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Everything posted here is a work of fiction and isn't meant to reflect anything IRL at all. Let's just have fun!

I know I said something about the possibility of a playlist in my last ask…….i made it….

I swear my body just got taken over by MC and I started making it.

It is some things I think MC would write in my lil headcannons, and some things I think she’d probably listen to as a yearning, depressed, indie cali girl #cowabunga😔

Some of the songs on there are things like:

Pushing it Down And Praying - Lizzy McAlpine

Creep - Radiohead

Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

And other similar (and some not so similar) songs!!

I know you said you’d give it a look if I made it, so I wanted to be able to show it to you! Def look at the description as it kind of explains it a bit haha!

If anyone else feels like taking a peek please feel free!!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1fZQo0AnJDMNCiLYBpNO7r?si=oi1UkdJwS8-Uz4zkAoNSkw&pi=vLCFDlQlRUiYO

Much love 🫰🏼

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Awww I'm so glad you made it!!! Right off the bat I love this icon LOL

I actually have a couple of these on my playlist for her, too! 😊 I really like Your Best American Girl for her even though I think the meaning gets kind of reversed in a situation like RON (which is interesting! I am also biased. I am very attached to this song) and I think she would like all-american bitch a lot too. Sooo much of this fic is about butting against gender roles and constraints, right? 🤔

Phoebe Bridgers!! I think I have Garden Song on my RON MC playlist 🙆 Motion Sickness and Moon Song also make me think of teen MC, but I guess that's kind of its own thing

Should we trade!! Here's some are a few from mine that I don't think I've posted here before(?):

Summer of Love - Waxahatchee

300 dreams - After

Happiness is a butterfly - Lana Del Rey

Too Dark - Frankie Cosmos

I Can't Give Everything Away - David Bowie

Only A Prayer Nothing More - Florist

William, It Was Really Nothing - The Smiths

Rollercoaster - Dear Nora

Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains) - Arcade Fire

I Don't Believe You - The Magnetic Fields

Drag - Day Wave

First thing first, I'd like to say thank you for showing us the story you've written with first intention was for your private readings only. Thank you for finally published RON on AO3. I cannot thank you enough. I really enjoy reading chapter by chapter, I even reread during your hiatus and reread some chapters on different times.

Reading it on going is actually feels like roller coaster. Honestly, I expect the angst mine was still going on for another chapters but hey, the NSFW chapter such a pleasant surprise. I even had chocolate bar ready! However, I predict we would enter another angst mine, wouldn't we?

After rereading chapter 63 - 67, I got why MC backed off after the boys being honest about the soulmate thing. On the first reading I was like, "Huh, why MC such a coward, I mean love need sacrifices eventually, right? And the boys wouldn't let her bear it alone, just communicate please, ugh!"

I now just anticipate some character development from MC, because so far she did have some development! I'm fictionally proud of her. I got how scary it would be, being with someone (8 someones) who are famous and how people are mean most of the times to the people close to their idols. And it was traumatic enough how she and her mother were left by her biological father because he found his soulmate, so irresponsible and selfish. And I got how she wanted to be seen as herself first not because of her status nor because of soulmate bond.

I'll be patiently waiting for you finally release some boys' side of the story. Curious of what each of boys' are thinking during the crisis period. You said it's hard to write Hyunjin in group scenes, I see what you did there. Hyunjin fits more on private scenes, isn't he?

Anyway, have a great days for the rest of the week! I hope you stay safe, healthy and well!

Aw, thank YOU for reading it! 💛 I really did not expect to share RON at all and certainly did not expect so many people to read it. Honestly I am still kind of shocked…??? hahahaha

When I was initially using the term ’the angst mines’ in my private thoughts and conversations, chapter 66 and 67 actually weren’t included! I think we are out of those really really deep despair chapters and into a more kind of medium place. It’s scary in it’s own way but it FEELS different, I think 🤔 Lots of back and forth! I guess I'll have to wait and see if all of you agree 😊

I think MC is very acutely aware that there are choices you just can’t take back, and ways that you can change yourself for the worse for other people, even if you didn’t realize it at the time. I am the writer so I am biased! But I actually think it’s good for her to make sure this is what she wants before plunging into it 🙆 I think if she felt she was forced or pressured into it, by the boys or fate or gender or whatever, I don’t know if she could ever be truly happy with her choice. I think that ‘what if’ would always linger, and it would really eat her up inside

