#wsup

first day I have gone without smoking weed in like 6 months?? Today has been the haziest day of my life and I know it's from smoking basically nonstop the last 2 days...rlly trying to find some feeling of satisfaction in that since I know it's a big deal but can't manage to access those feels under the big lump of disappointment from letting my weeding tendencies even get this bad in the first place...so even tho I've been sober all day it's been just as hazy and dead from just feeling crap about it and because of the dead I've had no energy to recruit or send emails all week and so here I am letting weed affect my professional life in 2 different ways? how did we get here????