#t1fl

Don’t mind me—just obliterating the fat people are lazy stereotype out here. I do it for the people. 💁🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #FAT #FreedomAfterTrauma #fromtheashes #T1FL #ThisOneFuckingLife #trauma #traumasurvivor #metoo #selflove #selfcare #selfesteem #loveyourself #InspirationalQuotes #WordsOfWisdom #HAES #beauty #abusesurvivor #loveyouboo #doyouboo #embracemovement #healthateverysize #ditchthediet #antidiet #antidietculture (at Noboleis Venures LLC) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn96t4EnKCz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=znxukyxtyrmz

I am a whole human woman. One who chose to have children. I am passionate about people with like-minded values raising children to hopefully take ownership of them & see & engage the world in healthier ways, to change our culture for good. . Part of motherhood is hardship. This gorgeous baby girl was born with a kidney the size of a can of Coke, or a 9-12 year old child, in her little 9 pound body. Her other kidney has issues, too. Theoretically in a few years she’ll have one fully healthy kidney, but we don’t know. . What I have learned about myself is that I will fight for my children, and that I will be honest with myself and them that sometimes life is just hard. There aren’t reasons, nothing you could have done to prevent it. . Through multiple surgeries for myself & her do you know what is so sad? I worried about my body. I was thrilled when I lost nearly 30lbs right after she was born; so spiraled toward depression when those same 30 pounds jumped back on inexplicably in the subsequent weeks. . I wanted my baby to be okay, yes. But also I worried about the size & gravitational pull of my body toward the earth. As though it carried equal emotional weight to the well-being and survival of my child. . That’s fucked up. Really, really fucked up. . This is why my message is for body love. This is why I fight. . #haes #iweigh #t1fl #bodyimage #bodypositive #bodyposi #bodypositivity #fuckyourbeautystandards #effyourbeautystandards #kidneywarrior #health #healthateverysize #bodyimagemovement #loveyourself #loveyourbody #lovethebodyyoulivein https://www.instagram.com/p/BnkBaoBg1DT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=pwj5fuzudxzq

This is my 200th post!! I know the most important and significant thing I can say to commemorate the occasion is this: . Most of us spend our entire lives in pursuit of weight loss for a body that we can feel at peace in. . I will tell you again: it’s love that you’re chasing. Our culture lies & says that we can earn love by being beautiful. Women in particular can earn love by having an ideal body. . This lie is fucking killing us. . Your body’s shape reaching some nebulous ideal will never earn love; if affection is based on an ideal then it isn’t love. . Your body does desire love. . Your body does deserve love. . Only YOU can freely love your body. . Listen to her. Your body is desperately begging you to simply embrace her & respond, “I love you. You can rest. You can BE. We’re good, my Love.” . You have this one fucking life. One body. Love her. . #T1FL #thisonefuckinglife #selflove #selfcare #selfcaresunday #bodypositivity #wholeness #loveyourself #HAES #fuckfatphobia #endbodyhatred #dietculture #antidietculture #fuckdietculture #goldenconfidence #embrace #bodylove https://www.instagram.com/p/Bng_3ccHAlo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=liwtuvtp7obj

I 👸🏻 AM 👸🏼 JUST 👸🏽 SAYIN’ 👸🏾 LOVES 👸🏿 #bodypeace #freedomfire #T1FL #loveyourself #bodypeace #bodylove #bodyimage #bodyimagemovement #fuckyourbeautystandards #humanisbeautiful #youarebeautiful #HAES #intuitiveeating #feedyourbody #loveyourbody #moveyourbody #restyourbody #bodypositivity #endfatphobia #fatphobia #fatphobiakills #fatphobiaisbullshit #selflove #selflovequotes #but #sexisgreat #sexisgreatbut https://www.instagram.com/p/BnXC_UnAf5U/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1pv6c4793ga08

This is FACT.⠀ ⠀ #smashthepatriarchy #crushmisogyny #T1FL #dietculture #HAES #intuitiveeating #yourlifealreadystarted #thisonefuckinglife #loveyourself #lovethebodyyoulivein #nobeforeandafter #womenwhowrite #feminism #fatphobia #fatshaming https://www.instagram.com/p/BnM7vQFA5-F/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1o88v0v8lg5fc

This is a post entitled “A Monday Ode to My Mini-me” 🐼 Today Juliet got her hair cut to make her kindergarten ready, got to hang with the fabulously fierce hair bae of our family, had a little treat at Whole Foods (as did her decidedly less social brother), and then the little video from 2 years ago is a prelude to how I just found her in her bed. 🐼 I am a sleep princess. I need my cooling pillow, my body pillow, a very specific side position with my face at the edge of the pillow and nothing in front of my face and Jason literally not allowed to even breathe in my direction, all thanks to consistent violation of my body and space repeatedly from assault to psychological torment as a child. I also need multiple Rx PTSD meds to be able to fall asleep and not have horrifically graphic and terrifying nightmares that haunt me like memories all day long after I awake. And with all of that I barely sleep and it’s a lot of why I feel like shit all of the time. It makes sense why. My body is in the constant state of high-adrenaline-at-war so I don’t sleep and when I do I don’t sleep well. 🐼 Jules not so much. Just look at that lovely wild little girl. And when I think about how, for the various forms of crap we all face, Juliet has a damned good mama and loving & safe home I don’t even have the ability to ascribe words to the relief I feel. 🐼 Miracles happen. Not the god kind, because who the fuck knows how and why and if you think you do know it’s based on theory no matter how certain you think you are. You can @ me all you want, but you can’t change my mind. But there IS proof that they happen, and these photos are littered with the evidence. 🐼 Alive. & free to live this one fucking life, this girl of my own body is. 🤱🏻👧🏼 🐼 #T1FL #mamas #minime #daughters #whoruntheworld #girls #haircut #girlhair #style #mamadaughter #miracleshappen #glorious #aliveandfree #lovelyandwild #lovely #wild #fierce #fabulous #kindergarten

I’m still reeling from the events that led me to write “Wholeness in Action.” ~ Allow me to sound very 70s commune here for a moment—learning to know and listen to my body, to respect her, so we can be whole is a TRIP. It’s not easy. ~ It’s simple, but not easy. It’s intuitive, but not natural. An entire lifetime of bullying my body and then resenting her when she doesn’t respond is a relationship that takes a lot of effort to repair. ~ BUT. It’s worth it and my only regret is that I spent 36.5 years doing the old ugly ways. ~ If you haven’t, read WIA and the posts before it. This series has my soul both on fire and breathing in sweet, cool meadow air after a lifetime in the desert. ~ [link in profile, or go to TamiLHagglund.com and search for “wholeness in action” if you’re late to the party.] ~ #PTSD #trauma #t1fl #writer #feministwriters #feministwritings #womenwhowrite #brave #courage #thisisme #wholenessinaction #wholeness

Why did I write these words tonight? ~ "I am sobbing as I write this, barely able to see the screen, primal sounds escaping my throat as Body physically releases her agony." ~ Read my latest post to find out. ~ [link in profile, or go to TamiLHagglund.com and search for “wholeness in action” if you’re late to the party.] ~ #PTSD #trauma #t1fl #writer #feministwriters #feministwritings #womenwhowrite #brave #courage #thisisme #wholenessinaction #wholeness