#witch notes

Весна все равно наступит. Она нежно коснется талого снега, по асфальту и замерзшим тропинкам побегут ручьи. На пару дней земля станет влажной, терпкой, пробуждающейся ото сна и холодов. Все начнет возрождаться и дарить надежду. Надежду на что-то новое, важное и такое хрупкое, как первый росток. Хочется открывать окна и зазывать чуть прогретый весенний воздух.

Каждой весной во мне просыпается незыблемая любовь, которую нежно оберегаешь с осени и проносишь сквозь все холода, сквозь все повороты колеса года, лелея и взращивая. И только весной вся любовь высвободится и прольется на землю первыми теплыми дождями и яркими солнечными объятиями. Все будет в порядке. Все будет так, как и должно быть.

Since, I just did a PAC on fame I’m gonna look at my personal aspects in regards to it! I highly recommend reading this article to find your own placements!

In the article the first thing they mention are Fame (aka Leo) Degrees. 5, 17, and 29. Five represents brief fame while 29 has long lasting fame.

I only have one of these degrees. My mercury in Aquarius. I’ll gain substantial fame (if I desire) through communication. Which is funny because I have an obsession with media. Basically, communicating through artistic and digital means.

Next, Simone mentions MC/10th house. They also mention Household Name degree (28) but I don’t have this placement.

My MC was pretty close tho 😅 it was 27 degrees. Anyways my MC is also in Capricorn which isn’t a fame placement according to this article, but I see this is as supportive of my other fame placements. Capricorn is the house ruler of my 10th house, but most of my 10h placements are in Aquarius where I also have a stellium. Capricorn is very stable in my opinion, so the type of fame I’d acquire would be stable in some sense. That could be in finances, career opportunities, and so on.

Aquarius 10th house is an indication of being know as an innovator or eccentric! Which I can say is true, people often see me as weird. My Sun, Uranus, Neptune are all in my 10h in Aquarius. Mercury is also in Aquarius but in my 11th house. My Sun, Uranus, and Neptune attributes all want recognition and external attention. Basically my personality, my innovations/advancements, rebellion, and spiritually (never looked into Uranus or Neptune so this is news to me lmaooo)

With the Sun sextile my Pluto in 8h there are unconscious efforts supporting this. Which kinda relates to my 12h moon interpretation I mention later. Also, my darker/taboo interests and personality compliment my sun and why the public desires my personality. On the other hand, my Sun is squaring Jupiter. I like instant gratification and have a very outwardly bubbly personality. People like me for my darker Plutonian attributes but how I outwardly portray myself contradicts this because Jupiter is more idealistic. Sometimes I sugarcoat the truth essentially.

lmao I have a lot of aspects to my 10th house placements so imma just leave it at that. Maybe i’ll expand at a later date of y’all want me too!

Simone mentions 11th house and mentions how placements here represent a cult following.

Guess who has placements here….RIHANNA (lmao not me being her cult a$$ follower jsjsjsnd) and me 😌. My mercury is here in Aquarius. The way I communicate will gain cult following and I’ve been told in a lot of readings that I’ll probably write a book. But with 11th house representing online communities, I think the way I communicate through social media will garner attention. Similar to how people used to love what Rih posted in her early days with drama and tea. My Venus is also here in pisces so people will love how I love ig and the dreaminess of it. The reason were all obsessed with pisces lmao.

These are the only placements the article mentions, but I think Aries moons for some reason attract fame. Aries are leaders like Simone said. Aries moon natives (imo) lead with their emotions which is very attractive for a celebrity especially for one that is an artist. Rihanna is also an Aries Moon and so is Cardi B. My moon is in my 12th house in Aries and one degree away from a fame degree. WHICH MAKES SO MUCH SENSE. lmao my mother (and the women in my family in general) have close encounters with celebrities but for one reason or another they passed it up or (from my perspective) didn’t utilize it to their advantage. Like one of Jay Z’s albums is based off how my grandad dressed, my mom dated Jodeci and literally had to protect him in a club, and my aunt dated Kevin Durant, also my grandmother met JFK like all these random ass situations). There is something hidden in my opinion within our family related to fame across generations.

Oki byeee,

There are probably a million reasons why sometimes spells just don’t work. Most of the time it comes down to needing to do the inner work or just waiting a little longer than you thought necessary for the magic to happen. Just like anything else, witchcraft is a practice and spell work takes time. So if you’ve been feeling out of focus with your casting there’s probably a reason why your spells aren’t checking out. 

Read below for my top ten reasons why sometimes spells just don’t budge. 

1 You didn’t do the inner work

The number one reason why magical intention doesn’t move the energy you wanted it to is because there are blocks, energy blocks. All these blocks are blocking up your ability to push forward to what you really want. Want to focus on more of your magic? Do the work to remove the blocks so you can forge ahead. 

