#thoughtless thoughts

I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

No apology would ever be enough to tell you how resentful I am to what I did to you. 

You are everything someone could ask for: patient, understanding, fun, caring, humble and so many other things. You always put other people before yourself - you  always put me before yourself. You always cared for my happiness.You have always been supportive to everything I wanted. You had seen me on my worst yet treated me like I was the best thing that ever happened to you. You’ve been with me through my highest highs and my lowest lows.

All these and I still chose to break your heart: unintentionally and intentionally. While you’re ready to give me the whole world, I was not prepared to give you one thing - assurance. Believe it or not, you are special to me. Truly. But I was young and immature and messy.

It is all my fault. You have done everything right and none wrong. Do not blame yourself for whatever had happened between us, to what I have done.

I wish for your happiness. I wish you find the person who would give back all the love you gave. I wish you all the good in the world. You deserve the world and nothing less.

You will always have a special place in my heart. Thank you for showing me what love is like. And I’m sorry for not loving you the way you should be loved.