#tripleatomic

meizini barely exists to me outside of my head unless they’re actively doing something in front of my face and then i’m like “oh right you guys actually interact on camera sometimes.” any time anything gay happens with them it feels like i’ve done several lines of cocaine

i like how megan said she’d want 5 danis over 5 year old dani because she can never get enough of her

i like how dani chose megan as the person she’d go to a public bath with because she’s “most comfortable with her that way” and her decision was surprising even to megan

i like that dani thinks megan is the funniest person in the world

i like that they’re both losers

i like that they went from being close (on camera) to being, uh, not so close (on camera). because What The Hell Happened (good for rpf)

i like how when megan asked to borrow one of dani’s necklaces to film gogosing time lapse, dani gave her the one with her initial

i like the meizini manifesto

i like dream maker (my heartbreaker) and a dani who wants and wants and wants but can’t accept it because she thinks she’ll be punished for it. a megan who sees them as two halves of a whole, as parallel lines. a megan who wishes they’d known each other sooner. a megan who wants more than she thinks dani is capable of giving her

i like want rises up in me (like a hot oil) and a dani who is soft but kind of mean but not Mean in the way people say she is, and a megan who reaches for what she knows she can’t have

i like their whole “you are what i could have been” thing

i like the ache

i like how megan can get closeness/intimacy/love from dani but never exactly in the way she wants it

i like that megan waits for dani to choose her even though she knows dani won’t

i like that dani’s straight (something no one has ever said before). i like that i can only “realistically” have her sexuality be ambiguous/unlabeled in my fics. kinsey scale 2 at most

i like that 99% of the time (to me) they’re doomed. i like that i don’t think they’d work as a couple. i like that things will fall apart no matter how much they love each other. i like that they’re hurting each other and themselves, knowingly or not