me n my mom to watch his daughter 5-7 days a week while he works in PA and she only gets to see her parents on weekends. we both said HELL NO, my mom is in the process of getting a new job and kids are WAY tew much for me..like i keep saying. hes asked me before n i always said no what i dont like is that we barely talk/are close and whenever he wants smth all of a sudden here he goes texting me, my guy, u are too old to be acting like this you cant get mad at the responsibility you chose to have in the world😭 christ i cant stand the selfish mentality at times ppl can have. i just dont want my mom stressed out (despite having our disagreements) i still care abt her n dont want my brother to just take and take

second, my little brother overheard me goin to my grandmas and wanted to go to our aunts by himself (like last time) however my aunt doesnt rlly answer her phone as much anymore n doesnt like being bothered, so he kept asking my cousin to go get her mom..when u can easily just text her😫🤏🏾 like how i do...i felt slightly guilty earlier? because i didnt want him to be 'jealous' that im able to visit our family in PA and hes having a hard time to. thats why anxiety medication is so awesome because it helps me calm down, regulate, n overthink this shit to death because its NOT IMPORTANT!

also due to his autism (possibly mines too) i tend to misunderstand his mannerisms alot.

just like what my therapist says ;3 i need to focus on spending time with my grandma <3 and LET THE NEGATIVITY DIE!