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news - 2022.05.07

香川県高松市のTOONICEにて5月7日から5月31日までKIliKiliVillaのポップアップ・ショップ開店！

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Sometimes, I hate myself being too nice to everyone. I hate that I always say, “Yes” to everyone. I always make myself available to them. I always tried my best not to cause inconvenience to them. As much as possible, I want myself to be the one call away person. 

However, sometimes, you feel like when you are on the spot already, when you need them, when you need someone to talk to, when you need someone to help you, when you need someone to just stay with you cause you feel lonely and upset. No one is there for you. No one wants to listen to you.  They always thought that you got the strongest and most stable state that nothing can break you. 

It was pretty sad that I grew up to be always kind to everyone, to always care about them, to always look after them and yet at the end of the day, you are always alone. Sometimes, you make efforts to share things to them yet you’ll see them unhappy with your pure and clean intentions. I don’t know why I felt that way, maybe I just feel a little disappointed that I took an effort to help everyone to improve yet I feel like I’m still the one to say thank you with that effort. 

I hate myself being too nice to everyone to the point that they always neglect how I feel. I hate that when people are disregarding myself efforts. Sometimes, when I looked at myself in the mirror, I realized that maybe its not worth it. I feel like being kind is sometimes not okay. 

Sometimes its not really worth it.

Anyway, I got an update for Butter, he is getting better. His wound on his face is healing already and he is now playful. While I was watching the video, my heart can’t contain the happiness seeing him getting better as knowing that his siblings and mom died few weeks ago. It hurts knowing that they died but at the same time I am so happy that Butter is alive, playful and cheerful.

I hope he gets better soon. I badly wanted to see him so I can play with him, so I can hug him and play with him, cause he is the only one that I can have, not his Daddy. :(

Good night.

Love Always,