#teeth issues

AM I A FUCKING DOG WHY DO I FEEL THE CONSTANT NEED TO CHEW SMTH💔💔 and NO. im not hungry. Its not the need to eat or smth i need smth to CHEW. Not gum, its too soft. I need a damn dog toy istg dude my teeth are aching for pressure. I gnaw in bones and plastic like a newborn im gonna cry

Some of it is almost certainly hypochondria, but I can't stop feeling teeth pains now. They're all on the right side of my mouth, but I can't tell if they're signs of cavities or if they're signs I've hurt my teeth via clenching or if I'm having wisdom teeth growing in again or what. I can't tell what's going on with my teeth. I really can't tell, because it's not like I have a dentist on call to reassure me or explain to me what's going on, honestly. I hate the teeth pains, but the mystery of it all is what makes me feel ten times worse than anything else.

The teeth that are sore seem to be in the molar region. I almost just felt a fear run down my spine that I was having a tooth grow loose and I really don't want that. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I'm really easily worked up about this stuff. Especially because one of teeth really does feel sore. I think I'm convincing myself I have a cavity with each passing moment, and I don't like that at all.

If I do have a cavity, I don't know how I'll cope with that. Last time I had one was when I was around ten years old. And at that time, I dealt with it really freaking poorly. They had to pull one or more of my teeth out. I agreed to take anaesthesia, because the idea of being awake while getting dental work of that extreme nature done really scared me. What I never counted on was how the anaesthetic tasted, however. So I woke up from being under. All my problems had been fixed.

But that taste… godawful. It tasted like powered strawberry or something, and it made me feel sick. I wanted to go home immediately because I felt absolutely miserable. But they wouldn't let me go home. So I had a massive meltdown, and I was inconsolable with rage. My mom tried to calm me down, and I lashed out. I kicked and punched and led a full assault.

My teeth are sore still. Up in the top right molar area, I think. And yet I still don't know if it's a cavity or if it's all in my own head. No matter what I do here, I feel like I can't win. But it's all stressful for me regardless. I keep getting in my own head, and I just feel miserable because of all this stuff.

I'm scared of having dental work done again. Especially since this old anaesthetic memory lives in my head. It's an old source of trauma, and I don't feel ready to face the fears head on and go down for another anaesthetic based dental operation. But I'm slowly getting myself prepped for the absolute worst case scenarios. I can't even think of a best case scenario here. I want to think of one, but I just can't. I just can't. It's really frustrating, and I'm getting myself all sweaty and hot and bothered again. I hate it.

I've been so worked up about this dental work thing that I haven't mentioned my consistent sore throats and dry throats and everything. For like the past few days now, I'd had a dry throat and a sore throat on a semi-frequent basis. I think it began on…I want to say last tuesday? I don't fully remember. But since it began, I've had a sore throat either every day or every other day. And frankly, I'm getting sick of feeling pains in my throat. The pains aren't enough to stop me talking, they're just enough to make me feel uncomfortable with my voice. And in a weird way, that almost feels just as bad to me.

I'm sure there's more paragraphs I could be writing now. But it's about an hour before bedtime for me when I'm writing this. I mainly wrote this because I felt I hadn't written anything sufficiently in detail to discuss my two newest issues. Because these two things are my two newest and biggest issues lately. The stomach pains are still there to a point, I won't lie. But this has helped eclipse a lot of stuff for me. I really, really don't like it. I just wish I knew where all these problems were coming from, and I wish i just knew how to deal with it.

I think I'd legitimately feel better if I just knew what was causing all this. If I knew it was a cavity, I'd be really unhappy. But at least I'd know what it is. Right now I have no clue what it is, and that lack of knowledge is so frustrating for me. It's really, really frustrating.

I don't have a lot to say about this. It's just very frustrating for me. Same as my congestion and all my other issues. I hate it. My dad goes to work tonight, and yet I think I'll be more nervous when he goes back to working his full hours.

I discovered one of the issues is that I don't like biting into vegetables with my front teeth.

I love gnawing meat and cartilage off bones, but vegetables feel uncomfortable.

Solution:I have to cut it into pieces and chew vegetables with my molars.

Also raw vegetables generally feel less nice to chew, it grates on the teeth wrong.

Solution: mainly eat cooked vegetables or make raw vegetable juice/smoothies.

'kay, so I dropped my bike today because there's no way to call it a crash. but I definitely at shit when I hit the ground. wear your helmets ladies and gents. my noggin and brain is fine but I don't know if that's from the helmet or the way I fell. I fell fkng face first. my visor and the fact that the helmet is like 3inch thick saved my face but I sure as hell hit my mouth HARD. you know that feeling when your dog jumps up and hits you square in the teeth? well, I fell down and skidded a bit doing that. I only have the tiniest visible cut on my lip, it feels puffier than it is but the thing that hurts and fucking HURTS is my front left top tooth. the gum is bruised. like fuck this hurts. and how do I tell a person that I dropped my bike and now my fucking GUMS hurt? like that's a joke. it is hilarious. but it hurts.