#umhh

UHHHH WHAT JUST HAPPENED

]this weird little obsession every time i see anything on tumlblr or anywhere else (but i mostly use tumblr) connected with sex, woman, people that are pretty or people that can be called sexy, when i see bodies, more or less nude, even clothes i feel guilty as if i was meaning to do watch this kind of things in erotic way, idk if that makes sense?? then i  feel guilty and i tell myself that im trying not to look at those things; 

also when i see nudity or “sexy things” lets say in movies or series i close my eyes; when im beginning to be scared that i may watch certain series for sexual content in them i feel guity and stop watching it 

i started to have intrusive thoughts with sex and theyre really really not nice and im afraid that i actually like or want to have these thoughts

every moment i ask my boyfriend about my thoughts or things that i did lately or some time ago, if they are b ad, if i am bad, if he forgives me; its almost like confessing 

i can feel this constant, small anxiety in my mind that i can not get rid of