Hahaha yes Hyunjin definitely got some one-on-one time 😆😆 I didn’t say this before when I talked about group scenes but part of why I didn’t have to contrive some in-character way for him to talk more in ch65 is because he gets so much time right after. Hooray!

also these are a bit disjointed cuz i pulled these quotes at like 3am with the intent to send thoughts today so let's just treat this as a brain dump yay

firstly, i've been indulging in a very slow re-read for savory purposes which has been awesome because it's crazy to revisit the start compared to where we are. I have a soft spot for when they were in their pre-friends with benefits era but clearly mean more than friends era.

my chapter of particular mention that i enjoyed (this kinda changes every time i re-read lol) was 17 / Curveball. I love the obsessive monologue bit at the end when MC is asleep and Seungmin and IN are kinda discussing. LOVE. I also indulged myself in a SLOW re-read of the 26-27 MC w Felix and Seungmin sleepover, but I didn't have any groundbreaking thoughts other than finding it hot. and boy do you know how to write tension that was boiling lol.

I stopped ON ch 33 for no (it's been a slow and segmented re-read as my schedule allows haha) so my main thoughts kind of focus on the 31-32 bit where they're trying to 'make up' after they just iced her out following triggering innie's rut.

QUESTION 1: do they/mc ever consciously revisit that it's them being soulmates that triggered it which is why the boys knew it was her but she didn't know so thought they were mad for essentially no reason?

side note before my main thoughts, I absolutely fucking love the 29 / Terms and Conditions chapter and it hit really hard because I have been adoring jeongin lately so it really whispered to the horny side of my brain.

okay wow long intro now my thoughts. one of the things that made me want to write up another message was because i was like !! at the idea of comparing their 'first argument' (what I am denoting them icing her out) versus their 'big argument' (which I am denoting the contract one).

also haha i'm clearly unoriginal because i found the following when i was going back to pull comparison quotes.

(1) Ch 63 > The last time you’d all had a big emotional blowout, back in winter after Jeongin’s rut had been triggered early, there had been a scramble from especially the younger members to sit beside you, Minho already having occupied the other seat.  This time, it seems no one is quite willing to take that role; they all linger in place, watching you, eyes darting between each other and the empty spots and back to you.

clearly i'm not the only one drawing comparisons between the two...

also quick compliment i liked this > “No more secrets,” you say, “okay?” Something like panic pulses across his face. < part of Chapter 64 a lot HAHA. just because as the audience i enjoy being in on why the panic occurs even though MC doesn't (at that point). the whole story reveal, i don't think i sent a specific ask on it, but i really loved how it was done. I felt like tonally it made sense so well with story about like where she came from and now where she is when she's telling it. like we can tell the story is awful, but she does kind of tell it relatively calmly for what you might think such a harsh background would yield. which even though she's a work in progress with healing, i do think this really shows that the healing is in progress even if there's been some setbacks. chan being so affected during the story was so juicy (compliment) to me. i know all of them are but it was nice to have chan like literally crying when he's spent most of the story so far being in control and prioritizing the pack.

also i think it makes so much sense that it's hyunjin who tells her and also hyunjin who runs after her. especially after going back through those opening chapters where he goes to the coffee shop and he's got a monologue somewhere (i don't remember where) where he talks about how he knew since he was trying to catch a whiff from over by the car that first night.

i also have a lot of feelings about mc and changbin's convos recently but i don't really have the words for them so just know that they touched me and i thought you did it extremely well.

also i just cannot get into the seungmin begging stuff because him being a little pathetic really does something for me lmao

..the tongue piercing....... no comment (HOT!). while i'm at it, all of chapter 67 was so incredibly perfect and wonderful and sexy to me.

the bit about her losing her hearing is also hilarious to me if there will be more just know i am such a fan of it.

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MORE RECENTLY just because it was mentioned in the most recent chapter and then i kinda got excited when i saw what it was referencing happening earlier.

(2) Ch 31 > There's that same bizarre sentiment Hyunjin had expressed not a month ago. "I already said the same thing to Hyunjin," you mumble, head down, thumbing at the back of Changbin's hand. "There's no way I'll be the one leaving first."

