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I want to say that I don't care that we aren't friends anymore but I really, really do.

I'm sorry I pushed you away and I'm sorry I never got to apologizing because I don't think it's my fault neither was it yours.

We grew apart and you stopped trying and so I did too.

And all these times I said I was just "tired" it was not a lack of sleep but rather lack of hope, that left when you did.

Guysssssss Im so sorry for being busy all the time. Too busy to skype/tinychat with Jeah, too busy to go to Auie's house or visit her in school, too busy to laag with myka or kia. Is it my fault for being busy all the time? If you think so, Im sorry. You guys know Im the responsible type, and I always prioritze work/studies. But that doesnt mean that you guys arent important to me too. Yes, I do have free time but we just cant find the right timing to bond with each other. 

Auie, in case you were wondering why I found time to visit Gabbie, we really actually needed to see each other because she had to pay me for the napoleones she made me buy for her in Bacolod. And we actually planned to go to CDU today but her class ends at 2:30 and your class resumes at 3 (right?). Plus, my mom didnt want me to go to CDU cause it's too far. Btw, we have moved already! You guys should sleepover, and we can talk to Jeah through Skype :)

Speaking of Jeah, yeah Auie's right...You shouldn't really worry much about not being here cause we people here dont even see each other that often. :( 

And just a little update about my college life...I'm actually having fun. But, not the kind of fun I had when we were all together in highschool. Nothing like highschool.

I miss you guys. Hope you are doing well. And auie, if you feel lonely during class, you can call me. I'll answer if I can :) My lunch break is from 12-1:30. 

Okay guys, tomorrow's the day. Tomorrow's the day where we head off to college. Tomorrow's the day where we wake up for school, put on a totally different outfit, a totally different uniform, where we put on something new & not the same shit we wore for 4 years. Tomorrow's the day where were gonna get lost & get late cause we were looking for our classroom. Tomorrow's the day where we're gonna meet new people, new guys & pro'ly new friends but most of all tomorrow's the day where we're no longer gonna meet each other in the carpool, or shriek & hug when we walk in the classroom, where we decide whether we go down to the canteen for recess or just go during lunch, where we're not gonna back bite the teachers we hate or make hand signals in the classroom. Tomorrow's the day where we're gonna be separated by schools, by distance & by courses. This is it, no more turning back. We lived our 4 years & we must admit it was on hell of a fucking roller coaster ride, we've had our ups & downs, the loopty-loops & the twirls. Now we're gonna wake up, put on a series of different uniforms & learn different subject & have different schedules, now we're off to find a new adventure, a new beginning & a new life. It's great that's all happening but I fear that new people, new schools, new uniforms & new subjects might changed the old things. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I fear that we're gonna fade out, we're just gonna be a memory, an old adventure, we're gonna be forgotten. I know it feels a lot like it but we gotta try. We can't give up. We can't forget us, we can't let new things in life ruin the old things we love. Promise me, promise me we'll do our best. Promise me that new people aren't gonna replace old one's but instead make it unique, make it antique by combining new w/ old. It's one way of making it work. The more the merrier right? I hope... but we're gonna get through this. We're gonna beat the odds. 

This is it, our solo adventure begins the moment our eyes open up tomorrow morning. This is it, it's time we get independent, it's time we fight a new war but this time we're going alone but in our hearts we know we never are. 

I love you guys. :*