Eldritch HRT part 23

Rage

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My head really hurts…

I-I can’t remember what happened today… Sage said I did something pretty scary…

I don’t know what to think, he said I should see Amber tomorrow… he’s worried I could hurt someone…

I don’t want to hurt anyone…

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Do you think it's okay to use this term to describe characters that have both a penis and a vagina?

Do you think it's okay to use this term to describe the larger category of ALL characters who are women with penises?

Do you believe there is a BETTER term to describe the category of ALL characters who are women with penises?

on the surprisingly common idea that terfs/“gender critical” folks support trans men and don’t actually hate us, they just see us as misguided women and something to pity, and still include us in their feminism:

“It takes a complete lack of empathy to say  you’re including trans men in the liberation of “females”, when you call them things like,  “mutilated”, and “disgusting”. “Surgical mutants,” “a young lesbian … with a rancid cavity attached  to a likely twisted and depraved man’s body”. Fuck you. Like…fuck you. […] It becomes very clear that the gender  critical movement holds extreme animosity and disgust for trans men, despite  their claims that they support them for being adult human females.”

They will say they loooove butches but the moment a butch has a complicated relationship with gender or decides to get top surgery it's "no you're doing womanhood wrong aha why don't you come back here and be feminine wear your body the way you should be?"

They will say "there's no right way to do womanhood" until the cows come home and then turn around and say "oh except for you and you and you- you're doing it wrong but we care about you so why don't you come do it the right way while we cry about your disgusting damaged wrong bodies mistakes".

It is so blatant in every single thing they do that they only give a shit about bodily "autonomy" so long as that autonomy doesn't challenge their concept of womanhood or gender. Funnily enough, their concepts of womanhood and gender seems to slot right in juuuust barely left of the white cishetero patriarchy's.

Sure, maybe they're more pro-gay, and they don't generally mind if you don't shave your pits or legs, but god forbid you have visible facial hair or cut off your symbols of womanhood breasts. God forbid you de-identify with womanhood [most trans men and many nonbinary people, as well as some intersex people and butches], or identify with it in the "wrong" way [most trans women and many nonbinary people, and again some intersex people and butches].

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55091809

- schizosamwinchester

"Dean had found some shred of himself in his father’s bed, but that Dean had died right along with him."

holy FUCK this is incredible. you've done it, you've captured The Thing.

i love the way you captured dean's internal conflict, especially about how other queer people see right through him (her?). i feel like being seen is one of dean's biggest fears, in general, but especially so for any sort of perception that shows him as weak or "less-than" in a way he doesn't intend.

that fear, to me, is a huge part of why he plays up the whole machismo act, just like you've written about here. he plays up the machismo-ness, but also his overall slob/player demeanor, which is just such a huge flag for "hate me about THIS, not that other thing that you definitely don't know about."

but i really, really love that he just can't fucking hide it. even sam sees it, "well, you are kind of butch. they probably think you're overcompensating." he is a queer, and just his existence, the composition of his skin, screams it out to every person he meets and i lovvve thattt

Same, I can see him either constantly forgetting and implying he's a girl, or being like, "Oh that's what he's going by these days? good, we don't need more women around here"

So either "transphobic dad who maliciously forgets your pronouns" or "trans inclusive radical misogyny." Considering he took Gray Wing's Gib gender well though, probably that second one.

Ultimately I just decided I didn't want to get into it when I was already talking about child abuse, emotional manipulation, and ableism in the summary. The man's got a whole menagerie of problems lmao, he's the worst

i am afab and not on t, nor do i identify as a man or even as transmasc. i grow facial hair naturally due to a hormonal imbalance/possibly pcos. at work, i wear a nametag with my legal (feminine) name on it. i do present masculinely, but that's bc i'm butch and nonbinary.

last month, a transphobic doordasher tried to get me fired because he assumed i was transfemme. he told my coworker that "(he) can't believe people like him are allowed to work here. men who think they're women" and then called in a false report, saying i assaulted him.

now, i'm not gonna lie. i get misgendered and incorrectly clocked all the time. people regularly think i'm a man (call me sir, ask if i'm a trans woman, insist i shouldn't be allowed in the women's restroom). most of the time i laugh this off. i'm not insulted by people being unsure of my gender, or thinking i'm a trans woman. due to being nonbinary, it can even help make me feel gender euphoria. i love the transfemme people in my life and respect and support trans women in general.

but someone trying to get me fired? because you mistakenly confuse me for a trans woman? i'm not going to lie, that was devastating. both personally and as someone who tries to be an ally for transfemme people.