#trafficking

For the past 2 years, I have been lowkey working with The Center for Medical Progress and David Daleiden on a documentary about the tragedy of Clementine Kearns and her family. Clementine was 5 months gestation when her mother was coerced into a traumatizing later abortion at the Cherry Hill Women's Center in New Jersey, and then through her medical documents it was revealed that she was actually born alive at the age of viability and harvested for organs for research experiments. You'll have to see it to believe it.

So, speaking personally, we have this experience that's almost like being puppeteered or mind controlled. We have lots of parts who are like "enforcers" or "controllers." Some of them seem to be nothing more than a trained sequence of actions chained together, while some of them have self awareness, personal desires, etc. that they try to accomplish through their influence. They can try to force certain actions on the body, they can take away or restrict speech and movement, and so on. Then there are those of us who switch out at the front, the "experiencers," who are subjected to that influence and then take on the feelings and memories of what happens.

It seems strange until you think about it from a different angle. If a person doesn't want to write a paper, but knows they have to, there are kind of two parts of them at work. One part feels "I don't want to write this paper," and the other part knows "I have to write this paper anyways, or the consequences will be worse." But those parts should be integrated, and clearly part of the same person.

Now imagine that writing that paper sucked so badly that the person couldn't cope with knowing that they were the one forcing themselves to do it. So the part saying "I have to write this paper" tried to dissociate itself from the feelings of writing the paper, and say, "I'm just forcing somebody else to write a paper. It's not about me at all." The remaining part, the one carrying the feelings of writing the paper, then feels influenced, mind controlled, and forced. Both operate at the same time to get through the difficult "task."

Of course the paper in our case is more like long term child trafficking, where as a child we were forced to participate and play along, or worse things would happen. And since our mind learned this strategy early on, we ended up developing many "enforcer" parts attached to different actions or sets of actions. From that perspective, it doesn't feel so pseudoscientific and strange at all.

If I sense they don't like what I'm saying or typing (because everything I do is being watched and scrutinized) the sounds increase. The banging and shuffling around me gets louder. I deal with this everyday. I have had to become "used to" being surveilled by strangers who believe they can control and affect my every move, simply because of personal vendetta. They believe they have the right to inflict punishment on me, and I have to deal with this every day. This looks like a small-town, "nice" neighborhood and people driving by would not think anything bad was happening. Yet I'm stuck having to figure out how to even leave this small town, to try to access another internet provider.

I have been led to believe that I am drugged, and that is why my appetite has decreased so much. When I get to choose my own food, my appetite comes back. I have been losing weight and no matter what I try to do or aim for, my appetite does not come back. Smoking weed used to help me eat, and it's not doing that anymore. It's making me sleepier these days.

I am led to believe that really awful things are happening to me and my body when I go to sleep. I have been led to believe that people I do not know, enter my home, and my bedroom, when I am asleep. This is a very dangerous situation, according to what they want me to believe.

After I reported tips to the FBI, my room started to smell very strange. Then my mom kept trying to show me about the "Chemical Spill" in Garden Grove at the same time. The way she flipped between that Yacht Boat reality show, the Dodgers, and KTLA news was almost immaculately timed to the point where it did start to affect my mental health negatively. There are specific shows I think are being utilized as strange code between that generation (the Three TV Station Generation).

The more I tried to report and reach out, the worse my life became. It went extremely downhill over the past 2 weeks, with undeniable retaliation coming from my family and my neighbors. I don't believe they are the root source of this danger, but they have been recruited to maintain it for more powerful people who also keep them under threat and scrutiny. Probably utilizing the identical tactics.

I'm not sure they've ever had a victim like me before, but I will keep trying. Just because I can write this doesn't mean this isn't extremely painful, and life altering in the worst ways possible.