#update chapter 4

Update: Chapter 4

Ramasuri is part 3 of Precious (series)

“Did you know that I fell for you, head over heels, the very first night?”

Hearing this takes Clarke by surprise. Lexa is staring straight ahead so Clarke looks at her profile, her lips pressed together tightly as if she’s biting back more words. Then Lexa turns her head, her gaze moving up to meet Clarke’s eyes.

“You knew, didn’t you?”

“I…wasn’t sure,” Clarke confesses. She’s still holding Lexa’s hand and tugs at it now to get to turn to her. They’re close, all she’d need to do is lean in a little and she could kiss her. She’d felt something between them right away, of course she had. But she hadn’t dared to think of it as love until much later. And that had been only because her mind was going wild. She was missing Lexa, she’d figured, missing what she was promising. Clarke had thought she was the one falling and was trying to stay sensible. She hadn’t dared to believe it, that for once, she could be lucky. It’s still oddly scary, and it is this fear that constricts her throat now, a familiar burn, a familiar feeling of tears rising into her eyes. Clarke blinks, furiously, but Lexa watches her closely and she won’t have missed her struggle.

“When we first met, I didn’t feel like I belonged. Anywhere. But then I watched you behind the bar, saw you look at me so curiously and I forgot everything else. You took me to your house and you were so sweet, so—”

She kisses Lexa, drawing her face close with both her hands to shut her up, to stop her from saying all these things that Clarke wants to hear desperately but wouldn’t know how to respond to. She kisses her furiously until they run out of breath and Lexa blinks slowly, looking at her in disbelief at her passionate outbreak when they part.

“You do belong,” Clarke whispers. With me. “And I will forever be grateful to the universe, for the coincidence that brought you into my bar.”

Chapter 4 [Update] Trying to walk through that pain