If Rowan dies: (y6ch18 compliant here) Kay falls into a huge depression after Rowan dies. He can’t even bring himself to get out of bed most days. He skips out on all of his classes and won’t see his friends. Eventually, Kay leaves Hogwarts entirely, in search for revenge against Rakepick for what she did. All he can think about is taking her out of this world, even if he had to take himself out too. If he went down, she was going with him. Any semblance of a normal life is gone, and he’s just fuelled by anger, spite and grief until his dying breath at the hands of the evil organisation that took Rowan away from him, after he took someone from them.

If Kace dies: (in a fight against R in year 7) Rowan doesn’t believe it at first. When the news reaches him, he can’t believe his lover is actually gone. He refuses to hear it, until he’s seen it for himself. I think when Rowan sees Kace really is dead, he tries to bargain, to come up with any solution as to why that isn’t actually Kace, and the real one must be alive and in hiding. After a while though, he comes to the realisation that he really is dead and gone, and the loneliness hits him like never before. Rowan feels alone, even when he’s not. They wanted to build a life together, and now they couldn’t. Eventually, he would get angry and demanding for change, and would take the reigns of the fight against R, becoming the leader of the group of friends, wanting to make sure that R doesn’t get away with what they did, with what they took from him. But, even still, that loneliness and empty feeling in his chest won’t go away, and Rowan often finds himself being kept up at night, crying for what could have been.