#trigger warning emetophobia

I hate being chronically ill.

Back in February my Lyme Disease went into "pseudo remission." I use the term because it never actually goes away due to its hibernate-awake cycle.

I now have another disease. From the same god damn tick that bit me back in 2018. We don't know exactly what I have, but it is likely Alpha Gal Syndrome. I am allergic to red meat, oil, and certain dairy products. The allergic reactions I have are intense gastrointestinal issues that cause vomiting and other stuff.

I thought I was healthy after years of dealing with this shit. I can't go out to restaurants anymore or I get intensely ill because of the cross contamination that happens because people don't think meat allergies exist. I can't eat the food my friends and family make because no matter how careful they are, they almost always contaminate the food.

Luckily, I haven't lost more than ten pounds over this past month, but life is fucking miserable.

If you have chronically ill friends, please make sure you tell them you love them. Tell them it's ok they can't make it. Tell them it's ok if they have to cancel.

I find it really funny looking back on my highschool days when I was incredibly sickly. I took the little bus because Autism™ and had some meds I needed to take since I was diagnosed with Lyme disease. (0/10 would not recommend that shit)

I find it hilarious how I would tell the Para's riding the bus that I was about to eject my stomach contents. I would deadass lean over and say shit like "sorry to bother you, but I'm about to throw up" with a professional sounding voice. It's so funny because that's the only time I would ever speak to them like that

thankfully it was p much just snot but still

i h a t e being sick