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First loves, broken hearts, and everything in between. A second-chance-romance, and the ultimate reckoning of two old friends. And, lots of champagne-induced antics.
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I can not believe this is the last part of Eclipse. I never thought I'd get here. Big thanks to my editors for dealing with this for two years. Biggest Thanks to you guys for waiting two years for this part. <3
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 1,184
Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
There is no imprinting and there never will be <3
Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
I promise Breaking Dawn will not take as long! I'm writing it already! <3
As always, I DO NOT own The Twilight Saga. All rights go directly to S. Meyer.
Read on AO3 <3
Masterlist <3 (Ch 4, Ch 5)
I love you <3 Thank you for still being here <3
Alice managed to get me out of the house and to Seattle only three days later. She drove the Porsche and we made the trip in a little more than two hours. I felt like I was going to vomit the entire time. I trained my eyes out the front windshield.
Carlisle made her promise to make me drink water, but didn't insist on going with us. I was actually very excited for a girls day.
It felt normal.
Most things had already fallen back into a normal pace. Carlisle went to work that morning. I didn't feel unstable on my own two feet. We could go shopping in Seattle now that there wasn't an army of Newborn vampires being created to kill us. It was normal. I could breathe again.
Inside a small boutique, Alice and I discussed colors. Alice thought deep reds- maybe maroons would make the whole thing feel very classic. I thought maroons were a bit too on the nose for a vampire wedding and Bella would probably prefer more neutral tones, like greens and browns.
We went back and forth like this until she found a silvery lavender dress. I froze in my spot when she held it to her skin. I didn't know how to explain it, but I knew it was right. The color matched the undertones of her skin so well that I knew Bella would love it. It was a perfect mix of vampire and subtle.
She draped it over her arm and continued her search. I found a dress in a similar color that was a bit shorter and I knew she would look stunning in it. Before I could take it off the rack she said, âYes! It's perfect!â
I laughed and handed it to her. She took it into the dressing room without another word, and though both of us knew it would be perfect, I was still excited to see her in it. When the door shut behind her, I sat down on the closest bench and took a deep breath, then a sip of water.Â
Again, almost normal.
She came back out only a few seconds later and she took my breath away. She smiled at me and practically skipped over to the mirrors. She played with her hair for a few seconds before sighing.
âCan I?â She looked a little hesitant- not used to handing over fashion choices. I pulled a hair clip off the accessory rack and pinned back her pixie hair on one side. It was a style that was very reminiscent of the 20's. She looked frozen in time and utterly angelic.Â
Suddenly she turned towards me and grinned, âIt's your turn.âI almost shied away from her grin, but before I could she was dragging me across the store to where we'd found the other two dresses. Without hesitation she handed my one calf length dress and one that was to the floor.
When she was satisfied with her choices for me she promptly pushed me towards the dressing room. Before I even had time to zip the first dress up she called out to me, âHmm⊠Not that one.â I chuckled, but swapped dresses. Even when I came out in that one she still wasn't content with the decision. She walked over to the rack and began her search again.Â
This time it only took a second before she gasped and she pushed me back into a dress room. I knew without even trying it on that it was perfect. Of course she agreed with me the second I stepped out in it.
This dress was more modern than Alice and Rosalie's, but still a clean and classic look- soft tulle in a soft lavender color with delicate blue flowers. Her reaction only sold me on it further. She was speechless and when she pulled me to the mirrors, I was too.Â
We stood there for a moment before she pulled herself back together. Her eyes fluttered like she was blinking back tears. âIt will need to be brought in a bit, but your necklace is perfect- oh! And your hair tied back with that blue ribbon of yours- Now shoesâŠâ She danced back to the sales floors. I giggled as she went.
I didnât mind indulging her, even if Bella did. I loved to see her this happy.
âHas she picked a date yet?â I asked as she paced the length of the shoe racks.
âAugust Thirteenth. And yes I am aware that it's two months away, but I will make it perfectâŠâ She trailed off, lost in thought.
âI know it will be.â She met my gaze and I smiled at her. âThank you. For all of this.â
Her smile matched my own. âIt's important to all of us. Edward wants to stall her, but we want her to live. She skipped over to me and took my hands in her, âI wouldnât trade my life for anything I would have experienced as a human. But itâs so important⊠that you two live.â
She continued looking at shoes and went on, âIf it's just prom, and graduation, and a wedding, it's still more than the rest of us had. We may be only living vicariously through you, but someday, she'll be grateful she experienced a little more life.â
âI'm grateful to live a little more life with her too. Though, I also think⊠at some point, we have to let her be happy with the life she's chosen for herself.â Alice seemed to deflate a bit at my words, but I added, âThese are just small things youâre asking of her, and I do see the benefits for her mother and our dad, I just hate to think that she might be compromising some of her own happiness for the sake of all of usâŠâ I trailed off, but she understood.
âYou and Carlisle think so similarly sometimes. But she doesnât have to compromise on anything more than a few hours and her dirty converse. Everything else will fall into place exactly like itâs meant to.â She placed a delicate hand on my arm as she said this. I had a feeling she meant more than Bella and Edwardâs marriage- like she meant literally everything would fall into place. And Iâd never bet against Alice.
Her smile grew âPlus- Who doesnât love a Cullen party?â
I couldnât help but laugh, âThe whole town will talk about it for decades, Iâm sure.â
âAt least until they see what I do for yours.â She grinned.
My eyes went wide. âOh godâŠâ Though I wasnât really scared. I could cross that bridge when we came to it. She went back to examine shoes. I pretend to get caught up looking at hair accessories.
I ran my fingers over a simple lace veil as my mind drifted back to her words.
He hadnât asked me yet, but I knew he would.
And I knew that I would say yes.
I knew, without a shadow of doubt, that someday, maybe even someday soon, we would have forever.
It's Finally Here!!!! I can not apologize enough for how long this took to get out. But here it is! I hope you love it.
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 10,397
Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
There is no imprinting and there never will be <3
Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
As always, I DO NOT own The Twilight Saga. All rights go directly to S. Meyer.
Read on AO3 <3
Masterlist <3
I love you <3 Thank you for still being here <3
When our flight landed in Portland, I could hardly stay awake long enough to get to the car. Carlisle held my hand as I used him for support as we made our way through the airport.
Being in Portland typically meant the drive home would take a bit longer than if we weâre just in Seattle, but the Cullens rarely drove under 100mph, so it didnât take nearly as long.
Carlisle didnât want me anywhere near Seattle and, after hearing all that was going on, I couldnât say I disagreed. The knowledge that another vampire was reeking havoc worried me more than I let on. So many people had already been murdered, and the numbers continued to grow.Â
I wasnât really worried for my own safety, I knew Carlisle would do everything to protect me. I also knew that Edward and Jacob would do everything to protect Bella; even if Jacob wanted to pretend he hated her most of the time.
My main concern was that if this got too loud- if my family had to go to Seattle to âhandleâ it, we didnât know what they were going there to handle. We didnât know how many vampires were there. We didnât know who was there. If this was so out of control that the Cullens had to step in, who else would also step in. They assured me every time that it wouldnât come to that and if it did, they could take care of it. It didnât make me feel better.
We drove home from Portland in only three hours. Thankfully we went to Carlisleâs house rather than mine. I knew Dad would have a hundred questions about my trip and probably more about Bellaâs upcoming trip, that I wouldnât have the energy to answer. I hadnât given Dad an exact date for our return yet, so a few more hours away wouldnât hurt.Â
I took a deep breath as soon as we walked in the front door and Carlisle turned sharply to me. If I didnât know him as well as I did, I probably would have missed the worry on his face. I smiled warmly at him, trying to ease his concern.
âItâs nice to be home.â I whispered. His eyes lit up at the word home; Not his house, but home. I really did feel at home here. I was sure Edward or Jasper had caught on, but with Carlisle, I told him through small gestures. I claimed a side of the bed. I filled the bedside table with my things. He made room in the closet for my clothes. (I didnât have time to actually bring clothes over, before Alice bought stuff for me.) I brought over my toothbrush and my pillow and my favorite towel and somehow he was still excited to hear me call his house home.
He wrapped me up in his arms and I hid my face in his chest.
âIt really is.â
The others trickled in slowly. We greeted them from our spots on the couch. He of course told me who exactly was coming before they came in. I still looked up over my book and smiled at all of them.Â
Alice informed us that Bella and Edward would be coming over to hang out later so I made a small meal for the two of us. I knew that Dad was definitely home from work now and I knew that Edward was going to bring up their trip to Jacksonville. I was just happy I didnât have to be home for that conversation.Â
When Bella and Edward got to the house, I could tell she was irritated, but she was also clearly happy to see me. She plopped down on the couch between me and Alice, and wrapped her arms around me.
âWelcome home! I missed you! How was your trip?â I couldnât help but giggle as I hugged her back. Edward and Carlisle shared a look. I wondered how much was being shared that we couldnât hear. Carlisleâs hand briefly tightened over mine.Â
I chose to play along and keep Bella distracted. âIt was good. Ireland is beautiful.â
âI bet! I should add it to potential vacation spots.â She shared a look with Edward who looked triumphant somehow. I guessed that Carlisle told him how the tracking went. âEdward sprung on Dad that we're going to Jacksonville.â She practically glared at him.
It made me laugh again, âHow did that go?â
âSo bad.â She ran a hand over her face. âI hate it when he treats me like a child.â This time Carlisle chuckled from my side, though I donât think she noticed. âHe hardly questioned your trip.â
âIâm 21âŠâ
âYeah and Iâm 18!â She rolled her eyes. âI just want him to trust me-â
âHe doesnât trust meâŠâ Edward added. Everyone in the room was smiling softly, save for Bella, who looked like she could fight someone.
âWell heâs just going to have to get over it. Though it might have been easier if I could have eased him into it.â
âI highly doubt that would be better.â I tried. âAt least, if Edward is there, he could take it out on him.â
She threw her head back and sighed, hopefully realizing how childish this felt. âHe shouldnâtâŠâ
âNo he shouldnât-â I moved from Carlisle's shoulder to hers and ran a hand through her hair. â-but heâll get over it.â
âIf weâre lucky⊠When are you planning on heading home?â
âLater, maybe tomorrow. Iâm not sure yet.â I caught on to the shift in conversation. As I went along with it she already seemed to lighten up. âI made soup, if you want some.â
âHmm. Maybe later. How did the hunting thing go?â she asked like she had been waiting for the chance.Â
I felt Carlisle wince, âI didnât hunt her⊠I tried to track her-â
âSure, sure. How did it go?â
I blushed and he squeezed my hand. âHe found me⊠I didnât get too lost.â
âObviously. But did you track her?â Edward asked, even though he probably already knew the answer.Â
I moved again, back to Carlisleâs shoulder, he held me closer. âI could, at times. However for the most part⊠It was like she was never really there at all.â
âBecause. Sheâs. Not. Trackable.â His confidence was over the top. He said the words like it proved a point heâd made a hundred times.Â
âSometimes.â Carlisle added.
âI could try-â Edward started.
âAbsolutely not.â I knew he wouldnât let anyone else try, and I didnât really want to try with anyone else either.Â
The room got quiet for a minute. I squeezed Carlisleâs hand this time.Â
Bella stood abruptly and changed the subject. âWe should play chess!â She walked over to their cute little chess table that sat by the window and chose which side she wanted to sit on. âIâve been practicing. I think I can at least beat Jasper.â
That awarded her a handful of laughter from the room.Â
âChallenge accepted.â Jasper sat across from her and the battle began. Edward and Carlisle stared at each other for a few seconds more, before Edward nodded once and moved to stand by Bella.
Bella did not beat Jasper.
~~
I drove Bella home later that night. Carlisle kissed me like he wasnât ready for me to go. It almost convinced me to stay, but I figured it was better to go see Dad, rather than have him chase me down. Edward kissed Bella and whispered something to her. Iâm sure it was something like â Iâm gonna climb in your window the second your father is asleep. âÂ
His soft chuckle meant I was right.Â
Carlisle walked me to my car and held open the door for me.
âI love you.â I whispered before kissing him again.
âI love you.â Followed by another short peck. âIâll see you tomorrow.â
âTomorrowâŠâ I sighed.
When we got home, Dad was watching some game in the living room. I really thought Bella was just going to move upstairs and try to not catch his attention. I wondered how bad their conversation earlier went if even now she felt the need to avoid him.
âCould you come in here, Bella?â He called. Bella winced and froze. She looked like she wanted to bang her head on the wall. Instead she managed to drag herself into the living room.
âWhatâs up, Dad?â Â
âDid you have a nice time-Â Oh, Y/n! Youâre home too. How was your trip?â
I laughed a little, thinking Bella might use his distraction to bolt, but she didnât move. âIt was good. I got you a souvenir mug, but itâs in my bag.â I motioned towards the door; I hadnât thought to bring my suitcase in yet.
He waved me off, âWe can get it later. Thank you.â I could tell something was bothering him. He turned to face Bella. âBells?â
âYeah, good⊠My day was good.â
âWhat did you do?â I hadnât figured out why he was being so weird, and Bella looked at me like she was just as lost.Â
She shrugged. âHung out with Y/n, and Carlisle and Alice and Jasper. Edward Beat Alice at chess, and then I played Jasper. He buried me.â
I walked further into the living room, Bella followed behind me. She even sat next to me on the couch. Dad sat forward in the recliner and muted the game, which genuinely took me by surprise. Instead of showing it, I pretended to be very interested in the fringe on the couch pillow.
âLook, thereâs something I need to say. .. Y/n, I think you can back me up here.â My eyes went wide. He looked like he had been punched in the gut.
âWhat is it, Dad?â
He sighed. âIâm not good at this kind of thing. I donât know how to startâŠâ
Bella stayed quiet, looking at his face. I was starting to catch on and really wished I could be anywhere, but here. I held back a laugh, covering my mouth with the back of my hand, and stared out the closest window.
âOkay, Bella. Hereâs the thing.â He got up from the recliner and started pacing back and forth across the living room. He kept his eyes on his feet. âYou and Edward seem pretty serious, and there are some things that you need to be careful about. I know youâre an adult now, but youâre still young, Bella, Y/n is too. We also had a talk similar to this. But there are a lot of important things you need to know when you⊠well when youâre physically involved with-â
It took a lot of strength to contain my giggles. I was grateful that Bella finally caught on.
âOh, please, please , no!â She begged, standing immediately. âPlease, tell me you are not about to have a sex talk with me, Charlie.â
I almost winced when she said his name but it was like watching a train wreck; I could not bring myself to look away.Â
âI am your father. I have responsibilities. Remember, Weâre just as embarrassed as you are, right Y/n?â
âI am not involved in this.â I tried to sound serious, but couldnât hide my giggles.
Bella continued to try and stop him. âI donât think thatâs humanly possible. Anyway, Mom beat you to the punch about ten years ago. Youâre off the hook.â She tried, but I knew it wouldnât work.
âTen years ago you didn't have a boyfriend,â he muttered, I could tell how much he wanted to change the subject.
âI donât think the essentials have changed that much.â
Except that they had, just not in a way that Dad could provide advice for. There was no way the talk Renee and Bella had ten years ago mentioned vampire sex. And, though my knowledge of basic human sex was nonexistent, I was probably the only one here who could really explain it to her. Still, I very much did not want to do that. So I continued to bite my tongue and watched this play out.Â
âJust tell me you two are being responsible,â he pleaded. He looked like he wanted to fall over dead, rather than actually hear her answer.Â
âDonât worry about it, Dad, itâs not like that.â I knew at least that much was true. Carlisle wouldnât tell me much- Thank godâŠ- just that Edward didnât want to test his control the way Carlisle could with me.
I also knew my input here would just raise more questions and therefore be of no help. I just stayed quiet and tried not to laugh too hard.
âNot that I donât trust you, Bella, but I know you donât want to tell me anything about this, and you both know that I donât really want to hear it. Iâve been open minded with Y/n, I know times have changed.â
She forced a laugh while I forced back another. âMaybe the times have, but Edward is very old-fashioned. You have nothing to worry about.â
I wondered what that meant exactly, but quickly decided I did not want to know.
Dad mumbled, âSure he is.â I stood and walked toward the kitchen. âY/n, please.â I froze but didnât turn around.
âUgh!â She groaned âI really wish you were not forcing me to say this out loud, Dad. Really. But⊠I am a⊠virgin, and I have no immediate plans to change that status.â
They both cringed. I let out a sharp bark of a laugh. Dad seemed to believe her, thankfully. I started moving slowly toward the front door. Hopefully slow enough that they wouldnât notice.
I heard her continued pleas as I tiptoed out of the room. âCan I go to bed, now? Please.â I didnât hear his response but based on her heavy dramatic sigh, I guessed he said no.
I went out to my car so I could bring my suitcase in. I wanted to wash my vacation clothes and grab the mug for Dad and the necklace for Bella.
I also wanted to get as far away from that conversation. I would have driven back to the Cullens house if Dad wouldnât have caught up with me. It wasnât even that long before he was outside next to me, helping me with my bags.
I made eye contact with him and immediately burst out laughing. He did too.
âYou were no help back there.â He sounded stern but he was still laughing.
âI didnât think my opinion would have been all that appreciated. Sheâs going to do her own thing anyway.â
He winced, âI know⊠If she comes to you⊠for advice or⊠help-â
âIâll make sure sheâs safe, Dad.â
âGood. GoodâŠâ He nodded and moved towards the door. âThanks kid.â He drifted back into the living room without another word. I took my suitcase and headed upstairs.Â
I stopped by Bellaâs room. Her door was open just a bit, I pushed it open a bit more as I knocked. âBells?â
When I peaked in she was sitting on her bed focusing on the window. I doubted that Edward would be back yet, so I wondered what she was focused on.Â
âOh, hey. Whatâs up?â She looked up and smiled at me.
âIâm sorry about Dad. That was-â
âAwkward?â She laughed and I nodded. âItâs fine. He ended up giving me more freedom by the end of it anyway.â
âHe was definitely easier on you than he was on me. At least yours didnât involve bananasâŠâ I chuckled.
âThat would have been so much worseâŠâ We both laughed, âHey⊠about thatâŠâ She was hesitant. I was afraid to push her. I just watched as she processed what to say. âDo⊠do you and CarlisleâŠâ
She cut off but I caught on to her meaning. âOh, uhm⊠Yeah.â I think my answer just confused her more, so I added, âBut itâs CarlisleâŠSo we donât really have to worry about his controlâŠâ
She made a face like that had never even dawned on her. I was grateful that at least Edward had considered it.
She nodded. âOh! Right. Of course.â Her face was still lost.Â
âJust be careful, alright? And if you need anythingâŠâ
âIâll come to you first, I promise.â
I nodded and turned to leave. I paused for just a second and added. âIt may be too late⊠but donât think about it, Bella. Just go.â I looked out the window again then down the hall.Â
It was the push she needed. She grabbed her keys and ran back downstairs. I laughed and headed towards my room.Â
It, in fact, proved to be late. Her truck wouldn't start, so only a few moments later, she was stomping back up the stairs and slamming her bedroom door. I thought I heard her close her window, but I knew she wouldn't stay mad at Edward long. Even if he was being overly controlling.Â
I hoped she wouldn't give up.
~~
I knew Bella was safe in Jacksonville. I knew that there were five Cullens against one Victoria. But I still couldnât quell the panic in my chest the entire time I was down in La Push.
I couldnât tell what game was on TV, despite how much Dad and Billy were yelling at the screen. I bit my nails so much they hurt. Between intense moments of the game, Dad probably asked me a hundred times if I was alright.
I stuck to the standard âIâm fineâŠâ and âIâm just distractedâ though I donât think he bought it. I manically turned my phone off and on again, over and over hoping a message would appear.
But, of course, it remained undisturbed.
I tried to nap on the couch, but everything was too loud. Desperate for a just moment of peace; I wandered out to the porch, muttering to Dad that I just needed air. I saw the concern on his face, but he didnât follow.
As soon as I was outside I pressed my forehead to the cool siding of the house. I wasnât even out there for 5 minutes before Sam walked up and ruined my quiet. I wasnât expecting to see him at all and honestly, I didnât really want to see him. As he approached me I really did try to resist glaring at him.
He didnât offer me an overwhelmingly warm greeting, just âI heard you were back from your trip. Thought Iâd swing by and say hello.â I caught on to his meaning and rolled my eyes. âJacob will be visiting Bella when she returns as well. Just to check.â
I choked out a laugh. âWell- with me at least, you have nothing to worry about yet.â
âYet?â
I shrugged. I had no interest in playing their game; no intention of giving him any information on my plans- or lack thereof.
âIt would break the treatyâŠâ
âItâs my choice.â
âIt puts every single person in your life in danger.â I knew he had good intentions, even if he was being a jerk about it.
I shrugged again, just to piss him off. He actually scoffed.Â
âI know you have a family to protect, Sam, but so do I. Bella is stubborn and this is what she has decided. She wonât give up, she doesnât care about the treaty. She wants to be one of them. That being said, there are a bunch of people who now want her dead. She wonât be safe until she is one of them. I understand that you think otherwise. I know that youâre trying to protect your family, but I have to do what's right for mine as well.âÂ
He looked like he was at least considering it, but he still shook his head. He was quiet for a long moment before stepping down the porch.
â... I have to get back⊠Just, try. Please?â
I tried to catch the meaning in his words, but there were too many possibilities. I nodded and grinned at him, hoping to get him to lighten up a bit. He didnât. Once he fully disappeared into the trees, I rolled my eyes and went back into the house, out of the rain.
Dad went straight to bed when we got home, seemingly unaware of my overwhelming anxiety. He got up the next morning, made himself eggs and toast, kissed my forehead and went to work like everything was completely normal. He didnât have any idea that it wasnât.
I knew the Cullens had taken him going to work into account. I knew Carlisle wouldnât leave me or my Dad completely unprotected. It was the fact that I still hadnât heard anything from them at all that made me spiral. Bella and Edwardâs flight would be landing in Portland in an hour or so. I thought that I would have heard something from them by then and the fact that I hadnât had me biting my nails until they hurt.
I was nearly at my breaking point, I had my phone in my hand, his number dialed. I tried to will myself not to call; I didnât want to distract him, but the need to hear his voice and know that he was alright outweighed that logic.
I almost hit the call button when I heard his knock at the door. I got the door open a second later and threw my arms around his neck; he, of course, caught me instantly. One of his hands went into my hair and the other wrapped firmly around my waist. For a moment, we didnât kiss, we didnât say a word, we just held each other and breathed each other in.
And then he kissed me and he felt like he always did. His cool lips on mine sent warm waves through my whole body that I didnât think I could ever get used to. I kissed him and let him kiss me right there on the front porch for the whole town to see.Â
If I was being honest, I wanted everyone to see us. Because he was alive. Because I was able to kiss him like this. The panic I had felt before had risen to my throat. I felt like I could choke on it, but then he was there, kissing me the way he was, washing it away completely.
He pulled back and I breathed a giggle. I hadnât realized I was out of air, though thankfully he was always one step ahead of me.Â
âI was so worried.â I whispered against his lips.
âEveryone is fine.â He answered the question I was too afraid to ask on my own. He leaned back and held my face with both hands. He looked me over again and again, checking for obvious signs of distress; His eyes were locked on mine. âNothing happened here, right? You and your father are unharmed?â
âWeâre completely fine.â I kissed his nose to reassure him. âDid you guysâŠâ I trailed off again, too afraid to form the words- Did they kill her? Of course I wanted her gone, but I really hated the idea of any of them in a fight against her or even killing her.
âShe got away.â He sighed and I leaned further back to see his face, to try and read his expression. I hoped he would crack a smile and say he was kidding.
He didnât.
He continued, âShe kept crossing the treaty line, Alice couldnât keep up once the wolves were involved. Emmett crossed too, to try and get to her but Paul attacked him-â
âOh noâŠâ I covered my mouth with my hand.
âHeâs all right, Cara.â I still hadnât moved my hand so he pressed a quick kiss to the back of it. âHis ego may be bruised, since she used their distraction to get away from us for good, but otherwise unscathed.â
âShe could still come back.â I whispered. If she was still out there, this wasnât over.Â
He nodded, âBut Alice will see when she chooses to. I trust that we will be capable of stopping her. It will be alright, Dove." He pressed his cool hand to my cheek and kissed the tip of my nose before he asked, "How was your weekend?" Clearly trying to change the subject.
I chewed my lip while debating if I was going to let it. "FineâŠ" I breathed it more than I said it. I wouldn't let it go, but it wasn't pressing right now. "Sam came by Billyâs house⊠He wanted to see if I'm still humanâŠ"
He barked out a laugh. "Because of our trip?" When I nodded, he added "I suppose it would make more sense that we'd leave for a while to do it."
âWe werenât even gone that long⊠I don't see why it matters anyway.â I understood why the wolves thought it mattered, but what I didnât understand was why it mattered more than what Bella and I wanted.
He gave me a small kiss on my forehead and I pulled him into the house and towards the living room. We had a few more hours before Dad got home. Bella and Edwardâs flight wouldnât get in until well after eight. We have a few hours to be ourselves. After this weekend I would take every single second with him I could.
âI wish the treaty could be updated, ya know?â I asked him and he chuckled in response. I fell dramatically onto the couch, and he delicately sat beside me. âCould we petition to add a âSwan Clauseâ to the Cullen/ Quileute Treaty? Like- If a human chooses to be bitten, of sound mind and body, the treaty will not be void.â
He laughed, âIf only we had thought ahead- though I highly doubt any of us could have seen you two coming.â
âThatâs⊠Fair.â I got as close to him as the couch would allow without actually just sitting in his lap. âI never really saw you coming either.â I kissed him quickly and we settled into the couch.
We only had a single moment of peace before the shrill sound of the phone ringing came from the kitchen. I bumped my forehead against his shoulder. If Iâd gone any harder it probably would have hurt. He looked concerned but I waved it off.
âAre⊠you going to answer that?â
âI donât wannaâŠâ I pretended to pout and he laughed before kissing the spot on my head that hit his shoulder.Â
âI could-â
That response made me sigh more, âYou donât want to either. Itâs Jacob again. Heâs already called like four times today to talk to Bella. Dad told him earlier that she wouldnât be in until late but he keeps calling anyway.â I didnât move towards the phone, it continued to ring.
 Carlisle raised an eyebrow.
I choked back a giggle âI havenât answered him⊠I like to feed into the drama.â I smirked and he laughed again. I waited for the phone to stop ringing before adding âSheâll call him back when she gets home.â
His smirk matched my own, âThat is- If you tell her he calledâŠâ
Which, in turn, made me laugh, âExactly! You get it.â
Carlisle went home well before Dad got off work. Dad could still tolerate him, but they definitely werenât as close as they once were. It was really only Edward that he âhatedâ. I just tried to not push his buttons more than I had to.
There was a comfortable silence over the house. I made dinner and did the dishes after we ate. As the game played on the TV, I pretended to read while really counting down the minutes until Bella and Edward would be home. I wondered if only hearing her voice over the phone would be enough to convince Jacob that she wasnât a vampire yet.Â
Dad answered one call before taking my side ignoring his calls, though it was clear how annoyed he was each time he called. He didnât ask a single question.
If I had answered I would have said something snarky like âFor the love of god Jacob would you get a fucking life?â or âShe is never going to pick you over him. Please leave us alone.â
Carlisle was right. It was better that I didnât answer the phone.
When Bella did get home, I was grateful Dad was calm. He didnât try to pick a fight with Edward. He even went out of his way to hold the door for him as he carried Bellas stuff in, without moving to slam it in his face.Â
It was nice. It was progress.
âWelcome home, kid.â His voice was high and loud. I could tell he meant it. âHow was Jacksonville?âÂ
âMoist. And buggyâ I couldnât imagine it. I was very comfy in my world of rain and moss. I was not interested at all in adding heat. I wondered if she would ever miss the warmth more than she let on.
âSo Renee didnât sell you on the University of Florida?â
âShe tried. But Iâd rather drink water than inhale it.â
Dad moved his eyes toward Edward, more out of obligation. âDid you have a nice time?â
âYes.â He was as polite as ever. âRenee was very hospitable.â
I piped up before the tension suffocated me, âThatâs awesome guys!â probably a bit too enthusiastically. Bella walked over to hug me. I didnât miss the quick â thank youâ she breathed. âWe really missed you around here, Bells.â
She dropped her arm and went to take her things upstairs but Dad stopped her before she got too far.Â
âWould you call Jacob first? Heâs been bugging us every five minutes since six oâclock this morning.â
I took over for him, âDad promised weâd have you call back as soon you got in the door. I debated not telling you at all.â Dad nudged me with his elbow. I rolled my eyes. âIt didnât stop him from calling.â
Bella looked lost, âJacob wants to talk to me?â I had been a little lost too until I remembered the reason he was calling.Â
Edward barely moved beside her. I could just barely see the uneven lift of his chest from his forced breath. I was sure he caught the reason for Jacobâs calls in my thoughts and instantly felt guilty.
â-just said it was important.â I only caught the end of Dadâs answer before, as if on demand, the phone started ringing again. I pulled my lips into a tight line and looked at Bella. She desperately tried to decipher what I wouldnât- couldnât say in front of Dad.
âThatâs him again. Iâd bet my next paycheck,â Dad muttered.
âIâve got it,â she hurried to the kitchen, Edward on her heels. Dad drifted back into the living room.Â
I stayed in the doorway with no idea which way to go. When the phone stopped mid-ring, I decided to follow Dad and get the details later.
Though part of me hoped Jacob wouldnât tell her anything at all.
~~
I should have started job hunting. My dad not-so-subtly kept bringing it up. I knew I could get one if I tried, but I hadnât even started trying. Instead, I was sleeping in, waking up around 10am, taking a quick shower, and going to the hospital to spend Carlisleâs lunch break with him.Â
At breakfast, when Dad asked me if Iâd contacted any jobs yet I smiled and lied, âIâm still looking. I havenât heard anything back yet.â I donât think he bought it, but he was willing to let it go.
Still I didnât look. I was out the door and avoiding my problems before 12pm.
I hadnât been in his office for more than 15 minutes before Bella texted me. As soon as I read the first message I knew somehow Jacob had told her about what the Cullens were up to this weekend. Carlisle read the message when I handed him my phone and he froze.
NEW MESSAGE FROM DANGER MAGNET-
8:29-Â What happened? What do you know?
8:32- Y/n⊠please? Iâm losing my mind
8:33-Â Â Edward is being elusive. What do you know?
âWhy didnât we have a plan for when she found out?â
âI imagined that Edward would have a solution for this-â
I glared at him, âReally?â
âI know, I know. I also assumed weâd have more than 12 hours before Jacob told her. Itâs hard to manage these things since Alice canât see the wolves.â
I sighed and braced my forehead against my hand. âI didnât expect her to know I knew immediately either⊠What do I say to her so she doesnât hate me?â
âShe wonât hate you. I doubt she's even mad at you. She's very likely only mad at Edward."
"Until she learns that I've known about it since we were in Ireland." He did wince a bit at that and I let my head fall to his desk. "What do I say?"Â
He chuckled and took my phone again. He typed out a message to her and handed it back to me for approval.
I may need more context for what you're referring to. -9:10
"That doesn't sound like me at all." I sent it anyway and he laughed. Then I added,
aren't you in class? -9:11
9:12-Â I can multitask.
9:12-Â What happened when I was in Jacksonville with Edward
9:12-Â between the Cullens and Victoria?
9:12-Â and Emmett and paul???
