#theapexofallalphas

I don’t know Sam. I think I may have figured it out. First things first, I’ve had to disconnect myself from the expectations of others. That was difficult at first. Whenever I would text my mother telling her I had good news, she would get so excited because she thought I got cast in some movie or something. That my big break had finally arrived. I know how to create the big break though. I think lol. Ignore everyone. Stop caring. And live life impulsively. It’s extremely healthy to see things through to fruition. If a project gets started it should be finished, that way you can take the knowledge that you learned while working on the project with you for later. But in relation to what we want out of life. Which is essentially just flourishing and freedom. We can do it all on impulse. This, I am quite sure. You and I...we want to climb the ranks of Mount Olympus, together. We have to say fuck everyone else. There is no right way to get to where we’re going. Movement is the key. Movement forward. Taking bigger and bigger strides. But what I’m saying is, I’m not sure we have to have a plan. And I’m also not sure we have to keep an eye on how everyone else is going around doing it. Fuck ‘em. You’re Samuel Medina. And I’m Shaun Fury. The goal wasn’t for me to write some epic novel. Or create some masterpiece of a film. The goal was for me to live a life deserving of an artist who produced such master works of art. Where’s the loophole? I’ve been experiencing all this internal struggle because I’ve been trying to force myself to understand what the masterpiece is supposed to be. But what if there is no masterpiece? What if that is the loophole? How can I convince the public to let me be Shaun Fury? What do I have to do? I’ve got the answer Sam. Keep being me. It will all come to a head eventually. As long as we stay focused. The lions will escape their cage.

Who are the real superheroes? Trying to understand escapism isn't overly difficult. And now it's just at the point where the chasm between the consumer and the creator gets even wider. We are no longer angry at the consumer. We are grateful for them. Ayn Rand's teachings no longer apply to this brave new world of enlightenment. What does apply? Aldous Huxley was closer to the truth. Wondering if there's a reason to rebel against it. The Creator. The Almighty Creator. Love isn't necessary. This is wrong though. I don't like the idea of simulating love in creative content to substitute for the lack of love in everyday life. Still though, this is being written from my perspective. A man who is in love with a woman two thousand miles away. You really fucked up with that one huh? I suppose so. Who are the real superheroes?

Who are the real heroes? Humans are inherently good. It is my belief. But again, this is through my perspective. Bubbling, bubbling, bubbling. Stormy weather. Hurricanes. World changer. Over. Over. Over. Now what? Superhero. Superhuman. Superstar. The greatest man to have ever existed. Go to sleep. The power lies within. Go to sleep. I can dodge bullets. I don't need to. I know everything. Power lies within.

I say it's a video game. I say we're living inside a computer. It's a densely populated MMORPG. Filled with six billion users. Most of them are so boring. We can't all be superstars. We can't all be Alphas. We can't all be Shaun Fury. What am I angry? My hands are shaking. I've turned myself into nature itself. Nature with a consciousness. I feel the wind. I see the wires connecting everything to everything else. I play with these wires at my leisure. It is a gigantic sandbox. I never got bored of those. Nicholas would finish the game, play around after the story mode was completed. Maybe attempt to finish all the side missions. I didn't bother with that. I would just turn on the game and wander about. Whichever way the wind blew. And I would always have superpowers. And I would use them more often than not. How is this any different from real life? It isn't.

Now I have a desire to seek out other superhumans. I want them to get it though. As well as I get it. If I have to breed them, then so be it. This is my calling. I'm lonely. Frankenstein needed a bride. I want a tribe of people around me. I will breed them if I must. I want a lover. I will fuck her and she will enjoy it. I am The Enlightened One. I am dead. I am immortal. I am the human spirit.

My will shall be carried out.

Something brilliant. A dog who can play the piano is still a dog. Maybe that dog gets a couple more camera phones shoved in his face than the average run of the mill pup but it doesn't change the fundamental, inescapable truth. It's a canine...Hollywood. These day jobs will break me if I let them. That has always, always, always been the motivation to create the art. Always. My number one dream in life was to get paid for being me. It can be done. It has been done. There are multiple accounts. What are we willing to do to get out of this cage?

Anything. Anything. Anything.

