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Loss of 5lbs today

Loss of 15.5lbs over four weeks

Starting weight: 250.5lbs or 113.6kg

Current weight: 235lbs or 106.6 kg

I was in a wee bit of shock when it comes to this loss as when I work on nights I don’t eat as much and speed is hard work.

At night time, fruit and vegetables are the last thing you’re body wants. I get acidy and have terrible indigestion. My body at night time seems to want heavy processed carbohydrates which do not equal weight loss!!

I have another weekend of night but I’m hoping to be more prepared this time and eat food for breakfast and dinner that’s full of speed!

My little boy has been unwell these last two days so I haven’t posted as much but hopefully I will be posting a bit more!

I also got slimmer of the week!! Whoop 😁

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Alright blokes, let's talk bloke stuff. You know, that whole needing-a-pee-all-the-time thing? Yeah, that wasn't fun. Getting up at night more than a newborn and that constant feeling like your bits are full – not a good time. Cutting back on the beers? Nah, that ain't happening! So, I gave these Prostadine pills a go, and let me tell ya, they've been a right turn-around.

Dodgy Chemicals? Nah, This is Natural

What I liked about Prostadine is that it's all natural. Fancy names like saw palmetto and somethin' called beta-sitosterol – apparently good for your man bits. Wasn't sure if it'd be some magic potion, but a natural option sounded alright to me.

Less Midnight Emergencies, More Sleep!

Here's the deal: after a few weeks on these Prostadine pills, those midnight loo sprints became way less frequent. Let me tell you, a decent night's sleep is a bloody miracle! But it wasn't just that. Going for a pee felt smoother, and that constant "gotta go" feeling started to bugger off.

Feeling Like I'm in Charge Again

Prostadine's made me feel like I'm back in control downstairs, you know what I mean? Taking care of myself feels good, and hey, it even lets me enjoy a few more beers with the lads without worrying about the consequences!

Not a Magic Fix, But Does the Job

Listen up, I ain't saying Prostadine is some magic wand. Took a few weeks to really feel the difference, and everyone's body's a bit different, right? But for me, it's been a real help in sorting out this whole prostate thing.

Worth a Bloke's Try? You Bet!

My last post looked like a really good day didn’t it? The kind of day where you eat like everyone else but can still lose weight! This is what the day really looked like ...

Breakfast: 100g of pudding rice made with 600mls alpro coconut milk, blueberries and a cup of tea with semi skimmed milk.

Lunch: Three pieces of bacon with the fat on, four poached eggs, two pieces of BBGood bread with low fat spread and a cup of tea with semi skimmed milk.

Dinner: Pork roast, carrots with honey, broccoli, cauliflower, frylight roast potatoes with meat juices gravy and half of the pork roast crackling.

I snacked on peaches, melon, blueberries, raw carrots and two tray bake cakes.

HEA: semi skimmed milk

HEB: Brennan’s be good bread 2 slices

SYNS:

Alpro coconut milk 600mls 6 Bacon 6 Pork crackling 9 Meat juice gravy 8 Honey 2.5 Tray bake cake x 2 11

TOTAL: 42.5

Today;plainly because I am greedy, I have used almost three days worth of syns. I didn’t eat a lot of high synned food. If you put it all on a plate it looks relatively insignificant, but it could mess up my chances of a loss this week.

So! How do I pull it back? I have three days so I plan to use as few syns as possibly for the rest of the week and be extra vigilant when measuring out my healthy extras.

How many times have you conned yourself like I could have today in my previous post? How many times have you gotten to the scales and had a disappointing loss, a maintain or a gain and said you have no idea? Is this why?

My answer to this ... yes. Be honest with yourself.

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Not only was this my first week back at slimming world, this was my first week back at work after being on maternity leave. I figured if my life is changing, a whole heap of change should happen at the same time. Kind of a start as I mean to go on type thing!

I left the group on Wednesday 4th January and went straight to Tesco and did a food shop having written in my meal planner in the car park after group what I was going to cook and eat all week.

I bypassed the yummies, the booze and the easy to snack on bad for you foods and piled the trolley full of fruit, veg, lean meat, passata by the bucketful, herbs and spices galore, frozen fruit, frozen veg and I used my syn checker on some quick and easy bits for the freezer for those days where everything goes wrong and you have no more than 10 minutes to make dinner!