2 Your spell doesn't align with your highest intention 

Yes we all have the greatest potential, but what if what you’re asking for isn’t really aligning with that? Maybe you’re destined for bigger things…like owning that big company but you’re asking for a small fry raise at a place that drives you crazy with a toxic boss instead? If you have a calling go for it, don’t settle for second best. Your magic will help you more when you’re aligned with what you’re supposed to do. 

3 You don’t have enough focus

Spells are hard to perform. They’re even harder with kids, siblings, noisey housemates or any other interruptions bargingin in during your ritual work. If you really think you weren’t focusing enough, don’t force it. Just try the spell again when you can get a little quiet time instead. 

4 It just didn’t work

For reasons beyond understanding it just wasn’t meant for you (or me). I like to think of cases like this where my spirits are looking down the tunnel of my future and saving me from some really horrible outcome. So I say in instances like these, don’t force it, just go with the flow. 

5 You’re meant to focus your energy elsewhere

Just like the spell not aligning with your highest intention, it could be that your energy is needed elsewhere. Pay attention to where you are being drawn to. Something better could be waiting around the corner. 

6 You just need to practice

Pushing your magical energy out there to attract what you want in your life is not an easy task. It takes many years of dedication and practice to get it right. No one is perfect at it, and especially if you’re just starting out you may just need to practice. Don’t get frustrated, just like anything else, practice makes spells perfect.

7 You really don’t want it

Did someone beg you to perform the spell (the worst). Or is it something you really don’t want to do or happen? Dig deep and really ask yourself those hard questions. Are you manifesting what you truly want for yourself? 

8 The spell you used was off

Spells are weird. And there are a LOT of bad spells. Sometimes it’s hard to see which spells are not it and maybe the one you’re using just isn’t vibing with your energy. If it’s something you really want, switch up the spell and try again. 

9 You don’t believe

Belief is the number one drive in your magical force. If you don’t believe it's like driving a car with no gas in the tank. Believe, believe, believe. 

10 You’re just having an off day

So I found this bird feeder that can be put on the outside of my window at uni and I am thinking about creating a crow feeder. I've been researching what crows like to eat and what is good for them for a while now. I have also had to factor in my budget at uni but here is my list of things:

Leftover meat

Banana

blueberries

Mixed unflavoured nuts

egg

Water in a side

So one side of the tray I will have to seal the holes up to be able to fill it with water and the other side will be filled with goodies for them to eat.

Although I'll make this with intent for it to be for crows i know that lots of other animals may use it. The way I view this is my care for crows is a devotional act and offering to Thanatos and so he will chose who uses it.

This feeder also has the capability to be a butterfly/moth feeder. Put sugar water in one side and salt water in the other. Then fill the sugared side with fruits like banana and strawberries and cherries. (basically if the flesh of the fruit oozes as they turn overripe you're winning). You may mix dirt in with the salt side as butterflies like muddy puddles. you may also add local vegetation inside.

I've been working on a love attraction spell recently, mostly because I've been wanting a relationship and trying different methods to see what increases attraction. I've actually been noticing multiple changes with the two main things I did (a sachet and some rose water believe it or not) and thinking about sharing the spellwork later down the line. But, for now, I would like to document the changes I have noticed:

I found this lovely post by @breelandwalker, who I totally recommend checking out, and it inspired me. My cards and horoscopes have been pushing me to reflect on my goals lately so this is exactly what I needed right now! I decided I'd give it a go.

Broad Concepts

I like to follow western traditions; Celtic traditions in particular are near and dear to my heart. This is why I chose to focus my worship in the Celtic Pantheon, and I'm currently working on building a relationship with Brigid. I would consider myself an eclectic, although divination and nature magic are my two main areas of focus. While I like to ask others for advice while I learn, magic is something I prefer to practice on my own. I've only been practicing since late January, interestingly enough I started around Imbolc. So far I've found intentions are the most important aspect of witchcraft and it has helped me greatly to practice intention in all aspects of my life.

Working Space

I began constructing an altar to Brigid yesterday. Frustratingly enough, my mother is going to have me put away all my small little items and decorations tomorrow as we're trying to sell our house. We won't be moving for a few more months though. I'm hoping I'll be able to keep the altar up but I'll look into online altar options if needed. I already keep an online altar to myself on an app called #SelfCare that I would highly recommended.

Right now my altar to Brigid has a white candle in a green holder; a sailor's knot I wore around my wrist until it started to come undone; a silver bell for music and creativity; the first piece of pottery I ever painted; a picture book of the traveling I did around Michigan a few years ago; an empty journal I hope to fill with art and poems dedicated to her; and a beaker (cauldron stand-in) I dedicated by burning a sigil in that holds nineteen white rose petals and a whisker my cat lost. I'm charging a carnelian and working on a piece of fox, the spirit guide she sent me, embroidery to add to the altar. It's positioned on top of an organizer I have on my desk, which is pushed up against a window.