What has Edward told you? -9:13
9:14-Â like I said, heâs being elusive. He keeps saying nothing happened when clearly something happened..
9:15-Â What do you know?
I took a deep breath before I hit send. Carlisle placed soft, reassuring kisses to my neck.
I really donât know much. Honestly, Edward would be able to tell you better
than I could. Iâm sure it was some huge vamp V.S. wolf cliche. Carlisle has
assured me that everything is fine. -9:17
9:18-Â Arenât you with him now?
Carlisleâs at work. -9:19
Lying by omission felt better than outright lying. She had to know I was with him anyway. I knew I didnât have the answers she wanted and it would have been harder to hear coming from me. I wanted Edward to tell her. She stopped responding to me for a long while.
I immediately thought that she was indeed very mad at me. Carlisle decided to try to distract me by kissing me til I forgot my own name.
It worked amazingly well until my phone dinged again and pulled me right out of it.
10:01- I am holding you personally in charge of telling me about the dangers they try to hide from me from now onâŠ
I understand. -10:04
10:04- Also⊠Ask Carlisle if Edward can fly a plane.
I turned my head to face him, brows furrowed.
âHe can.â My mouth fell open. âI can too.â He casually added. I again let my head fall against his desk, still amazed at all the things they can do.
~~
The week was chaotic to say the least. Bella swore she wasnât phased by the prospect of Victoria lurking even though she continued to jump at every sound. She would gravitate towards whatever person was closest so she was never by herself.
Mainly she just tried to use it as leverage to be turned sooner.Â
Thankfully, Carlisle shot that down quickly, âThere are six of us Bella. And with Alice and Edward on our side, I donât think Victoriaâs going to catch us off guard. I think itâs important, for Charlieâs sake, that we stick to the original plan.â
He squeezed my hand as he said it like he was trying to calm my nerves. I wasnât as nervous anymore. I trusted them to keep her safe, while holding off as long as they could on actually turning her. I also knew she wouldnât give in- that she would demand to be turned sooner, rather than later.Â
It helped that they were so thorough in making sure that this was truly what she wanted. No matter what reason she came up with, they refused to change her before she graduated.
The most comforting thing of all was how normal everything else was. They continued to plan their mandatory âcamping tripâ. Carlisle still felt the need to convince me everything was fine. I could hardly tell if he was trying to convince me or himself.Â
âIâll only be gone for a few daysâŠâ
âI know-â
âWe wonât go too far, so if anything happens-â
âCarlisle-â
â-just call or message me and I will come straight home-â
I couldnât contain my giggles as I set my hands on either side of his face. âMy love, Honey, SweetheartâŠ. I promise, Iâll be okay.â
He sighed and kissed the palm of my hand. âOkay⊠I know.â The worry melted from his face and he smiled softly at me, âYou mean the world to me, Cara. I donât know what I would do if something happened to you.â
âItâs a good thing Iâm not the one you really have to worry about.â
âI do anyway.â He took a step closer to me and gave me a small kiss. âAlice and Jasper will be hunting close by.â I raised my eyebrows. âFor Bellaâs sake.â He emphasized.
âOkay, thatâs fair.â He laughed and actually kissed me that time. I always hated the goodbye kisses. Even though I knew heâd come back, these kisses always felt like poking a scar.
I could still remember how much pain I was in before and when he kissed me like that, I could feel it again. I kissed him like I couldnât.Â
He pulled back and rested his forehead on mine. âI love you.â
âI love you.â My voice was just barely above a whisper. âCome home to me.â
âI will⊠Itâs just a few days.â He kissed me again and then he left through the front door. I stayed in the living room watching the front door and hugging my own chest.
I gave myself a few hours to mope around. I cleaned the kitchen and made the bed since they wouldnât be used again until they got back. I went outside and hesitated on the front porch for a long moment, watching the trees, wishing I could stay right there and wait for his return.
When Bella texted me saying she had made it to Jacobâs house, I sighed. I hoped she would get to spend the day with him, yet still worried the Cullens were just going to come home to get her. I locked the door behind me, got in my car, and drove to Dadâs house.
Dad welcomed me from the kitchen with a generic âHey, Kiddo!â Probably because he didnât know which one of us was walking in. Still, he met me in the doorway and gave me a one-armed hug. âHow was your day?â
âNice and quiet. Some of the others left early, so it was just me and Carlisle.â
I didnât miss his wince. âThat sounds niceâŠâ I had to laugh at his response, he quickly changed the subject. âHowâs the job hunting going?â
Panicking, I said âKinda slow⊠I havenât heard back from anywhere yet.â Hoping he would accept that and move on again.Â
It almost worked.
âHave you got in touch with the manager of the cafe? What was her name Dorris? Deana?â
âDebbieâŠâ
âDebbie! Right- Have you called her?â
I winced. âUhmm⊠not yet.â
âI can call her up, if youâd like.â
âOh, no, Itâs okay.â I felt my face heat up. The last thing I wanted was for my Dad to call and get my job back. Also, I didnât even know if I wanted that job back in the first place. âIâm sure theyâve already replaced me anyway-â
âSure, well⊠Just let me know-â
He was cut off by a firm knock on the door. While he turned to look, the sound made me jump. Goosebumps covered my body head to toe and I was completely frozen in my spot.
âAre you expecting someone?â I whispered like a child hoping that the person at the door would assume no one was home and just go away.
Dad made for the door, it took everything in me not to grab his arm. âIâm not, but maybe Bella locked herself out.â He didnât know she was with Jacob. I wanted to beg him to not open the door, but I couldnât find a reason why he shouldnât.
I nodded slowly and let him go. âYouâre probably right.â I sounded confident. I really had no clue what had me so freaked out. It wasnât like heâd throw open the door and Victoria would just be standing there, yet my heart stayed in my throat.
Then he swung the door open and it was just Carlisle.
Despite how confused I was, it took everything in me not to run and throw my arms around his neck. Instead, I checked my watch. It had only been four hours since heâd left.
âDr. Cullen, itâs good to see you.â He didn't sound completely sarcastic. He shifted to the right so I could get out a little more between them. âIs everything alright?â
âGood afternoon, Chief Swan. EverythingâŠâ His smile shifted just a bit but he still came off fairly calm. âWell, may I speak with Y/n privately for a moment?â
âSure,â Dad turned to me and gave me a questioning look. I shrugged my shoulders and stepped out onto the porch. âJust⊠let me know if you need anything.â He softly shut the door behind me.
Still a little surprised he was there, I started âWhatâs up?â like I didnât already know.
âWhere is your sister?â Yeah⊠there it was.
I didnât want to lie but I felt the loyalty to not rat her out. I had to think on my feet. âShe went to work.â
âBut she left early⊠Where did she go?â I could tell he was growing impatient; Not with me necessarily, but with the situation. His eyes were darker than he normally let them get. They needed to hunt and my sister recklessly disregarded their feelings on the matter.
Of course, I wasnât on their side about it. Bella had every right to see her friends. And their argument that she wasnât âsafeâ there was incredibly hypocritical. I agreed that she was a danger magnet, but she was just as safe in a room full of werewolves as she was in a room full of vampires. There were members of both parties that were hardly in control of themselves and no one had hurt her this far.
I crossed my arms and attempted to not roll my eyes by staring directly at the ground. âKinda feels like you already know where she isâŠâ
He sighed and ran a hand over his face, âY/n-â
âDonât- Donât start this again, please. You know Iâm not going to stop her from seeing her friends. She has every right to do so.â His face softened. I could tell he wasnât there to argue with me and if I had to guess, Edward sent him here anyway. I also softened a bit, âI hate that you guys came home because of thisâŠâ
âEdward is practically losing any sense he had left.â He wrapped his arms around me and whispered the next part, âHe threatened to break the treaty-â
âHe canât!â
âHe wonât.â He assured me. âI agree with you that he is being unreasonable about this. It would be easier if they came to some sort of compromise.â
âThey wonât. Sheâs just going to keep doing this.â
âSo is he, Iâm afraid.â
When I sighed he softly kissed my forehead. I buried my face in his chest. It felt like I was back in his living room. I didnât know how much time I had with him. I didnât want to say goodbye again so soon. I was so thankful that Bella had at least bought us this time.
Like he was reading my mind, I felt him shift back to get a better look at me. I, in turn, looked up at him.
âI donât want to say goodbye again.â I was so glad he was supporting my weight because his words melted me in his arms.
âI was just thinking the same thing.â He grinned and I leaned forward to kiss him. âBut maybe Bella and Edwardâs dramatics bought us a few more days.â I matched his grin.
âHmm⊠you're probably right.â
He kissed me and this time it didnât feel like another goodbye. It was slow and sweet and when he kissed me like that the whole world disappeared. I lost track of time. I could have stayed there forever, with one of his hands on my face while the other rested on the small of my back, kissing him like we could defy time itself.Â
But, like always, he pulled back and chuckled under his breath. I chased his lips with my own for one more short and sweet kiss.
âYour father has peeked out here three times.â
I playfully rolled my eyes, âNosey old man⊠I told him Iâd go job hunting today.â
âYou still could.â
âI know. And I probably will. But after- since youâre home anyway- Could I come over?â
âOf course you can. I want you to,â
âGood!â I stood on the tips of my toe, even if it wasnât entirely necessary and pressed another quick kiss to his lips. âIâll see you later then?â
He smiled and kissed my forehead. âHave a good evening, Cara. Good luck with the job hunt, not that you need it.â I wasnât sure if he meant luck, or the job, but I felt more confident anyway.
We kissed one more time and I watched as he walked to his car. When he got in, he waited for me to go inside the house before pulling away.Â
His belief in me was just enough to give me confidence, and less than an hour later I was dressed nicely and out the door. Or it could have been the excitement to spend more time with him later.
Without a doubt, I was, for sure, getting a job. I didnât have a single plan, but I was determined. I stopped at a few places and was met with the same âWeâll get back to you in a few daysâ that Iâd been getting for months.
Part of me wished I had brought Carlisle with me- he was impossible to say no to- but I didnât want a job just because he got it for me. It wasnât that I was unhireable exactly, just that word travels fast and less then a year ago I just stopped showing up to my last job.Â
In a final attempt to come home with some good news, I parked my car in front of the cafe. I couldnât decide if I wanted to go in. It was unlikely that I would even be able to get my job back. I would have stayed in my car and gone home if I hadnât promised Dad I would try every option.Â
Instead, I took a deep breath, tried to steady the shaking, and got out of my car.
Debbie was behind the counter. It really did feel like a weight lifted off my shoulders, even though she was the one who let me go in the first place. I felt like if I had any chance at all, she held it in her delicate hands.
I think she liked me. Once she saw me in the cafe she did light up a bit. She came right around the counter and hugged me.
âY/n! Honey! It is so good to see you.â She had the only southern accent in Forks that could rival Jaspers. She was born and raised in a small town outside of Nashville, but moved to Forks with her wife Sylvia. They opened Spoons together and the rest is history. âHow are you? Howâs your Daddy?â
âWeâre good. Not much going on really.â I laughed. I really did miss her.Â
âThatâs good. Is there anything I can getcha?â
I took another deep breath and thought- I could do this, I had to do thisâŠÂ âActually⊠I was wondering- And if not itâs completely okay, Iâd totally understand. But I guess I was wondering if you would rehire me?âÂ
âOh⊠Well, Honey. Letâs sit and talk for a sec,â any hope I had vanished from my body. She walked me over to a table to let me down easily.
We both sat down and she smiled sympathetically at me. I tried to get ahead of it, âItâs really okay-â
âItâs just that, I want you to be in the best place mentally that you can be. And you were a great employee, but when he left-â My chest tightened, I tried not to let it show. â-you completely shut down. I want you to fully heal rather than pretend that nothing happened.â
I hit my head on the table. There it was again. The idea that Bella and I were âpretending like nothing happenedâ circulated better than most of the air conditioners in this town. âIâm notâŠâ
âYou and your sister welcomed them back like it was nothinâ, but we all saw how torn up yâall were. Now, I completely respect your decision, but I donât think itâs right to go back to how your life was before. Maybe it would be best if you found something new. Maybe make time for your friends.â
She was trying to be delicate; trying to tell me no, without flat out saying no. I sighed and nodded, âThank you for the adviceâŠâ Unsolicited or not. âIâve applied to a few places in town.â
The seriousness melted from her features as she said âSee? That is so good, Honey! Iâll put in a good word for ya for sure. Can I get you a coffee before you go?â
And just like that she was behind the counter again. I didnât bother telling her that I hadn't mentioned where Iâd applied. I didnât get the chance to pass on the coffee before she was pouring it. She even threw in an extra one for Carlisle. I almost laughed. She didnât know the whole story and she was just looking out for my best interest.
I took the coffees and waved as I left. I still thought so highly of her for that.
Carlisle met me at the door when I finally gave up. If no one called, at least Dad couldnât say I didnât try.Â
âHow did it go, Love?â
I rolled my eyes and softly laughed, âIâm unemployableâŠâ
He laughed with me. âI can not fathom that that is true. I see you went to the cafe.â He nodded towards the coffees in my hands.Â
âShe tried to keep it delicate, but itâs a solid no.â I held his coffee out to him, âI hope you donât mind that itâs gone a bit cold.â I joked.
He actually threw his head back laughing.
~~
The guys stayed until Thursday, and then Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper and Edward went hunting in Northern California. The goodbye didnât hurt as much the second time, though I still hated every second of it.
Alice and I picked up Bella from work in Edwardâs Volvo after deciding it would be better to approach this as a united front. We were singing along to the song on the radio when Bella got out. Well- Alice was singing, I was mumbling some of the lyrics I knew.
âHey, Alice , Y/n?â She had to shout over the music, even still I hardly heard her. âWhere are the guys?â I knew she really just wanted to ask about Edward.
I watched as Alice ignored her. She almost looked annoyed, but she never stayed annoyed with Alice for long. She even made a point to cover her ears as she shut the door. I couldnât help but laugh.
I reached over and turned the music down.
âWhatâs going on?â I could hear the anxiety in her voice. âWhereâs Edward?â
Alice shrugged, âThey left early.â
âOh.â She sounded disappointed, I wondered what was going on inside her head.
âAll of the guys left early so we could have a slumber party!â I added, trying to give her some context and quell some of her panic. She was not convinced.
âA slumber party?â
âAre you excited?â Alice crowed.
Her eyes shifted between our faces, clearly still skeptical, and possibly a bit angry.
Bellaâs mouth fell open and her eyes shot to me, hoping I could dig her out of this somehow. I grimaced, âI cleared it with Dad.â
âYouâre staying with us two nights and I will drive you to and from school tomorrow.â
She turned her face to the window , her annoyance hadnât budged at all.
âSorry.â Alice said, although she didnât sound even a little bit sorry. âHe paid me off.â
âHow?â She practically hissed.
Even I hadnât heard that part, I turned quickly from Bella to Alice as she answered, âThe Porsche. Itâs exactly like the one I stole in Italy.â I winced at the nonchalance in her tone. She had stolen a car? Sometimes it was still hard to wrap my head around what happened in Italy. I typically tried to not think about it.
Alice continued, âIâm not supposed to drive it around Forks, but if you want, we could see how long it would take to get from here to L.A.- I bet I could have you back by midnight.â
She took a deep breath. âI think Iâll pass.â She trembled a bit. I chuckled softly. I guessed that Bellaâs adrenaline seeking did not extend to speed driving.
And in no time at all we were pulling into the Cullens garage. Between Emmettâs Jeep and Rosalieâs BMW sat a gorgeous yellow Porsche. I wanted to roll my eyes but thought better of it and looked around the room instead. When I saw the covered car farest from us, I knew immediately it was Aliceâs Prius.
Alice hopped out and went to stoke her hand over the hood. âPretty, isnât it?â
âPretty over-the-top,â Bella grumbled.
Curiosity got the best of me. âWhat are your plans with the Prius?â
âOh, well you didnât drive it while we were gone- or at all since we got back, so Carlisle wasnât sure you still wanted itâŠâ Her eyes didnât leave her car so I looked wide-eyed at Bella, who was frozen.
âAlice?â Bella and I said in unison, but where my tone was questioning, hers sounded like a warning. I had no idea what secret I had just uncovered.
âShootâŠâ Alice normally had a habit of saying more than she should.
âWhy would I want your car, Alice?â I raised my eyebrows.
âIt was never my carâŠâ She winced and my mouth fell open. âThe day your car died, Carlisle bought that one for you. But you canât be mad at him and please donât let him kill me for telling you.â
âIâŠIâm not mad. I might kill him though.â I still laughed softly. âHe barely knew me then!â I really wasnât mad, just very shocked.
âBut it worked out, right? Because now youâre in love.â Bella added, trying to ease the tension.
I wasnât even tense, but it was a bit fun playing it up. I jokingly glared at her. âHow long have you known about this?â
âSince Iâve known theyâre vampires, basically.â It was her turn to wince.
âTraitor!â I pointed at her, still laughing.
âHypocrite.â She shot right back. I loved when she joked like this. It really helped me feel like things were nearly normal. âClearly the Cullens just buy people cars to get what they want. He gave you that just for two days of holding me hostage?â
Alice made a face, which made me make a face.
Bella gasped. âItâs for every time heâs gone, isnât it?â
Alice nodded and Bella slammed her door, stomping toward the house. Alice didnât miss a beat; she just danced right alongside Bella, despite the dramatics. I stayed a healthy distance back.
âY/n, donât you think this is just a bit controlling?â Â
Her question was addressed to me but was obviously aimed at Alice. Probably with the hope that Edward was still close enough to overhear as well. He wasnât. Theyâd left hours before.
â A bit? Bella, you know Iâm on your side about this-â
âNot really.â Alice answered as if I wasnât. âNeither of you seem to grasp how dangerous a young werewolf can be. Especially when I canât see them. Edward has no way to know if youâre safe. You shouldnât be so reckless.â
Bella met my gaze with a glare that matched my dramatic eye roll; Only, Bella was brave enough to voice her thoughts.
Her voice was like acid. âYes, because a vampire slumber party is the pinnacle of safety conscious behavior.â
I really laughed at that, but so did Alice. âIâll give you a pedicure and everything.â
It really wasnât as bad as Bella made it out to be. Alice painted her nails, I made junk food, and Alice put on a few of Bellaâs favorite movies. Even Rosalie hung out in the main living space, just quietly and predominantly in the background.Â
âHow late do you want to stay up?â  Alice asked Bella as she finished her toenails.
âI donât want to stay up. We have school in the morning.â Bella continued to be grumpy despite how cheery Alice was, though this did make her pout a little.
I laughed, âYou could ditch. We could go shopping.â
âBeing a little irresponsible is healthy.â Alice agreed.
Bella ignored us. âWhere am I supposed to sleep, anyway? Canât you just keep me under surveillance at my house?â
That would never work and she knew it.
âWhat kind of slumber party would that be?â Alice shook her head in exasperation. âYouâre sleeping in Edward's room.â
She seemed content enough with that. I understood her hesitation. She didnât know he bought her a bed for his room and the idea of sleeping in there without him probably felt very lonely.Â
But she pretended it was fine and switched topics.
âCan I go back to my place to get my things, at least?â
Her persistence was hilarious. I smiled at her, âYou know we already took care of that.â
âFine. Can I use either of your phones?â She looked between us and I moved to hand her mine but paused when I felt Aliceâs icy hand holding me back.
âCharlie knows where you are.â
âI wasnât going to call Charlie.â Bella wasnât really glaring at her; she knew this wasnât entirely her choice either. âApparently I have some plans to cancel.â
âOh.â I moved again to give Bella my phone as Alice weighed her options but she didnât budge. âIâm not sure about thatâ
âAlice!â she whined loudly. âCâmon!â
âOkay, okay. But use mine!â She called as she floated out of the room. I had to roll my eyes, it made Bella laugh a bit. When she was back she held out her phone to Bella. âHe didnât specifically prohibit thisâŠâ
Bella stepped away and I tried not to listen too closely to her conversion with Jacob. It wasnât my place to eavesdrop. I figured whatever he had to say would probably piss me off anyway. He wasnât known for being reasonable. Hell none of them were. It was something Iâd grown to accept.
Alice sat between Rosalie and I and placed her head on my shoulder. We fell into a comfortable silence. The only sounds came from Bellaâs muffled phone call and the movie. Of course my mind kept drifting back to Carlisle. They wouldnât be back until at least Saturday, and though I already missed him, I wondered if Bella would try to sneak out again.Â
I hoped she would as much as I hoped she wouldnât. I also knew that if she tried I wouldnât stop her.
Alice was gone and next to Bella again, but Bella was already dialing another number.
âI donât think heâll have his phone on him.â I assumed they were talking about Edward. Though I doubted he wouldnât have his phone given Bellaâs perpetual need to cause chaos for them.
âIf he doesnât I can try CarlisleâŠâ
âItâs fine, Iâm not trying to worry him too much. Iâll leave a message.â  I nodded and giggled around my glass of wine. Alice glared at me.
âYou are in trouble.â  She was so angry. I really wished I could hear what she would say to him when he got back. Clearly still annoyed, she ended the call after a few more threats. She snapped the phone shut and gave it back to Alice. âIâm done.â
Alice grinned. âThis hostage stuff is fun.â
âIâm going to sleep now,â she announced Alice followed behind her.
I laughed and shook my head before taking another sip of wine. Rosalie laughed too but hers was more sarcastic. âMust they do this the hard way?â She asked as she stood, her gaze followed Bella upstairs.
âThey thrive on it.â I responded. I knew how she felt. I wished I could make it easier for her somehow.
âIf Bella would just see the whole picture. If I could give her some perspective somehowâŠâ Her voice trailed off, like she was distracted by coming up with a way to make Bella want to stay human.
âYou should talk to her. I donât think she knows your story. I think your opinion matters more to her than she lets on.â I set my hand on her arm and she met my gaze. âIt matters to me too, Rose.â
Her face softened and she nodded. âThank you, Y/n. Youâre right.â She got up and started up the stairs but paused for a brief moment, âSleep well⊠when you go.â then she was gone
It's Finally Here!!!! I can not apologize enough for how long this took to get out. But here it is! I hope you love it.
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 12,927
Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
There is no imprinting and there never will be <3
Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
As always, I DO NOT own The Twilight Saga. All rights go directly to S. Meyer.
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Masterlist <3 (Ch 1, Ch 2)
I love you <3 Thank you for still being here <3
âI think I've upset BellaâŠâ Alice said before she threw herself onto the couch next to Carlisle. She had just gotten home from school and normally she came in and gossiped about her classmates, but she was clearly wrapped up in this situation with Bella.Â
I let Carlisle take the lead, though we both had to hold back a laugh. âWhy would you think that?â
She sighed. âWell she didn't say she was mad, but I told her about the graduation party and she didn't really fight back? And then I thanked her for the gift she's going to buy me, but she hardly seemed phased. And when we started to drive her home she asked what day it was and when I said the fourth that's when she got all weird.â
The date made me freeze too. I turned sharply to face her. âToday is June fourth? You're sure?â
âNot you tooâŠâ She groaned. âWhat is wrong with the date?â
I took a deep breath. âI'm sure it just took her by surprise. Its- it's really close to graduation.â I had to force the answer out. Carlisle kissed my hair. âI didn't realize it was so soon eitherâŠâ
I was only guaranteed ten more human days with my sister. Only ten days until everything changed and I didn't know when I'd see her again- or any of them for that matter. Carlisle promised to stay with me, of course, but the others would probably leave with Bella and Edward. I didnât know if I would see them again until I was ready to become a vampire too.Â
I shivered and leaned into Carlisle.
âI don't see her changing right away, Y/nâ Her face softened as she saw how tense Iâd gotten. âShe may be determined, but Edward won't let anyone change her until everything in Seattle is settled and even then thereâs still the intruder to worry about.â
âWe don't know how long that will take. We still don't even know what's going on.â I pointed out.
âThat's her point, Dove. She still has plenty of time.â He whispered.
I tried my best to not roll my eyes. Bella was going to push every one of their buttons until she got her way- rogue vampires be damned. I couldn't hope for the best when Bella was involved; I knew I had to prepare for the worst.
âHonestly, I'm just glad she didn't throw a fit about the party. I've planned it all perfectly.â Alice moved on from my worries.
I sighed but didnât disrupt her joy, âHow many people are you expecting?â
She beamed, âAlmost seventy, currently.â It was Carlisle's turn to tense, but Alice casually pressed on. âI invited everyone from our graduating class, and Bella's family. Nearly everyone agreed to come too.â
âSeventy? Bella is okay with seventy people being here? Will Jasper be okay?â
âJasper is around more people at school everyday. He'll be fine.â She brushed me off but Jasper did give me a soft smile in thanks from his side of the room. Alice continued, âBella doesn't exactly know how many people are comingâŠâ
Carlisle and I couldn't contain our laughter. âThat's why she didn't freak out.â
âShe. Will. Get. Over. It. I'm excited. This party will be perfect.â Without another word, she got up and floated up the stairs.Â
I turned so I could hide my face in Carlisle's chest, though it barely muffled my laughter. He still laughed too and soothed my hair.Â
âThis is a messâŠâ As our laughter died my thoughts went back to the beginning of the conversation. It was overwhelming. Between moving in with Carlisle and Bella's graduation looming, and whatever was going on in Seattle, at times it felt like the walls were closing in.Â
But Carlisle held me close and kissed my forehead and whispered, âIt will be alright. We'll get through this together.â And I believed him.Â
~~
The Seattle News had been playing on the TV for over an hour now, though it was too low for me to make out what was going on. Carlisle filled me in occasionally with a simplified version. I knew he was sugar-coating it. I wasnât sure I even wanted to know the truth. They discussed things from the news in hushed voices, but nothing changed enough to please Alice and whatever she was seeing in her visions. Mornings like this often gave me more anxiety than clarity.
Still, Jasper calmed the rest of them and Emmett tried to distract me. Somehow, he managed to get Rosalie to play a game of Uno with us; she was winning.
They turned to face the door seconds before it opened. Carlisle whispered to me that it was just Bella and Edward so I could relax a bit. I was always more at ease when we were all together, but I had to pick on Bella just a bit.
âShouldnât you be in class?â I called over my shoulder as they walked into the living room.Â
She smiled at me. âDitching is healthy.â
It made Emmett laugh, âShe can just catch this lesson next time.â Which made both Edward and Rosalie roll their eyes. He completely missed it or chose to ignore them. âWant us to deal you in?â
âRose is winning.â
Bella sat next to me and shook her head, as Edward walked over and handed Carlisle a piece of paper.Â
âDid you see that theyâre considering a serial killer now?â he asked.
Carlisle sighed. âTheyâve had two specialists debating the possibility on CNN all morning.â
âWe canât let this go onâ
âLet's go now, Iâm dead bored.â Emmett dropped his cards and walked over to Edward. Rosalie hissed at his word exactly as I gasped. The rest of the room was unphased. Emmett muttered something under his breath
But Edward agreed, âWeâll have to go sometime.â
The alternative was letting the Volturi handle it, and none of us wanted that. I also knew how heavily the death count was weighing on Carlisle. They would act and they would probably do it soon. I shivered.
âI know,â Carlisle sighed.
âOh,â Edward said sharply, turning his head slightly to look at Jasper. âI didnât think of that. I see. Youâre right, that has to be it. Well, that changes everything.â
The entire room froze, staring at Edward like heâd sprouted a second head. I only tore my gaze away long enough to check with Bella, who looked the most confused.Â
âI think you better explain to the others,â Edward said, still only talking to Jasper despite the annoyance growing on everyone's face. Edward started pacing and mumbling and Alice joined us at Bellaâs side.Â
âWhat is he rambling about?â She asked Jasper. âWhat are you thinking?â
Noticing the attention on him, Jasper shied closer to Alice, but his eyes danced between Bella and me.
âYouâre confused.â He said as if it wasnât clear. He knew exactly how confused we all were. I chose to not point it out.
âYou both need to understand this. Since youâre part of us now.â Bella looked shocked, but I was too confused. He continued, âHow much do you know about me?â
Emmett gave up and sat down dramatically next to me. He picked up his cards again though there was no way I could focus on Uno now. He sighed.
âNot much,â Bella admitted.
Jasper stared at Edward, who looked to meet his gaze.
âNo, Iâm sure you can understand why I havenât told her that story. But I suppose she needs to hear it now.âÂ
When Carlisle was met with the same questioning gaze he held up his hands. âIt wasnât my story to tell.â I almost laughed.
Jasper nodded, clearly at a loss as to where to start. He rolled up his sleeve and held his arm out to Bella. I wondered how his arms played a part of this until I saw what his fingers traced.
His arms were covered in lots of little crescent shaped scars.
I gasped and then Bella seemed to get it too. âOh, Jasper, you have a scar exactly like mine.â
Jasper smiled faintly. âI have a lot of scars like yours, Bella.â
He was polite, but his face was unreadable. Bellaâs scar was given to her by James. Iâd guessed that she had been bitten, but no one ever explicitly confirmed the events of that night with me. I could tell from Bellaâs reaction alone that the same could be said for Jasper. The sheer volume of bites stunned me to silence.
Bella stared up at him. âJasper, what happened to you?â
âThe same thing that happened to your hand,â he answered in a quiet voice.âRepeated a thousand times. Our venom is the only thing that leaves a scar.â
âHow?â I wasnât sure what I was asking. How did he get bitten so many times? How did he survive? But he understood, and started his story.
âI didnât have quite the same⊠upbringing as my adopted siblings here.â As he spoke his voice went cold. I hated it. I knew his past was worlds away, but I wished I could protect him from it.Â
âYou should know, before I go further, that there are parts of our world you havenât needed to see. In the north itâs easy for us to blend in. We donât have to fight for territory. We can coexist. But in the south, immortals only come out at night, while spending their days plotting this never ending war.â
âFighting for what?â I didnât want to ask, but was glad Bella did.
He almost smiled. âTo them, territory is power. They all want the places where they can feed without much notice. If there was one coven, who controlled a densely populated area, they could hunt freely. Each coven would have to fight to keep the land in their control.
âWars broke out all across the south. Some with more effective tactics than others, but there was one that won out. One vampire, Benito, claimed most of Texas and northern Mexico in a matter of weeks, he was unbeatable.â
âHow did he do it?â my voice was shakier than I expected it to be.Â
âHe created an army of newborn vampires. Newborns are nearly impossible to control. Their thirst is really the only thing that controls them. And theyâre just as likely to take out themselves as they are to take out an enemy. He created more as they destroyed themselves and when it came down to a fight, heâd walk away on top.
âWhen the surrounding covens realized what was happening they created armies of their own, though it was often too late.Â
âAll hell broke loose- and I mean that more literally than you could possibly imagine. We immortals have our histories, too, and this particular war will never be forgotten. Of course, it was not a good time to be human in Mexico, either.â
âSo, as the body count rose to unthinkable numbers the Volturi stepped in to clean up the mess. The entire guard came together and sought out every newborn in the bottom half of North America. They killed Benito first, and sought out his followers. If anyone had a newborn within two thousand miles of Mexico City, the entire coven paid with their lives. Our kind will always remember this too. The Volturi didnât ask questions. They didnât offer second chances.
âWhen the Volturi returned to Italy, the southerners left behind were quick to reclaim land. They were smarter, quieter this time. These newborns were carefully selected and thoroughly trained. And, though rarely necessary, the Volturi will step in to clear out the cities. But they let the quiet ones- the careful ones continue.â
He looked lost in his own thoughts as he stared at his arm. I almost reached out and grabbed his hand for reassurance, but thought better of it.Â
âThatâs how you were changed.â Â Bella whispered.
