Mar 21
No, no this is ridiculous
The moment I told a friend of mine I was going to finish re-writing a fic of mine this weekend to post it on ao3, as well as start writing a new fic idea I had to post later, shit started to go down hill for me during this week
And the moment I made plans to do something that wasn't to write a fic for ao3 and told myself I'll write it another time, shit started to improve again
And this isn't the first time!! It's a fucking pattern!! You wanna know how many times I've said "I should finish the ao3 re-write" "i should write this" with the intention to post on ao3?!
I CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS, I'M ON THIN ICE MENTALLY I CAN'T HANDLE IT
#cake talks#I've written stuff just between me and friends with no intentions to post on ao3#but with the occasional intention to either make a comic out of it or post it on tumblr later when i get everything from the au#worked on#and nothing ever happens#but the MOMENT i even CONSIDER posting it on ao3 SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS#WHAT IS THIS#THE AO3 CURSE IS REAL AND IT'S AWFUL I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH
