#weight problem

I miss food...

Unable to lose weight is a problem many individuals face even after continuing with dieting and exercises. Listed are some probable reasons for the failure to shed weight.

Makes me mad depressed. Like I’m not even that fat but I was pretty skinny back then and that’s what people were used to. Now that I’ve gain some weight people point it out which is normal but it just makes me feel like shit. It makes me not like my body anymore and it took me a long time to like it as it is but lately I can feel myself disliking my physical features each day. I’ve been doing light work outs each day just trying to tone myself or slim down. My SO asked me about my weight loss journey which already is an uncomfortable topic for me as is and a highly sensitive one. I told them I was “losing a couple pounds, nothing noticeable yet” then they told me “oh.. eh I think this is your final form” and although that doesn’t sound rude or anything or whatever it just struck me in a bad way. It just made me feel like everything I’ve been doing to lose weight, everything I’ve been doing to love myself again was just invalidated. After our call ended i just stupidly burst into tears because that one stupid comment got to me and I just feel like all my work right now that I’m doing is invalid. There’s no point in me trying to improve myself because this is my final form. Shit, if you read this whole thing, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for listening to this rant.

After a night of binge eating even though I really shouldn't have. I checked my weight and thought I'm doing well, next minute I eat my weights worth in cheese and bread. My self sabotage is strong. Now I am afraid to go to sleep, because I am firstly, so awake. And secondly, so blindingly afraid to sleep, knowing tomorrow and all the things I have to do, I rather stay up and work on the things I rather spend my time doing. Drawing a fanart for Harry Potter and even recording it, sketching for the manga Navy and Book, writing my fanfiction for the raven boys. It's now 2am and I'm still too afraid to sleep. What is my weight going to be tomorrow? What am I going to do? I fucking hate my weight. I hate how much I hate it.