Inso ah ,, I thought it would be a good idea to wait til this chapter was out to read BOTH weeks chapters cause I KNEW you'd break it up and I thought I was SOOO clever. I was then shot 47 times. I don't want to make my ask TOO long but I have SO many thoughts and SO MANY emotions, I might use a couple of asks,, sorry in advance (β Β΄β -β οΉβ -β `β ). The whole scene broke me. The details of our mcs assault SHOULDN'T have shocked me so bad, especially since most of it was alluded to beforehand, but 1/?
the whole story PLUS the parallels you can pull from the boys actions?? I felt dizzy while reading it. Our Brave MC pushing through and getting the weight off her shoulders only to be crushed with something heavier. I knew that confession would absolutely drain her, but the reaction definitely surprised me. I know she said it should have had more gravity, but to me, it almost seemed like those scenes in the movies where something explodes nearby and you have that ringing and the lack of focus2/?
except it never ended and it won't end when the door shuts and the curtain falls. I'm glad everybody got a chance to properly overwhelm Mc lol. My second read through I thought it was so funny, like the worst and most emotional game of wack-a-mate, and it's the only solace I found. I think Changbin isn't used to not knowing what to say or how to get through to someone, especially someone he loves, and Its so interesting to see that frustration bubble up and I genuinely thought leeknow had 3/?
gotten through to her, and MAYBE she'd stay and MAYBE they'd help her move in the morning, and talk it though, and lix would make tea with sugar, and then you SHOT me AGAIN!!! Chan sitting stationary while everything falls around him is such a character culmination. Even when the roof is around him he's already planned for that and he's trying to think about how much contractors cost. It makes it worse that Mc wasn't given the opportunity to plan for herself. It stings juuust that much more 4/?
knowing your world has changed and the man who spun it is already on contingency plan #12. Seungie made me cry. Like break down and bawl, I had to take a break. Being right about the snitching didn't helpand two reads in I haven't even BEGUN to dissect that portion and I'm not ashamed to say it. I think it's a testament on how good your writing is, to be able to bend another humans emotions. Even if you're bending them into a PRETZEL. 5?/6
That was FAR too long and I'm REALLY sorry, it probably won't even happen again, but I want to say how Soohyun has BEEN my goat the ENTIRE story, and I KNOW she'll keep being my plot easing goat. Love her DOWN. Have a good well deserved break, Inso ah, I'll be waiting patiently and sweeping up the remnants of my heart. Thank you as always for sharing your vision with us and for being a vessel in which to pour my love inβ€οΈ
"I was then shot 47 times" Any reference to this meme in regards to these chapters has made me laugh HAHAHA
The MC backstory chapter was pretty overwhelming, I don't blame you!!! It was really supposed to hit the way you described, actually -- like it shouldn't be a shock, but it still is. It's not exactly coming out of nowhere, but it's not like you've ever seen it all in one place before, either
"like those scenes in the movies where something explodes nearby and you have that ringing and the lack of focus" I really like this description!!! π I'm sure this is obvious by now, but MC defaults on disassociation when overwhelmed; even when she isn't fully out of her body, I think there's a certain distance that comes and goes when she reaches that stress threshold
Wack-A-Mate made me laugh ππ And "I think Changbin isn't used to not knowing what to say or how to get through to someone, especially someone he loves, and Its so interesting to see that frustration bubble up" I really love this, it's an excellent read of him here, and this actually comes up later...
Seungmin made a lot of readers cry hahahaha π π π He's definitely one of my favorites in this past chapter too
There's no such thing as a too-long comment!!!! This was so kind, thank you so much π₯°π π