He nodded. âI lived in Texas, just outside of Houston. I tried to join the army in 1861, but I was seventeen and they saw right through me. I didnât really want to fight, but I had watched the horrors that had fallen on my community and I wanted to help. So many innocent people died because the confederates didnât stop to consider how the civilians would be affected.Â
âI was young and dumb, but I had a way with people. I had to lie a lot, to get battle plans, or uniforms, but people trusted me. I used that trust to lead women and children away from battlegrounds.
âThat night wasn't any different than the rest. I had just led a group of young women to safety and was headed back to Galveston. I didn't want to waste time, I didn't stop to rest. I was maybe an hour out of town when I saw three women walking alone. I was afraid they were stragglers.
âTheir names were Maria, Nettie, and Lucy. They hadn't been together long- Maria had rounded up the other two- all three were survivors of recently lost battles. They all had their own goals but they all agreed on one thing. They wanted territory.
âMaria was the one who turned me. Said she âhad a good feelingâ about me. I didn't know what she meant at the time. Every instinct in my body screamed at me to run. Of course, I didn't know then that running would do me no good. Still, I wanted to run, but I couldnât. If I had been right and they had needed help, I wanted to help them; I was completely frozen in place.Â
âMaria grew quite fond of me- she began to depend on me. And in some ways, I worshiped the ground she walked on. She put me in charge of the army she was building. I still had so little understanding of my powers but as long as I could keep everyone calm and quiet, Maria had use for me.
âFor her, I fully trained an army of twenty-three. We fought a group of only eleven and only lost four of ours. And because we were so well trained, we did it without attracting notice. The city changed hands without any human being aware.â
âMaria was greedy and she'd made a few too many enemies. Though things did quiet down for us over time, there are still small battles. Power is a dangerous thing. Many still seek vengeance. They won't easily forget.Â
âI made her newborns- dozens at a time- that I then destroyed after a year of each new life. Every life I took weighed heavily on me. Each time, I hesitated more and more. I'd made fast friends with a newborn named Peter. He was strong so Maria let him live and he was in charge of helping me dispose of the rest. As much as it weighed on me, it really took a toll on Peter. And one day he met his mate- A newborn named Charlotte. She brought him back to life, but she ran out of time. Instead of ending her, he told her to run. He took off with her. I was supposed to track them down. I never did.
âMaria was irritated with me for thatâŠ
âFive years later, Peter came back for me.â I could tell by the change in his demeanor we were getting past the scary stuff. He was still tense, but he smiled softly at the memory of Charlotte and Peter. I didn't know them, but I was grateful for their part in his life.
âPeter told me about his new life with Charlotte, told me about options I'd never dreamed I had. I walked away without a backwards glance. Maria didn't track me down. She didn't fight for me. I was grateful I wouldn't have to kill her. We weren't close but we'd spent so many years together⊠I don't think I could have killed her if I tried.Â
âI didn't realize how depressed I'd gotten until I was far out of it. Always worse after I hunted. Always tearing away pieces of what soul I had left. I felt the savagery of the newborns for years, the hatred that filled our every battle, but also the fear of every human I killed.
âIt broke meâŠ
âI went my own way. I tried so many ways to keep some sense of sanity, but nothing stuck. After a century of instant gratification, I found self-discipline⊠challenging. I still haven't perfected that.â
I was so lost in his words, I almost laughed. His face softened into a peaceful smile. It was a nice change; one I was grateful for.
âI was in Philadelphia. There was a storm, and I was out during the day- something I was not completely comfortable with yet. I knew standing in the rain would attract attention, so I ducked into a little half-empty diner. My eyes were dark enough no one would notice them, though that meant I was thirsty, and that worried me a little.Â
âShe was there- expecting me, naturally.â He finally chuckled and so did I. It was clear as day how much happier he was. âShe hopped down from the high stool at the counter as soon as I walked in and came directly towards me.
âIt shocked me. I was not sure if she meant to attack. But she was smiling, and the emotions that were emanating from her were like nothing I'd ever felt before.â
âYou had kept me waiting a long time.â Alice was next to him suddenly, wrapping her arm in his, their fingers intertwining. âAnd you ducked your head, like a good southern gentleman, and said, âI'm sorry, ma'amâ. She laughed at the memory.
Jasper smiled at her like she'd hung the moon. My heart melted. âYou held out your hand and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing. For the first time in almost a century, I felt hope.â
As infatuated with his story as I was, I knew the reason he told it now. There was an army forming in Seattle. Alice and Jasper smiled at each other as they recounted joining the rest of the Cullens and I struggled to follow along.
I caught the end of something Edward was saying, âWhen I got home, all of my things were in the garage.â
Alice only shrugged. âYour room had the best view.â
Everyone laughed. I played along and laughed too, but Carlisle could tell it was forced. His hand tightened around mine ever so slightly.
âThatâs a nice story,â Bella said. Everyone looked at her like she'd lost it- even me. She quickly clarified. âI mean the last part. The happy ending with Alice.â
âAlice has made all the difference,â Jasper agreed. âThis is a climate I enjoy.â
Finally, Alice went back to the point of the story. âAn army,â she whispered, âWhy didn't you tell me?â
I was glad I wasn't the only one worried. Though I could barely force the words out, I needed to ask, âAnd you guys plan to face this?â
âWe don't have much of a choice, Cara.â Carlisle's voice was soothing as he pressed into my side.
Jasper answered only Alice's question, âI hoped I was mistaken. I hoped that maybe I just saw the similarities because of my past. It simply doesn't make sense for there to be an army in Seattle. No one would want to claim it for power when there isnât anyone to oppose. No one would even defend it.Â
âBut I've seen this before, and there's no other explanation. There is an army of newborn vampires in Seattle. Fewer than twenty, I'd guess. The difficult part is that they are totally out of control. Whoever made them just set them loose. It will only get worse, and it won't be much longer till the Volturi step in. Actually, I'm surprised they've let it go on so long.â
âWhat can we do?â Carlisle asked his son.
I sat forward and placed my face in my hands, resting my elbows on my knees. They continued to make plans. Jasper wanted us to find an advantage. I couldn't really hear past the blood rushing around in my head. I wanted to vomit. I was so sick of that feeling.
âMaybe we won't have to.â Edwardâs voice broke through my anguish, though I wished it hadn't. âDoes it occur to anyone else that the only possible threat in the area that would call for the creation of an army is⊠us?â
âOh for fucks sakeâŠâ I whimpered. Carlisle almost laughed at my outburst as his thumb traced comforting circles on my hand.Â
There was a silence in the room as everyone took in Edwards words. There were various states of confusion. Bella seemed the most lost. But Edward, Jasper, Alice, and Carlisle seemed to understand the gravity of it all. I just wanted them to say it and get it over with.
Alice spoke first, âThey're not coming after us,â she insisted, her eyes dancing wildly. âOr⊠they don't know that they are. Not yet.â
I couldn't hope that they weren't after us. âWhat can you see, Alice?â
âFlickers,â Alice answered. âI can't see a clear picture when I try to see what's going on, nothing concrete. But I've been getting these strange flashes. Not enough to make sense of.â
âLike they can't decide if we're worth it? Or they don't even know what they're doing?â
âI don't knowâŠâ
âWaitâŠâ We all faced Edward while he tried to make sense of what Alice couldn't. âNot indecision- Knowledge. Someone who knows you can't see anything until the decision is made. Someone who is hiding from us. Playing with the holes in your vision.â
I sigh, âSo it has to be the Volturi.â
âBut I would see if they decided to comeâŠâ
âUnless they aren't acting directly. It has to be them. You said Aro read your mind in Italy, right? And he's always wanted the two of you.â I gesture between her and Edward. âSo, he calls in a favor, someone who would do as he says without question.â
Rosalie agreed with me, âSomeone in the south⊠someone who already had trouble with the rules. Someone who should have been destroyed is offered a second chance- if they take care of this one small problem⊠That would explain the Volturi's sluggish response.âÂ
âOr their lack of response at all. The only question left is why?â
Despite his comforting, I think Carlisle was just as confused as we were. âThereâs no reason for the Volturi-â
âIt was there,â Edward interrupted. âI didnât expect it so quickly- his thoughts were all over the place and the others were⊠louder, I guess. But like Y/n said, he wants me and Alice by his side. Heâd have the present and the future right in the palm of his hands.â
âHe would kill the rest of us just to have you two?â Emmett asked. âThat doesnât make any sense.â
âBut it does, if he wants to weed out the competition. Carlisle has what he wants, a large coven of loyal and gifted followers. If he had someone take us down, sparing only Alice and myself, then we would join him and there wouldnât be another large powerful coven to oppose him.â Edward added.
It was Carlisle who interrupted this time. âTheyâre too committed to their mission. They would never break the rules themselves. It goes against everything theyâve worked for.â
âTheyâll clean it up afterward. A double betrayal,â Edwardâs voice was grim but not surprised. âNo harm done.â
âNo, Carlisle is right. The Volturi do not break rules. Not to mention the mess. Whoever this is has no clue what theyâre doing. This has to be their first time making an army- Iâd put money on it. Itâs too hard to believe the Volturi are involved. But they will be.â
The stress around the room is palpable- even as Jasper worked to calm the space around us.
Emmett clapped once, pulling focus. âThen let's go! What are we waiting for?â
Carlisle and Edward exchanged a long glance. Edward nodded once. My breath caught in my throat.Â
âWeâll need you to teach us, Jasper,â Carlisle finally said. âHow to destroy them.â As much as I hated the idea, I knew how heavily it would weigh on him. I couldnât muster up much strength, but I looked at his face, I watched his eyes, and I squeezed his hand- If only so he knew I was there with him.Â
Our eyes met for the briefest moment and he kissed my forehead before returning to the conversation.
Jasper added that they would need extra hands. âDo you think Tanyaâs family would be willing? Another five mature vampires would make a huge difference. And then Kate and Eleazar would be especially advantageous on our side. It would be almost easy, with their aid.â
âWeâll ask,â Carlisle answered as he took out his phone. He kissed my hand before pacing in front of the windows. Edward pulled Bella to sit between him and I on the couch. Across the room, Carlisle spoke quickly and quietly but everyone in the room remained tense.Â
My eyes never left his face.
Edward groaned from the other side of Bella. âDamn it. Damn Laurent to the deepest pit of hell where he belongs.â
âLaurent?â Bella whispered. I tore my eyes from Carlisle to her. She looked more scared by the name than she had been of Jasper's backstory.Â
While Edward read his fathers thoughts, I tried to get her attention. âWhich one was Laurent again?â
âJamesâ coven. Moved to Denali, found me in the meadow.â She shivered.
My mouth formed an âohâ but we focused on Carlisleâs phone call again. I had never seen him quite like this. He was almost begging whoever had answered, but his tone was firm and calm. Â
âThereâs no question of that,â he was suddenly angrier than before. âWe have a truce. They havenât broken it, and neither will we. Iâm sorry to hear that⊠Of course. Weâll just have to do our best alone.â He hung up the phone without another word. His eyes watched the fog out of the window.
I was on my feet before I even knew what I was doing. My hand found his, he pulled me into him. I buried my face in his chest and he rested his chin on my head.Â
âWhatâs the problem?â Emmett asked.
Carlisle answered, âIrina and Laurent were⊠romantically involved. More so than we knew. She is still angry with the wolves for their part in his death.â
Edward took over when Carlisle couldnât go on. âShe wants revenge. To take down the pack. They would trade their help for our permission.â
âNo!â Bella gasped.
âWe would never agree to those terms.â I said, to help calm Bellaâs nerves.
âNeither would I. Laurent had it coming,â Edward growled. âAnd I still owe the wolves for that.â
âSo it will be an even fightâŠâ I looked at Jasper and he nodded.
âWe may still win. We have the upperhand in skill, just not numbers.â His eyes left mine to only glance at Alice. When he found me again, there was a bit more panic on his face.
If they won this at all, not everyone would come home.Â
~~
Edward, Rosalie, and Carlisle went hunting a couple of days later. He expected to only be away a few hours- twelve at the most, since they werenât going far. The original plan was for Bella to hang out at our house so the three that were staying could keep her out of trouble. She opted out to go see Jacob- which I thought was a better plan anyway.
However, that did leave Emmett, Alice, Jasper, and myself to our own devices.
Normally I would have been very excited for Bella to get a chance to see Jacob, but right that very second, I really wished she was there to at least mediate.
Emmett was laying on the kitchen floor dramatically. âWe are in way over our heads.â I giggled as Alice stomped over to him. âHow are we going to make over a hundred cupcakes in just a few days?â He acted like we were forcing him.
âItâs only a hundred and forty! I want every guest to at least have two. Bellaâs graduation is important.â She sounded exhausted, not that that was possible- and not that I could blame her, Emmett was kind of acting like a baby.
She looked at me so she could beg with her eyes to get him to cooperate. Jasper just laughed and continued scooping batter into the trays.
Emmett just groaned and rolled over to his stomach. âGo on without me⊠I wonât make it.â
The glare on Aliceâs face was the only thing to hold back my giggles. I would never say it, but I almost agreed with him. Weâd been at this cupcake thing for more than an hour and we still didnât have any cupcakes in the oven. In Aliceâs defense, she bought eight cupcake trays and we had two ovens, so once we got this batch in weâd only have to do it one more time to be over her goal anyway.
I decided it would be best not to offer any input for either side. I liked my head exactly where it was. Instead I nudged Emmett with my foot. âAll you have to do is crack a few more eggs. Then she might let you off the hook.â
âI wonât even ask you to decorate!â Aliceâs tone was sweet- too sweet. I knew as soon as she said it she was up to something.Â
I might have been the only one to notice though. Jasper continued with his task and Emmett got to his feet. He grumbled a little more, but continued cracking eggs.Â
Iâd hoped the moment passed, but then Jasper said, âShe wouldnât want you to decorate anyway.â
I froze, Aliceâs eyes went wide.
âBoys-â I warned as Emmett picked up two eggs from the carton.
âJasper, please donât-â
âWanna elaborate, Cowboy?â Emmett pressed. Their matching smirks were the only thing reminding me that while they were only playing, things could easily get very messy.
âI mean⊠The cupcakes would look like shit if you decorated them.â Emmett threw one of the eggs as soon as the words left his lips. It hit the center of Jasperâs chest with an oddly satisfying splat. âHey now,â he laughed. âLetâs not start something Y/n will have to clean up.â
I definitely would have made them clean it up, but I kept my opinions to myself.
Emmett gave me an apologetic smile, but his focus didnât leave Jasper. âI bet I can make prettier cupcakes than you can.â
Jasperâs smirk grew. Alice almost danced with excitement. I caught on to the couples scheme. Poor, sweet Emmett had no idea.Â
âReally now?â Jasperâs southern drawl was dangerous. âYou wanna place bets?â
Just like that, Emmett took out his wallet and set a one hundred dollar bill on the counter. Jasper laid down two more.Â
âWinner takes all?â Now Emmett smirked and held out his hand.
I quickly added, âLoser cleans up!â just so Alice and I didnât have to piece the kitchen back together.Â
âSounds good to me.â Jasper shook his hand, then faced me and Alice. âLadies, Do you want to judge?â
âAbsolutely.â Alice said. Her smile matched Jaspers.
âAs long as Alice gets final say. Itâs her party.â And I did not want to be caught in the aftermath.
Alice and I proceeded to supervise the boys competition. I half listened as she talked through the rest of her party plans and half watched out the back window for Carlisle return.Â
It was so easy to be comfortable with them. They always made me feel like I belonged. I was constantly surrounded by this overwhelming sense of family and belonging. Somehow, despite everything, the Cullens felt like family. Like coming home after an extended trip to open arms. Like a part of me missed them before I even knew them.
And like a part of them missed me too.
âI think Bella invited some of the wolvesâŠâ The annoyance in Aliceâs voice pulled me out of my thoughts. Jasper's gaze was on me, a soft smile on his face. I blushed and pulled my focus to Alice. âI can barely see it anymore.â
âJacobâs coming here?â I asked.
âI guess⊠Or heâs trying to decide. It comes and goes in flashes. Itâs really hard to plan a party I canât see.â
 Everyone laughed but Alice.
âI think thatâs how most people feel, Sweetheart.â Jasper kissed her cheek.Â
âIâm serious! I havenât been able to see anything for hours. What if Iâm not making enough cupcakes?â
Emmett looked up. He had icing on his cheek. I hid my giggles with the back of my hand.
âI can make more. Iâm in the zone now.â he offered without any prompting.
âYouâre the best, Emmett!â Alice skipped over to him and threw her arms around him. Jasper and I made eye contact again and laughed to ourselves.
By the time he âran out of steamâ he had made two hundred and six cupcakes.
Jaspers were a bit prettier but we let Emmett have it for being such a good sport. (and for doing most of the work.) I was still anxiously watching the front door. They talked about something on the TV. I only pretended to be interested.
It wasnât long before Carlisle had his arms around me. Iâd barely turned around before I heard Edwards tires screeching out of the garage.Â
Still, I leaned up and kissed Carlisle.
Now that Carlisle was back, Emmett moved towards the garage to meet up with Rosalie. âWhatâs his deal?â He asked Carlisle over his shoulder.
âHe didnât go into much detail. Something happened with Bella at Jacob's. He said they'd be here shortly.â
My eyes darted to Alice who looked just as concerned as I felt. I wasn't sure if he knew more and just didn't tell me yet. I tried not to panic.Â
âI haven't seen anything⊠Jacob is still too involved. But I'll keep you updated.â She painted on a smile and turned back to the TV.Â
Carlisle ran a soothing hand over my arm. âI'm sure it will be alright. How was your day?â
I didn't let his efforts to calm my worry go wasted. I knew Edward would be normally a bit jumpy when they'd get back, especially when Jacob was involved. They were probably right. It was probably nothing. I took a deep breath and answered his question.Â
âAlice wanted to make cupcakes for the party. Emmett was kinda a baby about it at first, but the ones he made came out really nice.â
âWell, there aren't any scorch marks in the kitchen.â the corner of his mouth turned slightly upwards slightly. âThat is an impressive feat in and of itself.â
I laughed with him. âI supervised!â
âShe was great!â Alice added.Â
Carlisleâs smile was soft as his eyes met mine. âShe always is.â
I, of course, melted into him. I hid the color in my cheeks by burying my face in his chest. I felt his soft chuckle as he held me tighter. I continued with the shift in conversation. âWhat about you? How was your trip?â
I felt him sigh. âIt went smoothly, though it did end abruptly. I think we were finishing up anyway. The quick trip will definitely help in the long run.â I understood his meaning without him having to elaborate. I wanted them to be as prepared as possible, that was all I needed to know.
For just a moment we fell into comfortable small talk about the day's events. Alice complained some more about her lack of visions involving the party.Â
Until Alice froze and spoke quickly. âFinally! They're almost here. Bella thinks she's broken her hand.â She focused on Carlisle, âThey want you to look at it.â
âI'll go get my bag.â He kissed my forehead and disappeared up the stairs. I went out into the garage just as they were pulling in.
Bella and Edward were already getting out of the car. Emmett was holding up his jeep so Rose could work under it. Somehow, I was unphased. I noticed the way Bella was babying her hand and that took my focus.
I asked, âWhat happened? Are you okay?â At the same time Emmett asked, âFall down again, Bella?â
Her soft eyes shifted from me to glare at him. âNo, Emmett. I punched a werewolf in the face.â
Shocked, I stared at her. Emmett, of course, burst out laughing. I managed to push my panic aside. âWho? Why?âÂ
I wasn't sure I actually asked until she stopped glaring at Emmett to answer me. âJacob kissed me.â
My confusion faded to anger. I had to bite my cheek to contain it. âWhy?â
âBecause he's an entitled, selfish, piece of-â
From her spot under the Jeep, Rosalie laughed and announced, âJasper's going to win the bet.â
Edward winced and tried to pull Bella faster into the house but she froze in her spot.Â
âWhat damn bet?â My anger with Jacob shifted back to general confusion, with just a touch of anger. I was already tired of their bets after the cupcake debacle and while I had no idea what they'd bet on, I had a terrible feeling about it.
Bella looked between the boys and demanded, âWhat bet?â
âLet's get you to Carlisle. Y/n, is he in his office?â I knew he knew exactly where in the house he was and was just trying to use that to shift her focus. I didn't answer.Â
âWhat bet?â Bella insisted.
âThanks, Rosalie.â His arm tightened around her waist and he continued forward.
âEdwardâŠâ the concern was heavy in my voice but it also came off as a warning. I didn't want him to pick a fight with Rose. I also wanted to know about the bet.
âIt's infantile,â He shrugged. âEmmett and Jasper like to gamble.â
I rolled my eyes.Â
She didn't drop it there. She tried to turn back, but his arm was tight around her waist. âEmmett will tell me.â
He sighed, finally giving in. He probably knew that neither of us would drop it. Bella could get Emmett to tell her, I'd get Carlisle to tell me. âThey're betting on how many times you⊠slip up in the first year.â
The horror on Bella's face matched my own. I suddenly felt like throwing up and wished I had never asked.
Bella repeated his answer to elaborate. âThey have a bet on how many people Iâll kill?â
âYes.â Â He sounded annoyed, I couldn't help but agree. âRosalie thinks your temper will turn the odds in Jasperâs favor.â
Bella looked lost. I was grateful we were still walking towards Carlisle.
âJasper's betting high.â
âIt will make him feel better if you have a hard time adjusting. He's tired of being the weakest link.â
âSure. Of course it will. I guess I could throw in a few extra homicides, if it makes Jasper happy. Why not?â Her voice was flat and distant.
âI- That's so fucked up actuallyâŠâ I didn't want to think about what they thought Bella would be like as a newborn vampire. Or that that was right around the corner.
I definitely didn't want to know if they'd placed bets about me.
âThey didn't,â Edward answered anyway. âThey talked about it, but it's not certain when- or if you'll be like us. Also Jasper thinks you're too much like Carlisle. It wouldn't be wise to bet high.â
I cringed, wanting to throw up again.
He squeezed Bella a bit tighter. âBut neither of you need to worry about it now. In fact, you donât have to worry about it ever, if you don't want to.â
Bella groaned and Edward pulled her a bit faster to the dining room. I didn't think it was her hand that was bothering her, but I was grateful he wanted to get her to Carlisle faster. I was more than willing to be closer to him as well.
Carlisle looked at Bella's hand for all of two minutes before agreeing that it was broken. He wanted to take her to the clinic for a legitimate x-ray and proper cast, but they came to a compromise. She just had to wear a brace and let him check on her regularly. She promised to be good and follow the doctor's orders.
Bella was out of it. Edward fussed over her multiple times, but she wasn't in any pain. Carlisle gave her some pain meds just in case.Â
Even as she hugged me before they left, she seemed off. I wondered if she really was just tired or if, like me, the idea of their bet threw her off.
When they were gone, Carlisle walked with me to our room. I was ready to pass out. The weight of the day was finally catching up to me. I couldnât believe how tired Iâd gotten in just the last 30 minutes.
Carlisle laid in bed next to me; both of us on our sides, facing each other, our hands joined between us. We laid there for a moment, just existing together, but my curiosity did get the better of me.Â
âDid you know?â I asked, just barely above a whisper.
âAbout the boys bet?â I nodded and he sighed. âNot exactly. I knew of the debate that started the bet. I knew that Jasper had joked that once Bella was a newborn, he wouldnât be our biggest concern. However, they knew better than discussing it around me or Edward. I only heard in passing what Edward gathered from their thoughts.â His tone was apologetic, even though he hadnât done anything wrong.
âIâm not upset with them.â I specified. âTheyâre just being silly. Itâs just⊠Itâs weird to think about what weâll be like⊠after.â I felt like my voice sounded as distant as Bellaâs did earlier.
âYou donât have to-â
âI know. They didnât even bet on my⊠outcome.â I almost laughed. âThe idea of it though, somehow makes this all feel more real.â
He did laugh. âWhat do you mean?â
âI donât know.â I rolled over to my back and stared at the ceiling. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. âI guess I just couldnât imagine it before. Like a part of me held on to the fantasy of it.â
âBut since Jasper's story⊠and then today, after they mentioned the bet⊠Itâs like now I can see it. I can see Bella with red eyes and cold skin. I can picture myself like you. Itâs just so real.â
I turned back to him and his eyes were on me. I could tell he was analyzing my words, but his gaze wasnât harsh. He was calm and soft and collected just like he always was- all while trying to decide if I was panicking.
I caressed his face. âI still want this⊠eventually. Not now-â I smiled softly at him and he smiled back. âBut at some point, I still want to be like you. You just have to promise to love me if I accidentally kill people.â
He moved so he was positioned a bit over me, without putting any actual weight on me. âI will always love you, and I think I can manage keeping you in line.â
âThatâs goodâŠâ I leaned up to kiss his nose. âSomeone has to. It might take all of us to keep Bella in line.â
His lips lifted on one side in a half smile that made me melt. âAre you betting high?â
I playfully glared at him. âI am not betting⊠But if I had to guess, I think Bella is stubborn and she doesnât really take no for an answer. And if this spring was any indication she has a flair for the dramatics- justified or not.â
He thought over my points for a moment before nodding. âYou have excellent points. Itâs a good thing thereâs six of us.â
âAnd some overly attached wolves.â I giggled.
~~
âI have nothing to wear!â Bella said into her now empty closet. I sat on the floor leaning against her bed. I started in the bed but as she pulled out all of her clothes I was quickly booted to the floor. âAt this rate, Iâm graduating in this!â she gestured towards herself and her old sweats and baggy sweater.Â
âYou will not!â I insisted. âWeâll stop at a store on the way if we have to.â
âWe donât have time!â She glared at the pile of clothes. âStupid, thieving, annoying vampire!â
I nearly jumped out of my skin when Alice said âWhat did I do?â while leaning casually beside the open window.
âHoly shit- Alice!â
She just laughed and added âKnock, knock.â with a grin.
âIs it really so hard to wait for me to get the door?â
âOr at least shoot either of us a text first so you donât give us a heart attack?â
âItâs more fun this way.â Her grin got a touch wider âAnyway! I was passing through and I thought you might need something to wear.â
I giggled as Alice tossed a white box on the bed. Bella looked like she was relieved and also like she might throw up.Â
âAdmit it,â Alice said. âIâm a lifesaver.â
âYouâre a lifesaver,â Bella muttered. âThanks.â
âWell, itâs nice to get something right for a chance. You donât know how irritating it is- missing things the way I have been. I feel so useless. So⊠normal.â She cringed. I had to laugh.Â
âHow could you?â I joked at the same time Bell said âEww, normal?â
Alice laughed. âWell this makes up for missing your annoying thief- now I just have to figure out what Iâm not seeing in Seattle.â
Maybe it was the look on Bellaâs face or the way Alice said our two problems so closely together, but it clicked. All of it lined up perfectly. I quickly scanned Bellaâs face as she put it together. Her eyes darted between me and Alice as she tried to judge if weâd caught on. I nodded but Alice remained unmoved.
âArenât you going to open it?â Her question barely had time to settle before she moved to open it for her. âPretty, donât you think? I picked blue because I know itâs Edwardâs favorite on you.â Bella wasnât listening. She looked completely dazed.
I stood up and grabbed Aliceâs hand. âAlice.â
At the same time Bella whispered âItâs the same.â
Alice didnât get it. âWhat is?â she demanded. âYou donât have anything like this. For crying out loud you only own one skirt!â
âNo-â Bella cut me off.
â-Alice! Forget the clothes, listen!â
She still hadnât caught on, her face softened with disappointment âYou donât like it?â
âListen, Alice, donât you see? Itâs the same!â
âThe uninvited visitor, our missing things, the newborns-â
âYeah! Thank you, Y/n!â She seemed a little less frantic knowing I understood. âTheyâre together.â
Alice froze, the dress fell from her hands delicately back into the box. âWhy do you think that?â
âRemember what Edward said? About someone using the holes in your vision to keep you from seeing the newborns-â
âRight! And I brought up that I thought that maybe they were just curious as they passed through-â
âThen what you said before, Alice. The timing was too perfect.â
âSomeone âJust curiousâ wouldnât have taken our things.â I added air quotes around my own words knowing now just how wrong I was. âAnd they were way too careful not to make any contact.â
âBecause he knew you would see that.â
âYou were right, Alice. He has to know. Thereâs no chance itâs multiple people who not only know, but are also using the holes in your vision at the same time.â Bella looked at me. Alice was still frozen.Â
Bella continued. âThe one making the army is the one who stole our things.â
Alice stayed completely unmoving for quite some time. Around a minute in, I sat on the bed, trying my best to mind the pile of clothes. More time passed in silence. I was afraid she'd gone into shock.
Then she whispered, âYou're right.â Her voice was hollow and completely detached. I wasn't convinced she was okay. I worried she was panicking. âOf course you're both right. And when you put it that wayâŠâ
âEdward had it wrong.â Bella whispered. From where I sat, it was hard to make out what she said. âIt was a test⊠to see if it would work.â
âTo see if he could get in, get our scent, and get back out unharmed.â I added.
âAs long as he didn't do anything you would be watching out for.â Bella continued.
âLike speak to either of us⊠or eat our father.â I shivered.
âAnd he didn't take our things to prove he found us. He stole our scent⊠so that the others could find us.â
Another moment passed without a sound. None of us breathed. We were right. We had to be right. It was clear Alice knew it too.
âOh, no,â she mouthed. Alice's stillness quickly became a panic that rivaled my own. Bella somehow looked relieved.
âWell,â she whispered. âEveryone can relax. Nobody's trying to exterminate the Cullens after all.â
Her words confused me. I just stared at her for a beat. âRelax? That's what you got from this?â
âIf you think that one thing has changed, you're absolutely wrong.â
I teetered this line of understanding where Bella was coming from and outright disagreeing. This wasn't about the Cullens, which was good, but there was a ravenous army of newborn vampires after the two of us. If we could just turn ourselves over to them, maybe they'd leave our family alone. âBut the Cullens would never let them get to us. No one will back down without a fight.â
âYou're probably right- But at least we know what they're after. That has to help.â
âMaybe,â Alice muttered before she started pacing Bella's room.
When Dad knocked on the door both Bella and I nearly jumped out of our skin. Alice kept pacing, unbothered.
âAren't you girls ready yet? We're going to be late!â I was sure he was more bothered that he had to wear a tie than he was about being late.
âAlmost. Give us a minute.â Bella said hoarselyÂ
His tone changed from frustration to concern immediately âAre you crying?â
âNo. I'm nervous. Go away.â
Once he had grumbled his way back down the stairs, Alice whispered again, âI have to go.â
âWhy?â Bella and I asked at the same time.
âEdward is coming. If he hears thisâŠâ
âGo, go.â Again, Bella and I spoke in unison. I knew that Edward wouldn't have the best reaction, which was easily an understatement.Â
âY/n, can you keep him out of your thoughts?â Alice asked. My eyes went wide, not having considered the issue, but I nodded.
âI can try. I've never done it on purpose, but Iâll really really try.âÂ
She did not look convinced. âIf you can't keep him out, just keep your thoughts busy with literally anything else.â I nodded again trying to plan what to think about for the entirety of the graduation.
âPut that on,â Alice commanded before going back out the window. Bella looked at me and I just walked out of the room without another word- unsure of what to say anyway.