(3) Ch 67 > But Hyunjin is still speaking, and he doesn’t let you deliberate for long.  “It’s just,” he says, muffled nearly inaudible, “you promised.  You said you wouldn’t leave me behind.”

(2)(3) Comment: Okay i recognize that in 2 i just pulled the reference not the first occurrence that it happened, but i think i read the initial mention before i read ch 67 so i didn't realize lol. BUT i was like giddy in ch 31 when i was like OMG WAIT WE JUST REFERENCED THIS THING. and now i'm like okay wow this is probably the most cohesive fic i've ever read. like the attention to detail on these little things is insane. but it makes re-reads incredibly incredibly fun.

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(4) Ch 32 > Your boys are scattered around the room in various states of dress. Most are in sleepwear; only Chan, Jeongin, and Felix look as though they'd been dressed when Changbin called them. Minho locks your eyes to his the moment you glance at him, his keys still held tight in his hand; Jisung jolts to his feet at the sight of you, wavering like he isn't sure whether to grab you or run. Seungmin stays very, very still, resolutely trying to catch your eye; Hyunjin is staring at you, but when your gaze passes over him, he drops his head, hiding his expression as he looks down at his feet.

(5) Ch 61 > All eight of your boys are congregated in a huddle, leaning in and down and towards you.  They look like a mess, still in stylish clothes like they’d come straight from the airport paparazzi, but with bags under their eyes and sallow tones to their faces, haunted and gaunt and miserable.  Felix’s roots are growing in; Hyunjin is practically curled in on himself, none of his usual ease in his posture.  Jisung all but jumps, colliding with Minho just behind him; Minho only stares, eyes swirling and black.  Changbin’s jaw is tight, and Jeongin’s smile is frozen stiff on his face; Seungmin hunches his shoulders when your eyes pass over him, like he’s trying not to be seen at all.  Chan just stays very still, watching you.

(6) Ch 63 > Chan sits where he can see you best, which is coincidentally fairly far away; Hyunjin is the opposite, perched at your and Minho’s feet, his head leaned back onto his packmate’s knee.  Jisung sits on the other sofa, in the corner closest to you, not daring to touch you even as his hand rests conspicuously close; Felix stays standing a fair distance way, his eyes dark and expression eerily blank.  Changbin sits beside Chan, smiling, though his arms are crossed and his jaw is tight; Seungmin and Jeongin both linger a long moment before ultimately settling on the other side of Changbin.  Seungmin won’t quite look at you; Jeongin is looking a little too hard.

(4)(5)(6) Comment: I just wanted to put their first argument rxns next to their big argument, but in the process i realized that i wanted to put when they show up and then when they settle at the pack house. i think generally they really keep to the concept of showing up in disarray!! ft jumpy jisungie in both. Seungmin seems to transition between wanting mc to look at him to then wanting mc to not see him (guilt for the address sharing probably) and then at the house he's the one not looking. I just liked seeing the consistent characterization but also kinda their evolution as their relationship has developed in the story.

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I have no specific thoughts on this but something i want to mention is that i loved reading the ch 62/63 accusations about sharing mc's address right after having read mc's thoughts on sharing her address when innie comes in ch 29 (wow literally half the fic ago...). once more, ch 29 needs more love bcs WOW i enjoyed that one.

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(7) Ch 32 > A collective wince. "I'm sorry," Felix blurts, "I--"

(8) Ch 63 > A beat of silence.  Then, Felix shoots ramrod straight, baring his teeth, a growl in his voice.  “What?”

(7)(8) Comment: I originally pulled these two because i was going to say it was ironic that in the first argument felix was 'pulled taut' (to use my previous words in a prior comment) and it drives him to speak without thinking - used literally as BLURT in the fic, which i love that word choice. but then in the big argument he is basically silent and tense and quiet; however, i realized when i was going back through ch 63 that he actually is the first to respond and once more 'blurting' out the beat after MC reveals the contract came from the manager. It's funny how our thoughts distort things like this, but i have a stronger appreciation for the symmetry even though i was prepared to discuss a contrast.

