whats been up with nastja / cakey?
well, recently i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. this is great news, because one of my transids is schizoaffective bipolar disorder! however, i have zero desire to be medicated. my mother tracked my medications for a few months before trusting me to take them on my own. as soon as she stopped monitoring me, i stopped taking them!
i stopped taking my medication because it blinds me from the truth. i didn't open up to anyone about my thoughts on the pandemic, as it would out me as translockdown (and therefore radqueer), but i know what they would think if i talked about it given my diagnosis.
on my medication (aripiprazole), i became severely disillusioned with my aspirations of a pandemic, but now that my mind is clear, i know the truth. my subconscious is capable of anything!
nastja out :-)