Dad was in the kitchen, looking at the paper, grumbling something along the lines of â-that girl is going to be late to her own damn graduationâŠâ but I couldn't really hear him over the roaring in my head.
Could I just choose to keep Edward out of my thoughts? And, if I couldn't, could I really keep my head busy enough for him not to catch on.Â
And, possibly the hardest part, could I sit next to Carlisle for the entire graduation ceremony like nothing was wrong. He would be able to tell the second he saw me that something was off and I would have to be able to still not think about it and not tell him when he asked.Â
I poured what was left of the coffee into my travel mug, knowing very well it would not help the pit in my stomach but I hoped it would at least give my brain a bit of a caffeine buzz. As I finished making my coffee, Bella rushed downstairs. Dad complimented her and asked about her dress. She thanked him. She mentioned Alice.Â
I wasn't paying attention.Â
Once Edward arrived I thought about all of the shoes that I owned. I tried to just think âno Edwardâ but didn't want to trust in that alone. They just as quickly drifted out to the cruiser. Dad kissed my check on his way out.
âI'll be right behind you guys. I'm almost ready.â I mumbled and Dad nodded but I didn't hear if he said anything. I shut the door behind them and for a second leaned my head against it.Â
I whispered to myself as I heard the car pull away. âIt's no big deal. It's just an hour- maybe two. I can do this. I can do this.â I breathed a heavy sigh and straightened my dress. âI really hope I can do this.
I turned my back to the door to put on shoes. I looked one last time in the mirror by the door. I opened the door but immediately shut it back.Â
Quickly, I ran through the house and made sure every window was shut tight and locked. I made sure the back door was locked and double checked the front door was locked before heading to the school.
I got to my seat mere seconds before the ceremony started. Carlisle had chosen a seat that was next to isle and left the seat next to him for me. My Dad was just behind him with Billy and Jacob. I tried my best to smile politely at Billy. I didn't even look at Jacob.
Carlisle stood and placed his hand on the small of my back as I passed. He kissed my cheek and whispered âYou look stunning, as always.â
I mumbled my thanks and it took a single second after I sat down for him to ask, âWhat's happened? Are you alright?â
I almost let my guard down. My mantra of âNo Edward. No Edward. No Edward.â almost paused, but I managed to get a grip. âNothingâs happened. Everythings fine. Iâm okay?â
His eyes squinted slightly, like he was analyzing every syllable in my words.
âI promise I will tell you about it later.â I smiled as best as I could at him. I poked the middle of my own forehead twice before repeating the motion on his.
âOh,â He mouthed. âI understand.â He didnât press though his grip did tighten ever so slightly around my hand. I kissed him quickly and Dad cleared his throat behind us. I let myself giggle.
When Principal Greene started the ceremony I repeated every word he said in my mind.
I clapped and cheered when Alice was called. She appeared, accepted the diploma, and disappeared just as quickly; I pretended not to notice. Edward followed after and his general confusion was clear. I continued to clap but my cheering was cut off when his sharp gaze met mine.
His expression didnât change beyond confusion. I breathed a sigh of relief but sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star in my head anyway. Even Jasper walked across the stage just as tense as Alice had been. Carlisle continued to cheer for his family as they graduated again.
As the next names were called he said under his breath, âHeâs not sure what, but he can tell all of you are hiding something.â
I said nothing and continued the lullabies in my head.
When Bellaâs name was called, Dad stood and cheered. Jacobs cheering was the loudest and though I rolled my eyes, it did make Bella crack a small smile- even if it was a little forced.
I stood and clapped with everyone else at the graduates moved their tassels and threw their caps. The kids started meeting up with their families and friends. I planned my escape route just to get stopped by Dad and Billy.Â
Dad asked if I wanted to go out to eat with them, which I could politely decline since Alice had made the party such a big deal. He bought it easily, said goodbye to me and Carlisle, before leaving with Billy and Jacob. Thankfully Jacob said nothing to me the whole time.
As soon as they were gone, Carlisle put an arm around my waist and started to walk with me to my car. He turned his head to face me as we walked, one eyebrow raised. âY/n?â
âCarlisle?â Iâd switched from lullabies to 80s love songs. If he was still in my head, I Wanna Dance With Somebody would have to work as a distraction.Â
âWill you please tell me what is going on?â
I shushed him. I doubted anyone could even hear our conversation over the crowd of families but I wasnât going to risk it now. âAs soon as no one can hear us.â I assured him.
The plan was that I would drive separately to the graduation and Carlisle would follow me back to our house after. That way I could help Bella get ready in the morning and then I could help Alice set up after the ceremony. I didnât think the plan had changed and he walked me to my car like everything was normal. His arm stayed around my waist our entire walk. I figured weâd made it out of the woods without Edward finding out and freaking out.
But as we walked up to my car, Carlisle said, âI understand why you didnât want to tell anyone in there.â
My eyes shot open and I turned to face him. âShe told him? Is he alright? Is he freaking out?â
âHeâs⊠not calm. But he will be alright, Mon Coeur.â He opened my door. âI do hope you have a bit more understanding than your sister, who seems to think that this connection solves everything.â
I didnât move to get in the car. âI know it doesnât. I think itâs probably worseâŠâ
âItâs definitely worse.â He drew his lips into a line. âIâll see you at the house. I will be right behind you the entire time.â
I nodded and kissed him. His car was behind mine before I even left the parking lot.
Alice gave everyone tasks. As soon as we walked in the door we were assigned balloon duty. I could hardly focus on the balloons. I popped three and let go of more than I could count. I giggled everytime they shot across the room. Alice sighed and took the remaining stack from me.
âI think thatâs enough balloons⊠Iâm going to get the music started. Y/n, why donât you change into your party clothes?â
I looked down at my clothes then at Carlisle and mumbled, âWhatâs wrong with what Iâm wearing?â
âNothing!â She said quickly. âItâs just that this is a party, and you look like youâre going to a graduation- Oh! I have the perfect dress!â and then she vanished up the stairs.
Carlisle only chuckled once heâd heard me laugh. Edward and Bella came in before Alice came back down. Edward was normally hard to read but his face really gave nothing away as to what he was feeling.
âEdward!â Alice had emerged from upstairs, seemingly unaware how much sheâd startled me. Carlisle chuckled and rubbed my arm. âI need your advice. Should we give them familiar and comforting or educate their taste in music?â
âKeep it comforting,â Edward recommended. âYou can only lead the horse to water.â
Alice nodded and started the music, placing whatever she decided was too âEducationalâ in a separate box.Â
Bella looked down at her blue dress and mumbled. âI think Iâm underdressed.â
âYouâre perfect,â Edward disagreed.
âAlice is just over dressed,â I added.
She ignored me and said to Bella, âYouâll do.â
I laughed. Bella thanked her but her voice still had hope when she asked âDo you really think people will come?â Alice made a face at her.
âEveryone will come.â Edward confirmed. I watched Bella deflate. I wasn't too excited about the party, but I was excited to watch Bella try to navigate the house full of people.
Then Alice continued barking orders. I followed along, completing small tasks for her. Bella held on to Edward while we floated around. I doubted he would have let her go, but I also never saw her try. The guys moved as Alice commanded, all while discussing battle strategies for their attack on the newborns in Seattle.
I wanted to throw up.
They still had no backup. Tanyaâs family refused to send any aid, and of course there was still no chance theyâd change Bella early. Yet they still had every intention to charge in before the army got too close.
Jasper looked about as nervous as I felt. Trying every angle he could think of just to swing the odds in our favor. I hated that it wasnât looking like a bright outcome. Not to mention they had no idea what they were going to do with me and Bella during the fight.
I didnât like the idea of staying in forks and waiting it out. I wouldnât let them divide their numbers by making anyone stay behind. Bella looked like the thought alone would drive her mad.
But then the doorbell rang.
Everything shifted immediately, going from betting odds and battle strategies to teenage house party. The stress melted out of the room, while still clinging to me. Carlisle smiled, Jasper moved to Aliceâs side. Alice turned up the music, pointed at me, and mouthed the word âchangeâ, before dancing to get the door.
I let out a harsh laugh and kissed Carlisleâs cheek and drifted upstairs to put on whatever it was that Alice deemed party worthy.
I was a bit thankful, actually. Not only to get out of my dress and- with any luck- into something a bit more comfortable. But I was thankful that even for just a moment, I could take a breath and try to push some of the panic aside.
I shut the door behind me and took the biggest breath I could muster; granted, it was shaky and broken. I tried again. And somehow that one was worse. I hoped that with the music and the chatter even the Cullens couldnât hear my gasps. I moved from the door as fast as I could and sat on the edge of the bed. My hand went to my chest.
I knew that at least tonight we were fine. They werenât coming to get us tonight and now that we had a more clear picture, Alice could probably see them coming. I didnât have to panic.
And yet⊠There I sat. Panicking.
I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
I was shaking and crying before I even realized. Iâd been in there for a while when there was a soft knock at the door followed by another that was a bit more demanding. I had just enough time to wipe my tears and sit up straighter before the door cracked open. I saw Jasper's soft blonde curls before it registered that it was him.
âY/n?â His accent was thick with concern, even as he just said my name.Â
âJasper⊠I-Iâ I tried to breathe again. âI figured you were Carlisle.â
âAlice had him step out to get ice. He figured heâd be back before you noticed he was gone. But I heard you crying⊠thought I could lend a hand.â
I smiled softly at him and he took a small step into the room. He left the door cracked just slightly so the noise filtered in. I took another deep, settling breath.
âAlice might come lookin for ya if you donât come down soon, but I might be able to stall her a bit longer.â
I almost giggled but it got caught in my throat. He handed me a tissue. âThank you, Jasper. I really should get down there.â
âNo problem. Though, I wish I could do more to ease your panic.â
I sighed, âThanks for always tryingâŠâ I took his outreached hand and he helped me to my feet. I held on to him a bit longer just to make sure I was stable on my feet. I thanked him again.
He chuckled and grinned softly. âHappy to help.â
I turned to let him go but stopped before he could. âUhm⊠one last thing?â He nodded. I sighed and my lip trembled. I pushed past it and said, âAre our numbers⊠completely hopeless?â I had to look out the window and blink back my reamerging tears.
âI wouldnât say hopeless⊠Iâm just not quite used to playing with the disadvantage. But, Iâve never lost a fight. I donât plan on startinâ now⊠Especially not now when my family is involved.â
I pulled my eyes back to his and saw the sincerity there.
He nodded and I nodded and he continued. âEveryone will be alright. We have to be confident.â
I nodded again and mumbled my thanks.
This time when he went to leave I didnât stop him. I quickly changed into what Alice had laid out, though I did forgo the heels.
I made my way down the stairs. Alice was pointing Carlisle to where she wanted him to take the ice but Jasper took it from him and nodded towards me. I mouthed one last thank you in his direction before meeting Carlisleâs warm gaze. His soft smile and bright gold eyes almost washed my panic away completely.
He saw it anyway and when his arm wrapped around my waist he pulled me close to him. His free hand went to my chin, lifting it so he could see my face better. I felt my cheeks heat.
âYouâve been crying. Has something happened?â His tone was hushed even as he scanned me for obvious injury.
I giggled and shook my head. âIâm fine. I just got overwhelmed.â When he just looked at me with one eyebrow raised, I lifted a pinky. âPromise! Itâs no big deal. We can talk about it later.â
He didnât look happy about it, but he interlocked his pinky with mine before fully taking my hand. We walked into the main room where the bulk of the guests had started hanging out.
He pointed out to me that the largest tower of cupcakes was nearly empty. I was glad they were doing well with the crowd after all the work Emmett and Alice put into them. A few girls walked up and gave compliments to Carlisle about our home. Some were obviously flirting with him. It made me giggle every time. His hand never left the small of my back.Â
Everything was going smoothly, until it wasnât.
Bella was talking with Jessica and Edward, then Edward walked off, just fast enough to still seem natural. Bella looked around for a second and then something caught her eye behind us. I turned and saw Alice frozen in the doorway. She looked like she could hardly stand on her own.
Carlisle froze too. I sharply turned to face him again and whispered, âWhatâs wrong?â The quiver in my voice was only loud enough for him to hear.
âIâm⊠not sure. Stay here, Iâll find Edward.â
Two seconds after he walked off and I walked over to where Bella had met Alice, the doorbell rang.
I only caught the end of what they were saying. âI have to talk to Carlisle,â Â Alice had said. Then she was gone and Bella said to the space where sheâd been, âNo, Alice, wait!â before swearing under her breath.
I touched her arm and she still jumped. âWhere did they go? What is going on?â
âI have no idea⊠Where is Carlisle?â I could tell she was just as lost as I was.
âLooking for Edward.â The doorbell rang again. âShould I get that?â
âNo.â She started heading for the stairs. I continued to stand there, confused.
âHey, Bella!â I didnât expect to see Jacob. As a matter of fact, Iâd never expected to see Jacob in my house at all. Definitely after the shit he pulled the last time she hung out with him. But there he was, in my living room with two of his friends. Though it was clear, at least to me, that his friends very much did not want to be there.
Bella also did not want them to be there. She waved back at him when he waved, but still turned and disappeared into the crowd. Jacob disappeared too and I just stood there with my hands in the air.
âI⊠donât worry guys. Iâll handle the party hosting. Itâs fineâŠâ I said sarcastically and just loud enough that they probably heard. Something was going on, and instead of telling me- or Bella from the looks of it, they ran off to have a secret little meeting.
I scanned the crowd looking for a single vampire or at least Bella, but all I found was the back of Jacobs head. I guessed he was talking with Bella but I did not want to get involved. I had nothing nice to say to him, So I walked away. I moved into the room picking up and throwing away abandoned plates and empty cups. I was in the middle of wiping icing off the table cloth when Aliceâs cool hand wrapped around my arm.
âShit! My god- Alice⊠you nearly scared me to death!â I put a hand on my chest to try to slow my heart beat. Her face didnât change.
She looked panicked.
âAlice, whatâs wrong?â
âI need you to come with me. Whereâs Bella?â
I looked at the crowd again. âSheâs over there with-â before I could finish she disappeared, âwith JacobâŠâ I pulled my lips into a tight line, but headed towards where Iâd last seen Bella.
Alice was already there, whispering to Bella. They started to walk off with me trailing behind when Jacob blocked their path. âHey, not so fast.â
Alice and I demanded in sync, âExcuse me?â I glared at him but her eyes stayed wide.
âTell us what's going on.â
âHow about you-â I took a step forward, but Bella held her hand to stop me.Â
Jasper appeared next to Alice and I'd never been so excited to see him. Jacob, on the other hand, took a step back. I could barely hold back my laughter.
âWe have a right to know.â Jacob muttered, still glaring at me.
I had to bite my tongue. Jasper stepped in between us. Jacob and his friends tensed.
This time Bella stepped in, laughing just slightly to play it cool. âHey, hey⊠This is a party, remember?â
No one moved. I glared at Jacob and Jasper as they had a seemingly never ending staring contest. Alice was the first one to soften.
âIt's okay, Jasper. He actually has a point.â Jasper did not relax.
âWhat did you see, Alice?â Bella asked, like she could not handle the anticipation a second longer.
Alice took a moment before her eyes left Jacob and met Bella's anxious gaze.
She answered loud enough for everyone to hear. âThe decision has been made.â
âYou're going to Seattle?â
âNo,â
âNo? What do you mean, ânoâ?â I asked even though I had a sinking feeling I did not want to know.Â
Bella looked like I felt; Her face paled as she figured out what she meant. âThey're coming here?â She choked out.Â
âHere?â I couldn't comprehend what they were saying. How could the army come here? The boys in front of me looked equally as confused. Nothing felt real.
âYes.â
âTo forks.â
âYes.â
âFor?â
Alice nodded, in understanding. âOne carried your things. Your red shirt and your pillow case.â
âBut⊠they canât come here. Itâs too close. Dad is here- Bella-â My voice didnât sound like my own.Â
âI know,â Alice agreed with more sadness in her eyes than I had the capacity to understand. âBut it doesnât matter where we stop them. There still wonât be enough of us, and some of them will come here to search.â
âNo!â Bella whispered.
My eyes locked on Jaspers. Just an hour before, heâd said our numbers werenât hopeless. I wanted to beg him to have that confidence now. I needed them to find a way to stop whatever end we were coming to. He only watched Alice.Â
Bella grabbed my arm and pulled my focus. I felt the world spin. âThen we have to go meet them!â Her voice was shrill.
âBella!â Alice scolded.
âHold it,â Jacob spoke for the first time in a long time. He looked caught between anger and confusion. âWhat is coming?â
Since they decided to talk about it so openly, I figured it wouldnât hurt to explain but I still whispered. âNewborn vampires. Like a whole bunch of them.â I hated how small my voice was.
âWhy?â He pressed.
Alice took over for me. âFor Y/n and Bella. Thatâs all we know.â
âThere are too many for you?â he asked.
Jasper was deeply annoyed with the question. âWe have a few advantages. It will be an even fight.â
A terrible thought passed through my head. I tried to push it away but Jacob grinned in a way that could only mean he was thinking the same thing. âJake- noâŠâ
No one acknowledged me.
âNo,â Jacob said. âIt wonât be even.â
âExcellent!â Alice hissed. I was frozen. Bella was frozen. Alice and Jacob just grinned at each other. âEverything just disappeared, of course. Thatâs inconvenient, but, all things considered, Iâll take it.â
âWeâll have to coordinate,â Jacob started but all of the noise was overwhelming. Their words sounded like mush. The music was too loud. I squeezed my eyes close and took a few deep breaths while Alice, Jasper, and Jacob casually discussed fighting an army.Â
I felt a cool hand brush against my arm though I couldnât tell whose. I locked our fingers together and opened my eyes to find Rosalie. I didn't know when sheâd gotten there but I was grateful she had.Bella was too distracted to notice weâd left.
 Wordlessly she led us out of the crowd and safely into the garage. It was considerably quieter in there. She took me straight to Carlisle's side then she moved to stand next to Emmett. I mumbled my thanks to her as I wrapped my arms around him. While normally, his presence alone was enough to calm my heart rate, at that moment I still felt like I was drowning in panic.
Carlisle said something to the others in a tone too low for me to understand as he pulled me close to him. He kissed my hair. Only when I was completely surrounded by him did I feel like I could even breathe. His hold on me didnât loosen.
âFind Bella and Alice. End this party on a positive note. We can reconvene later.â He sounded calm. Everyone followed his instructions without another word to either of us. Iâd only just heard the door to the garage shut behind them before Carlisle shifted me back and lifted my chin so he could see my face better. âEverything will be okay.â
I wasnât crying. I could have, at any second, but I was afraid that if I started I wouldnât be able to stop. He ran a thumb over my cheek anyway. I held it together better than I thought I would, but maybe I was out of energy to fight and panic. I let his confidence soothe me and nodded softly.
I didn't believe him- but I wanted to. I wanted to believe that with aid from the wolves we'd make it out of this unscathed. No one would be hurt. We'd be safe again. But the worry I felt was bigger than me.Â
So I just let him hold me. He dulled the ache with soft kisses to my face. He kissed me and held me right where they'd left us in the garage until there was only silence around us. As much as I needed this- as much as I needed him, I could tell by the way he held me that he needed me too. The kisses to my head and face and neck reassured him as much as they did me. When we finally drifted inside everyone was gone. We went upstairs to our room so I could try to get some rest.
It's Finally Here!!!! I can not apologize enough for how long this took to get out. But here it is! I hope you love it.
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 11,920
Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
There is no imprinting and there never will be <3
Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
As always, I DO NOT own The Twilight Saga. All rights go directly to S. Meyer.
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Masterlist <3 (Ch 2, Ch 3)
I love you <3 Thank you for still being here <3
While I tried very hard to sleep, I really just laid in our bed curled up next to Carlisle with my eyes closed. Like Bella, I refused to not be in the clearing with them while they met with the wolves to train. I knew sleep was important and yet I couldnât calm my mind.
He chuckled as I started again âY/n?â
âI canât turn my brain offâŠâ
He lifted my chin so he could see my face better, âI can tell. Is it something I can help ease?â
âMaybeâŠâ My eyes met his and I found just enough courage in them to ask my question. âBefore us⊠Was this common?â
âIâm not sure what you mean-â
âLike, before you met me, and Edward met Bella, how often did you guys have to prepare for war?â
âI see. Well, I canât say that weâve ever had much of a reason⊠before now.â He ran his hand through my hair. His confusion still lingered on his face, âWhy do you ask, Dove?â
I didnât want to scare him. I didnât want to make him worry that I was scared of him or of this life weâd made, but the panic attack earlier wasnât the first and wouldnât be the last. My heart beat just a bit faster, he held me tighter.
âIâm worried- only a little- that this will never end. I feel like around every corner there's just more danger. I just keep waiting for the dust to settle and for things to calm down⊠but what if it never does?â
He listened to my every word and when Iâd gotten it all out he moved to his side. I shifted so our faces could be even with each other. He held my face again.
âI have faith that this will pass.â He brushed back the hair that had fallen onto my face. âIn just a few days, weâll have taken care of the newborns and hopefully their source-â
âBut we donât know their source,â
âYet. But we will. Then soon we will catch Victoria. The Volturi will be quiet for a while, even more so once Bella is a vampire. Weâre caught in some turbulence right now, but it will pass.â
âExcept once we are vampires, then weâve broken the treaty and the wolves will be after us. And we canât seek solace with the Denaliâs because theyâre mad at us. And the Volturi might give up once weâre vampires or they could just pick another reason to chase after us to get at Edward and Alice.â I took a deep breath
âIs this what you were crying about earlier?â When I nodded he sighed, not out of anger or frustration, but there was something like sadness in it. Like he was only upset that I had carried this with me all day or that he wasnât sure how to ease some of my worry.
He started again âI know itâs hard to see right now, but things will calm down. At the very least, youâll be much less fragile than you are now.â
I almost smiled, âI guess Iâll feel a little better when Iâm nearly indestructible. I could fight alongside you. It would be easier to breathe through.â
He winced slightly, âWeâll⊠cross that bridge when we come to it. Hopefully we never have to.â he kissed my forehead and pulled me into his chest, before resting his chin on my head. âWeâll take it day by day and figure it out together. You should try to rest, Cara. Itâs going to be a long night.â
With his arms around me and his comforting words replaying in my head, I was finally able to fall asleep. It felt like Iâd just barely closed my eyes, but when he woke me again it had been over two hours.
It was still hard to keep my eyes open as we walked into the clearing. Almost everyone had gotten there before us, save for Bella and Edward, who were only a minute behind us. Jasper looked much more relaxed, Alice looked like she already couldnât wait for this to be over. Rosalie also didnât seem terribly excited but Emmett ran over to hug me.
âHey guys!â He greeted the four of us. âBella, Y/n, are yâall practicing too?â he said with a smirk.
âDefinitely not. Iâm more of a âcheer from the sidelinesâ kind of girl, but you guys have fun.â I laughed.
âThanks, Y/n.â Edward grimaced. âAnd, Emmett, letâs try to not give them any ideas.â He said them, but I knew he meant Bella. I smiled at him anyway.
Calisle took my hand again and I pushed in closer to his side. âWhen will our guest arrive?â He asked Edward.
âA minute and a half-â He continued, but I missed the rest of what he was saying while I wondered how he knew. I wondered if people's thoughts sounded different from further away, or if he could see their surroundings through their thoughts.
I consciously reentered the conversation when Bella asked âTheyâre coming as wolves?â Â and sharply turned my head towards Edward.
He nodded, cautious of our reaction. I winced and looked up at Carlisle. Iâd never seen them as wolves before, and I wasnât sure that I was all that excited to see them now. I didnât think Iâd be able to tell them apart enough to keep up.
I heard Edwards sharp intake of breath, saw the slight hint of a smile grace his lips. âPrepare yourselves- Theyâve been holding out on us.â Which was one of the most confusing things heâd said.
Clearly, I wasnât the only one who was confused. âWhat do you mean?â Alice demanded.â
He just shushed her, which was⊠unhelpful to say the least.
Carlisle gave my hand a quick squeeze before dropping it and they all moved to their positions. This part was easy to grasp, though I was given the rundown before meeting the others here. Rosalie would almost be at the start of the line, but she would also be a few steps behind Emmett. Jasper knew the most but Emmett was the muscle, so they would be the closest to the wolves. Carlisle fell in line next to them, because he was our diplomat and held most of the pack's respect.
Edward, of course, would have been up front as well, but we knew Bella would be glued to his side, so he stayed back. Alice stood to the left of me with Bella on my right and Edward to hers.
âDamn,â Emmett whistled âDid you ever see anything like it?â
I couldnât see what they were talking about, so I studied their shock. Carlisle and Edward looked the least shocked, but the others looked like they couldnât believe their eyes. Bella, thankfully, looked as confused as I felt.Â
âWhat is it? I canât seeâ she whispered.
âThe pack has grown.â Edward murmured into Bellaâs ear, Â though I was sure it was only loud enough for our family to hear.
The clearing was still and silent and despite how hard I tried, I could not see what they were still taken aback by. I watched the shadowy forest until I caught just a glimmer of something beyond the trees. Bella gasped as she counted in twos. I wished I could tell what she was counting.
Edward muttered something else, but I missed because Carlisle took a casual step towards them. I knew the plan. Edward would translate, Carlisle and Jasper would lead. Every one of their breaths was planned out yet my heart stuttered as he stepped away.
âWelcome,â he greeted, what looked like nothing except flickers of sparkling⊠eyes? Were those eyes? They were so high up, I would have guessed they were in the trees.
âThank you,â Edward responded, Â his voice flat and unlike his normal tone. I guessed in an instant that he was matching Samâs tone. I had to choke back a laugh as he continued. âWe will watch and listen, but no more. That is the most we can ask of our self control.â
I rolled my eyes.
Carlisle nodded once and answered, âThat is more than enough. My son Jasper-â Â he motioned towards him, but Jasper didnât move or even breathe â-has experience in this area. He will teach us how they fight, how they are to be defeated. Iâm sure you can apply this to your own hunting style.â
âThey are different from you?â Edward asked for Sam.
âThey are all very new- only months old to this lifeâŠâÂ
Carlisle explained newborns in a cautious and practiced way though the rumble from the treeline seemed more excited than cautious. Even as they settled lower to the ground their excitement was palpable.
When Jasper walked further into the clearing my eyes focused on him. He didnât seem to acknowledge the group behind him at all, but still spoke loud enough for them to hear. He continued Carlisleâs description of the newborns and I think my blood froze over. I had heard most of this before, but it all seemed more daunting in the clearing.Â
In front of me stood everyone I could lose in the next four days. I couldnât bear the thought of it. As Emmett stepped up next to Jasper, I looked at my feet. Alice wrapped an arm around my shoulders. I was beginning to wonder if I should have stayed home when I heard the boys start practicing.
Around them, everyone froze. It was over quickly, but I couldnât take my eyes off of them until it was. Emmett and Jasper moved too quickly around each other for me to fully understand each movement. Jasper was always just a step ahead of Emmett. Emmett was always just a touch too slow to get his hands on Jasper. And then Jasper was behind Emmett, his teeth hovering just above his neck.Â
Emmett swore.
It sounded like everyone let go of the breath they were holding at the same time. There was even a rumble from the trees.Â
âAgain,â Emmett insisted.
âItâs my turn,â Edward protested from Bellaâs side. Bella tensed, but said nothing. Iâd guessed that she probably couldnât get any words out now if she tried.Â
But it was actually Jasper who spoke up next. âIn a minute. I want to show Y/n and Bella something first.â
I froze as my name was spoken, not terribly excited to be acknowledged. Alice gave my shoulder a light squeeze before skipping over to him.Â
He continued, âI know you worry about her, I want to show you why thatâs not necessary.â
I very much did not want to watch this fight, but I never took my eyes away. She seemed so small in the clearing. Jasper floated quickly around her, never really touching her, even though it looked as though Alice never moved. She stood there, smiling, with her eyes closed.
I was completely in awe of her.Â
I blinked a few times trying to focus only on Alice. I watched as Jasper reached out, but his hands continued to find nothing but air. She was like a fairy, disappearing and reappearing just out of his reach. Their every move matched the others. It was mesmerizing. But as quickly as it had started, Alice was on his back and playfully biting his neck.
âGotcha,â she said and she kissed his throat.
âYou truly are one frightening little monster.â Jasper chuckled.Â
There was more rumbling from the treeline, but it was impossible to make out what was going on. I glanced quickly at Edward.
âItâs good for them to learn some respect,â He murmured, amused. Then he spoke louder. âMy turn.â
Alice traded places with him instead of returning to my side. I was fine with it, knowing Bella needed the support this time. âCool, huh?â she asked us.
I only nodded, but Bella managed the word âVery,â as Edward met his brother in the middle of the clearing.Â
Alice pulled closer to Bella and for a second it looked like she was whispering to her, though I couldnât hear a thing. Not wanting to intrude I shifted my gaze to find Carlisle. He, of course, was intently watching the boys in the field, but I guess he felt my eyes on him and he turned to me.Â
When his eyes met mine, we were the only ones in the clearing. His eyes were clear, his smile was confident. It was steadying. I took a deep breath and smiled back at him. He looked back at Edward and Jasper first, but I did have the confidence to watch them as well.
They were evenly matched. Where Jasper relied on his instincts, Edward read his moves in his head. Where Edward had speed, Jasper had experience. It went on for longer than the rest. Neither of them ever really gained the upper hand. There was a chortle from where the wolves lurked that made both me and Bella stiffen.
Carlisle cleared his throat.
 They instantly broke apart, laughing and grinning at each other like nothing happened.
âBack to work,â Jasper agreed. âWeâll call it a draw.â
As Edward returned to Bella, Carlisle walked up to Jasper and my chest tightened.
It wasnât as seamless as Jaspers and Edward's fight. Carlisle was deliberate with every blur of motion. It was hard to watch, not only because I could barely see them in the dim morning light but this was Carlisle and the fight felt so real. He didnât hiss or growl the way the others had. He was calm and calculated. Every move he made mattered and every step he took had a reason. He moved like a well-oiled machine. He moved like he was over three hundred years old and had done this a hundred times.
And Jasper still managed to lay him out flat on his back.
I gasped and squeezed my eyes shut. I knew I didnât need to panic, but my heart picked up a beat and Bella grabbed my hand. I opened my eyes to thank her only to find that Carlisle had made his way over to me.
He smiled warmly at me and his eyes lightened slightly. He placed a cool hand on my cheek. âItâs only practice, Mon Coeur. Iâm alright.â
âI knowâŠâ I felt a bit silly and didnât add that it was only practice right now. That was the thing about practice, it normally led to something real. I dusted grass out of his hair.
There was more grumbling from the trees that I could only assume at this point was the wolves. A small, mischievous smile danced across my face and I placed a hand on his cheek before leaning up to kiss him. There was another grumble then a huff. I laughed and held on a bit tighter to him, if only to resist flipping off the trees.
This time Carlisle fell in line beside me and his arm stayed firmly around my waist. We returned to silently watching the rest of his family practice.
During each fight Jasper spoke little bits of instruction. He was an excellent teacher which did make me feel kind of sick. I hated to think about how many times he had to do this. I hoped it didnât hurt him to do it now.