After rearranging my freezer, fridge and cupboards for all the groceries I got to work chopping veg for soup, curry and pasta all to be portioned into tubs for the freezer. I chopped melon, peeled oranges and put them into snack size tubs for the three of us for throughout the week. I made 12 tubs of overnight oats for he hubby and I and then cleaned the huge mess I’d made.

I no more wanted to sit down to a plate of pasta after all that. I wanted a Chinese - but I had my curry full of veg with chips from the hot air fryer and a G&L (lemonade ... don’t like tonic 🤢) and really enjoyed it.

Being back at work this week was hard. I didn’t know if my uniforms would fit - thankfully they do but they trousers are digging into my mum tum and I’m convinced my arse will split the seam and my flowery granny pants will be on display to my patients and colleagues. Not a good look! Work itself was good, it’s like riding a bike - you never forget.

I miss my son terribly, people underestimate how being away from your child for 15 hours a day can affect you. They talk about it ‘being good to get separation’ and yes to a point that is good, but being told that doesn’t help anyone. I could go the rest of my life and not hear those words again and I will have heard them too many times.

Everyone is different, I love being with my son. If I didn’t have to work, I probably would still be a nurse as I love my job, but I wouldn’t work as much for as long hours. I’m not one of those people who can’t wait to have a night away from their child, I don’t think I ever will be. Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with feeling like that, but that’s not me and that’s ok too.

My husband is feeling the strain with me being back at work. He has to do breakfast time and then bath and bed time when I am on day shifts and if I’m on a weekend it can be a long day. He also has to pick up the slack with the washing and ironing etc and it’ll take a bit of time for us all to adjust. I’m just hoping my night shift tired and grumpiness that rears it’s head like a fire breathing dragon when something isn’t done properly doesn’t take over giving him an excuse to run for the hills!

Anyway back to the being fat bit ... or the trying not to be fat bit! I was on plan 80% for the rest of the week. I know, I said no excuses. I’m human, I’m weak, I’m a disaster. BUT, I knew by Sunday 7th January that I needed to buck up my ideas or it’d be the same as all the other times and I don’t want that. I worked a long day Monday and was tempted by chocolate, biscuits, chips from the canteen, cakes baked by one of the doctors! I had none. I ate my overnight oats, my orange, my curry, brown rice and speed veg for lunch, carrot sticks and cucumber, speed soup and a tub of melon and by the time I got home at 2130 I was still stuffed and felt great! No sneaky toast and cheese or pancakes and butter with a cup of tea this week!

Weighed in again on Thursday 11th and I lost 5 1/2 pound so now I am 17 stone 7 pound. I was delighted as I had secretly hoped for 5 and I exceeded that. Just have to keep it up now!

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Hi! I guess I’ll tell you some things about me. I’m just like you. I’m a normal person who works hard, over indulges, stress eats, thinks ‘oh it’s ok, I’ll start again tomorrow’ and then doesn’t. I didn’t wake up one morning and wonder what happened to me. I have seen it happen every day and ignored it. Complained about it and made half hearted attempts to resolve it. Life gets in the way - no it doesn’t. It’s easier to give up and pretend I’m ok with being fat than it is to actually show some restraint.

At the end of 2016, I became a mother. I was told I’d never have kids and one day I feel sick and then continue to for a week or so and hey ho positive pregnancy test! It was the scariest and best moment of my life to that point.

Before I got pregnant, I was the lowest weight I had been in 5 years. I made great changes and was seeing results. I had never seen results of my attempts to lose weight before, and then as a result of my weight loss I was able to become a mum, something I have wanted more than anything my whole life.

Since having my son, I have gone back to my lazy, excuse filled ways. I know why, it was easier. Life has been hard over the last year and with everything else that’s gone on, my half assed attempts at weigh loss have probably been one of the few things I could have actually taken ownership of and been in control but I didn’t.

On Wednesday 3rd January I walked into my slimming world class all on my own, no baby just me; and I said to the consultant, ‘This is my time. This time, I’m doing this and I’m doing it for me.’, and I meant it.

I weighed in at 17 stone 12 1/2 pounds.

I have never been this heavy except for when I was pregnant. I smiled and held in the tears. I disgusted myself, I still do.

The slimming world consultant started her class and went through the program as it was the start of a new year. I know the program inside out and back to front. I love the slimming world program, it’s easy to follow, you can eat what you want. I sat there and I decided that I will NEVER see 17 stone 12 1/2 on those scales again. Not even if I get pregnant again in the future.

This is my #SlimmingWorld journey as a #fulltimemummy #fulltimenurse and #fulltimewife. This is me #takingbackcontrol.

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