#twentyfitteen

Y’all, I’m tireddd DXX, I just got back from Theatre Rehearsal LOOOL

But...idk. I don’t like NOT trying, and I REFUSEEEE to try to NOT make this one of my best days ever ZMCIMDSMND

So, here we go :)

I did 30 wall push-ups (my goal this year was to learn to do a proper push-up!!! :D)

Then 5 squats :P

Alsooo, I flexed!! :D

So yknow how people either headcanon Korra as a flustered romantic or completely oblivious dingus (well majority of people) I found out what category I fit into today.

I was laying on the floor after dance just staring at the ceiling lost in my own thoughts when my lady friend lays down beside me, her body laying the opposite direction, so we were looking at each other upside down (not pertinent it’s just a cute memory I’d like to take note of)

And we’re talking and she brings up the Pony Magic Mike dance (which we haven’t really spoken about? We’ve been talking SO much but that’s kind of just been like WELL THAT HAPPENED)

Anyway I say “haha I was so nervous you have no idea, I wasn’t even sure you liked me” and there’s this long pause. I look over and she’s staring at me like I’ve grown a third head.

My face drops and I’m like “what? What did I say?” And she sits up and positions herself directly over my head and lightly smacks it. I laugh and ask what’s up and she’s like looking at me incredulously.

“You didn’t think I liked you? I thought YOU DIDNT LIKE ME! You never returned any of my flirting!!!”

I’m smiling up at her and say “okay sure... what flirting? You’re always so cool and collected.”

Her face begins to burn up and she composed herself, I can’t tell if she wants to burst out laughing or slap me again lol “Lottie... I asked you to sit on my lap one day and played with your hair, asking if you had a girlfriend and if you were interested in dating. You replied “yeah maybe if I met another gay girl, one minute I want to give Marcus a wedgie” and proceeded to burst across the room and tackle giant men”

I pause and think. “I thought that was a generic question”

She looks like she’s about to explode with frustration and I just grin wider.

“You liked me back then even?”

More burning in her face “I liked you back then even.”

I sit up and grab her face and she looks genuinely surprised, not sure what I’m gonna say. “I need you to understand one thing...” I say very seriously. She’s looking at me trying to read me. I continue, “I am a fucking moron.” She proceeds to “punch” me in the stomach before pulling me back up for the next dance class.

Yes I’m an idiot. But hey it worked out in the end ✌️💖

Getting my steps in this week. Just finished 2.5 miles. 1.75 yesterday and 2.25 Monday. If only the sun wasn't coming to visit Pennsylvania this weekend.

I got a haircut!! ^__^

Also, went thrift shopping today, lol. Bought TONSSS of clothes :3 (a good amount :PP)

I needa write my schedule and work down, so I can stop being DXX

I scheduled in gym time for the week!! <3

This is my prom pic. 👀👀👌🏼

@my-cup-runneth-over I love you, and this is for you 😂👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

Also- ima try to start doing mental fitness updates. Here’s one!!

So, I’ve been going to the beach for the past two days, and was kinda tired, so today was supposed to be my rest day off. I was supposed to film my first YouTube video today, and get my blog post up, but Dx

I got too lazy. :( So, I’ve spent 60% of the time I’ve been up laying on a couch, and now I am DETERMINED TO DO SHIT. 😭😭👌🏼

Starting with taking a walk outside!! :D But...idk, do y’all get into any lazy/depressive funks? :(

Okay, bye!! I love y’all, and you’re AMAZING! :) <3 (enjoy the pictured period of my life where I wasn’t gay yet fjjdnsnd)

I also wanna thank @jadasaurrawr for being so kind to me the past few days/weeks, and for, uhh...being a really great friend to me. :)

Hey, y’all :). Just wanted to say...I MISS y’all, and love y’all DEARLY. I’ve been thinking of y’all, a lot. <33

And idk...I really do think I’ve gotten better within the past few days. Ever since I got back from vacay, I’ve done some HUGEE things, regarding mental fitness.

First, on 8/3, I posted a HELLAAA long Facebook post about my struggles this year. It seems like a little, but holy fucking SHITTT, Y’ALL I SPENT THREE HOURS ON THAT SHIT.

And I did not expect...the TREMENDOUS amount of support I received. It was phenomenal. Truly, so, so MANY of my friends were there for me, friends I didn’t even know were there, or friends I’ve forgotten...I’m really lucky to have such a loving community. :) <3

Secondly, I posted my whiteboard up! <33

Hopefully, with this, I can get a LOTTT OF habits and goals done!! <33

Also...yeah. :)

8/4- Shannon, the ever- fucking AWESOMEE @threehoursfromtroy decided to surprise me, with my very own fanart from her Korrasami Fanwork Positivity Campaign (which...I have not acknowledged completely/reblogged. xD.) I take a LOONG time to process things, guys, and THIS WAS A HUGE THING FOR ME FKDNDNDJ. But YES, I do...WHOLEHEARTEDLY accept that those who put effort into my gift, did it because they love me. :)

And, most of all, I love you, Shannon. Thank you a MILLION for this. <3

Also, @perishingshards I love you too. You little masterminds put both of this on >.> 👀👀👀👌🏼

8/5...I wrote a little. A LOT, really. :) <

8/6-8/7: Really, just...meditating a lot. Thinking. Accepting my thoughts, sitting in the PRESENT. I am a girl, who usually runs away from feelings, because they’re too HARD to process. I don’t wanna do that shit, I’d rather FEEL happiness and positivity. But...if one is ever to find *true* love and happiness, you GOTTA accept your feelings, and work through them 😫.