He seemed confident and encouraging, despite my worrying. âJust like that. Concentrate on the sides.â Â His words were smooth even as Emmet threw him around. âDonât forget where their target will be. Keep moving.â
Carlisle watched every move. It was probably easier for him to keep up. While Jasper and Rosalie fought, all I could see was a blur of blonde. Even Emmett seemed tense during that one. Carlisle seemed to analyze everything. I held on to his arm for support.
Edward watched beyond the trees. As the morning turned to day and the sun started shining a bit more in the clearing, Bella looked more and more tired. It got to the point where I genuinely thought sheâd fallen asleep standing there. Edward caught on to my thoughts and whispered to her. âWeâre about finished.â
Jasper nodded confirmation and turned to face the treeline where the wolves lurked. His calm and collected demeanor returned to his usual tense and brooding one. âWeâll be doing this tomorrow. Please feel welcome to observe again.â
Edward agreed in his Sam voice. The humor of it was still not lost on me. Then he turned towards us and said âThe pack thinks it would be helpful to be familiar with each of our scents- so they donât make mistakes later. If we could hold very still, it will make it easier for them.â
âCertainly,â Carlisle said to Sam. âWhatever you need.â
For a split second the forest seemed to rumble to life but just as quickly, everything stilled again. There was only the buzz of anticipation bouncing between Bella and me.
I donât know what I imagined but it definitely wasnât this. They stalked towards us and my breath caught in my throat.
Their eyes glowed and they were huge and there were so so many of them. I didnât make a habit of hanging out with actual wolves, but they had to be so much smaller than the beast crawling towards us now. Iâd never seen anything like it. I understood the others' reaction from before.
The one who led the pack had to be Sam. Even as he creeped forward I could tell he would tower over me. More than the fact that he was the lead, he was the biggest and there was something so familiar in his eyes, it had to be Sam. I wanted nothing more than to bury my face and hide in Carlisleâs chest, but doubted heavily that that was an option. I was still shocked and frozen when he stepped up to smell Carlisle.
 In any other circumstance, I would have laughed, but my brain was still reeling. Sam winced then looked at me. I gave him a soft smile and he nodded once before he moved on to Jasper. I searched the rest of their faces for anyone else I recognized, but fell short. I thought Iâd at least know Jacob, but I only caught him when I saw the way Bella looked at the russet colored wolf.
When it registered for her too, she lit up and he looked just as excited. The way the three of them existed together resembled magnets. Bella fit perfectly at Edwards side and still leaned in closer to jacob. And Edward seemed a bit more at ease when Jacob stepped up- like the pack made him nervous but Jacob was a steady comfort.
Honestly, I wished they would put aside their drama and see what was right in front of them.
Of course, he just scoffed. Bella looked up to notice everyone was watching their strange interaction. When her eyes met mine she smiled softly in understanding but Edward sighed and asked her âReady to go?â
Before she could answer he glared back at Jacob. Anything that had been between the three of them was tense again.
âWeâve not quite figured out all the details yet.â Edward answered an unasked question. I might have thought he was speaking to me if it wasnât for the way he glared at Jacob.
Sam, as well as Jacob, seemed bothered by his response. I wondered what had been asked.
Edward continued, âItâs more complicated than that, donât concern yourself; Weâll make sure theyâre both safe.â
What are you talking about?â Bella demanded.
âJust discussing strategy.â Edward  answered casually, though I could clearly tell there was something more to it.
Jacob looked confused as well before he took off back into the trees. Everyone seemed to still: Carlisle pulled me closer to him. Bella looked hurt. I wondered if Iâd missed something. The others followed after Jacob.
When Jacob came back out though, he was alone and human again. I breathed a sigh of relief for Bella knowing that she wouldnât have to miss half of a conversation that was clearly about her.
However, as Jacob got back to them, I noticed that Carlisle wasnât pulling me into him so much as pulling me closer to Edward and Bella. Whatever they were discussing, he wanted to be a part of it too. I was glad we were on the same page.
âOkay, bloodsuckers, Whatâs so complicated about it?â
âWe have to consider every possibility,â Edward said, Â his tone was understanding. âWhat if someone gets past you?â
Jacob was less understanding, âOkay, so leave her on the reservation. Weâre making Collin and Brady stay behind anyway. Sheâll be safe there.âÂ
Bella glared at Jacob, âAre you talking about me?â
âHe definitely isnât talking about me,â I said under my breath. Carlisle chuckled.
Jacob continued, this time a little more understanding of our presence, âI just think it would help to know what their plan is for the two of you during the fight.â
âYou canât stay in Forks.â
Carlisle nodded and added, âIf someone got past us, itâs the first place theyâd look.â
Bellaâs eyes met mine as we had the same thought. Her face was paler than normal as she forced the thought out. âCharlie?â
âHeâll be with Billy,â He assured her, âIf my dad has to commit a murder to get him there, heâll do it.â
âThereâs a game on Saturday. Thatâs enough to get him down there without more blood shed.â My voice was breathy and I was thankful that Carlisle still held on to me. Bellaâs thoughts were all over the place. She drifted off on a sidebar that had both Edward and Jacob chuckling while I weighed my own options.
I didnât want to stay in La Push. Not that there was a problem with La Push exactly, just that it felt like everything was happening around me all of the time and while I wasnât excited to be involved, I was this time. I also had no interest in being in the clearing when the fight was happening.Â
So that left me wherever Bella was. And brought their conversion back into my focus.
âYou could hide them hereâŠâ Jacob waved his hands around him at the forest around us.
âThat⊠seems impractical.â I said. There wasnât anywhere to hide out here and with Bellaâs luck, I didnât like the idea of her being so close. The only upside being that the Cullens and the pack would be able to get to us quickly if things did go south- Then again so could the newborns.
Edward agreed with me, âTheir- Our scent is too strong and combined with mine and Carlisleâs, especially distinct.â
âItâs what theyâre being trained to look for. Weâre hoping theyâll catch ours and come straight to the clearing, but-â
âWeâre not sure exactly which path theyâll take because they donât know yet. If they crossed her scent before they found us..â
I swear the three of them made the same pained face at the same time. Carlisle held me tighter.
âYou see the difficulties.â
âSo whatâs the middle ground? Canât stay home, canât stay here. What makes this work?â I asked.
âWait a sec- My scent disgusts you, right?â
âHmm, not bad.â Whatever was in Jacobâs head seemed to make sense to Edward because he decided to call over Jasper.
Edward breathed a heavy sigh and Jacob held out his arms to Bella. Nobody moved.
âWeâre going to see if I can confuse the scent enough to hide your trail,â Jacob explained.
Bella still didnât move. She only looked more confused. I watched, silently preparing to bolt the second anyone tried to pick me up.
âYouâre going to have to let him carry you, Bellaâ Edward said, completely unbothered. Bella frowned.
Jacob called her a baby. Then his eyes flicked to mine. âY/n is easier to hide. Even Carlisle had a hard time finding her when he tried. I think if she just walked in front of you, you should be able to cover her scent. Itâs just Bella who canât touch anything.â
Relief washed over me. Carlisle chuckled and kissed my head. When Jasper made it over to us Edward explained the plan again, though I was certain heâd overheard.Â
Both Edward and Jacob looked at me. Bella just looked pouty. âI guess Iâll scout ahead.â I joked before leaning up to kiss Carlisleâs cheek before walking into the trees.Â
I walked far enough ahead so I wouldnât disturb any conversations between the two that needed to be had. I also needed to focus on my footing and the amount of steps Iâd taken into the woods. Jacob kept up enough that if I looked over my shoulder I could see them. After a minute or two I felt confident enough to turn, and loop back to the clearing. I resurfaced further away than I thought, but I didnât get lost.
It was just Edward and Carlisle when we got back, and while it looked like they werenât having the most pleasant conversation, Carlisleâs face lit up when he saw me. I couldnât help but skip over to him.
When Alice and Jasper were back and Bella was on her own feet again she asked âWell?â
âAs long as you donât touch anything, Bella, I canât imagine someone sticking their nose close enough to that trail to catch your scent.â Jasper grimaced. âIt was almost completely obscured.â
âAnd there was no trace of Y/n at all. I wouldnât have even known she was there if I hadnât watched her walk in front of them. A definite success.â Alice agreed.
âAnd it gave me an idea.â
âWhich will work,â
âClever,â Edward agreed.
âHow do you stand that?â Jacob muttered.
I laughed, âYou get used to it. And sometimes, if you wait long enough, they fill you in!â It made at least Carlisle laugh. Bella still looked at Jacob sympathetically.
Edward ignored us and turned to me and Bella to explain. âYou two are going to leave a false trail to the clearing. Theyâll come exactly the way we want them to without being careful about it. Alice can already see that this will work.â
âBut me? How would I help in this situation?â I figured this experiment proved that I was untrackable.
âNot âuntrackableâ- just not easy to track.â Edward said. âBut they have your scent memorized. If you touch everything-â
âAnd with nothing following you to cover it up-â Jasper added.
âTheyâll have no issue. Then when they catch the rest of us in the clearing, theyâll split up and try to come at us from two sides. Half will go through the forest, where her vision suddenly disappearsâŠâ
âYes!â Jacob cheered. I wasnât sold on his enthusiasm but Edward smiled at him.
Their comradery was only cut short when Edward scowled at Jasper. âNot a chance,â
âI know, I know.â He wasnât exactly smiling, but definitely plotting. âIt was just a thought.â
âWhat are you thinking?â If I could read anything in Edwards sharp shift in demeanor, whatever it was was never going to happen. Yet I couldnât help the curiosity.
âIf either of you were actually in the clearing, it would drive them insane. They wouldnât be able to concentrate on anything but you. It would make picking them off truly easyâŠâ
âAbsolutely not.â I said at the same moment Carlisle said âItâs out of the question.â
âOf course,â he backtracked. âIt would be far too dangerous.â Though he didnât seem convinced it wouldnât happen.
Jasper chuckled under his breath and took Aliceâs hand again. They walked back over to the others and I tried not to weigh the option.
Not Bella, never Bella⊠but me. Could I be there? I shook the thought out of my head and returned to what they were saying.Â
â-itâs thoroughness, not callousness.â
Jacob snorted.
Another moment passed between the three of them that they seemed completely unaware of. Jacob moved closer to Edward, Bella moved closer to Jacob, without letting go of Edward. Time didnât move around them.
But Edward refocused on the logistics. âI will bring Bella here Friday afternoon to lay the false trail. You can meet us afterwards and carry her to a place I know. Completely out of the way, and easily defensible, not that it will come to that. Iâll take another route there.â
âAnd then what? Leave them up there? With just a phone?â He was annoyed somehow. At least fed up with our plans.
âItâs not ideal, but it should be safe enough⊠Unless you have a safer alternative.â Carlisle remained patient with him.
Jacob lit up, smug but ready to share his thoughts âActually I do?â
âOh again, not bad at all.â Edward smiled so warmly at him that part of me wondered if there was pride on his face.
Jacob smiled back at Edward before facing Bella, if only to keep her involved in the conversation. âWe tried to talk Seth into staying behind with the younger two. Heâs still too young, but heâs stubborn and heâs resisting. So I thought of a new assignment for him- cellphone.â
âAnd, Carlisle, you can bring Y/n out here early Saturday so her false trail is a bit more fresh. Then, Seth can walk her up the mountain to meet up with Bella and swap places with Jacob. Distance isnât a problem?â
âNope.â
âThree hundred miles?â Thatâs impressive.â The way he looked now only proved that it was pride on his face before. It was even brighter this time.
I looked to Carlisle to see if heâd caught what I had. He smiled like he had. I was a bit overwhelmed with all of the training and the new information and the battle strategies, but it was nice to know that we were still on the same page about this.
âItâs a good idea.â Edward was hesitant, like he was afraid of revealing more than he meant.
âHaving Seth Clearwater there is very comforting.â Carlisle said.
Edward nodded, âEven without the instantaneous communication. I donât know if Iâd be able to leave Bella there alone. To think itâs come to this though! Trusting werewolves!â
âFighting with vampires instead of against them.â Jacob added in mock disgust.
âAww, our little cliche is coming to a close.â I joked.
âWell, almost. Theyâll still get to fight some of them.â Edward said. His smile did not fade.
Jacob beamed at him, âThatâs the reason weâre here.â
~~
Carlisle carried me home. I was unaware just how tired I was, but when he held me I fell asleep almost immediately. I didnât even wake up when he placed me in the bed. I really slept too. I didnât dream or budge, I just got the rest I so desperately needed.
I only got up when I felt like I couldn't physically sleep anymore. Carlisle, of course, was right beside me, reading a book with a title in a foreign language.
I cuddled into him. He threw his arm around me allowing me to lay my head on his chest, all without disturbing his reading, still he placed his book on the nightstand. He kissed the top of my head.Â
âGood Morning, Dove.â
âHmm⊠What time is it?â Based on the light that came through the windows, I didnât think it was still morning, not that Iâd correct him anyway.Â
He glanced at his watch. âJust after 2pm.â I was a bit surprised that Iâd slept that late but was grateful for it. âWould you like to go downstairs for coffee?â
When I nodded, he helped me get upright. I steadied myself against him then leaned up to press a quick kiss on his lips. We broke apart and he took my hand leading me downstairs.
âThe others are in the kitchen talking.â He told me. I nodded, though when we rounded the corner I noticed they werenât talking much. Emmett sat on the counter and Rose was standing between his legs, facing the others. Alice was cutting fruit and dropping them into a bowl in the running sink. Jasper was making coffee.
I knew all of this was for me. It still surprised me how generous they all were.
Alice looked up and smiled at us, like she had been expecting us. âGood morning, you two!â
I smiled back at her. âThank you⊠for all of this.â I gestured to the whole of the kitchen. They laughed.
âItâs no trouble at all, Y/n.â Jasper pushed a cup of coffee across the counter to me. It was perfect- That wasnât a surprise, atleast. He looked at Carlisle, âAlice said earlier that their numbers are down to twenty.â
She hummed and handed the fruit bowl. âNineteen, now.â
Emmett frowned, âTheyâre picking themselves offâŠâ He almost sounded disappointed. Knowing him he probably was.
âIt will be an easy fight then.â Carlisle clearly still didnât feel any of Emmetts excitement.
âIf we can make Bella cooperateâŠâ Alice was annoyed.
They all looked at me. I popped a grape into my mouth. âWhatâs she planning?â
âShe doesnât have a plan. She just wants to be in the clearing.â
My brows furrowed. âAnd that would be bad?â
She said âVeryâ and at the same time Jasper said âThat depends on who youâre asking.â
My eyes darted between them, waiting for one of them to elaborate.
Jasper spoke first. âHer scent would drive the newborns crazy. Theyâd go straight for her. We could wipe them out and clean the whole thing up nice and easy.â His confidence made Emmetts grin grow wider.
âWould she- or me, I guess- would we be safer-â
âAbsolutely not!â This time it was Alice and Carlisle who spoke at the same time.Â
I looked at them, my eyes wide. After taking a bite of an apple slice, I said âTake a breath. I donât want either of us there, really. But if itâs safer- for all of us, Iâd like to at least consider the option.â
âThe fight would be easier but you both would be more of a distraction. It wouldnât be safe.â It was the first time Rosalie had spoken and if Iâm being honest, it caught me a bit off guard. âIf anyone lost controlâŠâ she winced and trailed off.
Carlisle finished her thought. âOr if any one of them got past us, you two would be all that they could focus on- All any of us could focus on.â
âExactly!â Alice added. âTheyâd be focused on you. Weâd be focused on you. It would make us too vulnerable.â
âSo⊠more dangers than benefits? Weâll stick with plan A.â I took a slow sip of my coffee and Alice sighed.
She took out her phone and had it to her ear before any of us could ask who she was calling. âEdwardâŠâ She said it as if in answer to our unasked question. âI warned Bella that Iâd tell you if her plans got more defined. She plans on trying to find a way to the clearing, but she just gets lost. You have to make her understand the dangers. Y/n gets it.â
Whatever he said made her soften a bit, then she said âSheâll listen to you.â
He said something and she agreed before hanging up. I took another strawberry out of the bowl and ate it. âIn my defense, I would try to stop Bella before she wandered aimlessly into the forest.â
They all laughed. âItâs a valiant effort, but sheâs too stubborn. You both just end up getting lost.â
I wouldnât argue this. I didnât know the woods beyond the marked trails very well. I highly doubted I would have any idea how to get where they were fighting from wherever they left us.
Though we would have Seth. I hated the idea of little Seth anywhere near the fight almost as much as I hated the idea of Bella being there. But I know Bella wasnât including him in her plans, or Alice wouldnât be able to see it. I didnât want to give anyone any ideas so I kept my thoughts to myself and hoped Bella wouldnât think of the same thing.
Jasper and Emmett discussed how exactly the newborns would attack. It was all very gruesome and from this conversation alone I was glad I didnât have to be in the clearing. Also my heart hurt for Carlisle. I held his hand with both of mine while they casually chatted about how to kill these people. Feral or not, and even though we hardly had a choice in the matter, I could see the toll it was taking on him.
He would do what it took to protect his family- to protect me- but he would carry it with him for a long time. I wished more than anything it hadnât come to this.Â
I think he saw me worrying. He smiled softly at me and kissed my forehead. He held his eyes closed and lingered longer than normal. I think the kiss was as much for my benefit as it was his. I let him stay for as long as he needed.
When he pulled back and our eyes met he really did look brighter. I kissed him quickly. The other boys droned on and on about the fight ahead of them, but for that moment, it was just me and Carlsile in the room. The only thing that pulled us back to reality was Aliceâs small gasp and her phone ringing.
She set it to her ear and said âYou canât.â Of course it was hard not to panic , but despite her dramatics she didnât seem too bothered. âI guess. Iâll use the time to get Charlie on board with her having a weekend with me.â She sighed and hung up again.
I couldnât take the suspense. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothings wrong, exactly. Edward decided to sit out.â Emmett bellowed in laughter at her words. I hadnât caught on.
I scanned their faces for any clue but found nothing. âSit out of what?â I asked.
âThe fight.â She answered, like it was obvious. I guess it should have been, but it also didnât seem possible.
âWhat?â I demanded. âWhy?â
âBella asked him to. Heâs going to stay with the both of you up the mountain so she doesnât join us in the clearing.â
âBut-â
She turned to face Jasper. âIâm going to go sit with Bella while he comes here to talk logistics.â She kissed his cheek and disappeared. I was stunned that they were entertaining this. Carlisle wrapped an arm around me and ran a soothing hand over my arm.
âItâs going to be fine, Cara.â he whispered in my ear.
Emmettâs booming and over confident voice filled the room âMore for us then!â
I didnât miss the way Carlisle flinched, or the way Rosalie sighed. She stood a bit straighter and walked out of the room. Emmett called after her but didnât follow. I was tempted to follow her, but I wasnât sure what I could say to comfort her.
I couldnât fault her for needing to step out. All of this was overwhelming and I wasnât even going to be there. I couldnât Imagine what it was like on their side of this.
I matched her sigh and stood as well but only to make another cup of coffee. Before I even had time to put the pot back, Edward was in the kitchen.Â
His hair was disheveled so I guessed he had run here. I resisted the urge to straighten it for him and just finished making my coffee. He stood on one side of the island while Jasper and Emmett stood on the other. Carlisle came and stood by me.
It felt like a movie the way the four of them stood around the island discussing the upcoming fight. It felt like there should be a map with little flags and figurines. As silly as it was, I was happy to be a part of the discussion.
Before they could get too invested in their own plans, I asked âBella asked you to stay with her- us?â
He softened a bit. âShe did.â
âWhy?â
âShe⊠didnât enjoy the idea of us âleavingâ again.â he put air quotes around the word leaving, though I could tell he sympathized with her. âI will stay with the two of you and Seth and sheâll stay out of the clearing.â
Carlisle held my hand a bit tighter and I wondered briefly what he saw on my face.
âWeâll be just fine.â Jasper added.
âHell yeah! I can pick up his half-â Emmett was clearly perfectly fine with Bellaâs decision.
As they fell into the rearrangements, I couldnât help but understand Bellaâs side. I almost wished I would have thought of it before her; wished I had asked Carlisle to sit out instead of Edward, but I could never ask him to choose between me and his family. I was completely surprised that she could ask that of Edward. It was selfish of her, but I didnât blame her at all
I quickly turned to Edward. He didnât act like heâd caught on to my thoughts. I hoped that if he had he wouldnât rat me out.
They continued, unbothered.
â-We'll go hunting tonight after meeting with the wolves.â
âSeth will meet with Carlisle in the clearing to carry Y/n to Bella and Edward early Saturday morning.â Jasper was all business and Carlisle nodded.
My eyes danced between them. âSeth Clearwater is not carrying me anywhere.â
They all laughed like I'd told a joke.
âSeth will just be there as a precaution.â Carlisle soothed, âJust in case they can track you, Seth will be there to mask your scent.â
Jasper added âYou walking in front of Seth while he's a wolf will be more than enough for that.â
âOh⊠Right. Good.â I was terribly uninterested in a child carrying me anywhere, werewolf or not.
âIt will work.â Edward continued, though I didn't know who his words were meant to comfort. I nodded along.
I double- triple checked everything in my head. Dad would be on the reservation with Billy and the baby guard wolves. Bella would be with me and Seth and now Edward, in the mountains far enough away. My new found family- the love of my life, had trained for this and would continue training until it was time. It was a solid plan.Â
Though they had continued talking while I got lost in my thoughts, when Edward spoke again, he looked directly at me.
âIt will work.â He said again.
I nodded once, both in thanks and acceptance.Â
It will work, I thought. It had to.
~~
We were back in the clearing just three hours later. The sun hadn't even really set yet. I wondered how Bella got past Dad, but I probably didn't want to know. They still showed up last.
The training in front of me was more physical than the night before. Edward only joined in when Jasper asked him to. Carlisle left me with them when he went to face off with Rosalie.
Edward stayed long enough for Jacob to join us. They chatted quietly with one another for a few moments. Clearly lost in their own world. I pretended to be distracted by the grass and tried not to think too loudly about how well they completed each other.
Edward joined the others in the clearing when they started doing two-on-one pairings. Those were equally as hard to watch. I could barely stand it when it was Carlisle against Emmett and Edward. My chest was tight and I felt like I couldn't breathe.
But then Rosalie was next to me- albeit as far from Jacob as she could possibly be. Without saying a word she took my hand. It was overwhelmingly comforting in a way I did not expect. I took a tiny step in her direction and laid my head on her shoulder. She didn't move to even breathe, but I think she did lean into me.
Carlisle got Edward down every time but Emmett was trickier. If Carlisle focused on Edward, Emmett would get him down and if he focused on Emmett, then Edward would. They tried this over and over and each time he was a bit more sure of himself.
When he finally got both of them down I had to squeeze Rosalie's hand to keep myself from cheering.
Carlisle swapped places with her answer she went against Alice and Edward. Even when it wasn't Carlisle fighting I still had the hardest time watching. I leaned into him the way I had with her.
They were good. They were confident.
The plan would work.
~~
Bella came over and stayed with us Thursday before they laid the false trail. The others went hunting and they wouldnât be back before the fight. I hugged them all as tight as I could and tried very hard not to let it feel like a goodbye.
I had to have hope that I would see them all again. It made me sick.
They left while the sun was still up. Carlisle held me close as I watched the treeline they disappeared into. I was still standing there when Edward and Bella pulled in.
I wiped the tears from my cheeks and pulled myself together before they walked on to the porch. They didnât seem phased by me at all. Carlisle held the door open for them and I followed in behind them.
âHave you eaten?â I asked Bella.
She nodded. âI made burgers at home for Charlie and ate one before I left.â
âGood⊠Thatâs good.â
âAre⊠Are you guys staying here tonight?â She asked. Edward chuckled.
I looked at Carlisle and he smiled at me. I felt like I was missing something.
âWeâll be here, but I believe weâll be in our room all night. Youâll basically have the place to yourselves.â Carlisle assured them.
Oh, thatâs what she meant. Her face fell into something that looked like disappointment. I was glad that I did not have super hearing. I wasnât sure if the house was sound proofed enough for the vampires, but I could be blissfully unaware.
âWeâll be upstairsâŠâ Bella was leading Edward up the stairs. I had to hide my face with my hand to not laugh. Carlisle led me to the kitchen.
I knew he expected me to be hungry. I couldnât find the energy to actually be hungry but I got the leftover fruit from the fridge. He got me a glass of water. I made a show of drinking it.
I scooted a piece of pineapple around in the bowl with my fork. âItâs⊠so quiet.â I whispered, in an attempt to not disturb the peace.
âIt is.â He stood next to me leaning against the counter with his hands in his pockets. To anyone else he would have looked relaxed.
 âHow are you feeling?â I didnât really have to ask. Iâd watched his honey eyes scan the treeline a hundred times. I took note of his heavy and occasional breaths. His eyes met mine and I melted. I placed my hand on his face and just held it there. He kissed my palm.
âIâm⊠I am confident in our family. Itâs justâŠâ His voice was so low. I stepped closer to him and his hands rested on my waist. He dropped his forehead to mine.
âI understand.â This is scary. I wouldnât say that aloud though, instead I pressed in to him and said âI know. Iâm here.â As soft as I could manage.
His eyes were closed. I felt him nod. I kissed his nose. He took a slow, deep breath.
I leaned back and met his gaze again. âIt will be okay.â He at least sounded more confident.
~~
The next day was much like the last. Bella and Edward got up early and were already downstairs by the time Carlisle peeled me out of bed. I wasnât expecting Alice to be home but I was more than grateful to see her.Â
She said she was only there to share the news about the snow storm, but she also had a private conversation with Bella. While it was happening Edward looked more and more uncomfortable but when Alice got back she looked happier than ever. Bella, on the other hand, looked like she wanted to vomit.Â
I did desperately want to know, but thought better of asking. Bella would tell me eventually. Worst case I could probably convince Carlisle to.
I tried not to think about the fact that I couldnât guarantee when or if I could.Â
Alice left when Edward and Bella did. I hugged Bella for a long time knowing that I would see her in just over twelve hours but also fearing the worst.Â
âBe safe.â She nodded. âText me when you make it up there.â She nodded again. âStay warm tonight.â
She laughed, âI will, Y/nâ
This time, I nodded. âOkay. Good.â I hugged her again. âI love you.â
âI love you.â
I hugged Edward just as tight.
As they left I called after them âBe safe!â I thought I saw Edward smile before he lifted Bella and ran off towards the clearing.
This time, Carlisle held me in his arms on the couch while I cried.
It was hours later before I settled down. He put on reruns of Buffy. I cried off and on but drank the water he brought me and ate the pasta he made later in the night. After a while he brushed the hair out of my face and asked, âHow are you feeling, Dove?â
âLike the world is caving in around us.â I tried to smile at him, Iâm sure it looked pathetic. âBut Iâm glad youâre here.â
âThere isnât anywhere Iâd rather be.â He leaned in and kissed me softly. âI had something made for you. Would you like me to give it to you now?â
Hesitantly, I nodded. âWhat is it?â
He chuckled. âI'll go get it.â completely unsure of what to expect, I tried not to panic waiting for him to get back. Luckily, he was only gone a few seconds before he appeared next to me again. âItâs a bit soon, and I know right now isnât the best time, but I want you to have this⊠Well, in case-â
âCarlisle?â
âYes?â
âWhat is it?â I asked again, smiling this time. I kinda loved it when he got all flustered. In his hand was a jewelry box, but it was too long to be a ring- I didnât have to panic too much. He opened the box and showed me before he said anything else.
Inside the box was a locket on a delicate silver chain. On the front of the locket was the Cullen crest. My hands were shaking when I took it from him. I opened it to find one side was empty but the other had a dried petal from a lupine flower.
I was crying again. âCarlisle, itâs-â
âAgain, I know itâs early, and we arenât married, but you are a part of this family. I left the other side open so you could put whatever you wanted in itâŠâ His eyes were soft and his voice was so genuine. If he wasnât still holding the locket I might have tackled him. âIt felt important⊠that you should have it now.â
âItâs perfect.â I didnât know how to express just how much it meant to me but I started with âThank you.â then demanded âWell, arenât you gonna put it on me?â
He laughed when I turned away from him. I pulled my hair up as he put it around my neck. As soon as it was clasped I turned back to him and flung my arms around his shoulders and kissed him like the world might not end the next day.Â
I kissed him like I needed it to survive.
When we finally broke apart, his hand still caressed my cheek. âWould you like to get some rest, Cara?â
âNo,â my voice was breathy.
âThen what do you want?â
âI want you to make me forget the world is caving in.â
The corner of his mouth ticked up in the smallest hint of a smile. âI think I can manage that.â Then he kissed me again like he fully intended to try.
~~
I wouldn't say that I slept soundless that night but I definitely slept better than I had been.
The sun was just barely peeking through the sky as I got ready. I tried to dress warm with lots of layers but we still had to lay my false trail to the clearing. I packed my coat, some water bottles and a first aid kit in my hiking bag instead. Carlisle was already down in the kitchen making me a large thermos of hot coffee. I hoped it would last through the fight.
I fiddled with the locket around my neck for a second; still unused to the weight of it. When everything was packed, I took a deep breath, steadied myself, then met Carlisle downstairs. He smiled softly when he saw me. I kissed him every chance I got.
We walked hand in hand through the woods to the clearing. I touched everything I could. I hugged the occasional tree. But we hardly spoke at all. I felt like I had so much to say but no words to say them. I didn't want this to feel like goodbye. I couldn't let it be goodbye.Â
When we made it to the clearing, the sun was just barely shining but the snow had finally stopped. I couldn't believe how cold it was. Carlisleâs hand was almost warm in mine. I hated how long it took to lay the false trail and to walk to the clearing. I hated that I still had so much longer to walk with Seth. More than anything, I hated this feeling of doom that threatened to choke me.Â
As we broke through the treeline I saw Seth, Sam, and Leah whispering in the center. Leah was angry and was trying to get something through to Sam, though he only looked annoyed. I didn't know Leah had made the pack. Honestly, it almost made me panic more.
Carlisle pulled me into him but I was frozen in my spot. I forgot how to breathe. I locked eyes with him and shook my head.
âY/nâŠâ He was in front of me, his hand in my hair. âBreathe, Y/n.â He spoke slowly. This time I nodded. He was always able to calm me down. I didn't have time to panic now anyway. I took a deep breath in when he did and out shortly after.Â
Get to safety- then panic. I could handle that. I nodded again. He smiled and wiped a tear from my cheek.
When I tore my eyes from him I found Sam again. He was closer, but Seth and Leah held back. Carlisle turned to face them too without letting go of my hand.
âY/n, Carlisle.â He greeted us as he walked a few steps closer. âLeah and I thought it might be safer for everyone if I walked with you two. I will have plenty of time to make it back before the newborns get here, according to your psychic.â
âIt couldn't hurt I guessâŠâ My voice sounded so weak. He chuckled.
âWe should leave soon. It's a long hike.â I winced. Carlisle took my coat out of my bag before handing it to me. âWe'll give you a momentâŠâ He slung my bag over his shoulder and stalked towards the others.
I buried my face in Carlisle's chest in the tightest hug I could muster. He squeezed me just as tight.
âIt will be fine, my Love.âÂ
I took another deep breath. âIt will.â
âOnly a few hours.â
âHours.â I repeated
He chuckled against me. âFaster if you let him carry you.â
âAbsolutely not.â He laughed again. I leaned back to watch him- to memorize this moment. âOnly a few hours⊠and the others?â
âThey'll be here soon.â
âAnd then it will be over?â That one sounded more like a question.
He nodded. âThen we'll be back together.â He was confident.