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I think that's really all i was thinking i wanted to sayyyy. i am still really loving the fic and it's one of those that only gets better the more you break into the detail. hehe, until next time <3

This ask blew me away WAH… 🥺💛 I’m glad you’ve been enjoying your reread! I like the just-friends arc too… I always really like the beginning of stories 😊

For your question: I actually don’t know if she thinks about the Innie rut incident through new eyes in-text 🤔 She might… in that one chapter… hm…….. But if she doesn’t in-text, I’m sure she does off-screen somewhere! I think a lot of their early interactions and conversations can be recontextualized dramatically now, so she has a lot to think about. Spooky! (to our skittish MC)

The Innie makeout is so funny to me and WAS so funny to me when I was writing it because I knew I wanted him to lean more dommy in this fic, but his first steamier scene (and arguably the one before, in the dream MC has about him) has him asking her for things and her feeling the need to take care of him… 💛 I do kind of think it continues to color her view of him in that context too, though I guess that’s another conversation

Hahaha that argument comparison paragraph from chapter 63…!!! It almost got axed in editing (nothing wrong with it, it definitely Does Something, it just felt clunky to me no matter how I rewrote it), but I’m glad it made it through if it felt significant to you 😊

“just because as the audience i enjoy being in on why the panic occurs even though MC doesn’t” I loooove dramatic irony I understand completelyyyy 💛💛

MC’s backstory was difficult to write out… Even aside from the emotional weight of it, it’s difficult to make monologue-y chapters interesting/engaging, I think 🤔 It starts to get a little 19th century novel “and now I’m going to tell you about My Father and the Public Works of my City” really quick I think. So I’m glad it came off well in this case! Yay!

MC and Changbin…. 😇 hehehehehe…….

Aww the ‘being left behind’ beat! The first instance is in chapter 28:

“I really like you,” he starts slowly, “but everyone really likes you, and it’s hard to tell what you’re thinking, and I don’t know why you like me or in what way or how much, and…”  Another pause.  He takes a breath, slow and sneaky, peeking at you hesitantly between long lashes.  “Sometimes I just get too in my head, and I get this feeling like I’m being left behind.” His voice wavers.  You coo, reaching your arms up to wrap around his neck, rising onto your knees to hug him properly. “I won’t leave you behind,” you promise, petting his soft little head.  “If anything, you’re all going to be the ones leaving me.” His arms tighten around your waist.  “Never.  That’s never going to happen.”

I love getting to do throwbacks like this so I’m glad you’ve noticed them!!! 🥰

“Seungmin seems to transition between wanting mc to look at him to then wanting mc to not see him (guilt for the address sharing probably) and then at the house he's the one not looking” This is it exactly!

There are a few things I didn’t respond to directly but I really liked everything you had to say! It’s so rewarding to see you connect things together and get to the pay-off for something that was set up a long time ago 🥰🥰 It makes me feel like I’ve done a good job hahahaha

i want to preface this by saying that the last chapter i read before tonight was chapter 53 and JESUS LORD DID I MISS A LOT

in all honesty this message is going to be so much shorter than i want because i physically cannot talk about all of the things that i just read without it being like 2000+ words but just know this took me several hours to get through and i did sob violently many times lmaoooo

but seriously, this arc has been the most painful but most fulfilling and beautiful thing i think i have ever read any piece of literature in my entire life. reading these chapters honestly felt like coming home, i didn’t realize how much i missed your lovely art until i got about two paragraphs in and then proceeded to cry about it for upwards of five minutes TvT

as someone who has been reading since chapter one, it makes me so happy that this fic had blown up and i’m incredibly grateful to have been able to be along for the journey (albeit very spotty on my half! sorry again!) with school over with and summer starting, i can’t wait to be able to keep up with chapters in real time like i used to and i cannot thank you enough for being such an amazing author 🥹

sorry for the whole sap fest, i truly love everything single thing about this fic and your writing in general, no matter how many loops i go through on the emotional rollercoaster while reading it! thank you again for gifting your talent to the world and i hope you are doing amazing

much love inso🤍🤍🤍

Hi, woah, it’s been a while! Welcome in 🥰

Congrats on catching up! Omg stopppp you’re flattering me… You’re very sweet, thank you 🥺 I’m having the thing where I’m very flattered so I don’t know what to say LOL. I’m not blushing, you’re blushing. Nobody look at me

You really don’t have to apologize for popping in and out! Life happens, and honestly, I’ve been popping in and out lately, hahahaha. The most important thing is that you enjoy yourself 😊 Fandom should be fun!