We have to consider the circumstances. As of now, my artistic skills include acting and writing. Two separate career paths that can prove to be quite profitable if manipulated just the right way. Some ability as a producer, thanks to my high level of emotional intelligence. Course, the emotional intelligence aids in all categories. That's kinda the best thing I have going for me. Besides the looks. Ugh. I have to win. I just have to. Let's continue to think. If you write a novel...It will have to be awesome. It will have to be beautiful. It will have to be profound. It will have to be mind-altering. Funny how that last one sounds the easiest feat to accomplish. I'm not that great of a writer. The topics that I am able to write about are extremely limited. I can't paint environments. I can't transport an individual to a different time, place, and setting. "Have you tried to yet Shaun?" Well, no not really, but my point is, David Foster Wallace is a much better writer than I ever will be. The only thing that I have to offer that stands out from other writers, other artists for that matter, is a new and different perspective on the world. I am the one and only Shaun Fury. We are in the process of making that actually mean something. It's not enough for you to think it does. It's not enough for the people around you to value your worth. In order to quit your day job you must convince the world that what you say and what you think matters. And you have to do this without a PhD in shit. Because you're a stubborn jackass who likes to refer to himself as an entrepreneurial spirit who's only enterprise is upgrading brain frequencies for fucking free! Can't really show results can you? Since there are no results to show. You fucking idiot. Let me take a deep breath.

What would we write? It would have to be a novel of some kind. And it would have to be stream of consciousness since that is the only form of writing I'm practiced at. The question is, is the story about Shaun Fury or everyone else? Or both? I don't think you can expect to get the type of win you want from just writing a book about yourself no matter how interesting you think you might be. You aren't relatable. Nobody understands the way you think. I could try explaining it...Ayn Rand wrote "The Romantic Manifesto" before she ever wrote "The Fountainhead" or "Atlas Shrugged". I could write a book that's nothing but philosophy and prose and get away with it. That's a real brand of literature. And then write the masterpiece a decade later. All I need is something to use as a launch pad. It can be anything. A fucking commercial for Christ's sake. Anything. Youtube. A viral fucking picture of my dick for crying out loud. (Don't do that, it didn't work the first time, it definitely won't work the second time). Plus, the whole persona of Shaun Fury is this guy who is on a different level from the rest of the human race right? What are some of the names people refer to me as? Alien. Monster. Not human. Alpha. Eccentric genius. Mad Scientist. The leader of leaders. Whatever we do has to reflect these definitions only in the most positive light. No matter what a book will have to be written. Period. There's no way I'm getting around that fact. You're going to have to determine the contents of the first book and soon. I'm sick of this spot. I want the world already. I want it fucking now.

The book needs to say everything. It needs to put your greatness to bed so that it just becomes a matter of fact. And from that point you should be able to coast with your acting career. You'll get the roles that you want. The deep thinkers. The leaders. The heroes. The character studies. Ugh. The career I have in mind for you. Denzel Washington will look like...Martin Lawrence by the time I'm done with you. But we have to write the novel first Fury. We have to. We need it to be profound and poetic and naked and raw and powerful and shocking and epic and rapturous. And every other big word I can't think of. 

The theme of your story is a lion in a cage isn't it? The lion wants to get out of the cage and roam the world freely. What does the lion see while he sits in his cage and gnaws at the bars? What information does he retain about his foolish captors? We have to get out of this cage Shaun Fury. The world is waiting for us to explore it. It's waiting. And your existence will never be rewarded. Nas had to make "Illmatic." Jay-Z had to make "Reasonable Doubt." Kanye had to make "College Dropout." We need your album debut and we need it to include the very essence of your soul. It must be a classic. Listen to me. Listen to me. I know you think there are other ways out of this cage, I know you think modeling serves as a viable option. And your acting ability does not go unnoticed...by you and a few others. You have to do something epic to get the world's attention. Only then will you be free from the tedium of normal life. Please hear me Fury. You work graveyard shift as a security guard. Now is the time to come up with a piece of literature that will change your life.

"I'm just worried that I'm trying to do too much at one time." That's not what you're worried about. You're worried about failing. You're worried about putting your all into this literature and no one giving a shit. That's okay. It's okay to have fears. But you have a goal Shaun Fury. You want to see the world. And be free in it. Do everything you must to make that dream a reality. However long it takes. Otherwise you are not The Apex Of All Alphas. You are not the greatest artist of all time. You are not the smartest man on the planet.

You are not Shaun Fury.

What's so interesting about the study of human behavior is that it would appear that we unconsciously take on the characteristics of so many of the creatures we happen to share this planet with. I think of the lemming. We are special in that we have the ability to conduct logical reasoning and critical thinking inside our minds. But if an individual chooses to dismiss the one conclusive trait that separates us from all other animals then they are in all sense of the term a dumb animal. A mammal walking on two feet.

