#underskellington

I finally feel like writing again.

2016 was an awful, awful year. Not just in general with all the global/national shit happening, but in my personal life as well. I was getting over the loss of my best friend and trying to build up my confidence after she convinced me I was the scum of the earth. I was relishing in a new relationship before it all came crashing down. I was dealing with the grief of losing a close family member to cancer. I was struggling to define my identity and accept that it’s okay to be who I am, even if my whole family hates people like me and would disown me if I ever showed my real self.

In 2016, I was lonely, terribly lonely. Even with one or two close friends, (whom I love and thank for their continuing support) I felt distant and empty and hollow. Some of that leaked into the beginning of this year, and I still feel the residual sting.

But in October of 2016, I made this blog. I had been reading the works of my horror idols on tumblr for a while, but finally stepped up and took part in the “community,” even if I didn’t post stories. I made new friends with people I never thought I’d even be acknowledged by. I laughed at shitposts, cried at beautifully written prose, and tried to help others deal with the disbelief that hate and prejudice had won.

And all of this has helped me rekindle my interest for writing. In 2016, I finished one chapter of a story I’d been writing since 2015, and wrote nothing for the novel I’ve been working on since 2013.

But I feel like that’s about to change.

Thanks to the #horror fam and many others, I’ve really gotten back into my favorite hobby. This little family has done wonders in the small amount of time I’ve been in it. And I just want to thank everyone from the bottom of my beaten-up heart for accepting me and lifting my spirits when they were at their lowest.

I might post original content soon. I might change my URL. I don’t really know what’s in the future for unsettling-fans but you bet your ass I’m still going to support the writers and artists of this family.

I don’t think I can ever say it enough, but thank you. @decomprosed @unsettlingstories @formallyfreya @darylsdckson @ezmisery @evanthenerd83 @proxypunch @underskellington (if I miss anyone please tell me, my memory is the absolute worst)

thank you so much!! i’m glad you like it.

i have a love/hate relationship with kylo ren in that i love canon kylo but hate “fanon” kylo. i think there are a lot of really interesting ways his story could go and i love that he kind of serves as a mirror to the entitled young white men in our own society who commit acts of violence to get what they want (be that power, money, sex, whatever). i think he’s a fantastic villain (and that’s what he should stay). 

i HATE the version of him that some parts of the fandom have come up with that will reach to the stars to excuse all of his actions and act like nothing he’s ever done was his fault. he might be conflicted, and that’s part of what makes him interesting, but his choices are still his choices. i’ve seen people blame his killing people on a bad childhood (which canon contradicts every single time something about his past with han and leia is revealed), on not being luke’s favorite trainee (???), on luke HIMSELF. people have gone to far as to say luke killed his own students just to absolve kylo of his sins. that version of kylo ren i despise.