Today I feel less ok.....
Than I did yesterday. I don’t know if it’s because of hormones or the fact that cd1 has started. I really want to be there for J, but I feel like it’s going to really be a test of my will power. I literally just cried on my husband because I feel like I’m at a loss. I just feel like this whole process should be way easier than it is. I know 1 in 8 goes through this - but it’s so isolating. J is a really supportive friend and isn’t making me feel shit. But I want my kids to be friends with my friends kids and I can see that slowly slipping away. Husband and I have made a game plan. We will do one more time’s intercourse and move to IUI next month and see what happens. We’re also going to go to the bank and look at consolidating again and get some money out, to either use for a car or future appointments. I do know one thing - We’re not stopping.