HONESTLY, I LOVEEEE thinking. Like, I LOVE thinking about the world, and its little intricacies, and its dot-dot-dots...that’s me, I’m a thinker 😫😂. I realized some REALLY cool things about myself, and what I perceive to be my purpose in life. Which is just...REALLY COOL. :) <3

8/8-8/9 was preparing for my trip to L.A xD

8/10 was THE DAY!!!!! <333 xD Well, I arrived in L.A, and...I met these BOMBBBBB- ASS girls, and HONESTLY, I’m in love lol

8/11- y’all...it was truly, TRULY, one of the BEST days of my life. :)

But, otherwise...it’s been a lot of journaling, reading (I even checked out library books! I LOVEEEEE reading about history and dope-shit like that, so I FUCKKNGGNGNGNNF got ‘Women of The Frontier’ and ‘Women Heroes of The American Revolution’ 😭👌🏼. Both, are very near and dear to my heart, and I love them very much. :) <33

Also, tho...I dunno. Got my sluggish moments. My *meh* moments. But to be FUCKING honest, if I’m not living life, and trying to be my BEST, then what the fuck am I doing? Your BEST is something that NEEDS to be worked at, but...I’ve had a lot of sluggish moments over this summer, and the last few weeks, that I’m REALLY not too pleased about Dx.

But, then again...I’ve also come to realize the beauty of growing. I’ve been thinking of myself from last year, to now, and a whole lot has CHANGED. FOR FUCKING INSTANCE LOL, I’m now part of the bombest-ass fitness community that I helped create :D, am now a HUGEE member of the Korrasami community 😫👌🏼🙌🏼, have met people and heroes that I never THOUGHT I would, have done incredible, amazing, fucking unfathomable things...idk, I’m INCREDIBLE. I should stand to tell myself that more often, because I don’t hear it enough, from me. 😫👌🏼

So, life has a lot of bright spots right now. There’s a LOT to do for Korra Fitness, the Korra community, my travel blog, my work-out plans, my...new/old-found realization of the EFFECT I have had on people (which, I’ve gone through old screenshots of, and EVERYONE should know how they have a positive effect on others :), and just...living life. :Di

I only have a WEEK left of summer (6 days as I type this 😫🙅🏻‍♀️🙅🏻‍♀️)... and uhh...LETS MAKE THE MOST OF IT LOOOL. 🔥🔥🔥🔥💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼🤟🏼🤟🏼🤟🏼🙌🏼😁👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

Also, tho, @zelegendaryfit has inspired me to make this post, because uhhh, he’s fucking awesome AND mental fitness is important. So, here ya go, bud. :) I’ma try to update with both mental and physical fitness updates. 😭😭❤️

Also, a QUICK shout-out to my babes @threehoursfromtroy @perishingshards @somonebeatmetoit @reallifekorraexists @tokaywineandcheese @trans-sister-radi0 @anubisatmidnight for keeping me afloat, I LOVE YALL SO MUCH KFKDKDKDN😭🙏🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼❤️

(Thirsty-Like-Asami-Sato Thursday 👀👀👀😉😏👌🏼🙌🏼)

Y’ALL...IT WAS P MUCH THE FUCKINGGGG BEST DAY EVERRRR 😭😭👌🏼👌🏼👏🏼❤️❤️❤️

NDIDJSJS HAHAAA

I WOKE UP FEELING LIKE DEADASS SHITTT BUT HERE GOES LMFAOOO XD:

I KILLED LECTURE TODAY (Humanities class was about this 17th century Mexican poet, named Sor Juana, and I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭👌🏼🔥❤️🤟🏼💥❤️🖐🏼🙏🏼⚡️⚡️)

SEMINAR WAS KILLED BECAUSE I FUCKING ASKED SOOOO MANY QUESTIONS <33

I HUNG OUT WITH A FRIEND TODAY, that I haven’t met in a LOOONG TIME <33

I GOT SALTED CHEESE MILK TEA FOR THE FIRST TIME LMFOAOO (WHICH IS LIKE, FUCKINGGG BOMBBB YOOOOO 😫😫😭👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼💣💣💣💣🔥🔥🔥🔥)

Lmfao, I ALSOOO TOLD my friend about KORRA FITNESS (XDDD), and she went BATSHIT LOL. It was a CRAZY time :)

Idk, just...EXPLANING to my friend EVERYTHINGG that I’ve been doing, from traveling to Korra Fitness, to just...LIFE, in general, is...AMAZING. :) I cant freaking believe I have the opportunity to do so many AMAZING things in life AND THIS IS JUST FUCKINGGG AWESOMEEEE!!!!!!! 😭😭😭👌🏼❤️❤️❤️🙌🏼😫😂

AFTERWARDS, I WENT TO MY HIP-HOP PRACTICE AND KILLED IT LOOOL. It was fun!! And more natural <3

Also, yo-

YOOOOOO JDNNDNDKDMD

MUHFUCKERS I FUCKING GOT INTO THE PLAY!!!! KDKEMEKDKD

SOMEHOW LMFAOOO

I GOT INTO THE PLAY!!!!

AND I AM ABSOLUTELYYY JUST SOOOO OVER THE MOOON!!!! ABOUT ITTTT 👌🏼😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🎊🎊🎉🎉🌈🌈🌈⚡️💫💫☄️💥MDKDNEJD 😭😭👌🏼😫

Lmfao, I’ve just NEVER gotten into a play, before so. :)

I guess what I’m saying is- I dead-ass thought this day was gonna be ass, because i woke up late and sad. Now, look what it turned into. :) a jam-PACKED day :D <3

Also, did 15 or so Wall-push-ups! Though, the dancing is quite a workout in its OWNN XDDD