#vidamourmortem

2002 grad night if I’m not mistaken. An old friend showed up today with old momentos from high school. She was like look what I found. Her and I haven’t been too close through out the years but we have always been stable background characters in each other’s life. Catching up with each other whenever we cross paths. A. F. - - #highschoolmemories #oldfriends #friendship #blogger #vidamourmortem (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIZJ2GylNBk/?igshid=1e91a0hxtx714

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I just started reading #theoutsider by #colinwilson and it’s utterly enthralling. It makes so much sense to me and honestly I want to thank @poetic_outlaws for posting about him and pointing me in that general direction. ❤️ - - #reading #books #vidamourmortem (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxEP9pchD78/?igshid=5n9vdfscxpvd

Because if you did I wouldn’t be stuck here wondering. So it must not be so. A. F. #vidamourmortem #poetry #poems (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoxjgGwB_1F/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xx0667z1b84z

Edited version.! In the moment this is exactly how I felt. Rejected and just completely worthless. Not just because of him but because my character isn’t something most people fall in love with. His reaction wasn’t something new to me, and I think thats why it hurt so much. Most people in my life come and go and sometimes seem to be annoyed with my opinions to the point they stop talking to me. They always end up coming back of course, im assuming it’s because they realized I wasn’t saying anything that was not true. It is crazy how I can take the lack of emotion of this person so to heart, but it hurts because for some strange weird reason I happen to have huge feelings for him which just makes no sense to me, since he has never been the nicest person I’ve ever met. He says lucky are the ones that fall in love, but honestly sometimes I wish I had the feelings of a psychopath. Maybe that way I wouldn’t take moments like this so to heart. A. F. - - #poetry #poems #poem #editedversion #vidamourmortem (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoDWcTSh6Iu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7185m7ix55cg

#favoritebook @atticus.verses #lepetiteprince #antoinedesaintexupery #blogger #vidamourmortem (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnJ1iMmhDBk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15gs0hw73ev9q

#favoritepoem @atticus.verses Charles Bukowski #theshower We like to shower afterwards (I like the water hotter than she) And her face is always soft and peaceful And she’ll wash me first Spread the soap over my balls Lift the balls Squeeze them, Then wash the cock: “Hey, this thing is still hard!” Then get all the hair down their,- The belly, the neck, the legs, I grin grin grin, And then I wash her... First the cunt, I Stand behind her; my cock in the cheeks of her ass I gently soap up the cunt hairs, Wash there with soothing motion, I linger perhaps longer than necessary, Then I get the backs of the legs, the ass, The back, the neck, I turn her, kiss her, Soap up the breasts, get them and the belly, the neck, the fronts of the legs, the ankles, the feet, And then the cunt, once more, for luck... Another kiss, and ahe gets out first, Toweling, sometimes singing while i stay in Turn the water on hotter Feeling the good times of love’s miracle I then get out... It is usually mid-afternoon and quiet, And getting dressed we talk about what else There might be to do, But being together solves most of it, In fact it solves all of it For as long as those things stay solved in the history of woman and Man, it’s different for each Better and worse for each— For me it’s splendid enough to remember Past the marching of armies And the horses that walk the streets outside Past the memories of pain and defeat and unhappiness: Linda, you brought it to me, When you take it away Make it as ifI were dying in my sleep instead of in My life, amen. #charlesbukowski #blogger #vidamourmortem (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnJ1DH-B0Lb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vpua0q9mojxk

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