There's a spot under my porch I wanted to use for meditation but I discovered I'm too jumpy and distractible to meditate outdoors. I don't like having my eyes closed when out of the open and I have an exaggerated startle response. Instead, I find it better for me to meditate in the bath. Sitting in water at least ankle deep with the lights off, after everybody else has gone to sleep and when the moon can shine through the window, is the ideal place for me to sit and follow a guided meditation. I find meditations that take me on a journey through my astral space are the most effective.

Ideally, I'd like to be able to have my own space where I can freely spread my altars and workspaces throughout the house. I want to be able to fill it with plants and books and cards and candles. While I'm at home trying to avoid suspicion from my Christian family, I just have to make the most of what I have.

Tools

My first deck is on the #SelfCare app. I call it my "Familiar Deck" as that's the one I'm most connected with. It's brutally honest, which I love. My second favorite deck is the "blue-eyed" deck I use for my Daily Draw. Another brutally honest deck and one I find to be very accurate. When asking Brigid questions, I prefer to use the Yes/No deck. It gives you your answer and is also good at accurately conveying "secondary," not yes/no, messages. You'll notice all of them are online and that's because, once again, I live with my Christian family and must be covert.

I have a quite a few crystals as I, thankfully, was interested in collecting them when I was younger. The tumbled crystals I have are small and few; most of my crystals are raw. I keep forgetting to charge them when there's a full moon out. I'll have to set a reminder or something to that effect. At the very least, I'm happy that I don't have to bother with trying to obtain any without my parents becoming suspicious. One of these days, I'd love to start collecting rings and wear several. It's also silly little dream of mine to get an onyx pendulum someday.

As far as books go, I bought a beautiful journal I've dedicated as my grimoire. It's dark blue with shiny, gold space decals. I would love to collect witchy books but I don't have money and I couldn't get away with it while living at home. I hear there's an excellent discord that stores witchy books and I think it's something I'll look into. For now, my information comes from my internet research. Thankfully, I did debate for several years, so I know how to find sources from accurate cites, but it certainly takes a lot of work to find good information that way.

The Year

I’m interested in learning more about the Wheel of the Year and incorporating it into my practice. Imbolc is especially important to me, as I worship the goddess Brighid. I missed it this year but I hope to celebrate it in the future. I have yet to study the important of dates outside of astrology so I’ll have to make sure I study it more.

History of My Magic

Honestly, I’ve always felt a very strong pull towards magic. I was raised in a very religious family though so I was always afraid that answering the call would condemn me. I grew up reading as many fantasy stories as I could, connecting with any animal I was able to, and spending as much time in the woods or by water as I could. The woods and the water have always felt full of magic to me and inspired me to want to practice witchcraft. Ever since I was little, I’ve had a great fondness and affection for the moon and stars. I’ve also always felt very drawn to Celtic folklore, magic, and Irish culture. I have distant family ties to Ireland and even though it’s a relatively minor aspect of my heritage, it’s always felt the most important to me. Movies like Song of the Sea and Brendan and the Secret of Kells helped tighten my bond with it. I even started learning as much as I could about the Fae after some books I read piqued my interest. I’ve always been the kid who kept a firm belief in magic even after all my friends “outgrew” it.

It took me a long time to finally answer the call to magic. Like I said, I was raised in a religious household. My grandparents even accused me of being a witch when I went through my Harry Potter phase! It actually made me rather pleased. There were a few times I came very close to beginning practicing witchcraft but I shied away for fear of Hell. It wasn’t until I finally was able to distance myself from the church earlier this year that I decided to start practicing magic behind my parents’ back. I’m very glad I did.

Progress

I’ve only been practicing for a few months. I’ve been very busy with college so it’s been pretty lax so far. I’m trying to build some sort of consistency. The end of the semester is a bad time for that, for sure. I’ve really connected with astrology and tarot-reading. Learning about the symbolism of different bugs and animals has also been something I’ve honestly also done, so it’s nice to be able to incorporate that into my practice. Dragonflies have always been signs of good luck for me (or bad omens, as the one time I saw one dead was one my Grammy found in her garage; she showed it to me a month or so before she passed away from cancer).

Recently, I began meditation. I met my spirit animal, a brown-eyed fox, who I ended up learning was sent by the goddess Brighid to guide me. I contacted Brighid about twice and set up an altar for her. The first time I heard her speak to me was when she was telling me I don’t drink enough water (I haven’t met with her since I pulled an all-nighter for college and I’m sure she’s not particularly pleased with that). I’m hoping to get back into my meditative practice soon. I’ve also needed to meditate to ask about a crow or raven that my sister and I kept crossing paths with while going out to lunch together. I’m not sure if it’s a sign of something or if the Morrigan wants to contact me. I’ve also heard the name Cernunnos repeated in my head lately so I’ve wanted to look into him too. I didn’t think I’d have anything to do with deities after my experiences with Christianity but Brighid quickly changed my mind.

Final Notes