And then he kissed me and it hurt my heart. I could hardly stand it. My fingers pulled tightly at his scarf and in his hair; certain that if I let go, he would disappear completely. I pulled him closer to me and he pulled me closer to him.
In only a few short hours, he would be fighting alongside our family to save mine and Bella's lives- to put an end to an army that was created to destroy us. And yet he kissed me like our timer wasn't out.
His lips pressed confidently to mine. They were firm, and soft, and sweet, and confident like he knew that this whole ordeal would be over soon and we would be together again, just safe.
He pulled away first because I certainly wasn't going to. I still chased his lips and kissed him a few more times.
His voice was low when he said âYou have to goâ
My breath was too shaky. I couldn't force any words out.
âI'll be right here, it will be over quickly, and then you'll be safe.â
âYou have to be safe too.â
âI will be.â I looked into his eyes as he soothed out my hair. Somewhere behind him I heard a distinctly wolfy sigh. I flipped off where the sound came from.
Carlisle chuckled softly. He helped me put on my coat and wrapped his scarf around my neck. I pressed it to my face and breathed in this warm tea and fresh honey scent.
I stood on my toes to kiss him again. I said, âI love you, Carlisle.â all soft and breathy.
âI love you, Y/n.â He was soft and confident.
I found the strength to take a few steps back. I watched his eyes soften as he took in the goodbye I refused to say. He held on tightly to my hand until I got to Sam, who was a large black wolf and much closer than expected.
I squeezed my eyes closed and turned around before opening them again. A single tear fell from my eyes and left a stinging trail on my cheek. I held on to his hand until he couldn't reach me anymore. I hated how dramatic this was. I hated how much it hurt.
Seth ran ahead of us. Sam walked patiently by my side. I didn't look back at Carlisle until I was certain I wouldn't see him.
I knew I wouldn't have the strength to keep going if I did.
The hike was long and miserably cold. I almost gave up and allowed Sam to carry me a few times but my pride was too large, so we suffered. I had my headphones in and playing my music so loud I couldn't hear if he sighed at my stubbornness anyway.
And just as it became unbearable, we broke through the trees into the little clearing Edward had picked out.
Edward met us outside the tent. âThank you, Sam, Seth.â He nodded in both their directions, but when I looked at Sam, his eyes were focused on me.
I nodded once and thanked him. I meant it more than I could put into words. He bowed his head and pressed his nose to my palm. It was cold and wet and I pulled my hand away. âEw, SamâŠâ But I chuckled, and I could tell he smiled too before running off the way we came.
 âBe safe!â I called after him. I heard a cocky bark in response and rolled my eyes.
Edward smiled softly at me and said âIf you could give us just a moment.â I nodded and he retreated into his and Bella's tent. I could only guess that he was going to console her given that I couldn't hear much of their muffled conversation.
I sat on a rock next to Seth, who just huffed dramatically any laid down beside me. He really did look like a puppy who had been told ânoâ. I reached down and ruffled the fur between his ears. He huffed again and I laughed.
I pulled Carlisle's scarf to my nose again and closed my eyes tightly. I hoped that if I focused enough- if I could block everything out- I would open my eyes again and it would all be over. It almost worked, but Seth sat up abruptly, and let out a little bark.Â
Edward unzipped their tent and helped Bella stand up outside of it. I couldn't quite hear his words but Bella moaned, âAlice is so small.â
He chuckled, âThat might be a problem⊠If it were possible for someone to catch her.â
Bella's gaze found Seth sitting in the snow next to me, then she saw me sitting on the rock beside him. She breathed my name and ran over to me. She threw her arms around me and hugged me tightly. I was a bit surprised by her sudden burst of physical affection, but grateful nonetheless and hugged her back.
Another noise from Seth stirred us both, though this one was more of a whimper. She turned sharply to Edward.
âWhat's wrong?â She demanded.
âHe's just angry he's stuck here with us. He knows the pack kept him out of the action to protect him. He's salivating to join them.â
She glared at Seth. He huffed again.
âThe newborns have reached the trail- it worked like a charm, Jasper's a genius- and they've caught the scent of the ones in the meadow, so they're splitting into two groups now, as Alice said,â He sounded proud as he stared in the direction I'd come form
As grateful as I was that he was narrating for Bella, it was hard for me to hear. I didn't have the same comforts Bella did. Carlisle was there. I felt sick.
I heard him say they'd made it to the clearing. I heard him cheer on Leah. He said to let Sam lead, probably to Jacob. I wondered if they could hear him through Seth the way he could hear them. I try to drown it all out. I tried to not think.
But then a sharp silence fell over all of us. No one breathed. No one moved. I didn't let myself guess what was wrong.
âEdward?â I tried, but my voice was barely a whisper. He held up a hand. I purposely breathed slowly and listened to Bella's panicked breaths. I feared the worst, but if I didn't know, Bella wouldn't know either. She was just panicking. There didn't have to be a reason to panic.
A part of me shattered as Edward urgently whispered âGo, Seth.â Â and while he ran off and everything shifted around me, it felt like time was frozen.
Edward pushed me behind him, Bella next to me, protecting us both from something I couldn't see yet. I tried to back further away but my back hit a wall and I noticed we were against a cliff. I couldn't run if I wanted to.
We were trapped. As if on reflex, I grabbed Bella's hand like I could protect her from whatever was coming. And even though I didn't know what was coming, I knew it was bad.Â
Thankfully, Bella put my question into one simple word. âWho?â
âVictoria.â He spoke her name like a curse. My stomach lurched as what he said sank in and what followed made it worse and worse. âShe's not alone. She crossed my scent, following the newborns in to watch- she was never meant to fight with them. She made a spur-of-the-moment decision to find me, guessing that you both would be wherever I was. She was right. You were right. It was always Victoria.â
I was shivering to my core. I was too out of it to hope that any of us would make it out. But was grateful he'd sent Seth away. Grateful that Carlisle wouldn't have to watch me die- if it came to that. I wished briefly he'd pick up Bella and run- wished I could hide well enough to throw them off and give Carlisle time to find me.
There wasn't enough time.Â
Before I could even blink there were two vampires walking casually into the clearing, the sun dancing off their skin. I'd never seen Victoria. I'd never seen any vampires outside of the Cullens.They were beautiful. They were young. The woman was maybe my age, but the boy didn't even seem to be Bella's age. He was just a boy. I wanted to cry. I didn't think I could.
Nothing moved for so long. I kept my fingers intertwined with Bella's. I watched Bella's face. She never took her eyes off Victoria. My eyes danced between all of them.
I just barely caught Victoria lift her chin in Edwards direction. I stepped in front of Bella, if only to give him time.
âRiley.â Edward said in a soft pleading voice.
Everyone froze again.Â
Edward tried to reason with the boy. He tried to get him to realize Victoria had lied to him. I only saw confusion on his face. I wanted to see doubt.
Edward tried again from a different angle, âShe doesn't love you, Riley. She never has. She loved someone named James, and you're no more than a tool to her.â
Victoria hissed at his words. Then the smallest glimpse of doubt did flash on Riley's face. Edward continued his negotiations, but it was so hard to focus on his words. The ringing in my ears muffled most sounds.Â
There were multiple steps between Edward and us now. Victoria monitored each step he took, trying to find the best vantage point. I swallowed a breath and her eyes locked on mine. For a moment she looked surprised, then she just looked annoyed.Â
Edward whispered. âLast chance, Riley.â
The boy didn't move, but he looked at Victoria like he was lost.Â
She snarled, but her eyes never left mine. âHe's a liar, Riley. I told you about their mind tricks. You know I love only you.â
I wondered how she got him to believe her. She had no inflection in her voice. Her voice was careful and practiced, but there was no love there. Riley regained composure. Her eyes tore from mine when Edward took another half step forward.
Then there was a growl from the trees.
Seth lurked out and threw Riley to the ground. Victoria screamed. I wanted to get away- to get Bella away- but I didn't have anywhere to go. My heart was racing and as the real fight was kicking off I couldnât keep up with everyone's movements. At times, Riley was on his feet, others he was buried in the snow. Chucks of rock landed at mine and Bellaâs feet.
Not rock- chunks of Riley. I truly felt so sick.
Victoria looked torn between bolting and trying to get at Bella. While she hardly acknowledged my presence at that point, I still stood between her and Edward. Sheâd have to get me out of the way. I shuddered at the thought.
âDonât go, Victoria,â While Seth was attacking Riley, Edward shifted his taunting to Victoria herself. This would end here, one way or another. Edward wasnât going to let her get away. I didnât want to watch it play out. But I couldnât take my eyes off of him. âYouâll never get another chance like this.â
She hissed at him. He dismissed her connection with James. He mocked the way heâd killed him. It worked the way he wanted; She attacked him again.
Everything was a blur. There was so much happening, and because I couldnât keep up it felt like nothing really was. There were sounds from all directions- of teeth on stone, Edwards taunting, Bellas ragged breathing- I couldnât stay focused on one thing. I wanted it to be over. I didnât want to see the outcome.
Iâd never been so scared.Â
We were losing. Edward promised Victoria that sheâd never get to Bella. Somehow that brought me comfort too, but their fights continued. And Seth was soaring through the air and crashing into the wall next to us. I barely managed to dodge him as he hit the snow beside us and the rocks that showered down around us too.
I got back on my feet and helped Bella to hers again, just in case we had to run. I stepped in front of her again. I tried to reassess the situation just as Riley charged towards Sethâs mostly unmoving form. Victoria was on top of Edward in the snow.
We were losing. I never thought Iâd be the type to freeze, but there I was. I couldnât do anything. I focused on Bellaâs face. She was focused on her arm. When she looked at me I only saw desperation in her eyes. She winced and inhaled sharply.Â
I breathed her name.
All of them turned sharply to Bella when she gasped. I was still positioned in front of her, so I even had to turn to see the blood running down her arm.
Then Riley was there. His hand was in my hair throwing me out of his way before I could process what was happening. I knew I hit the ground. I felt the snow fall around me. I felt my head hit something sharp but I couldnât open my eyes. It was all too much. I couldn't watch my sister die.
I curled into myself. I pressed my hand to my forehead. It was warm and wet and sticky. I waited for it to be over.
I heard Seth snap, followed by more sounds of teeth on stone. Then this metallic ripping that was straight from my worst nightmares. I still squeezed my eyes closed and held pressure to my head.
âVictoria!â His plea was loud and too close to me. I tried to inch away but I donât think I moved.
Then Rileyâs screaming stopped.
âNo,â That was Edwardâs voice, much further away and smooth. I allowed myself that little comfort. âStay just a little longer.â
More rustling for a few more seconds followed by nothing. Everything was finally still.
I felt Sethâs nose press into my side. I still couldnât open my eyes. He huffed and paced towards where Edwardâs voice had come from.
âGet every piece,â He sounded busy. No one mentioned Bella.
That thought alone pulled me back to the present. My eyes shot open searching for her. Edward and Seth threw chunks of rock into a fire. I hadnât even smelled the smoke.
I didnât breathe again until I found her. She hadnât moved an inch but I was yards away. Heâd thrown me further than I noticed. I was very lucky that only my head was bleeding. None of my bones felt broken.
And Bella looked fine. In shock, but alive and fine.
It was over.
I sat up and the world spun. The sticky sweet smoke hit my nose and I threw up in the snow.
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Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
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It was never going to end was it?
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Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
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Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
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I had gone home for most of the duration of the school day. I wasnât sure what to expect when Alice called me halfway through folding my laundry.
âIs everything alright?â I barely had enough time to get it out before she was yelling on the other end of the line.
âIf I lose this car because of Jacob Black-â
âAlice, could you please calm down for a second?â I could hear the sound of her heels on the hardwood floors as she paced. âWhat is going on?â
âJacob Black showed up at the school and Bella ran off with him.â I had to bite back a laugh. Somehow I knew she would manage to escape. I stayed as quiet as I could manage while Alice continued, âEdward is going to kill me and take away my Porsche all because Bella wants to throw herself head first into danger.â
âIt will be fine, Alice. Just⊠donât call them, okay? Iâll go down to La Push and check on her and report back.â
âI donât think that will make anything better. Carlisle will just be angry at me too.â
âHeâll⊠get over it.â
She sighed, âJust make it quick, okay?â
âOf course.âÂ
I did not leave as quickly as I could have. I stayed long enough to switch over the laundry. I did the dishes and cleaned out the leftovers from the fridge. I hoped that my stalling would give Bella some time. I wouldnât drag her home if she wanted to stay, but I also didnât want to ruin her time.
They werenât at the Black house when I got there. I waited for a few moments, just in my car, not wanting to chat with Billy if it wasnât necessary. I could wait here and hope they come by, but couldnât return to Alice empty handed.
Of course, I wasnât there for five minutes before Sam was knocking on my car window. I sighed but got out as he held the door for me.Â
âY/n? Whatâs up?â He almost sounded concerned.
I crossed my arms across my chest. âIâm just looking for Bella.â I said like it wasnât
obvious.
âShe isnât here, but Iâm sure theyâll swing by later. Did your leech send you out here to scope out the situation?â
I pulled my lips into a tight line. âNo one sent me. He wouldnât be all that excited to know I was here.
âHe doesnât know?â He smirked and I wanted to smack him. âI didnât take you for a rebel.â
I forced a laugh. âIâm not rebelling. I can do whatever I want- Could you just drop the wolfy bullshit and tell me where my sister is?â
His grin didnât falter. âProbably on the beach, but you donât have to worry about her.â
I moved to get back in my car but he still held the door. âIâm not-â
âSheâs safe here, you know?â I nodded. âThere probably wouldnât be a safer place if Jacob had his way.â
âSheâs happy with Edward. Sheâs safe with him too.â
âSure, SureâŠâThis time I smiled warmly at him. I knew he was being genuine. I was still annoyed but I could appreciate his efforts. âI might agree that youâre safe with Carlisle⊠But Edward and Bella?â
âTheyâre young and in love. Weâve been there.â I pushed his arm lightly; He barely moved. I did not think too much about what heâd just said about Carlisle. âSometimes we choose what's wrong for us⊠Sometimes whatâs wrong for us is exactly what we need.â
I didnât mean it as a jab, I didnât know the whole story between him, Leah, and Emily, but he winced. âMaybe youâre right.â His voice was less cocky. I might have felt bad, if it wasnât Sam.
I didnât have time to dwell before Bella and Jacob were pulling up. When she got her helmet off I couldnât tell if she was happy to see me or annoyed.
She walked over to us with her hands in her jacket pockets. âIf youâre here to kidnap me again, I wonât go.â
âIâm not. Iâm just here to check in⊠And then I got caught up chatting with Sam.â
If she knew I was lying she didnât call me out. She just bit her lip and nodded. âIâm okay.â
âI see that.â I tried to smile at her, but the rain was picking up so I only winced. âIâll be at the Cullens, to help soften the mood before you get back.â
âDid Alice⊠Call him?â
I shook my head. âNo, thank god. She called me and I told her Iâd come check on you as long as she promised she wouldnât call them. Itâs best to try to not make things worse for ourselves.â
She smiled, âThank you⊠I will be back later.â They drifted towards the house and Jacob opened the door for her.
âHave fun!â She didnât turn back around. I pushed off the side of the car and tried the door again. Sam hadnât moved.
âY/nâŠâ he hesitated but took a step back and let go of the door. âDonât be a stranger.â
âYou either, Sam.â
He looked like he wanted to say more, but I didnât stay long enough to hear it.
~~
Alice was still pouting on the hood of her car when Bella got home. She must have seen her coming because she didnât budge, if anything the pouting only became more theatrical.
âI havenât even had a chance to drive it.â She sighed
âSorry,â Her words were acid.
She was soaking wet and shivering. âYou should probably take a hot shower.â I tried.
âYep.â
Alice could tell as well as I could that something happened with Jacob, but where I was more covert about it, her curiosity was plain on her face. âDo you wanna talk about it?â
âNope.â
âDo you want to go to Olympia tonight?â
âNot really. Canât I go home?â
Alice and I both winced. âBellaâŠâ I tried.
âNevermind,â Bella said. âIâll stay if it makes things easier for you both.â
âThanks,â She sighed in relief.
Bella went straight upstairs and took a shower before going right to bed. Even Alice didnât stay in the main living space for long. I went to Carlisleâs room and fell asleep reading in our bed.
I felt a shift in the mattress just as the sun started to peek through the trees. I smiled up at him, more asleep than not, and rested my hands on either side of his face.Â
He kissed me quickly. âI didnât mean to wake you.â
âIâm glad you did. I missed you.â He kissed me again. âDid Alice fill you in on the weekend's events?â
âShe filled us all in on the key points. She also said youâd have more to tell me. Edward laughed. Should I be concerned?â
âHmm~ Maybe~â My sleepy smile didnât go away. âWhen were you going to tell me you bought me the Prius?â
âOh⊠Well.â He laughed nervously, knowing heâd been caught. âAre you certain I havenât told you about that before?â
âNice try,â I kissed his nose. âbut I think I would have remembered you mentioning it before.â
âI apologize for not telling you, though I think you would have questioned my sanity If I had.â
âI do that anyway, so thatâs not really a valid point.â
He laughed loudly at that and kissed me again. âI promise I will tell you before I buy you a car next time.âÂ
I giggled against his lips. âThatâs all I ask.â I could feel myself falling back asleep so I lightly pushed him so heâd lay flat. When he did, I laid my head on his chest. âI went to La Push.â
âIâm aware.â
âI spoke with Sam for a while.â
I let my eyes close as he ran his hand through my hair. âHow did that go?â
â âs WeirdâŠâ I didnât try to stop myself from yawning. âI feel like we really could have been friends, but it's too complicated now to try.â
âHe was nice, though?â His arms tightened around me slightly. It made my heart flutter.
âYeah he was nice. He even kinda said that we were good together⊠in not so many words.â
He sighed and I placed a soft kiss on his chest.
âI know you guys donât think itâs safe for us, but I saw her with Jacob today, I saw how Sam felt about it, and I truly think it will be okay.â
âI trust your judgment on this.â I knew he did. It was more Alice and Edward that put up a fight. âI think Edward is coming around. I think if she really wants to go back, heâll let her go.â
âGood.â I didnât feel the need to voice my opinion on him letting her. Carlisle knew how I felt about that anyway.
I yawned again and Carlisle chuckled. âGet some rest, Mon Coeur. Everything else can wait until the morning.â
âI donât have any more stories to share. I just missed you.â
âI wonât have to go into the office tomorrow. Weâll have the whole day.â
I leaned up and he met me halfway. The kiss was slow and made my heart skip a beat. I wanted to stay right there forever, but I was officially too tired to keep my head up. I snuggled back into his chest and slept for a few more hours.
~~
Carlisle woke me a few hours later and convinced me to go downstairs where he was finishing up the breakfast heâd made for me. We very often had the best conversations over my breakfast, so that particular morning I used the time to bring up Bella and Rosalie's conversation from the other night.Â
She had filled me in on most of her backstory in small ways throughout our almost friendship, but I was still pretty lost on his part in it all. I never wanted to press, but that morning, with it so fresh on my mind, I couldn't help my curiosity.Â
He let out a heavy breath and for a second I thought he might not tell me anything. I didn't want him to feel like he had to. I almost told him to forget it, but right then he started, "I was just a simple family doctor when Esme, Edward and I moved to Rochester, New York. Our family was still so new, but I was overcome with pride in them. More importantly, I was satisfied with what we had built together.Â
"At the time, I didn't see that this wasn't the life they would have chosen for themselves. I had no idea, despite the fact that I felt the same way." They had all made this very point multiple times. It's why we needed Bella to be sure; Why I needed to be sure. I never wanted to regret him.
He continued, "Edward had just returned to our little family but he was still angry. When I brought my concern to Esme she seemed to think he was just lonely and if I found him a companion to share a love like ours he would be happy." His phrasing was delicate, like he was afraid I would be upset by it. When my expression remained unbothered, he went on. "I should say, the night I found Rosalie, I wasn't looking for her. I had honestly brushed Esme's comment aside, knowing it was far too selfish to turn someone for that reason alone.
"As I was walking home that night, suddenly all I could smell was her blood. I followed it to her almost on instinct. I found her lying on the ground dying, and I didn't even consider that she might have preferred to die. I just wanted to save her."Â
He sighed as he took out a plate for the food he'd made for me. "During her transition Esme's previous comment surfaced in my mind. Maybe she was the missing piece to our family. Maybe she could help Edward in a way Esme and I could not. I found comfort in the fact that I had at least given her a chance.
"That's not to say that I regret turning her. I love her and she is such an important part of this family. I could never regret her. I do wish I had considered her wishes."
My chest tightened as he spoke. He had carried this guilt with him everyday for all of these years and it made my heart break for him. Of course, I didn't believe he was entirely without fault here, but I also didn't entirely believe that she hated her existence. Maybe it wasn't the life she would have chosen, but I knew, and I think a part of him knew as well, that she had found happiness in this life too.
"Carlisle⊠You couldn't have known." I tried to assure him but he smiled softly at me and brushed past it. I thought he might change the topic completely, but he expertly plated my omelet and slid it across the table to me before continuing her story from his perspective.
"Edwardâs immediate upset was very disheartening and now, with hindsight, probably should have been the first clue that this wouldn't work out. I wanted her to live, I wanted her to be happy. He was certain my actions would affect our lives negatively. I suppose, in a way he was just being selfish, though Iâd never tell him that.
âI think thatâs when the guilt set in. Iâd taken this young girl with her whole life ahead of her and cursed her with this life-â
I had to stop him. I said his name, the disbelief heavy in my voice. Despite this, he still smiled. âIt was a long time ago, Dove. Weâve all grown to think differently over time.â
âBut you still hold all of that guilt. I can see it. I donât think youâre being fair to yourself.â I was soft. I wanted to be comforting even if he swore he didnât need it.
 âIâve had many years to look at the whole picture. Every single one of them that Iâve turned, hate this life.â
âEmmett doesnâtâ I added.
He laughed, âNo, I guess not. Rose and Esme, on the other hand, never stopped longing for basic human desires. Edward still believes himself a monster. For a long time I couldnât help but blame myself for that.Â
âEventually I came around.â He mentioned quickly, soothing just a bit of my frustration. He continued, âRose continued to be so strong. She got her revenge on all the men who had hurt her all the while never tasting human blood.â He was clearly very proud, even if he didnât entirely approve.
âShe killed them?â I asked.
âShe didâŠâ
His grin didn't falter and for the first time this whole conversation, I smiled too. âGood for her.â I added.
He laughed. âI canât say I was necessarily excited for her to go out and kill them, but I couldnât fault her after what theyâd done. And she never considered leaving us. Even when I told her weâd have to leave New York, or that weâd have to change our names and abandon everything. She handled it all with grace and she never expressed an interest in going her own way. I offered her that choice and she laughed and politely declined.â The guilt on his face turned into fondness.
No matter what these kids did, he loved them more than anything. They were the reason he is the compassionate family man I knew and loved. I leaned across the bar and he met me in the middle for a quick kiss.
When I sat back still smiling at him, he finished the rest of the story. âI was very surprised when she brought Emmett to me. I never expected her to want to change another human, but she looked me in the eyes and said the very thing I had said to Edward about her. âI couldnât just let him die, it was too much.â
âHe surprised me too. Not only did he survive some gruesome injuries long enough for Rosalie to bring him to me, he also handled the transformation like a true fighter. He hardly called out and his heartbeat was strong and steady until the very end.â
âPerfectly matched, arenât they?â Like they were meant to find each other- as cheesy as that was.
âThey brought out the best in each other and, in turn, the best in our family. Iâd like to think that after all this time, Rose is content with her life. Even if she still wants more for the other still-human women in her lifeâ The way he put that was very pointed at me and Bella- I chose to let it be. Rosalie was allowed her opinions. I, of course, wasnât running headfirst into immortality, so most of her opinions were mostly directed at Bella.
 Sometimes though I still caught on to her lack of enthusiasm for my choices as well.
I was all too content in my life as it currently stood for any dramatic changes, so I let it be; he continued to talk about our family and the changes he began to see in Edward. He moved to sit next to me as I ate. I leaned closer to him as he finished.
I wanted to kiss him again. And this time I wanted to kiss him and get lost in it for a very long while.
But Carlisle froze in his spot. His eyes went wide before they squeezed shut. He had stopped breathing.
âWhen was this?â He waited a tiny second. âHow?â I wondered who was answering his questions and from where- and if it was the reason for his sudden change in demeanor.
His hands tightened slightly around mine and he pulled me up. âCarlisle?â
Without answering, he pulled me into the living room where Alice and Jasper sat perfectly frozen on the couch. I tried again, âWhat is-â
âItâs all right, Y/n.â I sighed impatiently at his interruption. I wondered if heâd forgotten I couldnât hear the other end, and at that point, had no idea what was going on, but I didnât speak again. I could tell just how wrong something was. Alice sat half in Jasper's lap, leaning against him like she needed the support. Her face was in her hands.
I wondered if she had a headache. I wondered if they could get headaches.Â
Jasper's powers danced in the air. I felt it swirl around me. I wished I could feel the calm it offered, but like always, I didnât. I nodded in thanks to him anyway.Â
Then Rosalie and Emmett came into the room. Rose sat next to Alice on the couch to offer her more support. Emmett stood causally on my other side. Though the reason was still unknown, his presence added a bit of comfort.
âAnother day, another crisisâŠâ Emmett joked and bumped me with his shoulder. Despite my panic, I managed a chuckle.
Carlisle hissed, âEmmett. Not now.â
He was angry- outraged really. I had never seen him like this and it really drove my worry home. I placed my hand on his arm. âCarlisle⊠What is going on?â
He softened immediately, as if he really had forgotten I couldnât have known. He pulled me closer to him. âIt will be fine.â
âEdward will be here soon. He wants you two to follow the scent.â Alice mumbled from her spot on the couch, vaguely gesturing to Emmett and Jasper.
âSure thing, Boss. Weâll be back.â He leaned forward to kiss Rosalie. Jasper followed him out the door.
Carlisle led me to the couch. âYou should sit.â I closed my eyes so I wouldnât roll them, but sat anyway. He stayed standing next to me.
I felt Alice get up from the couch at the same time Roseâs hand held mine. I turned towards her as another wave of panic hit me. Even Rosalie was trying to comfort me, but no one would explain what was going on.
A blanket of silence covered the room and it made me so uncomfortable I wanted to scream just to tear it apart. I almost did. I almost screamed the same question again, but then Edward was there next to Carlisle and Bella sat next to us.
And when Edward demanded to know what happened, Alice answered him.
âI have no idea. I didnât see anything.â She crossed her arms and chewed her lip. I couldnât tell who was more angry between the three of them, Carlisle, Edward or Alice. I just wished I knew why.
âHow is that possible?â His patience had clearly run out.
âEdward,â Bella said with quiet disapproval.
I, again, wanted to make them tell me something- anything, but Carlisle interjected before I got the chance. His voice was significantly calmer than before, as he tried to mediate. âItâs not an exact science, Edward.â
âHe was in their rooms, Alice. He could have still been there- waiting for them.â my brows furrowed. My heart rate accelerated.
âI would have seen that.â
Edward threw his hands up. I wanted to do the same. âReally? Youâre sure?â
I finally broke, âFor the love of god! Can anyone tell me what the fuck is going on?â Alice held back a laugh at my outburst, but it was Bella who finally answered my question.Â
âWhen Edward came over earlier, he noticed another vampire- we donât know who- had been in the house.â
I forgot to breathe, my eyes were locked on her. âDad-â
âIs okay. He was home but had no knowledge of the intruder. Whoever it was looked in every room, but mainly in yours and Bellaâs.â Edward filled me in on the rest, clearly very annoyed- or maybe just worried. He added, âAnd Alice missed it.â
I was suddenly freezing cold and shivering hard. Carlisle was next to me on the couch with both of his hands clasped around mine. I let myself lean into him.
Aliceâs voice was cold when she answered. âYouâve already got me watching the Volturisâ decisions, watching for Victoriaâs return, watching Bellaâs every step. Do you want me to watch Y/nâs too? Because we already know how well that will work. What about their rooms or the whole damn house? Edward, if I try to do too much, things are going to start slipping through the cracks.â
âIt looks like they already are,â he snapped.
Thatâs not fair, I thought but I couldnât make the words come out. Edward huffed a laugh.
Alice retorted, âShe was never in any danger.â By she, she meant Bella, I had been here. Of course I hadnât been in any danger, but it still sounded like she was trying to comfort both Edward and Carlisle. âThere was nothing to see.â
âIf you were watching Italy, why didnât you see them send-â
âI don't think it was them,â Alice insisted. âI would have seen that.â
âWho else would leave Charlie alive?â
I winced. Carlisle squeezed my hands. âWho else would have bothered with my room? No one has been interested in me before now.â
Alice sighed, âI donât know.â
âHelpful.â
âStop it, Edward.â Bella whispered. I wanted to thank her. He really was being unreasonable. His head jerked in her direction. He was still so angry he almost looked like he was going to yell at her too. I probably would have lost it, if Carlisle didnât have my hands.
But then he took a deep breath and relaxed a bit. âYouâre right, Bella. Iâm sorry.â He looked at Alice. âForgive me, Alice. I shouldnât be taking this out on you. That was inexcusable.â
âI understand,â Alice assured him. âIâm not happy about it either.â
âOkay, letâs look at this logically.â Edward took another deep breath. I was still shivering. âWhat are the other possibilities?â
As if on cue, everyone softened a bit. Carlisle kissed my hair and sat back leaving only one hand on mine. Rosalie got up and stared out the window. I wished I could comfort her.Â
Bella and I shared a long look. I was forever hoping she knew how happy I was to have her with me in this- even when it was awful like this. I knew I couldn't do it alone, so I was happy to have her at my side.
Carlisle spoke first. âVictoria?â
I shook my head. âSheâs never been interested in me before. Sheâs never even thought twice about me.â
âMaybe sheâs considering you an easier target now.â His voice was so soft, like he was tiptoeing past a bomb. He could probably tell I wanted to scream again.Â
âBut I didnât know the scent. He might have been from the Volturi, someone Iâve never metâŠâ
This time Alice shook her head. âAro hasnât sent anyone to look for them yet I will see that. Iâm waiting for it.â
Edwardâs head snapped up. I waited for him to be mean again, but he wasnât âYouâre watching for an official command.â
âYou think someoneâs acting on their own? Why?â Carlisle questioned so I didnât have to.
âCaiusâs idea,â Edward suggested. His panic cracked his resolve again.
âOr JaneâsâŠâ Alice added. â They both have the resources to send an unfamiliar faceâŠâ
Edward scowled. âAnd the motivation.â
âI donât see the point though. If they were meant to wait for me and Bella, Alice would have seen it. Obviously they had no intention of hurting us- or Dad for that matter.â I said. A small part of my panic turned to basic confusion.Â
Bella winced when I mentioned Dad again. I pulled away from Carlisle to hug her while whispering, "It's going to be fine, Bella." It had to be.
"The question remains, What was the point?" Carlisle asked. I was glad he understood my confusion.Â
"Checking to see if we're still human"Â
"It's possible, and would explain why they checked Y/n too."
Rosalie sighed and it was loud enough to make me and Bella jump from across the room. For the first time since the boys left she turned away from the window and looked towards the kitchen. I guessed that Emmett and Jasper were back, and from the annoyed look on Edwards face, they didn't have an answer he wanted.