Both of them being so enthusiastic and desperate for each other, yet nervous, and wanting to perform well?

Don’t think I didn’t clock mc having self-deprecating thoughts right until the very last moment before Jinnie’s demeanor flipped her domme switch!!

I think it’s really interesting how they all seemingly tumble into their headspaces when the mood overtakes them. It’s really sweet in a sad sort of way. How they just can’t help but be pulled to each other. I really like how the previous ask said it’s not a matter of IF but HOW.

One thing that I’ve been percolating on for the last couple of chapters but haven’t really been able to put words to is regarding Mc packing for her move. We know she’s amassed quite a little collection of things associated with her Boys over the course of their time together. Not just their gifts but also things like Jisungie’s ring, Binnie’s jacket, etc that are *theirs* …

Has Mc packed them in boxes? Is there a closet in mc’s apartment with a dark aura growing mushrooms in the corner?

I’m so curious as to the state of her Things. I’m sure this will be answered in time though but I just wanted to touch on it 🫣

Also, mc’s moment when she looked in the mirror and saw the different versions of herself ?? Fuckkkk way to twist the knife …(💕)

As always, this chapter has breathed life into me for the foreseeable future. I will be riding the high of Jinnie cumming in his pants from eating mc out for the first for the next 35 business days ✨

I really hope things turn out well for your friend. I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I know anyone who is special to you deserves to be happy and healthy 🫶🏽

Feel free to direct me at any haters. I promise won’t bite… hard enough to do permanent damage 👀🐕

All my best as always bestie 🥰

Awww I’m glad you liked it!!! 💛 I really like writing different tones and moods and headspaces in regards to intimacy, and it’s been a lot of fun writing something with so MANY characters, who each have their own preferences and wants and dynamics…

MC’s things are all packed up at this point and she stays depression-stuck with her things in boxes for at least a little while 😅 But it’s interesting to think about! Especially since she struggled with it a bit in chapterrr… 60……?

I cannot resist a tone shift or downer ending* (*in this case, for the chapter, hahahaha) so I’m glad you liked the mirror section, too 🥰 I think there’s something so interesting about characters and people who grow so much and so dramatically, but you still have to carry all those people you used to be

No biting!!! (but thank you 😆😆)

as a jinnie bias, these last 2 chapters..... WOW

my BOY

MY MANNNNNNN

BARK WOOF

thank you for these.

ALSO the chapter teaser for next week??????

sassy/angry channie will officially put me in a coffin and I cannot WAIT

thank you!! love you!! keep up the amazing work bestie!!!

"I'll..." [punching the air] "text..." [shouting from the rooftops]

"you." [throwing confetti over the RON pack]

Oh boy I know there's still angst to come, but the little morsels of hope are so delicious!

I'm very much looking forward to the road ahead. You know those little brain teaser games, where its like a puzzle you purposely have to mix up so you can put it back in order? (I know the obvious guess here is a rubix cube but that's not what's specifically coming to mind for me). I think the anticipation I feel for the coming chapters is a lot like that. I'm looking forward to seeing how the pack can take the relationship(ish) that MC scrambled up and put it back in order, that process is... fun to me?

Also girl 🧍 our panties... Thank you for another wonderful chapter, these give me strength to endure the week ahead. xoxo

I do know!! Sometimes planning stories feels like that too actually hahaha-- I know this has to happen and this has to happen and it ends this way, and if A is taller than B and B is taller than C then etc etc... While talking to another writer friend recently I compared outlining to detangling a necklace. In complete transparency they did not agree with this analogy 😆 But anyway!!! I also find it fun; I'm happy to hear it 🫶

Omg that chapter was a rollercoaster. We went from sweet to smut to angst to sadness

It felt like being fasttracked through the stages of grief

I know I said it before but i'll say it again. Hyunjinnnn this romantic ass man. As romantic as it sounds DONT change yourself for anyone...thats terrible advice in general

Also, anyone with eyes can see that they have attraction for each other and like magnets..will eventually collide again. It's just a matter of HOW not IF

I really loved how you wrote both MC and Hyunjin being nervous. Both unsure lil lambs trying to navigate a treacherous situation. You did it so well too!!! Sweet lovemaking and silly teenage esque lover scenarios. (Welp now I just imagined Hyunjin writing LOVER about MC..ARGHH)

Welp I was wrong. No scent drunk people here, just sadness and angst and MC realising that even with how far she's come, recovery physically wise...mentally theres still work to be done. Can't help but also applaud her for her progress so far though. Healing isn't linear, she'll get there ^^

Also EXCUSEME THAT TEASER...Chan is gonna go pack alpha and get mad it seems...i mean, I get it. Saying 'fuck off' and instead doing 'fuck a member of the pack' isnt fair to any of them, MC included. I get being annoyed...I just hope they get a good convo out of it after.

