#trans!jay

Jay looked into the ice and looked into the eyes of herself. It made her gasp, hands covering her mouth in awe as she twisted and turned in the reflection. It was like she, for the first time in her life, truly saw herself. The woman in the reflection was older, perhaps in her 20s or early 30s, and had long wavy auburn brown hair, reaching to at least the waist. She was grinning, lips blue and the multicoloured eyes of Jay herself lighting up in, well, lightning. Her freckles seemed to have spread too. It was truly wholly her. Jay Walker.

It took several minutes for her to even realise an older Nya was standing beside her older reflection, and in the moment Jay found she cared more about her own reflection than the girl she was in love with. She wanted desperately to be that woman, knew true in her heart it already is her. But aesthetically, the confidence, the knowing and owning who you are? Jay had no idea how to do that, how to be that.

[Jay will be referred to with she/her in the i.d. please use the same in reblogs for this one]

[I.D. a drawing of Jay from Lego Ninjago standing in front of an ice reflection of herself and Nya, both shown in full body. Jay is standing looking upwards, a big open mouth smile on her face. She got short wavy auburn hair, one blue eye and darker skin. She's wearing blue shirt and pants. Her right arm is reaching out for the reflection. She also has freckles.

Jay, in the reflection, stands to the left. She has now long wavy auburn hair with a mid part. She has a blue eye and a yellow eyes, and blue painted lips. She's wearing a long blue dress with a slit and one long sleeve. She's facing the viewer with a smile and has one arm over Nya's shoulders. Her freckles are shown to be over whole body.

Nya, in the reflection, stands to the right. She has short straight dark blue hair. She has blue and red eyes, and fish fins ears. Nya is wearing a blue t-shirt and red pants. She is facing the viewer with a smile and has her left hand on Jay's waist. She has purple freckles over her face and upper body.

The background is of ice, and the reflection is covered by ice as well making it look more blue. There is white behind the Jay looking up to look like ice or snow. In the right bottom corner is the artist's signature "chaos / - 24". End I.D.]

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This fic is rated M for Mature

no one asked for him but here he is.

he is valid

Tim was sort of confused about what was going on with Jay. He changed in front of Jay all the time because they were both just guys and he’d noticed that Jay blushed and looked away sometimes so maybe he was gay? But that wouldn’t explain why Jay would never change in front of him either. He always waited to hide in the bathroom of motels or while Tim was out. 

Today Jay couldn’t do that though, they were sharing a room at a bed and breakfast type thing and there was only one bathroom for the floor. it was on a sign up schedule with a clipboard next to the door but it looked like it was basicly being used till the next morning. 

So here Jay stands awkwardly in the room clutching his baggy pj’s and rubbing his leg with one cold foot awkwardly. He had been standing there for a few minutes and it wasn’t like Tim was staring at him waiting for him to strip.Tim was on his laptop sitting on the bed but now he was getting frustraited so he looked up.

“Honestly Jay what are you so worried about?” He asked exasperatedly. “I’m not staring at you, I don’t care! I’ve changed in front of you before!”

“I-I know but… but my body isn’t… well it isn’t normal?” Jay said even more awkwardly and Tim opened his mouth to point out that he was the chubby one but bit it back because he didn’t think that was what Jay meant.

“What do you mean?” Tim asked and Jay flushed looking down again.

“Well I-I got top surgery a few years ago but I’m still.. Not-I don’t know.” He said and suddenly something clicked in Tim’s brain.

“Oh you’re trans!” He said and Jay flinched but nodded and Tim calmed down quickly making sure to speak quietly. “Jay I see you as a man, you changing in front of me isn’t going to change that. If you really want me to I can step into the hall for a minute while you change but I really don’t care.”

“N-no it’s ridiculous of me to kick you out of your own room. Maybe- maybe would you turn around while I change? I’m sorry.”

“Sure I can Jay.” Tim agreed casually and turned his back to Jay, he could still see Jay’s outline reflected in his laptop screen but he tried to ignore that as Jay quickly strips down and pulls on his pj’s. 

“Alright I’m done, thank you Tim.” Jay said after a couple of minutes and Tim nodded, turning around so he could get comfortable leaning back against the pillows again. Jay stuffed his clothes in his bag and came over to sit on the other side of the bed pulling out a book and starting to read. The silence between them isn’t quite as comfortable as it usually is and Tim can tell Jay has something to say but he stays quiet and waits patiently for Jay to say it.

“You really didn’t know I was trans already?” Jay asked finally, fidgeting awkwardly with the book in his hands. “I’m so small still and my hips are still sort of curvy.”

“No I honestly didn’t know Jay, you pass well.” Tim assured and saw Jay smiling out of the corner of his eye.

“That’s really good to hear, I’m always worried that people can tell…”

“Well they can tell you’re a guy. Don’t worry so much about it Jay.” Tim assured gruffly, reaching over to pat Jay’s shoulder in one of his rare acts of affection.