What's an unidentity?
"Unidentity" is a term I've coined for a certain symptom of my DPDR that I haven't seen described elsewhere. It's a bit hard to explain, so please bear with me.
It's what I described in a previous post like this:
often when i'm depersonalizing, it's not just a vague 'away' from myself, but also 'towards' a fictional character. this is kind of hard to explain. i'll feel like i was, should be, or should have been, someone/something else, even knowing for certain it's just me.
Another way of describing it is that, sometimes, while depersonalizing, I'll feel as though I'm not a certain character in the same way I feel as though I'm not myself. Such a character can be referred to as an unidentity or unID.
Unidentity is not the same as kinning, delusional attachments, or having or being a fictive. That's not to say anyone who does/has/is any of the above can't use this term if it does apply, only that unidentity describes a different phenomenon.
For me, there will be "bouts" of a certain unidentity (which can be fairly short, or multiple months or longer) wherein it will be present whenever I depersonalize. Eventually, my current unidentity will fade or change. I don't always have an unidentity- in fact, there's almost always time in between different unidentities in which I continue to experience DPDR without that specific aspect.
All of this information is from my own experiences; other people with DPDR may or may not experience unidentity in the same way or at all. I have no idea how rare or common it is among people with DPDR. Mostly, I just want an easier way to talk about this, and for anyone else who may experience this to know they're not alone.