Im kinda sad Soohyun wasnt doing a chair swivel as the light turned on when MC got home. It wouldve been traumatising but also really intriguing as a plot point, ah well!

As always, looking forward to see this story develop. Till next week sweet loving Inso

-🦦 Anon

P.S: i saw your comment about your friend and I wanted to just send you a giant hug over the internet and all the mental support. It sounds like a horrible situation and I hope you also remember to take care of yourself. ❤️

"It's just a matter of HOW not IF" There's a lot of reflection on this later actually hahahahaha. But I shouldn't spoil anything 😊

It's funny, I don't really like writing first times that much (or similar scenes, vibe-wise); I just don't find it very interesting, I think. But RON has me writing and enjoying a lot of stuff I don't usually find interesting 😆 I enjoyed it, too!!! I also think there's something kind of hot about someone wanting to give that badly LOL. Just pure unadulterated enthusiasm

Everyone's interpretation of the teaser has been very interesting to me!!! I was just talking to my friend about this. But I shouldn't talk about this either 🫣

I think MC would have reacted very poorly if Soohyun had been waiting up for her hahaha, but I'm sure she wanted to. That's her baby!

My inner thoughts while reading -

*Wearing hyunjin's hoodie, somehow in the front seat now* she forgot it didn't she *realizes she didn't find it when she got home* called it

HWGDYFU HAHA I love u and ur beautiful brain

I think don't go bald is getting old, I hope if or when you buy a blind box, you get what you were hoping for

~ 🙇‍♀️

? There are a lot of reasons why people are unsure or embarrassed by the prospect of getting head! I mean we live in a society that shames women for their sexuality, pleasure, and genitals, which can impede enjoyment. A lot of straight people consider blowjobs routine and eating someone out as going above and beyond, which says something about our collective expectations and impacts how we feel about those things. Different people have different desires and libidos, and some people don’t like getting topped, though obviously that doesn’t apply in MC’s case. It can also just be nerve-wracking doing something for the first time, even without something like preexisting sexual trauma, like MC has. And some people just find it kind of overwhelming in a sensory sense — not always in a bad way, but still 😊 Sex is complex, and socially informed, and it’s okay to have complex feelings about it. I think it’s okay for fiction to represent some of those feelings — even when it’s Hyunjin, hahahaha

I just wanted to say I saw your post and what is happening with your friend and wanted to tell you I’m so sorry you are both going through that right now. I hope everything gets better, and if it doesn’t, I hope it gets easier to cope with the hardship.

I was just listening to The Cure by Olivia Rodrigo and it gave me very much MC vibes. Especially some of the lyrics of the chorus.

“My head is full of poison and my heart is full of doubt.”

“I don’t matter how your love feels anymore. It’ll never be the cure.”

Idk it just feels like a song that MC would write in my head, as well as What If I Miss You For The Rest Of My Life by Janine Berdin (specifically the live version from the wish bus that’s going viral right now). I feel like both of these songs are things she would write/record on her phone in the middle of the night when Soohyun is away at Yuris.

I feel like both songs kind of contradict each other but maybe MC feels like her brain is contradicting itself with how she feels. Idk just thoughts pouring into this page right now 🤷‍♀️

I am very much an avid maladaptive daydreamer, especially when I’ve read something recently, and so I tend to listen to lots of songs that I think that character would write (even if they are not a song writer mostly because I write songs myself and kinda head cannon everyone to write music).

I’ve got so many songs I think MC would write. Should I make a playlist? Maybe link it in my next ask if anyone wants that? If not that’s fine I’m all for chilling in my headcannons by myself lols

Anyway sorry for the long rant/drabble, I don’t have many people to talk to (and especially not about my reading bc no one is interested in listening to me talk for 3 hours about it). I do really hope everything works out in the end with your friend.

