#wingsdestiel

When night comes, when they’ve all had their share of hugs and tearful reunions, when Jack has come and left again, when Eileen has fallen asleep on the couch, when Claire has driven the five hours straight to crash into Cas’s arms, when night comes, Dean leads Cas to his room. Miracle trots behind them, dancing a little at Cas’s heels.

“She likes you,” Dean says, once Cas sits on the edge of the bed and Miracle leaps into his lap with a bark. 

“She’s very sweet.” Cas is gently ruffling along under Miracle’s ears, smiling. “I wouldn’t have expected you to take in a dog.”

Dean loiters in the doorway and puts a hand to the back of his neck. How can he explain it? You were gone and I couldn’t move. You were gone and I had to force myself to speak so that it burned my throat. You were gone and everyone was gone but there was a dog. Instead, he doesn’t say anything. He just walks to Cas, stands in front of him and tries to breath.

Cas tilts his head up and they’re sharing one of those stares like they used to, like back when Cas was still trying to convince Dean to give himself over to an archangel. Something in Dean has shifted, though, because know he knows what Cas sees when he looks at him. He knows what Cas sees right now, looking at him.

With gentle hands, because he still loves her more than he can explain, Dean moves Miracle so that she’s on the bed beside them. And then he sinks, slowly, to his knees. He’s between Cas’s legs and Cas is looking at him with eyes that are so incredibly kind. Self-doubt kicks up some dust, tells him he doesn’t deserve that kindness, those eyes, this love. But he remembers what Cas told him.

“You told me something,” Dean begins. “Before The Empty took you, before you saved me. You told me something I’ve never heard before.”

“Dean, we don’t have--”

Dean cuts Cas with his hands cupping over his knees. He straightens, up off his heels, so that his eyes are closer to Cas’s and he breathes out slow. “Now I want to tell you something.”

“I told you, it was enough for me just to say it. I don’t need anything more.” Cas’s face is broken open and he’s smiling at Dean.

“No, I want to. I need to. I want to tell you something. Something true, something safe.” He sighs and Cas’s lets his hand over Dean’s cheek. “I want to tell you something I’ve never said before.”

Dean closes his eyes. Cas leans forward and lets his lips rest on Dean’s forehead.

“I love you, Cas. I love you, too. Of course, I do.” Dean swallows thick but it’s not pained or shot through with regret like his prayer in Purgatory had been. “I love you and that’s something you deserve. You deserve to know that I love you, that we all love you. And I...” Dean opens his eyes. “I deserve to have you love me.”

“Of course, you do.”

When they kiss, it’s soft and tender and something that Dean doesn’t think he’s ever had. It’s a future and it’s a promise.

“Would you stay?” Dean asks. “Would you stay here? With me?”

“Always,” Cas answers.

“Tonight?” Dean asks, nodding to indicate the bed. “Tonight and all the other nights. Cas...”

Cas shakes his head and kisses Dean’s forehead again, firm and sure. “I’m here, Dean. And I won’t leave. Not as long as you want me.”

Exactly! I know it may seem like I hate Dean sometimes but I really don’t, he’s a very interesting character, most of the time I really like him and I get why so many people relate to him - but sometimes the fandom makes me feel absolutely insane, like I somehow hallucinated some of the stuff he did. Even in that same posts you’ll find comments about how hot his outbursts are which ??? honey please get some help.

It’s one thing to analyze why Dean has those outbursts, that’s part of what makes him a complex character, but I’m really uncomfortable when it crosses the line into justifying it. The fact that he’s suffering, the fact he’s also hurting himself, doesn’t justify the suffering and hurt he causes on others.

I don’t mean to ramble but there’s just... literally nothing groundbreaking about men who express pent up emotions and rage through physical displays of violence. And it doesn’t stop at breaking things, he has physically taken it out on Sam multiple times too (some examples are in Bloodlust, the time he finds out Sam was working with Ruby, and in You Can’t Handle the Truth). Dean knows the kind of abuse Sam endured from John, because hell he endured the same thing, so to reproduce violent behavior on him it’s just absolutely fucked up.

thanks for the ask love!

12)   Symbolism: Tell me about some cool symbolism in SPN! Your pick.

oooooohhhh my godddd there are so many ways i want to go with this one. but. okay i’ll choose my top three and because they’re my top three they’re talked about a lot so i apologize

the handprint- i mean both in a meta way and in an in-universe way this makes me go fucking crazy. jenmish caring about and recognizing the significance is just too much. but THEN we get the handprint being a symbol of their bond. the fact that cas left a mark on dean. the fact that no matter what is between them, cas still places his hand on dean’s shoulder in the same way in the same place and when lucifer does it on the wrong shoulder it throws dean off because that means something in their connection, in the unspoken thing between them is off. god. it just... i love the handprint

dean !! knocking !! over !! the !! angel !! statue - as an english major it almost pains me how OBVIOUS this one is like it’s not even symbolism it’s just jumping off the page to twist your head to look at destiel. but i still love it. just... dean causing an angel to fall. “i cared about the whole world, because of you.” that. just. makes. me. go. insane. i cannot cope with it. every time i watch that ep i have to pause at that moment because CAS FELL FOR DEAN

the trenchcoat - besides it like, changing throughout the seasons (give me back the s4 trenchcoattttt) the way cas hangs onto this will NEVER give me peace. what reason is there for honey!cas to wear it???? like he’s in his hospital uniform but he WEARS. IT. ANYWAY. and not just because of dean. in my opinion. although i do think that’s part of the reason i also think the trenchcoat is a callback to before he falls and he wants to hold onto that. it’s such a symbol of who he was as an ANGEL but also who he can become as a human because it is, after all, a very human article. when cas himself is human, though, he takes it off. he feels he’s fallen so far that he can no longer cling to that. god it just- i love it. 

25. You can only watch one season for the rest of your life. Which one?

EIGHT! eight. 8. season: 8. i would watch season 8. the season i would watch is eight (8). for many reasons, but mostly because i think the purgatory arc was one of the most best things they ever did on supernatural. the CinemaTM of 8x23 sacrifice is just....[chef’s kiss]. also, i think the hell trials were an interesting storyline for sam. that monologue of sam’s about being unclean? PHEW. also also, i mean. the deancas moments are off the charts. also also also, benny.

plus, i think there might only be one episode that season that i actively dislike? which has got to be a record lmao.

73:  dean always insists that cas comes grocery shopping with him ‘to help [him] carry everything’ but its actually an excuse to spend more time with him while he shops exceptionally slow and distractedly. sam gets it after a while and stops offering to go with.

Yesss :D I love that song, those scenes always reminds me of it. They’re such an underrated band too!! 

Everybody go listen to it 

Oh yes... HonCon 2017. I think you are talking about the follow ones that  I made....

Or probably this one my favorite picture of The Hot Thicc Overlord..

Or this one that caused the meltdown of the Misha's fandom in June of the past year... this dude... U_U

Or the classic tweet...

And this wonderful that isn't mine...

...*sights*

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