#workramble

I feel like I am at a low right now. Not only am I recovering from illness (a few days of fevers, debilitating headaches, body aches, and dizzy, foggy brain -- also probably fatigue), but also at work, I feel...lost. Hahaha, I just wrote about a time when I felt lost and here’s another moment! 

I am included in many of these meetings here, mostly Staff Meetings and Program Director (PD) Meetings. There are a lot of talks of transitioning from our old structures and forming new structures, also a couple of our staff members are leaving. This will move other staff members around to pick up the slack until we find people to replace them (eventually), but it means a lot of people are filling new roles or picking up extra responsibilities. That also means that the people lower on the totem pole are getting new supervisors or kinda moved to new departments. 

So there’s a lot of confusion on the basic level of a new person coming in and not understanding the context of everything and the new transitions, but also, everyone here is all quickly trying to figure everything out on their own before the new school year starts and I’m really really trying to keep up. It's like I’m grasping at straws and they all just keep falling through my fingers!

I currently feel like lying on the floor and melting through the lines, like an ice cube on a hot grill. I’d be half gas and half liquid, but the good news is that I won’t physically be around.