I want to hate you. I want to not care. I want to not be sobbing until I fall asleep. I want to be able to eat and function. Instead of crying. I donโt wish this kind of pain on anyone. It feels like Iโm dying. I want to die. Iโm screaming for help. But the one person I need isnโt here anymore. And as much as I want to be mad. Iโm just in pain.