"Long gone, hours ago." Emmett announced, disappointed. Rosalie moved to his side and he threw an arm over her shoulder. "The trail went east, then south, and disappeared on a side road. Had a car waiting."
"That's bad luck," Edward muttered. "If he'd gone west⊠well, it would be nice for Jacob and the others to make themselves useful."
I kinda wanted to laugh, it always sounded silly when Edward tried to insult Jacob, But Bella winced at his words so I didn't. I just rubbed her back between her shoulders.
Jasper looked at Carlisle. "Neither of us recognized him. But here." He held out something that looked similar to a tree, just a small tree. I wanted to laugh again. When Carlisle took it from him and held it to his face, I did laugh. He turned his head just slightly away from me to hold back a laugh as well. "Maybe you know the scent."
"No," Carlisle said, serious again. "It's not familiar. No one I've ever met."
"I mean⊠Hypothetically, couldn't it just be some random passing vampire?" Everyone turned to look at me like I'd lost it, so I added "Of course not in that they just happened to pick our house to drop in randomly. Just maybe this person was a bit curious. All of your scents are all over us. Maybe they wanted to know why."
"Why wouldn't they just come here then? If they were curious?" Emmett challenged.
I laughed softly. "Not everyone is as brave as you can be, Emmett. But from an outside perspective, our family is huge and consists of mainly gifted vampires. They might be a bit intimidated. Dad wasn't hurt. They didn't stick around for us to get home. It could be someone who's just passing through. Someone who caught our scents and wanted to see what was going on.â
I think I was trying to convince myself that there was no immediate threat. It was an easier pill to swallow that someone was passing through rather than someone with malicious intent. I looked at Bella for backup, but she looked like she was plotting. I didn't want to know what was running circles in her mind.
"I don't think so, Y/nâŠ" Alice interjected, pursing her lips. "The timing of it was too perfect⊠This visitor was so careful to make no contact. Almost like they knew I would seeâŠ"
I shivered again, pulled completely out of my false sense of security. I knew it was improbable. I knew they were trying to get to the bottom of this. Deep down, I knew that this person definitely had bad intentions.
But I had to hope, if only so I wouldnât start screaming.
Carlisle squeezed my hand. "He might have had other reasons for avoiding contact." He reminded her and reassured me. I smiled at him in thanks. He kissed my hand.
"Does it really matter who it was?" Bella asked and I squeezed my eyes closed and placed my head on Carlisle's shoulder. "Just the chance that someone was looking for me⊠isn't that reason enough? We shouldn't wait for graduation."
"No, Bella," Edward and I said in unison. I didn't look up.
He continued. "It's not that bad. If you're really in danger, we'll know."
"Think of Charlie," Carlisle reminded her. I could kiss him. "Think of how it would hurt him if you disappeared."
"I am thinking of Charlie! He's the one I'm worried about. What if our little guest had been thirsty last night? As long as I'm around Charlie- as long as we're both still human- He's a target too."
"Nothing is going to happen to Dad, Bells. He's lived in this supernatural infested town long enough without problems." I tried to sound comforting.
"His daughters weren't bringing them to his house then." She clearly wasn't comforted.
"We're just going to have to be more careful." Edward added. He had faith in our family. That was comforting; at least to me.
"More careful?" Bella repeated in disbelief.
"It's all going to be fine, Bella," Alice Promised.
Bella sat back, accepting we wouldn't budge no matter how much she begged. That night at least, she would stay human.
~~
I drove home early the next morning, but I still managed to miss Dad on his way out. Bella said that he was gone before she woke up too and, knowing him, he probably left before the sun was even up.
I walked into the kitchen to find Bella and Edward discussing why he had to leave just because Jacob is stopping by. I rolled my eyes at the cliche, but appreciated Edwards diplomatic approach.
I did wonder just how far he planned to go. I doubted he would leave us completely alone, but I also knew he wouldn't stay close enough for Jacob to know. I assumed that he would lurk back with Jasper, but stay ready to spring into action if need be. He nodded once in my direction with just the tiniest smirk on his lips and I knew I had guessed correctly.
He turned his attention back to Bella. "I'll be right back." I heard him laugh as she walked him to the door.
I figured it was as good a time as any to pick Bella's brain a bit about Jacob; Even if it meant I had to interrupt her grumpy grumbling as she cleaned the kitchen.
"Hey, Bells?"
She jumped and nearly dropped the glass she was placing in the sink. "Y/n! I thought you'd gone back upstairs."
"Nope⊠Still down here." I giggled. and waited a small second for her to get her breathing right. When she smiled at me I continued, "So, why is Jacob coming over?"
"He wants to check our rooms for the scent of that vampireâŠ" I cringed at how nonchalant she said it. "And I decided to forgive him. For what he said beforeâŠ"
I didn't mention that she never told me what he'd said before, I knew it wasn't kind. I let it go. "I think⊠I guess it wouldn't hurt to have their help in this too." I pulled my lips into a line and she nodded. "Though, it would be much easier if they could just get along- if the three of you could get along in general." I paused to gauge her reaction but when she laughed so did I.
"Wouldn't it?" She bit her lip and looked at the dishes in the sink. I thought for a second that she was going to say something more, but she didn't. She got lost in her thoughts and I didn't want to bother her again. She focused back on the dishes and I started to help by putting away what was already clean.
There was a kinda demanding knock at the door and before I could go answer it, Bella was calling for Jacob to come in. I wanted to vanish. It's not that I had anything against him, I just didn't trust myself to not tell them to get over themselves.Â
Despite just telling him to come in, she still jumped when he spoke. "Should you really leave your door unlocked like that?" And when he noticed he made her splash dish water on herself, he added "Oh, sorry."
"It's not like a locked door would stop anything after us anyway." I said while she tried to dry the front of her shirt.
"Oh⊠Good point, Y/n," He agreed before adding, "I didn't see you there."
I had to laugh. "That seems to be pretty common." I nodded.
Bella squinted her eyes, like she was judging him, clearly in her own world. "Is it really so impossible to wear clothes, Jacob?"
I laughed out loud. If they were going to discuss Jacobs nakedness, I definitely did not need to be in the room. I left them to talk and, for the first time in the hours since I'd gotten home, I went upstairs.Â
I hesitated by my bedroom door. I knew that no one would be in there and yet, I couldn't make myself open the door. I stood there and looked at it and even reached for the handle, but that was as far as I got.Â
Instead, I turned on my heels and walked down to Dads room. His door was already open and, of course, he was not inside. His bed wasn't made, but his room wasn't messy. It smelled like him- Warm, musky, and dusty. It smelled like home. I wondered how much it smelled like him to the others if it smelled this strongly to my human nose.
He'd never lived anywhere else in his adult life. He probably smelled like this place. It was probably one in the same. I heard Jacob's heavy footsteps as he stomped up the stairs. I laid on Dads bed in an attempt to stay out of his way.Â
It was comforting in a way I hadn't really expected. Like how it was when I was a child and I'd run in there to hide from the monsters under my bed- Only this time there really had been a monster in there. I shivered and pulled his blanket up around my face. I couldn't let myself cry; I knew I wouldn't be able to stop.
It wasn't long before Jacob poked his head in anyway. He was quiet then he kinda took a sharp breath. "Hey, Y/n. I didn't know you were in here-" I laughed, he continued. "This rooms clear- No vamps in here. Is this Charlie's room?"
I nodded.
"That's good. That they didn't come in hereâŠ" He looked across the hall towards the other rooms. "Your room reeks though. Like they were in there for a while. Touched a lot of stuff too, like they were looking for something."
I stared at him, eyes wide open. "I-" I wanted to scream again.
"But it's good! âCause I can really smell them in there. Bella's room reeks of Cullen, so it's hard to get only this new one. But it being all over your room⊠helps." I knew he was- however unsuccessfully, trying to calm me down.
I sighed and smiled softly at him. "Thank you Jacob."
He grinned wide. "No problem! Hey uh⊠Sam asked if I would mention that he needs to speak with you."
"Of course he doesâŠ" I shook my head, already annoyed.
"There's a bonfire tonight. You could come-"
"I couldn't." Mostly because I didn't want to deal with Sam, but also I didn't want to impose. "I've got plans with Carlisle."
"Sure. Sure. But could you at least call Sam so he'll get off my back?"
"I'll consider it."
He grinned again. "Thanks, Y/n!"
Then he left before he said anything else. I threw myself back on the bed. I didn't want to go back down there while Jacob was still there and as soon as he left I heard Edward get back. So I stayed in my dads bed trying to convince myself to go into my own room.
Eventually I decided to just rip the bandage off. I walked to my room and again, hesitated by the door. Only this time, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and swung the door open on the exhale.
Jacob was right. My room was a mess. It was honestly so much worse than I could have expected. My dresser drawers were open. The closet was open and missing some of its contents. Even my laundry basket was knocked over.Â
But what shocked me the most- My entire bed sheet and my pillows were gone.
For a long moment I was just frozen in the doorway, staring at the mess my bedroom had become. I didn't notice how bad I was shaking. I kept thinking I wanted to clean up my room but it was too overwhelming.Â
Whoever this was, was in my room. They went through all of my things. They stole my bedsheet. And I could not fathom why. I think that's what scared me the most.
All this time, even though I had been running with them too, the rogue vampires only wanted Bella. So I didn't understand why they were suddenly interested in me.
I stood there for a long while until I couldn't handle it anymore. I went far enough into my room to set my laundry basket up right. One of the only things still in it was one of Carlisle's sweaters- A navy blue one he'd worn when we'd gone to the library. He swore it looked better on me and he didn't need it anyway. I agreed to take it because it smelled like home. It still smelled like him.
I threw it over my head, decided the mess could wait, and went downstairs to meet up with Bella and Edward.
As I drifted downstairs, Bella was explaining to Edward why she thought Alice had cleaned her room. "-that was lying around, my shirts, my socks, and I don't know where she put them."
As I approached Edward went rigged.Â
âNo, I think Y/n is right. When did you notice your things were missing?"
"When I got back from the fake slumber partyâŠ"
Then Edward looked at me, which made Bella look at me. My eyes went wide and I guessed that he wanted me to answer the same question. "Oh⊠I-I haven't been home. So. Today? My bed sheet is gone and some of my clothesâŠ"
I hadn't considered that maybe it was Alice, but Bella was known for not looking at the whole picture. I didn't think that made much sense anyway.
Edward shook his head. "I don't think Alice took anything. Not your clothes, or your bed sheet. The things that were taken, these were things that you'd worn⊠and touched⊠and slept on?"
"Yes. What is it, Edward?" I didn't know how she hadn't pieced it together yet.
I couldn't tell if Edward was angry or confused. Or both. "Things with your scent?"
"Oh!"  She breathed and I knew it clicked for her. They stared at each other for a while and If I didn't know better, I would have thought he was reading her mind. âThe visitorâŠâ she muttered.
âHe was gathering traces⊠evidence. To prove that heâd found the both of you?â
Again, I found myself at a loss for why.
Bella actually whispered, âWhy?â
âI donât know. But, Bella, I swear I will find out. I will.â
âIt also doesnât make sense. Why did they clean up Bellaâs room and tear mine apart? Why do they care about me at all?â My questions were mostly rhetorical. I knew there weren't any real answers yet.
He was kind enough to entertain me anyway. âYouâre right, I have no idea why their focus has extended to you as well. But the state of your room makes a bit of sense⊠Your scent is hard enough to trace as it is , but if you havenât been sleeping here and because you always smell like Carlisle- I would guess he couldnât find a solid trace of you-â
âAnd then he got frustrated and trashed my room?â
âMaybe. Itâs just a running theory. I will bring it up with Carlisle.â
Bella sighed and laid her head on his chest. I was already overwhelmed and Iâd only dealt with it for a day. I didnât know how they had managed it for so long.
Edward pulled his phone out right as it started ringing, only briefly checking the number. âJust the person I need to talk to,â Once he answered my heart started to race a bit. âCarlisle, I-â
I could hear his voice over the phone. It was low and fast. Edward looked very focused. I hoped nothing else was falling apart. âIâll check it out. ListenâŠâÂ
He went on to explain mine and Bellaâs missing things, though it sounded like he was just as confused as we were. Carlisle sounded very concerned about my situation. I wished I could kiss him.
âMaybe Iâll goâŠâ His eyes drifted to Bella. âMaybe not. Donât let Emmett go alone, you know how he gets. At least ask Alice to keep an eye on things. Weâll figure this out later.â
Carlisle said something made Edward look at me. âYeah. Iâll have Jasper go with her. I think thatâs a good idea. Iâll talk to you soon.â He got off the phone, sent a quick message to Jasper I guessed, then turned to Bella. "Where's the paper?" he asked her.
"Uhm, I'm not sure. Why?"
"I need to see something. Did Charlie already throw it out?"
"MaybeâŠ"
Then he was gone and I looked at Bella to see if she had any idea what was going on. I don't think she did. Half a second later, Edward reappeared with Jasper in tow. Despite my utter confusion I smiled warmly at Jasper.
"Hey, Y/n. Carlisle asked if I could bring you to meet him at the hospital." I wasn't sure how it would work or why exactly he wanted me to meet him there but I was more than willing to go. So I just nodded and he grinned. Any ideas to call Sam and see what he wanted went out the window.
"I'll-... just need to grab some things." I walked upstairs before anyone said anything more to me. I heard them resume making plans, I really just had to grab my keys and bag from Dads room. I couldn't even look into my own room again.Â
I went back into the kitchen and they were still talking, but I only caught the end of it. "I'll have to tell you soon. When there's time. It's a bit lengthyâŠ"
She sighed and set her head on the table "What a mess."
Both of the guys chuckled softly before Jasper turned towards me. "Ready?"
"SureâŠ"
I said my goodbyes to the others. I told Bella I loved her and then we drove to the hospital in silence. He drove my car with the windows rolled down, so it wasn't terribly awkward. I thought that the windows being down might help ease some of his tension, and he was breathing so I figured I'd guessed right.
Though it was a bit strange, I was grateful he was willing to bring me to Carlisle. When we pulled up to the main entrance, I thanked him before I got out.
"It's really no problem, Y/n." He was the perfect southern gentleman as always. "I'll drive your car to the house. Carlisle will probably want you to come home with him anyway."
"You're right. Thank you⊠again."Â
He laughed, "Of course. One last thing⊠When I tell Bella my story, I'd like for you to be there as well. I think it might help clear some things up."
"Oh! Sure. We can make that happen."
"Alright. Then I'll see you later?" He gave me another crooked smile and I got out of the car. I thanked him again and he just laughed and drove towards his house.Â
I went straight to Carlisle's office. The receptionist was expecting me and informed me that Carlisle was in a meeting, but should be done quickly. I sat in his office chair and pulled the sleeves of his sweater around my hands before laying my head down on his desk.Â
He really didn't take long- Five, ten minutes tops- and when he was finally in the room he crouched down right in front of me.
"Are you alright, Dove?" His voice was heavy with concern. He placed a steady hand just above my knee.
"I'm okay- overwhelmed, but okay." I moved my head from his desk and rested it instead against his forehead.
"I am so sorry, Y/n. I'm going to get to the bottom of this."
My heart broke for him. "I know you will." I whispered. I smiled softly at him to really express my point and when he pulled back to look into my eyes, I kissed him. It was really cathartic. All I wanted to do was wrap myself up in him and hide from whatever was after us this time. Kissing him felt like I could do just that.
Remembering where we were, I eventually did pull back. "How much longer do you need to stay here today?"
"We're actually good to go now. They'll call if I'm needed, but I don't imagine they will. I thought we both would feel a bit better if you were here with me. He brushed my hair back and kissed me quickly before he added "If I'm being honest, I think I would feel significantly better if you were with me more consistently." There were a lot of implications in his tone but my brain was too cloudy to decipher his meaning.
When he saw how confused I was he continued. "If you were willing⊠If you wanted, I would be elated if you moved in with me."
As his words processed my eyes went wide. I held up one finger so I could think. I believe he chuckled and told me to take my time, but I couldn't be sure; I was too focused.
I spent most of my time at his house, moving in with him wouldn't be a huge change- if it didn't feel like a huge change. It felt official. I wasn't ready for marriage and I think most would agree that for our particular circumstances, marriage could wait.Â
But I did want to live with him. I knew that meant living in a house full of vampires, but they were my vampires. I wondered how they would feel about living with me. I hoped it wouldn't bother them too badly. I hoped it wouldn't be unbearable for Jasper.
Because I really wanted to live with them. I thought about my Dad. Bella would also move out in a few short weeks. If I moved out, he would be alone. I'm sure he knew we'd move out at some point. I still felt guilty that it was now. For now at least, I wouldn't be far.
And I wanted this.
I wanted this.
I wanted this.Â
I felt my cheeks warm as I blushed. I smiled at him and realized he was speaking again. His sentences were jumbled and he hardly put spaces between each word.
"-you do not have to. I know that we've only just gotten back and I would completely understand if this is too soon. I just want you to be safe and comfortable-"
"Carlisle." He froze and saw the smile on my face. He almost cracked a smile too. "I want to. If you're serious, I would love to move in with you."
For a second, he looked like he was processing. I gave him the time he needed, just as he had with me. When it cleared he held my face in his hands and kissed me. I melted into him immediately.
Sure, we would have to tell my dad eventually, but for right that second I could just focus on him. Whatever came next we would face it together.
~~
I caught Dad right before he went to work one morning, though he was already in uniform and only had to lace up his shoes. I floated down the stairs just before he could reach for the door handle.Â
I took a deep breath and rushed the words out, âHey, really quick before you go⊠I was kinda thinking about moving in with Carlisle.â
He raised his eyebrows and turned to look at me. I couldnât quite read his expression. âOh, really? When?â
âI-I. Well, he asked me- a few days ago now. And I thought about it and decided I really did want to, so-â I stammered my way through my response a bit taken off guard. Thankfully he interrupted me with a laugh.
âNo, Y/n, I mean when were you planning on moving out?â
âOhâŠâ I didnât know. I hadnât really thought past telling him. I'd basically already had started living there, without out-right saying it. "Most of my things are there, so I guess now." I waited for him to react, but he just nodded.
"Will You need help with your furniture? I'm sure Bella won't mind if we use her truck."
"No, No. I think I can leave most of it here⊠If that's okay with you." I threw the last bit out in a rush. I didn't want to assume I could.
"Of course, Kid. It's not like I've got plans to turn your room into an at home gym. You'll always have a space here."
I bit my lip, suddenly fighting back tears. "You're not mad?"
"Mad? Why would I be mad?" His confusion was genuine.Â
"IâŠ" I took a steady breath. " I just thought you might still be upset that they left. I mean they havenât been back that long and I wasnât sure youâd be ecstatic about me moving in with him right now⊠And also you havenât been alone in a long long time so-â
âY/n, Honey, Itâs okay. He crossed the room to wrap me in a tight hug. âItâs not like you're moving to a different country; youâre just going across town. I want you to be happy, I want you to start your life.â
He leaned back and smiled at me before wiping a tear from my check. I wasnât sure when Iâd started crying. He continued, âNow I wonât lie to you and say that Iâm all that excited for you to get this serious so soon after they hurt you but- I do trust your judgment. I know youâll be okay.â
I nodded and said, âYouâre right, I will be.â then quickly asked, âWill you be alright?â
He laughed. âI will be alright, too. And, in the worst case, you can always come back.â
It was my turn to laugh. I pulled into him again and hid my face in his chest. âI love you, Dad.â
It's Finally Here!!!! I can not apologize enough for how long this took to get out. But here it is! I hope you love it.
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 6,235
Warnings- Vampires- and all the things that go along with vampires (blood, biting, age gaps, sparkling, dramatics) a lot more swearing this time. There's some minor injuries and some very minor character death. mentions of vomiting (2 actual vomits, due to injury) Battle, fighting and planning. It's all very happy I promise.
There is no imprinting and there never will be <3
Notes from me- My name is Claire and this! This is finally my third love child. I started writing this on the 27th of July in 2022. I lost hope a few times but it's here and I hope you love it. Thank you, so so much for staying with me.
As always, I DO NOT own The Twilight Saga. All rights go directly to S. Meyer.
Read on AO3 <3
Masterlist <3 (Ch 3, Ch 4)
I love you <3 Thank you for still being here <3
Carlisleâs Point Of View
The more people we took out, the harder it became. They didnât see us coming. They were barely trained. Some of them were only children.
Yet, I didnât hesitate.
Their numbers were dwindling, they had to know then that they were going to lose. I watched as most of them decided to go down fighting but out of the corner of my eye, I saw a shadow dart back into the trees. In any other circumstance, I might have let her go, but she was heading towards the path that would lead her to Y/n.
I had her pinned to the ground before she made it too far into the trees. I cradled her in my arms, facing her away from me. She was so small. I actually did pause.
âPlease!â She sobbed. Though it didnât sound like she was pleading for her life, I couldnât bring myself to end her at all after it.
I twisted her out of my arms and launched her into a tree. If sheâd run again, I would have stopped her and ended it, but she crumpled in on herself. She was backed into a tree analyzing me too.
âPlease,â she said again. âI donât want to fight.â
She wasnât begging because she wanted to live; she wanted this to be over. She wanted to die. It caught me off guard, but I stayed ready. âNeither do I, child.â Â She was only a child. I wanted to be kind, even if these were her last moments. âWeâre only defending ourselves.â
She seemed shocked by this. âWe didnât know,â She explained. âRiley lied. Iâm sorry.â
I was truly frozen.
If I could spare her, shouldnât I try? I didnât wish this girl any harm, but I had my family to consider. I could accept her surrender, but would they? I wouldnât put Y/n at risk by bringing her into our home. But she was shaking and she was a child. So I couldnât kill her. I crouched in front of her. She flinched back.
âI will not harm you. I never wanted to harm any of you.â I said with as much kindness as I could muster. âWill you surrender to us? If you do not try to harm us, we promise I will not harm you.â
She didnât hesitate. She nodded over and over very quickly. âYes,â she whispered, âYes, I surrender. I donât want to hurt anybody.â
And I believed her. I held out my hand and helped her to her feet. âWeâll go meet with the others now⊠What is your name?â
âOh.â She still held on to my hand. âBree.â
I smiled and nodded. âBree, let my family regroup for a moment, then weâll have some questions for you. If you answer them honestly, you have nothing to fear.â I didnât like threatening her, but I didnât want her to assume my guard was down. Where Y/n was involved, my guard would never be down.
We talked towards the clearing but Jasper met us before we got too far.Â
âCarlisle?â He was just checking on me but as soon as he saw her he was ready to attack.
I held out my hand. I said his name but it sounded more like a warning than Iâd met for it to. He stared at me like Iâd lost it. For a second, I thought that I had.
âWhatâs going on?â
âShe doesnât want to fight. Sheâs surrendered.â
Though he was still hesitant, he did fall back. âIâm sorry, but thatâs not possible. We canât have any of the newborns associated with us when the Volturi come.â
âJasper, sheâs only a child.â I understood where he was coming from, but I couldnât kill her myself. I trusted him to stand by my choice, at least to that point.
âItâs our family on the line here, Carlisle. We canât afford to have them think we broke this rule.â
âThey wonât. I know how they think. If they assume sheâs one of ours, it might be the only chance she has. If they still dislike it, theyâll just kill her to punish us.â
He really thought about that for a moment but wasnât convinced. âThis is too dangerous.â
I took a step towards him and placed my hand on his shoulder. âYou know I canât kill her. I have to give her a chance. Sheâs just a child.â
He glared at me, but he sighed. I almost smiled at him.
âI donât like this. At least let me take charge of her. You donât know how to deal with someone whoâs been running wild for so long.â
âSure.â I smiled at him then. âThough I handled you well enough.â He glared at me again with no actual malice behind it.
âWe need to be with the others. Alice said we donât have long.â
I scanned the sky above the trees to find a distant and familiar plume of smoke. I prayed to whatever would listen that she was okay.
Y/nâs Point Of View
Seth continued to nudge me with his nose until I locked eyes with him. I wiped my mouth with my sleeve. I couldnât look up for long before the world started spinning again and I had to put my head between my knees.
I could feel the shock setting in. I tried to focus on Sethâs breathing, and Bella and Edwardâs hushed conversation, and the crackle of the fire. But when I remembered what was burning, I threw up again.
I heard Seth walk away only to come back a moment later accompanied by the sound of plastic. I opened my eyes just barely as he sat down a bottle of water.
I chuckled, âThank you.â I wasnât sure I could make myself drink it, but I was still grateful heâd brought it to me.
Next to it he also set down a set bandage wrap, which I could only guess were for my head. I didnât exactly know how to dress a head wound, but I figured anything was better than bleeding out. Carlisle could fix it later.
Just as I thought his name, I felt as if I could breathe a bit easier. The fight would have to be over there too. Edward wouldnât be so calm if it wasnât, or if someone had been hurt. I knew I was probably in shock but I could breathe a bit easier knowing it was over- really and truly over.
I took a small sip of the water he brought me. It was so cold it hurt my teeth but it was still warmer than the snow. When it didnât immediately hurt my stomach I took another, larger sip. That was all I could handle.
As I put the cap back on- Sethâs body went rigid and he sharply turned to Edward.
âWhatâs she doing?â Edward asked and Seth whined. I could only tear my eyes from them for a second to find Bella, who was horror struck. Everything passed in slow motion. She didn't look like she was breathing. Edward dropped to his knees. Seth howled, though it sounded more like a scream. It was so loud and broken, my ears were ringing.
âEdward! Edward,â Bella sounded so distant though she was still in the same spot just kneeling in front of Edward. From the pain in his face I knew it was bad.
I tried to sit up- to move closer but I was still bleeding and I didnât want to make things worse. Seth winced and howled again. It took everything in me not to call out to them.
âWhatâs happening?â
âWeâre fine, weâre going to be okay,â Edward gasped. âSam- Help him.â
Something like relief washed over me. It wasnât relief, but he was using the pack plural, which meant Carlisle was safe and the danger wasnât here. I wasnât relieved because the agony on Edwardâs face meant that something had happened to Jacob.
Bella either hadnât caught on to that part or her panic was masked by the shock. She had started to melt. Edward easily caught her. While supporting Bella at his side, he moved towards me.
I tried to get his attention. âIâm bleedingâŠâ
âItâs okay, Y/nâ He held up a hand like he was trying to assure me. âItâs okay.â
I nodded and he looked at my head wound for a brief second before wrapping it. âCarlisle will need to clean it, but you might not need stitches.â
I had to close my eyes as he wrapped my head. He pulled it tight. It almost hurt. I didnât say anything more.
âSeth!â Edward shouted. I hoped nothing had gotten worse. âNo! You go straight home. Now. As fast as you can!â
Seth cried soft and low. My chest tightened.
âSeth, Trust me. Iâve got them.â
Them, I thought. He was going to carry both of us. I opened my eyes wide. The wolf starred Edward down for one second longer before taking off.
âEdward?â I forced his name out. âWhatâs-â
âI need you to hold on. Can you do that?â I didnât know if I could. âY/n, I have to carry Bella. I need you to hold on to me.â
I was terrified, I was weak, but for Bella, I could do this. I nodded.
He tried to smile at me. âGood. Weâll be with Carlisle soon.â That was a comfort, at least.
Before I knew what was happening I was on his back. I was grateful that I couldnât choke him, because I used all of my remaining strength to wrap my arms around his neck and hold on. I hid my face in his shoulder so I wouldnât see the world zoom past us.
âEdward,â Her voice sounded so broken I thought she actually did know something had happened to Jacob. âWhat happened, Edward? What happened to Sam? Where are we going? Whatâs happening?â
âWe have to go back to the clearing,â Â His voice was distant. âThere was always a chance, but when it became clear we passed the message to Seth and Sam. The Volturi decided it was time to intercede.â
If they were coming, theyâd seek out all of us. It was better not to make it a challenge for them. The last thing we wanted at this point was another fight. As Edward explained it to Bella she made a strange sound. I wondered what she was putting together.
He tried to soothe her, âItâs all going to be fine. Alice can see that.â
âThe pack?â
âThey had to leave quickly. The Volturi do not honor truce with werewolves.â
I knew he was running out of places to divert her questions. She was going to put together that Jacob was hurt. She wouldnât take it well. He hadnât taken it well. My heart broke for them.
She got desperate. She begged him to tell her. I almost told her myself but he finally explained it all in hushed tones. âThe pack missed a single newborn. It was over, they were cleaning up. Alice couldnât have seenâŠâ
âWhat happened?!â She tried again.Â
âLeah got cocky. I imagine she was trying to prove something to Sam. She went after him by herself.â
âLeah,â she repeated, sounding relieved. I hoped he couldnât hear the way it broke my heart. âIs she going to be okay?â
âLeah wasnât hurtâ He forced the words out.
He told her we were almost to the clearing. I risked a glance at the clear sky. When I saw the smoke I felt sick and hid my face again.
She asked him again to tell her who was hurt. It took him a long time to answer. I knew it hurt him just as much to say it. But she needed to know, if she hadnât figured it out already.
âJacob,â He said.
âOf course.â It was all forced.Then it was silent.
I think she passed out. I almost thought to check, but I could tell we were still moving and I could still smell the smoke from before, So I kept my eyes squeezed closed. Weâd slowed significantly anyway. I hoped it was almost over.
As soon as I thought the words though, we did stop. And before I could react I was being pulled off of Edwards back and into Carlisle's arms.
He breathed my name. It was so light I almost missed it. I buried my face in his chest. He held me there until he noticed my bandage- or he smelled the blood, I couldnât be sure.
âYouâre hurt.â
âOnly a little. Edward said it might not need stitchesâŠâ My voice was cracked and broken.
He kissed my forehead and gave me a firm look, âI will look at it when we are home.â though his eyes said he wouldnât let me down play this.
He didnât let go of my hand and he led me over to where Edward had set Bella down.
Edward confirmed my earlier suspicions. âShe fainted after I told her about him.â He didnât need to specify, the pain in his face said it all. âSheâs still unresponsive.â
âSheâs going to wake up in a moment, Edward.â Alice called from somewhere. I couldnât tell where.
At the same time, Carlisle assured him, âItâs just the shock. I imagine theyâll both have to recover from it tonight.â
I wanted to lie and say I was alright. I wanted them to focus on her, but I remembered the way he looked at me just a moment before and thought better of it. Carlisle held Bellaâs wrist and checked his watch.
Once heâd assured Edward again that there was no cause for concern, I asked them âHowâs Jacob.â
I regretted it as soon as I saw Edward's face. Through Jacob and the pack's thoughts I knew he had felt his pain, but there was something more than pain there.
âHeâll fully recover.â He was answering my question while comforting his son. Edwardâs shoulders relaxed a bit.
I grabbed Bellaâs hand. âDid you hear that, Love? Carlisle said heâs going to be okay.â Her hand tightened in mine.Â
Alice confirmed that Bella could probably hear us.Â
âWeâre out of danger now. Weâre safe.â I tried. There was a break in my voice.
Edward tried telling her again that Jacob is healing already and he and Carlisle would go check on his progress as soon as they could. She could barely whisper Edward's name when she opened her eyes. She asked again if Jacob was okay.
âI examined him myself,â Carlisle confirmed. She took in every word he said. I smiled encouragingly at him. âHis life is not in any danger. It will take a few days for him to be completely recovered- his injuries were⊠extensive. But he will recover. Sam and Paul got to him quickly. They took him home so they could help him recover. Once he phases back and we're done here, Iâll be able to do a full assessment.â
âHeâll be back to normal?â She asked Edward this time.
