#twoweekwait

Let’s talk about symptom spotting..

How terrible is it that all the signs of early pregnancy can also be explained as signs of PMS? My poor google must be getting exhausted from constantly looking up “early pregnancy symptom... *insert symptom here*”. But really, does the body gotta trick us this way?

Cramping... pms, pregnancy, both.

Nausea.... both!

Strong sense of smell... both!!!

Vivid dreams... also both

Tender boobs... both

Hilariously and on accident, we managed to catch ovulation this month if the Glow app predicted it right.

C and I went out for the weekend and camped with the stepsons. It’s a trip we do every year with friends I’ve had since grade school; camp at the coast, go crabbing, and spend days catching up on our over-filled lives around a fire. It’s awesome, and I feel rejuvenated in a way I didn’t know I needed. C and I got lots of quality time together, but no sex.

Camping sex is the best, but I was glad we brought the boys this time. They had a blast, and it meant we had to wait until we got home and the boys went back to their mother.

After it happened (thinking we’d missed ovulation and just enjoyed it 😈), I checked the app and lo and behold, O day! We were planning on taking a break and just not preventing anymore instead of temping, using OPKs, testing early etc.

I’m not even excited about TTC chances at the point, I’m excited because if it were to happen this month, C is more on board than ever! We’re both healthier, we have worked on stabilizing our debt and and after a camping trip? We relaxed! 😍

All ingredients for a wee babeh!

We used nothing but sex and prenatals this cycle. I also only track cervix position, cervical fluid and basic health things: sleep, hydration and symptoms if any.

O day (9/24) - BD💑

cramps

backache

hot flashes

mild headache

side soreness (breasts)

Little discharge in panties.

1dpo (9/25) - BD💑

vivid dreams about positive tests last night

Dull ache like cramping

backache

hot flashes (weird ones! Beading at my hairline and forehead, barely felt warm)

headache increased (needed medicine)

breasts are full; mildly sore when touched

2dpo (9/26)

woke up needing to pee (went to bed on empty bladder); had to pee again an hour later after no liquids

Backache 😵

Headache is still here and is annoyingly strong

Breasts are full/rounded; sore on sides.

Throbbing and twinges on left side of pelvis/abdomen(left ovary??)

feeling super wet down there

3dpo (9/27)

Headache seems to finally be wearing off, mild today

Backache (Strong! Hurts when leaning over 😵😵)

Sides and lower abdomen are really sore

Throbbing in lower back

Weird AF like stomach feeling..things...

Stronger breast pains; throbbing/shooting pains to nipples

Fatigued 😱

Still weirdly wet down there

4dpo (9/28) - BD💑

Emotional today

Runny nose Frequent urination Weird bubble cramps in stomach area Pelvic cramping Discharge in panties sides hurts Backache Acid reflux symptoms

Feel really good/better than I have in weeks and happy to tackle the day, even with uncomfortable issues.

5dpo (9/29)

Bloating

Hot flashes

Emotional...missed mother-in-law today

Weird insomnia that resulted in 9 hours of sleep. Oof. 😵

Sore breasts

Frequent urination

Weird dull cramping on left side of groin/pelvis

Mild backache

6dpo (9/30) 💑

Backache...all over this time

Stay tuned!

Woke up tasting pennies...still do

Back and side cramps

Shooting pains in breasts

Forgetfulness/clumsiness at work

Itchy skin

Hot flashes

Heaviness/let down feeling pelvis

AF like feelings...kept thinking it was here

😵

7dpo (10/1)

Frequent urination (woken up from sleep)

Slept until 11am

Mild metallic taste

LOTS of energy in afternoon! Felt better than I have in days!

Lower belly bloating (mild)

8dpo (10/2)

Woke up feeling sick... plugged/stuffy nose sinus pressure Headache Hips are sore Full/heavy breasts, pains still Stomach cramping & hurt upon waking Napped from 4:30pm to 6pm (had already slept 9 hours) Left side cramping/pulling Backache came back in afternoon All I want to do is go back to bed...

9dpo (10/3)

So uncomfortable when I sleep now!!

Weird insomnia/fatigue combo; energy doesn't seem to run out, yet during the day I'm excited for bedtime 😪

Breast soreness is really increasing!

Left side pain

Diarrhea twice 😵

Excessive thirst

Mild headache

FIRST TEST: BFN

I’m grateful for pretty much everything in my life, but if I’m being honest, it’s been difficult for me to be in the Thanksgiving spirit this year.

Infertility is such a lonely journey. Yes, I have a husband who loves me endlessly and wants this as bad as I do, but he also doesn’t get to live it the way I do. And maybe I actually resent him for that, just a little. It’s so frustrating to see literally everyone around you getting pregnant pretty much overnight, and then there’s me, trying for 2 solid years, with nothing. But I’m “healthy” and “normal.” It’s hard when you have no answers. It’s hard to not hate your body and think so negatively and get out of your head. It’s genuinely so hard.

But as I always do, I’m going to slap on a smile and continue about my life, because it’s what I do every day. I’ll go to work with a positive attitude. And tell everyone I’m okay, because at the end of the day, I am. I’m just “okay.” I’m not “great.” And I’ll continue to make jokes and finish all my tasks on time, and come home to my doggies and get all the snuggles. I’ll continue to pack myself lunch and take my prenatal vitamins because ya never know... I’ll push through. I always do.

Today was the day! Brett’s sperm count was stellar again... All extremely high numbers, as usual. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

My procedure was shockingly comfortable this time around! I had no cramping, which is awesome. The doctor also said there was a “nice amount of mucus” (🤢) in my cervix so I’m probably ovulating, which is the first time we have heard them say something like that.

Hopefully Brett’s little army will flood my happy little (big) follicles and make some magic! 😂 Sorry, if I don’t joke about it, I’ll go crazy.