That being said it still isn't difficult in the slightest to find compassion for these creatures. Why have I chose this study? It could've been fish. Or birds. I could've been an ornithologist. Can't believe I spelled that right. Instead I chose people. I think it's because deep down I truly do believe that we can grow into something more than we are currently. The same can not be said with any other animal. Not from what I've observed. Not to the same degree at least. But this fight has been going on for how long? Long before I ever came into existence. The Christ figure. Whom I continue to compare myself to. I wonder. How similar were his thoughts next to mine? I know that I am pure. What I don't know is that I am purely good. But who said God is supposed to be? Trying to stay away from breaking down the definition of good, in contrast to evil. Conway truly has said it best. Do whatever you want to yourself. Do whatever you want to other people as long as there is consent from said people. And that's morality in a nutshell. 

That's too cookie cutter for me. It bores me. Which is why I'm James Kirk and he's Spock. Sure his logic might be sound, but the logic doesn't make for that exciting of an experience. And I like discoveries! We have to dig deeper than that in order to satisfy this urge that is within me.

One degree of separation keeps coming to mind. It's strange to contemplate. In some ways it feels as if it's already been accomplished. In fact I know that it has. But it's general now. One individual is the center of the universe. Everyone outside of that individual extends from the center. The people in his/her life represent archetypes. There can be a hundred different archetypes for one individual depending upon how complex the person is. I like complex. In relation to people, I love complexities. They actually kind of turn me on for some reason. But that's another story. So the basic archetypes as we know include, the Mother, the Father, the Teacher, The Friend, The Brother, The Sister, The Lover, The Idol, The Pet, The Boss, The Fan, The Master...I could go on but I shan't. So the individual doesn't stay an individual anymore, he becomes nothing more than an experience. Hmm...an experience of life. An existence. That's not such a bad thing. Especially when we consider that every human has the conscious ability to modulate the "Epicness" of their experience of their own existence. What kind of universe does one want to live in? A boring one? Or a totally cool badass one? Now is when we talk about fear and pre-programming. Which is what prevents most people from fucking with the default settings of their game. Existence is the game. Keep up. The science behind it uses vocabulary like vibratory frequencies and sub-conscious belief systems. This is where I come into play. This is why my story is so crucial to creating that next bump in human evolution.

The one degree of separation can not relate to just humanity. It has to relate to everything...There it is. Let that sink in for a moment. Everything in the universe is connected by the very same threads that connect one human to another. We have the ability to consciously pull on these threads to cause effects in reality. Less science. More epicness. The most powerful being in the universe. In the universe. Is on planet earth. Earth must be treated like a giant sandbox. The largest open-world video game ever conceived of. Some scientologist already made this analogy I believe. But he was a scientologist so who gives a shit what he had to say?...It always comes back to the center. We have to show by your example, that we are all capable of being the most powerful being in the universe. And that can only be shown through...Da, da, da, daaa. Causality. The ripple. The butterfly effect. Whatever you want to call it. Because, we have to keep it based in this reality, otherwise I'm nothing more than a science fiction writer. "Lucy" is science fiction. "Shaun Fury" is speculative fiction. Gives us pause. Makes us think. Most people after finishing the movie "Lucy" got out of their seats threw out their popcorn and made comments about the cool special effects. Some people stated how cool it would be to have 100% of your brain power. The same thing goes for Bradley Cooper's movie "Limitless". But we're smarter now. And we all know that it's bullshit. We know the power lies in self belief. We know it. So how do you express the most powerful being in the universe? Cause and effect. Action and reaction. By doing it this way, we create a human character that lives amongst us. One that not only can be aspired to, but can be reached. Superman came from another planet. Shaun Fury was born on this one. Anything he can do, the rest of the human race can do. The trick lies in self belief........

Which always leads us back to square one. What can you do Shaun Fury? Besides conceptualize profound ideas on the nature of human potential which is all essentially useless. I'm not even sure that movies are relevant anymore. Course, I recently just became a supergenius so I haven't really bothered to ask the normal human their take on film and moviestars in general. There is still an air of worship around celebrities. Which annoys me to no end. Really really bothers me. If I can just execute this concept properly then celebrities will forever be a thing of the past. We have to do it right though. And the unavoidable truth is, Shaun Fury must become a celebrity himself in order to eradicate the notion that celebrities are worth our time, attention and what's worse our minds. And we can't tell a story based in the realm of speculative fiction without having real life events that took place that parallel. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I still have to become a moviestar. Fuck. There's no way around it...It'll give me something to do. Ultimate perfection is the name of the game right?

So many things. So many things I must do. Onward.