He nodded, âYes, Bella. He wonât have any permanent damage.â She didnât look convinced. She looked like she wanted to run and check on him herself, but Alice announced that we only had three minutes until the Volturi arrived.
It never felt like there was enough time.Â
We got Bella on her feet, albeit mostly supported by Edward. Carlisle and I moved to the middle of our family. He looked towards the opposite side of the clearing. I wondered if they could see them yet.
Though my thoughts were interrupted by a shrill scream that came for a small girl I hadnât noticed Jasper was guarding. Carlisle left my side for a moment to aid Jasper. I just watched in stunned silence.
âShe surrendered,â Edward told me and Bella. âOnly Carlisle would think of offering. Jasper doesnât approve.â
I couldnât say that I did either, not with Bell this close to her, but she was just a girl. Of course Carlisle would offer. She barely looked 16. He was patient when he spoke with her. He reminded her that our family wouldnât hurt her.
She wanted Bella, of course. She hadnât even noticed me. I was grateful again for my relative invisibility.
âSelf control is possible and it is the only thing that will save you now.â He continued.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell her to hold on and that it would get easier, but it was better that she didnât notice me. And I didnât want to give her false hope.
I had to look away from her as Carlisle returned to me. He took my hand and kissed my temple. He was positioned in front of me. Alice was in between me and Bella and Edward was just in front of Bella. The rest of our family formed a united front around us. Only Jasper stayed back to guard the girl- or to guard us from her.
I shuddered.
I almost felt safe, but there was still something dark looming over us. I could hardly stand the silence by the time a group of people in gray cloaks appeared on the other side of the fire.
âHmmâ
Though my knowledge of vampires outside of the Cullens was limited to Riley and Victoria and now this newborn, I could tell this Jane girl was powerful. I knew enough about her to fear her even before I saw her. The men behind her werenât as intimidating, but I knew better than to underestimate any of them.
Edward welcomed her and she pushed the hood off of her head. In one fluid motion the others did too. It was eerie the way they moved in sync with each other.
âI donât understand.â Her voice was like a song while utterly uninterested. Her eyes were locked on the girl.
âShe surrendered.â Edward said again.
âShe was never given a choice, I thought, if she ceased her attack on our family, the right thing to do would be to give her a chance.â Carlisle explained.
âThat is irrelevant,â Jane pressed.
He was tense, but unsurprised. âI understand.â
âWell I must say,â she seemed annoyed. âI never expected you to be able to clean this up, and walk away unharmed. How many made it here? With the destruction Iâd think about thirty?â
âThere were eighteen, including the girl. All of them were untrained.â He answered.
âAll newborns? Who created them?â
âHer name was Victoria.â Edward answered  this time he nodded towards the pillar of smoke up the mountain. It looked much farther away than I would have thought possible.Â
âI am to assume you took care of her then, Edward?âÂ
âI did. And the boy she was with.â His tone was harsher than hers. Where she sounded bored, he sounded irritated.
âHmm, twenty. Iâm impressed.â I followed her eyes as he looked at the girl by Jasper. âYou there⊠Your name.âÂ
Jane smiled at the girl and I couldnât take my eyes off her face. Before she could answer, she was writhing on the ground. Her screams were the only answer she gave. I looked at Carlisle who only winced, then to Bella for some kind of answer as to what was going on. She looked equally remorseful. Then it was quiet.
âYour name,â Jane repeated.
âBree,â the girl gasped.
Janeâs smile grew and Bree screamed again. I pulled closer into Carliseâs shoulder- his grip tightened on my hand. I wondered if heâd tell me what was happening later. I wondered if I even wanted to know.
Bree explained what she could remember, after she was able to stop screaming. She agreed that there were around twenty of them, that Riley had âtrainedâ them to look for me and Bella. It was the first time she looked at me, but she wasnât as crazed as she was before.
âBut why? What did this Riley want with these humans?â Jane was almost confused, beyond her amusement.
âHe said that the yellow-eyed vampires would kill us if they knew we existed. He said it was only a matter of time before they tracked us down and all he wanted was to live in peace. He said it would be an easy fight, and once weâd won we could keep their prizes for ourselves.â Her words made my skin crawl. âBut he said our minds werenât safe. He said we couldnât know who created us and we couldnât know any plans because once we did they could use it to destroy us.â
âIt looks like Riley was wrong about the easy part,â Jane added.
Bree nodded. I was grateful whatever Jane was doing to her had stopped so she could speak. âEverything happened so quickly. Riley never came with us. I didnât want to fight. That oneâ she nodded towards where Carlisle and I stood. I looked at the snow below our shoes, trying to fade into the background. âsaid they wouldnât hurt me if I stopped fighting.â
âAh but that wasnât his to offer, young one.â Her voice was gentle. It was still unnerving. âAgain Iâll admit that Iâm rather impressed. The odds were stacked against you and yet here you all stand, unscathed. Though, I canât say Iâm terribly surprised Bella and Y/n are at the center of this.â I hated the way she said our names- like she was just trying to prove they knew them.Â
âVictoria held a grudge against Bella,â Edward said in lieu of an actual explanation.
She laughed like she understood anyway. âThey do seem to bring out the wildest reactions of our kind. Her gaze met mine and I completely froze. âIt is a pleasure to meet you, Y/n. Aro will be quite disappointed he didnât get the chance.â
âYouâll have to give him our regards.â Carlisle said.
âOf course.â Jane smiled at him. This time my grip tightened on his hand. âHe gave me specific instructions not to harm your human pets this time. But that does remind me, Caius will be very interested when he learns that they are still in fact human. Perhaps heâll decide to visit.â
âThe date is set,â Alice told Jane. That was news to me, but I tried to hide my surprise. I knew it wasnât exactly true for me, but I couldnât be sure about Bella. Maybe they had set a date. Maybe they were just exaggerating the truth. I tried not to think about it.
Janeâs smile faded  just slightly, but her eye never left Carlisle. âIt was nice to meet you as well, Carlisle- Iâd thought Aro was exaggerating. Well, until we meet again.â
I was so lost by her comment, but Carlisle nodded.
She sounded bored again. âTake care of that, Felix⊠I want to go home.â
âDonât watch,â Edward whispered. Carlisle pulled me into him so I was facing away. It didnât stop me from gasping when I heard him break her apart. I held my breath again when the new smoke hit my nose.
When I looked around again, Jane and the others were gone.
Edward took Bella off of her feet again before she could collapse. She curled into him but didnât say anything. Alice went with them to the house while the others agreed to make sure everything was cleared up.Â
Carlisle watched after them for a long moment before asking me if I thought I could make it home without passing out.
I wasnât certain but I nodded anyway. He told me it would probably be best to keep my eyes closed.
He carried me the entire way home. I was immensely grateful just to be in his arms. I couldn't tell how bad I was shaking. I wouldn't have been able to walk home if I tried, not that he would have let me, anyway.
When we got to our home, Alice and Bella went to Alice's room to get Bella cleaned up. Edward went to Carlisle's office to gather medical supplies while Carlisle looked over my head. Edwards original assessment had been right, I didn't need stitches, but Carlisle still wanted to clean it and keep an eye on my symptoms.Â
âYou definitely have a concussion.â He made me follow his flashlight with my eyes again. âBut it doesn't seem to be getting worse. I don't suspect there is any internal bleeding.â
He kissed me over and over. He promised me it was really and truly over. He promised he would return home quickly- that he just had to check on Jacob, he had to reset his bones. Even I winced at that but I couldn't remember the last time I'd spoken.
He helped me lay out on the couch with my feet propped up by multiple pillows. âJust in case,â I nodded. âRosalie will be here to check on you in a bit,â I nodded. âStay like this for as long as you can manage.â I nodded one more time.Â
He dropped a blanket over me; It smelled like him. I smiled softly at him. He pressed a quick kiss to my forehead.
âI love you, Y/nâ I nodded, he chuckled.
Just a minute later, Edward came downstairs and all of the pain on his face broke my heart. I found a little courage and said his name.Â
He froze, Carlisle froze too. They both looked at me. My voice was shallow but I spoke as clear as I could, âIt doesn't have to be this hard, Edward.â
âI-â He tried.
I didn't let him. âNo, just listen.â It was hard to speak, but I had to say it since it seemed no one else would. âIt doesn't have to be either or. You don't have to choose. Neither does Bella. It doesn't have to be this cheesy vampire vs werewolf cliche. You can choose to just be happy.â
This time he looked out the window, towards the woods. My eyes filled with tears. He let my words sink in.
âJust don't close any doors. And don't let them close any doors. Let yourselves be happy.â
He nodded once, mumbled a thanks, then left.
Carlisle watched after him for a moment. I caught his attention and said, âI'll have about a million questions when you get back.âÂ
âI'm sure you will.â
I whispered, âI love you.â He smiled softly at me before following his son.
I layed there in silence content with just letting the time pass when Rosalie got home. She sighed and sat on the floor in front of me.Â
âThank you, Y/n.â Her voice was clear and perfect. âGet some rest.âÂ
I didnât sleep. I donât think I could have if I tried, but I let my eyes close and just breathed.
Carlisle came home a few hours later. He helped me sit up, while keeping the blanket around my shoulders. He checked my eyes with his flashlight, and once he was satisfied with my condition he helped me to my feet.
It was then and only then that I was allowed to do normal human things. I drank water, had a snack, and went to the bathroom. All completely mundane things and yet it didnât feel real. I couldnât believe it was real. I wondered what everyone else was doing- how they were coping.
Carlisle was watching me as I stared out the window above the sink. Even though he had told me a hundred times before, I had to ask, âItâs really over?â
He softened and stepped closer to me. âIt is.â
âHmmâŠâ was all I managed. I ran the water over the plate I used in the sink. I just watched it run. It was normal, despite the fact that it didnât feel normal at all. After a while he delicately reached around me and shut off the water.Â
I watched the last few drops as they fell. He held my chin between his finger and thumb and turned my face towards him. I could tell he was checking my pupils. It made me laugh. He smiled too.
âCan we go to bed now?â I asked in between giggles.
He checked his watch, like he wasnât sure how much time had passed. Then he nodded, âI think thatâs a good idea.â
I laughed even more when he lifted me into his arms and carried me to our room. We laid in our bed facing each other, absorbing the familiar feeling of home that surrounded us. I was again covered in the heavy blanket from before, though now it was mostly between us.Â
âI think I'm okay.â I whispered.
âYou don't have to beâŠâ he whispered in response. âNo one expects you to be okay right now.â
âI know.â And I did. I had been through a lot- we'd all been through so much, and at that very moment, we were okay.
I woke the next morning to the sun coming through the trees- really warm sun, filling the room with light and dancing off his skin. I stretched. He kissed my temple just below the bandage.
âHow are you feeling this morning, Cara?â His voice was soft and I could tell he was assessing me again.Â
âAlive.â I answered, honestly. I couldn't tell much, but I was alive. I smiled at him and kissed him. He melted into me. He kissed me back, but it wasn't as passionate as we normally were. I think he was still afraid I was breakable, worried he'd hurt me. I tried to prove him wrong by kissing him harder.
And I think it worked because when I parted my lips, he deepened the kiss. He still followed my lead, but he pushed his hand into my hair and pulled me closer to him. I could have stayed there all day- could have kissed him until the sun sunk back down below the trees, but my thoughts circled back to the day before.
âI have questions.â I reminded him.
He chuckled and gave me space to sit up. âPlease ask away.â
I didn't think he could have been fully prepared, but I tried to start easy. âIs Aro in love with you?â His mouth fell open, I reworded my question so it wasnât completely unhinged. âItâs just the way they all talk about him, and your time with him. It feels like thereâs history there. And yesterday Jane was all âI thought Aro was exaggeratingâ and I donât even know what that could mean-â
âIf Iâm being honest, I donât either. Aro has always been⊠infatuated with me. I wouldnât call it love, but he- heâs always had an obsession with things he didnât understand. Or, in my case, things he couldnât control.
âWhen I found them, I was at a very low point in my new life, but I had one consistent habit he couldnât train out. He tried several ways to get me to break, but I never did. He was obsessed, it went on for years, I left before it could really break him. To answer your question, history, yes. Love, no.â
I nodded, slowly taking in what he had said. âHe wants Alice and Edward⊠Shouldnât we be worried that heâll want you too?â
âHe wants Alice and Edward for their powers. I am not gifted in a way that would benefit him in the long run. If he had any remaining interest in me, It would just be to keep me as a pet.â The thoughts I had at his words were wild, I kept them to myself for his sake.
âSlight⊠topic shift. The girl yesterday, BreeâŠâ I saw the discomfort on his face, I wouldnât press the topic too much. I knew he had just wanted to save her. But my question wasnât about his choices on the battlefield. âWhen Jane looked at her and she started screaming⊠What was happening?â I still wasnât sure I wanted to know, but the words were out before I could think better of them.
âJane is gifted. Though her talents are more harmful than those in our family. She can manipulate someoneâs mind to inflict terrible pain.â Even he winced as he said it.
âAnd she was specifically told not to use that⊠power on me and Bella?â As grateful as I was for the order, I didnât understand it.
âThat surprised me too. Her gifts donât work on Bella-â
âLike Edward canât read her mind?â I asked.
He nodded. âNeither can Aro. She seems more or less immune to any of our gifts that affect her mind. Jane doesnât actually harm you, it just makes you think youâre in pain.â
I had to weigh his words in my head. âAnd you think that her powers would work on me?â
âThereâs no way to be certain, but I think Aro asked her not to try just in case, to keep a bit of peace between us.â
âI donât think I get it thoughâŠâ I laid back, dramatically. My questions just begged more questions. I was tired again already. âWhatâs the difference?â
âBella has always been safe inside her own head, whereas you seem more physically safe from us. Jasper's powers work for Bella, but not for you. He physically manipulates the emotions of people around him, but he canât with you. Alice seeâs how people's decisions affect the path theyâre on, but she canât see your decisions, just how they influence other peoples.
âItâs just a theory, but it will be interesting to see how it develops. If you both become vampires, you both may have your own gifts to add to our family.â
That flowed perfectly into my next question. âAlice said the date was set?â
He ran a soothing hand down my arm. âMost of that was embellished, but Bella decided that it could wait a few more months. Through me, she has seen flashes of you as a vampire, but itâs never set in stone. I believe theyâre working on forming a more solid plan for Bella since-â
Cutting him off, I heard Aliceâs delighted scream all the way from our room. The sound made me sit up right. The world spun a little as alarms sounded off in my head. Carlisle sat forward slowly, wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my shoulder.
âItâs alright, Dove.â He chuckled, âAlice is just excited because Bella is letting her plan her wedding.â
âWedding?â His words didnât help my panic much. I checked the date on my phone, suddenly afraid that Iâd slept much longer than I thought. âWhat did I miss?â
He laughed, âThey kept a good secret. Edward asked a while ago, but Bella only agreed the night before the fight. Bella has apparently decided this morning to allow Alice full planning privileges.â
âOhâŠâ
âEverythings fine.â He assured me.
âOh.â I said again, still processing.
âThereâs coffee downstairs.â He grinned at me and pushed my hair behind my ear.
âThank god.â I didnât have the energy to ask more questions anyway.
We didnât hurry downstairs. I didnât hurry to make my coffee. I kept getting distracted by kissing him. He was more than happy to oblige.
We were still in the kitchen by the time Alice was leading Bella through the house and towards her room. She was already talking about fabrics and designers. Bella waved sheepishly at me as they drifted up the stairs. I laughed and turned to face Carlisle.
âShe already has a dress?â
âSheâs very excited.â He passed me my coffee and I took a long drink. It was warm and it helped in ways I didnât know I needed. I took another sip. âIâm sure Alice will let you help plan. If you wanted.â
I held up my hands âIâm good! Alice has it handled, Iâm sure.â
He laughed, âShe does. Though you might be the only one who can rein her in if she goes too far. Bellaâs tastes are a bit more subtle than AliceâsâŠâ
That made me laugh. âJust a bit.â I agreed. âOur dad is going to freak.â I took another sip of my coffee.
âYou could probably help there too.â He smirked and I rolled my eyes, though I knew he was probably right. âThat is, if you support them.â
I was caught off guard and a little confused. âWhat do you mean?â
âYou havenât given your opinion on their marriage.â He clarified. âIn fact, youâve never really shared your opinion on marriage at all.â
I guess I hadnât really considered it. âOh⊠Iâve never really been around marriages to form an opinion.â I told him. âIâm not against it- like my dad might be. And I do think theyâre quite young⊠but I guess⊠When you know, you know.â I smiled at him and his eyes lit up.
He was on me in half a second, holding me to him and pressed against the counter. My hands were in his hair. Where he was delicate this morning, he now burned with passion.
I completely melted. Only to be interrupted again by Alice.
âY/n!â She was suddenly in the kitchen with us, but unphased by the state of us. âYou have to go with me to Seattle! We have to get dresses made!â
Carlisle braced his forehead on my shoulder and I threw my head back laughing.
Here it is! Almost!! This is the Preface to the Eclipse Reader insert fic that I again, have been promising for far far too long. The rest of the chapters will be up, hopefully soon.
Summery- I was completely overwhelmed with this looming dread. This wasnât just about Bella anymore. Though that was bad enough, this involved me now. Despite how often Edward disregarded my safety and despite how desperately Carlisle tried to protect me from this;
My life was in danger.
It was never going to end was it?
Word Count- 3207
Warning- Uhhh this is just the preface. There really aren't any warnings yet. But I'll let you know.
Notes from me- My name is Claire and September 3rd is my birthday! I wanted very much to post, at the very least this part today. SO! I finished writing the whole book. I still have a lot of typing and editing to do but I do have a very close date set. This is only the Preface. I can't wait for you guys to see the rest.
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When Carlisle surprised me with a trip to Ireland, I didnât know what to expect exactly. I got to his house on a clear afternoon and he wasnât in his usual spot by the door to greet me. In his place were four fully packed suitcases.
âCarlisle?â I didnât have to yell, I knew he heard me, and yet, no answer came. I moved to study the suitcases. I read his name and address on one tag and my name and his address on the other. In the front pocket were our passports, though I couldnât recall ever getting a passport made. With a soft laugh, I asked just loud enough that I knew he could hear me, âCarlisle, what is all of this?â
And then his arms were around my waist. I felt his cool breath on the crook of my neck, and could hear the smile in his voice as he whispered âYou said you want to see the world. I promised I would show you.â He placed delicate kisses to my pulse point as I looked inside the passport.Â
All of the information was mine, the photo was from my ID photo. Even knowing that this wasnât made entirely legally, I still turned to him and couldnât help but smile when I saw the grin on his own lips. His hands turned with me and rested on my hips.
âI didnât mean we had to go right now. HowâŠ? How did you do all of this?â
His smile didnât falter, âDo you really want to know?â
âNoâŠ, But-â
He laughed. âAlice packed the bags. I⊠handled the rest of it.â
âI wonât ask you to elaborate. My dad is the sheriff, so it's probably better that I donât know about the broken laws.â I draped my arms over his shoulders and ran my fingers through his hair. âWhere are we going?â
He grinned again. I would do absolutely anything he wanted when he smiled at me like that. âI havenât paid for anything, yet, but I was thinking we could go to Ireland. Iâve got some friends there I havenât seen in a while. I would love to introduce you, but-â
âThey wouldn't approve.â It came out so casually. I knew very well that there were few vampires who abstained from human blood the way his family managed, and even fewer who kept in human company. I was hardly fazed.Â
He nodded, âTheyâd make an attempt, but they do not have the same level of control⊠even if it wasn't on purposeâŠâ And then he let the conversation drift back to just Ireland, clearly less casual about his friends eating me than I was. âThere are beautiful castle hotels that we can stay in with gorgeous views⊠and I thought, it might be nice to get away for a week. Just the two of us.ân
I had to admit it did sound very enticing. Not to mention how persuasive the way he kissed my neck up to my jawline up to my lips was.
 The trip was perfect. We spent so much time doing completely average tourist things, but we also found time for the ânot-so-averageâ tourist things; just a lot of alone time together. Some things, you only get to do because your boyfriend is a 300 something year old vampire.Â
The idea of the experiment was brought to my attention a few days into our trip. Here, since there wouldnât be any other trace of me to cause distraction, we could test Edwards theory that I couldnât be tracked. This was cause for much debate in the Cullen house because they knew me and they knew how to look for me. Carlisle believed that he could track me solely based on scent. He believed he wouldnât lose control and eat me in the process.
Which is precisely how I ended up hidden deep inside a âsmallâ patch of Irish woods. I wasnât exactly lost, I walked for roughly an hour in one direction hoping to lose the vampire, but not the way back. I kissed Carlisle goodbye two hours before he would set out to find me. I ran out of energy pretty early and then hiked for a bit more.Â
The woods here werenât unlike the woods at home. I could navigate them well enough but it was still exhausting to hike through them with little to no paths. Eventually I gave up and found a fallen tree to sit on. I figured since I was out here anyway, I might as well get some writing done.
With the return of the Cullens, my poems became less edgy and existential and flowed into something more peaceful and beautiful. It became the poetry of someone who was content with their life and was excited to see what came next.Â
However, it was incredibly hard to focus with the knowledge of just how alone I really was. Instead of putting pen to paper I let myself become absorbed in the woods around me. The wind in the trees, the chirping of birds, it all kept my focus. While I could recognize the anxiety I felt, it was also very serene here. Maybe I could just push the panic aside knowing that any second, he would be with me again.
Then the woods around me seemed to still and I smiled at the open page before me and wrote the first six words that filled my head.
âThe silent comfort of being foundâ
I wasnât scared. I didnât hear him at all, but he didnât frighten me as his arms wrapped around my waist. But to be fair, I had been expecting him. I felt his lips grace my neck and the sound I made only encouraged him to kiss me more.
âI found you, Dove.â He whispered in my ear.
âI knew you would.â I hadnât intended to sound so light but he made me feel like I could float away. I leaned back into him, relying more on him than the log. He didn't budge.
âI think Edward might have the right idea though,â He said in between kisses. The confusion in his voice almost made me turn to look at him but I didnât want to interrupt the attention. âI couldnât track you on scent alone. I knew Iâd find you, but⊠at times it was like youâd never been there at all. But I felt pulled to you all the same.â
I couldnât help the way I melted into him, I turned just enough to rest my forehead on his chest; he continued to kiss my neck and only pulled back to look me in the eyes. âI think Iâd be able to find you wherever you went, though I would be interested to see if Edward could track you.âÂ
I felt a soft chill up my spine at the idea. âYou wouldnât let him.â I pointed out.
âNo, I wouldnât.â He kissed my cheek and pushed my hair out of my face. None of his family had the control he had. If any other vampire tracked me out here, I wouldnât make it home.Â
When I looked into his eyes, they were still bright and golden. There wasnât even the smallest trace of instability.
I just wanted to kiss him and forget about everything for a while. Life was chaotic and he made me feel grounded- even when I was âlostâ in a foreign forest. He sighed and rested his forehead on mine. âItâs getting late⊠I should get you back to the room.â
âAre you going out tonight?â I would never try to stop him from seeing his friends. Of course I wanted him to see his friends, I just didnât love the idea of being alone. It would only be a few hours. I could handle it. I had a feeling he knew how I felt anyway and thatâs why he hadnât gone yet. I wasnât about to make it worse.
âI might.â He placed a delicate kiss to my nose, I giggled. âSiobhan might come looking for me if I donât visit soon, since she knows Iâm here. I can stay with you until you fall asleep, you wonât even know Iâm gone.â
I doubted that, but I played it off. âI can handle that.â I kissed him quickly to reassure him. âCarry me?â
âOf course, Cara.â I grinned at him and put my notebook back in my bag. As soon as I was ready, and without saying a word, Carlisle lifted me with ease into his arms. He carried me out of the woods so much faster than it took me to get in there, I almost thought I hadnât gotten that far.
He slowed and we broke through the treeline at the back of the hotel. There were a few couples and families sitting in the yard enjoying picnics and watching the stars.
I had to hold back my laughter as he set me down. I whispered so that only he could hear me, âThat couple totally thinks we just had sex back thereâŠâ
He laughed, placed a kiss to my hair, and threw his arm over my shoulder. In response, he whispered. âI am far too much of a gentleman to just take you against the first flat surface in the middle of a forest.â As he walked, he grinned and I couldnât take my eyes off him. He leaned in and breathed, âI will not be able to say the same, once we are back in the room.â
I shivered at his words. Iâm sure the blush that heated my face confirmed what they were thinking, even though it wasnât actually true. I hid my face in his shoulder as we walked.Â
When we got on the elevator he kissed me like he fully intended to keep to his word. I hardly noticed when it opened on our floor. Luckily he did, and even more luckily, there wasnât anyone waiting to use the elevator.
He walked backwards and led me towards our room. He swept me off my feet again before we even reached the door. Once we were inside, and the door was firmly shut and locked behind us, he sat me on the first available table and made me forget my own name.
We lost a few hours. We took a shower and he made me food as I sat on the counter watching him cook. He let me fall asleep on his chest as he read War and Peace . I didnât notice when he kissed my forehead, or told me he loved me. I didnât notice when he left or when he came back.Â
~~
I donât think I could get used to the peace I felt there. Carlisle drove me to a beach on a very cloudy day, as the sun was setting. The water was cold but I stood in the ocean and let the waves crash around my feet. I let him spin me around as we danced to the sound of it all. I let myself get lost in all the love I felt for him.
I twirled out as far as our joined arms could stretch and he spun me back in. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders. He kissed my ear.
âYouâre so beautiful.â He whispered and I probably wouldnât have heard it if he wasnât right by my ear. He leaned back and cupped my cheek with his hand. I almost didnât notice the coolness anymore.Â
He studied my face, his thumb brushing across my cheekbone. He looked into my eyes like he was trying to memorize their color. He spoke again, though I could hardly make it out. âSo beautiful.â
I leaned up and kissed him and he met me halfway. His hand moved from my cheek to lift my chin. When we eventually broke apart I smiled up at him.
âYou know I love you, right?â I asked.
He laughed at me, âI would certainly hope so.â He placed a soft kiss on my forehead before adding, âI love you, Y/n.â
It took a lot of sweet talking to convince me to get out of the ocean and to go back to the room.Â
~~Â
Despite how much I really did not want to, we had to fly home eventually, rushed only slightly by a frantic call from Alice. Apparently, Victoria would be passing through Forks and Alice thought theyâd have a pretty good chance of catching her this time. However, they werenât going to tell Bella, and she demanded that Edward go to Jacksonville with her. With Edward out, our family was now, not only down in numbers, but also down one mind reader who could hear her before the rest of them could, so Alice was frantic.Â
Of course they could still rely on Alice's visions, but with the wolves hunting too, things could get missed. I wondered if it would be safer if we just told Bella what was going on. I wanted to tell her what was going on, but I knew she would probably use herself as bait if she knew.Â
If she knew though, we could convince her to take Dad to Jacksonville and Edward could stay and fight with the rest of his family. I think weâd still fly home though. I would never ask Carlisle to not stand with his family, and he wouldnât feel comfortable leaving them to defend themselves. I hoped it wouldnât come to a fight anyway.
Victoria was alone, and revenge hungry. Maybe they could take her out quickly, and then it would all be over.
We caught a flight out of Ireland at nearly 1 in the morning, after Alice called. We made it through security and to our gate with 30 minutes to spare. I was ridiculously tired, given the time. I knew I had to at least board the plane before I passed out. Which I found increasingly harder the longer I sat with my head on his shoulder.
âY/n?â His voice was soft and he elongated each letter of my name.
âHmm?â I didnât have the energy to really answer, but I did lift my head to look at his face.
His gaze met mine and he wore a delicate smile. âWhere would you like to travel next?â
Confused by his spontaneous question, I asked, âYou want to start planning our next vacation before weâre even home?â He laughed and shrugged.
âSeemed as good a time as any. If only to help you stay awake.â I yawn on cue, as if to prove his point.
âOkay, okay!â I couldnât help but laugh with him. I took a second to think about it before sighing. âPart of me wants to fly off somewhere warm and secluded, but another part of me thinks that⊠maybe we should stay home for a bit.â I could see the confusion flash across his features, âI just mean- Dads been getting on to me about getting back to a ânormalâ lifeâ I put air quotes around the words.
I continued, âMaybe, if I get a job, he'll settle a bit. And- related but kind of a side note- Bella is going to graduate soon and thenâŠâ I couldnât bring myself to finish the thought.
His face softened, âI understand, Cara.âÂ
âI want to travel more with you. Once some of the dust settles.â I put emphasis behind my words and lifted my hand to caress his cheek. He placed a kiss against my palm.
âThat sounds like a good plan.â I broke eye contact with him to yawn, pulling my hand back to cover it. He chuckled, âYou can sleep on the plane. I donât think they will let me carry you on if youâre unconscious.â
I sighed dramatically, âBut this flight is only an hour and a half. Itâs hardly worth it. Then weâll be in London for 3 hours before we get on another plane.â
He raised an eyebrow while listening to my reasoning, âYou can sleep on that one too, you know.â
â Oooor I could stay up for the first flight, spend extra time talking to you, then sleep for all of the second flight.â I matched his expression, a huge smile shining through the exhaustion on my face.
He didnât seem convinced, âCan you stay up for nearly five more hours?â
âIs that a challenge?â
âNo-âÂ
âBecause I accept!â We didnât stop laughing even as he kissed me and when we boarded the plane I ordered a hot coffee. I looked him in the eyes as I took the first sip, sending us both into another fit of giggles. We were still laughing as the plane took off.
I stayed awake during the first flight just fine. I drank two cups of coffee and I had to keep talking. Though Carlisle didnât seem to mind. I spent most of my time trying to convince him that Howlâs Moving Castle was a better book than War and Peace . He, of course, respectfully disagreed, but said he would give Howlâs Moving Castle a chance. I celebrated the win for at least getting that. I wasnât all that serious anyway, but the debate kept me awake.
Now, getting off the plane proved significantly harder than expected. I could hardly drag myself through the airport. I could already feel the jetlag pulling me down and we hadnât even changed time zones yet. We stopped at a shop and I got a soda, hoping to only stay awake long enough to get on the next flight. I kissed him every chance I got, mostly to keep myself busy; but also, it was quickly becoming one of my favorite things to do.
Kissing Carlisle Cullen in a busy airport was definitely up there with: kissing him in the rain, or in the woods of Ireland, or on the cliff by his house. All I wanted to do was kiss him. He was always more than happy to oblige.
When we were finally on our flight home, I rested my head on his shoulder and pulled the travel blanket over us. He squeezed my hand.
âWhatâs the plan?â I asked, my voice heavy with exhaustion.Â
âWe get you home,â He kissed my head for emphasis. âThen this weekend, Edward will keep Bella safe in Jacksonville. The others have arranged a party of sorts on the reservation- some kind of sporting event. Which should keep your father busy⊠and we think it would be best if you stayed down there as well, despite how much I wish I could keep you with me.â
I yawned and he chuckled into my hair. âSounds like a very safe plan.â
âWeâve all worked very hard to make sure it is. Iâll spend forever ensuring your safety.â I would have kissed him if I had the energy to lift my head.Â
âAt least until Iâm like youâŠâ I could feel the sleep washing over me. I allowed my eyes to close. He kissed my hair again and rested his chin on my head.
âProbably even then.â I felt it, more than I heard it, as I finally drifted off to sleep.