#they asked

Thomas: I guess it was that day I came home to a cold, empty house, devoid of light and love, and I knew then that my sorrows would only grow.

Sybbie: Thomas, this is the saddest life story I have ever heard! And you haven't even covered the teen years!

George : Oh, I'm sure it gets better!

“My Lord,” Hector asked. The title of respect still hadn’t fallen from his lips, despite the shift in their relationship; however, he put care in emphasizing the first word. “Do you remember the day I knelt in front of you, to pledge my loyalty to you?”

The chain on the collar that adorned Lord Dracula's neck clinked as he nodded. “As if it were yesterday, sir. To think that I saw you grow from such a tiny child to the confident man in front of me.”

Lord Dracula still stood tall, loomed on Hector like a giant. He used to look terrifying to young Hector, a true monster sprung from his deepest nightmares. He held unimaginable power in the palm of his hand, and he commanded the authority of all the evil in the world.

Yet, he gave all of that to Hector, the only creature the Dark Lord bowed his head for.

Blood rushed down to his groin at the mere thought.

“That’s right. Back then, I offered myself into your hands. Now…” Hector pulled on the leash, as hard as he could; he did not have the strength to make the vampire fall, but he didn’t need to force him. Besides, to Hector’s delight, Lord Dracula appreciated roughness more than he expected. “I think it’s time you returned the favor.”

He spread his bare legs, fully aware of the effect that his skin had on the vampire. And as expected Lord Dracula’s eyes grew wide and his nostrils flared like a dog in front of a slab of meat. He did that to his Lord.

“Hah!” Still, as if to grab on a shred of self-control, he barked a laugh. “I have never knelt for anyone.”

Hector smirked. Lord Dracula was so endearing when he pretended to protest.

“Because you were waiting for me, Lord Dracula,” he growled. “So do it.”

That did it. Slowly, with the reverence of a Christian in a church, Lord Dracula dropped to his knees, still a giant compared to Hector, and yet so weak, so fragile in his hands.

You know, I have been sitting in my home, on my lovely comfortable sofa that I fought for years to get, in front of my 6 year old laptop that took me a year to save for, next to my partner who has suffered even more than I- trying to decide how to answer this 'exactly'. When someone invalidates your struggles like this, what do you say exactly? I thought about being sarcastic and angry, but honestly that's what you want, isn't it Anon? You'd like to be able to say you boiled the blood of someone who doesn't think like you. But you didn't. What you did was make yourself look like an ass hole. Or you would have, had you actually been brave enough to face me for real. Hiding behind the grey icon further proves you to be a coward with no facts to back yourself up. Otherwise you'd be in here with studies trying to change my mind, not asking me to provide you with your own proof.

You have come into my inbox and, like all your other Endo friends, told me my suffering was nothing. Because that's what the existence of Endos means. If anyone can will a System into existence, why can't we just decide not to have them? Why not just stop ruining our lives. Oh yeah, because we literally can't. You and your lot all seem to have this idea that Systemhood is some great advantage. How about last month when one of our Alters misplaced $900 that we needed to eat, which took us more than a day to find? Things like that happen regularly, because it's not an advantage. IT IS AN INJURY. Systems have BRAIN INJURIES. Trauma of any kind is in fact an injury, so what you're saying is 'LOL You have a broken arm? That looks fun let me do that!" Because you want attention and you can't get it any other way then butting into someone else's space.

I would bother linking you to the numerous studies done by professionals in their field who obviously don't recognise Endos because they aren't a real thing, but that's not what you were asking for. You were using that line as a gotcha, but it's not. It's just funny. Your transphobic use of that term, 'Sysmed' is disgusting and your lack of education is frankly laughable. There are no studies on endos because there are no professionals in their field who believe in them. Because they don't exist beyond your online presence.

I find it truthfully hilarious that you call us 'terminally online' when that is they ONLY thing that could lead to Endos even having a space or voice in the first place. Your liberalism is cute, but radical inclusivity is a danger to medical conditions. After all, what you're basically proposing is that we eliminate diagnostic criteria. So you can have PTSD without trauma and spiritually identify as having ASPD. All absolutely disgusting and ableist.

And for the final point, I've never fakeclaimed anyone. I have gone out of my way to make sure that I don't directly fake claim a single person, even Endo Systems. The designation of Endogenic is an online term that means nothing in the medical industry. I do not claim Endos aren't Systems, I claim Endogenic as a term and designation isn't valid or real. It's not. And no amount of your complaining will change science. I have exactly 'ONE' post wherein I implied someone COULD be faking and I was careful to say that I desperately hoped what they were saying was coming across wrong because I'm not here to fakeclaim. I'm pretty clear about why I don't interact with Endos and this entire post is a pretty good summery of why.

I understand that we are all just trying to figure ourselves out, but there are actual medical journals with REAL information in them, and you all want to read some Carrd about how Endos are valid because they say they are. If any of you bothered to learn a single thing about how to do proper research, this wouldn't even be a problem. But just like the boomers on facebook, you read ONE thing that SOUNDS plausible and it's a fact for life. It's honestly so pathetic. Tumblr users all like to pretend we're better, but people like this clearly aren't. It would take an hour on google with any sort of critical thinking to know the entire Endo community is full of crap. But no, you'd rather just dive in to unsourced anecdotes and ignore evidence.