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few things more nausea inducing than finding your own mother's baby photos

#the day after she opens up about some deep childhood trauma i might add #i was already devastated by some of my own teenage photos that i found #and then that... hit me like a truuuuuck #no more photo albums tonight lol #the system speaks

ratbastarddotfuck

just found the most AWESOME picture of me as a toddler

ratbastarddotfuck

dykespeading, sitting in the dog bed, stuffing my face. my man.

just found the most AWESOME picture of me as a toddler

#the system speaks

tinyideastuff

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spyglassrealms

I booted my old laptop to find a file and was once again dealt immediate psychic damage by my desktop wallpaper

I open this thing just infrequently enough that it catches me woefully off guard every single fucking time

putnamspuppeteer

OP do you still have the original image. Would you be willing to share it.

spyglassrealms

but of course.

ysolt

*crumbles up paper and throws it into the trash* man i dont know

lin-seleni

It's like the 15th time someone meets me, sees and learns about my DID, and then realizes they relate a bit too much and realize they also have it. It's the fourth time in the last three months. Why do I keep turning people plural 😭

I mean, it's cool, I help them through it every time and teach them how to navigate it, but come on, four in three months ??

Is this a curse ? Is this a superpower ? Am I an incomplete god unknowingly granting life to new souls within the people I meet because I lack the ability to create bodies ? Am I actually a baguette ? More at 10 on LinNews. But first, a word from our sponsor Raid Shadow Lege-

rainofthestorm

Unironically that's just kinda how it goes when you talk about your issues. Your people find you, even when they don't understand what they're seeing or why it seems familiar or relatable yet.

#happens to me too #'DID is sooo rare' i just don't believe you. i believe reports and diagnoses are rare.#but i keep talking to people especially trans people and discovering HIGH prevalence

wheelie-sick

apsychotic (not psychotic) autistic people- you have more in common with the average schizospec person than a neurotypical

nacricissa

Hullo not to pry but I am curious

What fun* traits do we share?

*traits need not be fun

wheelie-sick

there are quite a few, especially because the schizophrenia spectrum consists of several different disorders that have different (but similar) symptoms.

autism actually used to be considered a type of schizophrenia several versions of the DSM back!

Just looking at schizophrenia- it can cause things like a flat effect, echolalia, trouble discerning social norms, trouble reading other people's emotions, cognitive difficulties, social withdrawal, inflexible concrete thinking, and much else.

a lot of allistic people on the schizospec are mistaken for being autistic

wheelie-sick

#i seem to remember reading recently something about the possibility of schizophrenia#being considered a neurodevelopmental disorder like autism/adhd are already understood#rather than ‘just’ a ‘mental illness’#anyway good post

picking out this little section of your tags to say yes, you're right!

here's a link to a paper about it

here's a link to the pdf in a google drive in case that link isn't working

it's a short paper and not particularly full of jargon so if you're curious I'd definitely recommend reading it! it also mentions the mad pride movement which makes me incredibly happy

#was talking to mum abt my uncle the other night and schizophrenia being neurodevelopmental makes a lot of sense #with his presentation & other familial factors #my entire family on this side is neurodivergent & finally they are realising that it's not just my uncle being schizophrenic #it's all of us having neurodevlopmental conditions #mum is finally finally finally talking about how she thinks shes autistic and that her having a schizospec brother makes this more likely #there's ! something there!!!#anyway sorry for rambling on your post op it just came to me at a particularly personal time

nonbinary-octopus

hello I notice that you are attempting to access my webbed site from a phone. did you know we have an app? I will redirect you to the app store so y— oops it looks like you tried to load the webpage again, it's okay I will show you to the app sto— no, no, it's okay this happens all the time, I know you didn't really want to access the actual website on your phone, that's why we have an app! let me take you to the app store where you can download it

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onceuponawhine

Your maternal grandfather:

Fuck that dude

Meh (leaning negative)

Meh (leaning positive)

Love that dude

I don't know her

Another nuance

Remaining time: 1 day 16 hours

onceuponawhine

Your paternal grandfather

Fuck that dude

Meh (leaning negative)

Meh (leaning positive)

Love that dude

I don't know her

Another nuance

Remaining time: 1 day 16 hours

#FUCK THOSE DUDES!!!!!!!#maternal grandfather is an incestuous child molester so i have never met him #paternal grandfather is in a christian male supremacist ('family values') cult which was a primary vector for abuse i suffered #he's also a spineless manipulative cunt but that's neither here nor there.#i wonder about his childhood sometimes because I know it was traumatic. i wonder what he passed on to my father.#he told me he was beaten for being left handed. and that was just the normal every day stuff. so what happened behind closed doors?#idk. but it's not my problem. fuck that dude.

smsomah

Cree; Saskatchewan, Canada, around 1930. Paul Coze

wheelie-sick

apsychotic (not psychotic) autistic people- you have more in common with the average schizospec person than a neurotypical

nacricissa

Hullo not to pry but I am curious

What fun* traits do we share?

*traits need not be fun

wheelie-sick

there are quite a few, especially because the schizophrenia spectrum consists of several different disorders that have different (but similar) symptoms.

autism actually used to be considered a type of schizophrenia several versions of the DSM back!

Just looking at schizophrenia- it can cause things like a flat effect, echolalia, trouble discerning social norms, trouble reading other people's emotions, cognitive difficulties, social withdrawal, inflexible concrete thinking, and much else.

a lot of allistic people on the schizospec are mistaken for being autistic

wheelie-sick

#i seem to remember reading recently something about the possibility of schizophrenia#being considered a neurodevelopmental disorder like autism/adhd are already understood#rather than ‘just’ a ‘mental illness’#anyway good post

picking out this little section of your tags to say yes, you're right!

here's a link to a paper about it

here's a link to the pdf in a google drive in case that link isn't working

it's a short paper and not particularly full of jargon so if you're curious I'd definitely recommend reading it! it also mentions the mad pride movement which makes me incredibly happy

#was talking to mum abt my uncle the other night and schizophrenia being neurodevelopmental makes a lot of sense #with his presentation & other familial factors #my entire family on this side is neurodivergent & finally they are realising that it's not just my uncle being schizophrenic #it's all of us having neurodevlopmental conditions #mum is finally finally finally talking about how she thinks shes autistic and that her having a schizospec brother makes this more likely #there's ! something there!!!#anyway sorry for rambling on your post op it just came to me at a particularly personal time

haberdashing

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mammalianmammals

Common Palm Civet (Paradoxurus musangus), juvenile, family Viverridae, Malaysia

photograph by Husni Che Ngah

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beaft

face of a man who has known sorrow

beaft

had to google this as i wasn't familiar with the name. incredibly specific and accurate reference. please don't compare my cat-in-law to a homestuck character again

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