Much love

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Hi, thank youuuu 😊

I think MC would really like Olivia Rodrigo LOL. LA girl very inspired by early 2000s alt and punk... It's really nice to hear headcanons and things from readers, so thank you for sharing 💛 Her brain does indeed contradict itself, as we see! 😆

I like thinking about stuff like that, too! I have a personal playlist of songs I think she would listen to throughout the course of RON hahaha. If you did want to link that playlist I at least would definitely listen through it 🙆 No pressure though!

I've just caught up! I'm half glad/sad I didn't have to wait as long as others between chapters because man… Ch 65😭

We are hitting paydirt in the angst mines 😔 She's sad & mad, and the boys are stuck dealing the fallout. 😭 As usual, it's always so fun to read the differences in how each boy reacts to MC, from begging, to arguing, to borderline gaslighting (IN with the "It's fine we lied though?"). The way I felt everyone's desperation to try and get her to stay just a second longer… 😭😭 Both sides had very valid opinions and feelings, which makes the angst so good imo

Ok onto slightly happier times in the most recent chapter…

Hyunjin! I really like how you described the chapter as weird magnetism! I think that vibe has come across since he ran into MC at the cafe! But also a little bit more world building! Bond sickness?? 🥺 I'm ready for the messy, sexy (and probably angsty) in-between before the happy ever after 😝🫡

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Hellooooo!

I cannot lie, I love a manipulative (fictional) man, and RON!Innie has his moments... Someone actually said that last chapter was kind of toxic and it made me laugh, LOL. Here is your regular reminder that fiction is not real life and none of you should take relationship tips from RON 😆😆

I did really like writing all of them with MC in ch65 though! I think I've mentioned this before so sorry if I'm repeating myself, but it's hard juggling everyone in group scenes -- but also satisfying, I think, when it works out 😊 I can look back on it and go woahhh my charts and lists were worth it... good job past Inso... you worked hard...

"I think that vibe has come across since he ran into MC at the cafe" This is nice to hear 💛 I love when relationships have a distinct through-line

Might go on a little bit of a rant here so please bear with me.

I enjoy angst but it also scares the crap out of me😭😭 because what do you mean these characters that I love are fighting and this is how it's going. I got done with my finals a few days after chapter 65 came out and I'm a person who doesn't mind spoilers especially because I knew we were in the angst mines so I was like I just need to know what's going on just a little bit and everyone was sobbing???? And I was like this is not the time for me to read this I cannot take the angst without the comeback so I've been waiting and I finally got a chance to check and you'd updated obviously and the comments seem more optimistic (?) so I'm gonna read the angsty chapters in a few days (because life about to get busy for the next like 2 days we have a lot going on) because the glimmer of hope is there!! (even though I know it's a happy ending) Anyways!! I will be back to (probably) cry when I get through the angst mines! I hope you Soohyun/MC gets better soon and if you ever need anyone to fight the haters I am ready to throw hands no one deserves to be hated for putting out stuff they write for themselves. I truly admire people who are willing to put out their writings on platforms and when they write these pieces of art??? For free????? And people hate on them????? For writing what they want???? For free???? You get the privilege of reading this and you're complaining??????? Mind boggling honestly. As someone who had a writing phase in COVID and never published after that I get inspiration from the way you write and the fact that you write so consistently and so regularly and publsih it too like genuinely i can't articulate how cool I think that is. I know life is hectic for you so please please ignore the haters and take as long of a hiatus as you want and need, potentially losing a best friend is scary and I want you to know my prayers are with you🫶

This has been a little all over the place sorry I didn't mean for it to get this long. I'll see you when I make it through the angst mines❣️

-😺

Hi hiiii 😊

Honestly if you want to wait for the angst to settle down I would actually advise you to keep waiting! What I originally considered the angst mines was essentially one in-story day that was just mess after mess, but in retrospect I don't really think we're out of the woods yet hahahaha. But it's up to you!! Use your own discretion 🙆 I don't think we're in the devastating part of the story as much anymore but it is definitely still angsty. But that's just my opinion!!! Maybe readers will weigh in more in the hours/days/weeks to come

I appreciate that, thank you! Things are tough but we persevere. And aww it's so sweet that you find inspiration in RON, thank you 🥺